Reader’s Digest

July 12th, 2020

Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone.

6/7 2020

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Well. I had been planning on a goat trip this morning. I did not make it out. Couldn’t fall asleep for a lot of the night. Got pretty depressed and stressed. When I started actually falling asleep I woke up again with a runny tummy and had to do some toilet runs.
I’m kind of just feeling sad and tired. My vision isn’t great either, it gets affected by the lack of sleep.
I guess I’ll give it a little more time, trying to adjust to a proper sleeping schedule. Maybe I’m just not meant for a regular day rythm. I feel better sitting up late and then sleeping late every other day or so. It’s an irregular schedule, but at least I then get enough sleep and I have the freedom to do it, so I don’t know. I just have to make sure not to accidentally sleep for 24-30 hours on a hot summer night/day. It’s still my best guess that that was what happened to me and knocked me out.
But bla bla bla. I’ll see how it goes. I missed the goats today but hopefully I’ll get there soon. Gotta get things sorted out longterm, a week or two of getting adjusted is fine if it gets me to a better place where I can be there for the goats more regularly.
Hope you’re all doing okay out there! Feeling a little disconnected from everythingm, life goats people. Don’t forget about me even if I’m flakey right now!
6/7 2020

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Wonder what the future of superhero movies and comics will be like now that it’s established that Americans can’t survive wearing a mask.
6/7 2020

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Think goat thoughts

6/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. HappY Yogi daY everyone

7/7 2020

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Good goat times today. Managed to get up in the morning and head out, thankfully. Although it was a bit of a dreary day. Around 15C/60F and rain on/off. Managed to get quite soaked on my way home. Let’s hope that doesn’t make me sick(er). Grabbed a hot shower and turned the heat on.
The goats don’t like the rain either of course. I found them all sitting together under the half-roof in the horse field. It’s lovely that they can all sit together. I mean, they still have their little territorial episodes, especially when I’m there with treats and afection to be fought for. But the fact that they can sit together all six of them like that, that makes me happy.
And we got out and ran around in the field for a while during the sunny spells. I’m strill takign it fairly easy, just trying to get back in the hang of things. So far so good.
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Six goats, looks like I hit the jackpot

7/7 2020

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Okay, can you make the rain stop now?

7/7 2020

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Nose 2 nose

7/7 2020

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Hey, let’s get the brain trust together and figure out the best response to a global deadly pandemic.
I know, let’s go through with withdrawing from tthe World Health Organization !
America, the country with the biggest brain in the world.
And you know the average Trump supporter is going to rally round and applaud it because it’s more important to make a park of monuments.
You know, there’s no love or honour or respect for your country or your god if you’re blindly forcing and being forced to kneel or not kneel or salute the flag or the god whatever. It means NOTHING when you want people to not have the choice. What’s your freedom of speech worth if you don’t want people to have the right to protest? Independence day, as long as you follow the rest of the flock to the slaughter. Just blindly follow the commandments and I’m sure you’ll get into heaven on a technicality, I’m pretty sure that’s how god works. BLINDLY FOLLOW TECHNICALITY WTIHOUT COMPASSION AND YOU’RE GOOD.
Ahh, I must be getting better if I’m back to ranting on fb.
I’ll try to stop. I just had to fart this out.
7/7 2020

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More of this, less of that

7/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Hump Day everyone.

8/7 2020

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Been listening a lot to rem lately. That’s good Usually it’s radiohead for the dark cynical mood and rem for the slightly more hopeful or nostalgic mood. Stipe and Yorke, the angel and devil on my shoulders singing me to shipwrick

8/7 2020

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Is Milo and angel or a devil on my shoulder? A boombox bleatbox hip hop nonstop blockrockingbleats tip top trip hop hoofalong holla back goat

8/7 2020

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Religion is the number one cause of suffering, misery, bigotry, hatred, inequality, war and injustice in human history, and the fact that you let your madeup gods cause all this hurt is staggering. [deletes rest of rant] don’t worry, the rich old white men are definitely who Jesus wanted you to follow. We all know Biden and Trump are the fucking shining pillars of compassion and justice..
jesus fucking christ almighty
8/7 2020

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I only believe in goats

8/7 2020

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It’s all goat,
with Lily and Nuller.

8/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Bruce and Clark from 2014.

9/7 2020

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Good goat times today. The weather picked up a bit, warmer and good bit of sun. Almost felt like summer again. Much better for us all. Did some runnning around in the field, and we had some visitors at the fences too. Kids getting leaves for the goats, which they were very appreciative of. Fun for everyone.
Just taking it easy and trying to get back into some kind of swing of things.
9/7 2020

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Catch me in the goat crowd

9/7 2020

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Goats and visitors.

9/7 2020

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Now I am become chocolate, the destroyer of diets
9/7 2020

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Holler, Nuller

9/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Mathilde, Mads and Magnethe from 2005.

10/7 2020

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Ok, I’m feeling shitty so I’m gonna rant to take my mind off it. *spins topic wheel*. Ah, monuments and statues. Here’s my hot take, which I think most people will probably disagree with even the people whomst normally agree with my on the issues. I think statues and monuments are dumb and ugly. All of them. They are big ugly birdshit magnets and they’re a waste of money and space. You don’t need statues and monuments to preserve history. That’s ludicrous. You look at a statue and you already know the history or you don’t. You’re not going to remember or forget historical figures or events based on whether there are statues. That’s what fucking history textbooks are for. That’s what documentaries on pbs are for. That’s what novels and movies and folk stories are for. Statues and monuments don’t preserve history, they glorify people and events and sometimes the glorify people and things that turn out to REALLY not deserve it. But even even if they glorify people and things that deserve to be glorified they’re still dumb. Spend that money on feeding the poor. Use the space to shelter the homeless. I’m not going to forget Hans Christian Andersen if there isn’t a statue of him. And i’m not going to praise some slave owning general just because there’s a statue of him. It’s painfully evident that humans aren’t going to learn from their history anyway, so tear down the damn statues. If you need to keep confederate flags around to remember your history, maybe your history isn’t worth remembering. If you’ren to learn from it then it doesn’t matter anyway.
I don’t have any cake and I feel like someone has to pay for this.
10/7 2020

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It’s a Lily apology, we’re sorry about the post history.

10/7 2020

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Mia and Sky dancing on the table.

10/7 2020

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More like panDUMBic amirite
10/7 2020

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Meditating with Mia and Lily

10/7 2020

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This is how everyone sits at the table, right?

10/7 2020

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we have to go back

10/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Herman from 2014.

11/7 2020

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I’m definitely not going to write anothing about Roger Stone..
tick tick tick tick
11/7 2020

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Good thing uncle is too polite to shake his tailfeather at the camera.

11/7 2020

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Meanwhile, in the sallon the local cowboys are haning out at the bar.

11/7 2020

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Denmark has registered its coldest July morning temperature since the 1990s. Almost down to freezing in places. It’s so cold that I can’t get Danish cucumbers in the supermarket and the tomatoes are garbage.
Also I can’t sleep more more than an hour or two at a time and I think Cthulhu’s landline is down cos I’m not getting any of its calls.
11/7 2020

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Thank you all for bearing with me. I know I’m all over the place right now. Still trying to find my way back to myself. I left a trail of breadcrumbs, but apparently someone ate them… that’s what you get for traveling with a goat posse.
Anyway, sorry if I’m annoying. But in my defence, I have always been annoying. I know strictly speaking that isn’t a defence. But on the other hand, the first such incident occured in

11/7 2020

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Sentient Edam is my premium snapchat username
11/7 2020

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Time for bed soon. Here’s a little Lily for your evening.

12/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Funday everyone.

12/7 2020

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Didn’t have the best of nights. Shortly before bedtime I started having indigestion. Very unpleasant. Also some runny tummy. My own dang fault for not being able to control myself and what I put in my mouth.
It’s cold and I’m feeling tired and off. It’s gonna be a lazy sunday. Hope you’re all doing okay out there.
12/7 2020

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On a more positive note, if you missed this video on Mia’s page then maybe it’ll give you a smile. I love seeing them all six huddled up together. Just try to ignore the speaker, that guy is so annoying. Thank heavens for the mute button.
link: rainy video
12/7 2020

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Good goat thoughts with Milo and Sky.

12/7 2020

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You know what the fun part of indestion is? When you get that ‘heartburn’ thing and it feels like it’s behind your chestplate and you start thinking “is that my lungs? are my lungs hurting? is it covid? am I dying?”.
That’s a great way to spend the night.
“Luckily” I have experienced that heartburn feeling before, not often but enough to recognise what it was.
It’s almost gone now too.

12/7 2020

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It’s pretty clear who’s the boss. Nuller’s the boss.

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That’s all for now.


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Recoveryng

July 5th, 2020

Okay. I am heading to bed. It’s kind of a weird time for me right now. I wonder if I have brain damage. Like, mild. Some people would claim that it wouldn’t make a difference. But to those people I say “who are you and how did you get in my computer?!”. I don’t know. Physically I feel like I’m slowly getting better. It’s really disconcerting to be looking at stuff on my computer and not really remember how I usually do things. The routines that are usually just second nature. Now I feel like I have to relearn them.
Hope you’re all doing okay out there. And hope I can find my way back to my old self, somewhat. The weather is going to cool down in Denmark now, so if it was a heat stroke or something maybe that’ll help.
Thanks for bearing with me. It is comforting to know there are people who care. Love you guys. See yall tomorrow.
29/6 2020

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Hello Facebook. Here I am again. How am I doing? Slightly better. I feel like at least the physical side of things is getting slowly better. But my muscles are still aching in places and there’s still some flossing at the side of my tongue and there’s still a bit of a dazed mental state. So I don’t know.
I as contemplating heading out to see the goats tomorrow to see if that would jolt me back to normal. But the weather forecast says cold and rainy tomorrow. So I’ll have to consider my options. Hey, maybe being out in the rain would hydrate me!
Last night I dreamt that I was David Lynch’s assistant. So yeah that tracks. Everything is weird.
One day at a time I spose.
29/6 2020

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My dad just popped over for a visit. He says it was something we had agreed on, but I don’t remember that… still in my current condition that’d hardly be surprising. It was was nice to see him anyway. He seems to be doing well. Recovering well. Heck he might be feeling better than me right now. I had been toying with the idea of heading out to see the goats tomorrow, but after struggling to be present in the moment while my dad was here I think it may be a little too soon. I’ll probably wait a couple of days more before I go out. I don’t want to go out and then just shut down completely or getting lost.
I’m missing the goats, though. My whole life more or less revolves around them so it’s weird to just… sit around and hurt. Oh well. As long as things are improving, we’ll get there.
29/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Yogi Day, with bonus grandma since we missed Mio Monday yesterday. I’ll try to get back to some goat posting. Hope you’re all doing okay out there. I am still just trying to get back to some kind of normal.

30/6 2020

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Don’t forget to subscribe to me on TikTok, on which I post 10 second videos of me trying to figure out what a TikTok is.
30/6 2020

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Hi. It’s me, your friendly local something or other.
How am I doing?
I don’t… know. I had been tentatively planning to maybe go see the goats today. I wanted to do my thing of sleeping for a really long time. Dream big, then go see goats. But. I only slept for about a couple of hours probably. And then a long time of drifting in and out of sleep.
This happened to me recently you might recall. I was despairing because I couldn’t sleep through hte night. Never more than an hour or two at a time. Am I back to that now?!
I don’t.. know.
I went back and looked at old blog enries, and yeah the tongue thing happened too back when I hurt my back. It’s all such a messy timeline now.. I first hurt my rib. Then when that was getting better, one night I woke up with excruciating back pain. So bad I couldn’t move. That night my tongue was all swollen and bruised. I can only speculate it’s from gnawing my tongue in my sleep because of pain.
Well back then, it was in April right, the pain got better. And eventually I started sleeping better again too. My back was still bad, but only when I exerted it. Only on the long walks to and from the goats. That’s why I got the bus pass. I had started walking back from the gaots again last week, despite it still hurting somewhat. I was starting trying to lose more weight again and my thinking was that even if the walks home were hard on my back, the exercise was good for my weight loss project. And the pain had goten manageable. But maybe that was my mistake? I only just thought of this possibility now and I don’t know if there’s any chane of it being rue. Maybe walking home put my back out again and that’s why I slept through all of.. thursday was it and why I woke up completely borked and with a messed up tongue. Maybe?! So maybe now I have to go through some time of not sleepign properly again? My back isn’t really hurting more than usual though. My muscles in my whole body were feeling like they’d been overused.. but that’s started to get better. In fact I did today go out and go shopping. I wasn’t feelign good enough to go goating, but good enough to go down the shopping mall around the corner. It went …ok.
But I’m still not all there in my head. It’s like I need to relearn things. I have a lot of routines and shortcuts, things I do to help because of my bad vision and other problems. And all that stuff that I had learned to do by second nature, now I have to think about it again.
I’t so.. fuckign weird. And i don’t know if it’s something I’m going to recover from. Or if I’m like literally ..brain damaged. Or demented. Or just. Dazed. Argh. Obviously not being able to sleep through for more than a couple of hours does not help my mental state. Am I going to get better or is this my descent into madness?
I haven’t seen the goats since last Wednesday. There’s a part of me that worries I won’t be able to handle seeing them anymore. That I’m no longer functioning correctly. But maybe I’ll try going out to see them. Maybe it will help clear my head.
I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know. I’m sorry for rambling on. Not that anyoune is still reading. You shouldn’t. I am not sure I’m going to be a lot of fun on here anymore? Maybe I’m permanently broken. Or maybe I acn work my way back. Or maybe I don’t know what I don’t know what I don’t know. Dreams are overlapping reality in my head right now, it’s all blending together.
Sorry I’m all over the place. I’m not sure if I’m going to be ok really. Itll probably take some time. Hope you’re all doing ok. Sorry I’m missing stuff. right now I’m barely there.
1/7 2020

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Thanks everyone for all the comments and concern. Just had a call with my dad too (he’s doing ok, hah maybe better than me right now).
I know I oughta go to the doctor right away, but all the phobias and anxieties make that hard too. I’m going to be taking a day or two to see how it goes. I don’t feel in immediate physical danger. I wonder if i’m in for a period again with only being able to sleep for an hour or two at a time.. that stuff is really hard on the mind.
I think my days of having a ‘flexible’ sleep schedule may be over. I think I’ll have to actually try to be responsible and sleep at night and be up during the day. That is, if I ever get proper sleep again at all.
I’m going to force myself to go to sleep at a proper time tonight. And then I guess I’ll see. If I can sleep normally or not. I’d like to go see the goats tomorrow. But I’m not sure I’ll be ready for that. There’s even a part of me, a small tiny part, that started thinking that maybe my goat days are over. Maybe I don’t have the physical and mental capacity for it anymore…. but then I can’t imagine myself without goats. What would I post about on Facebook?!?
Hah. Sorry rambling. I am in a sleep deprived states and dreams and reality are blurring. Yall know dreams have always been an important part of my life. There’s a crazy part of me that almost likes this state of awareness, because it makes the reams SO close, so real. Even sitting here I feel like I can almost just close my eyes and just step into another world, another dimension. When your sleep gets cut off before the brain processes all it needs to process then the dreamstate is right there. Palpabale.
So anyway. I AM feeling better physically. The muscles. And I beat the sleep problem once already recently. It will probably be alright. I’m just rambling to process the thoughts. Don’t worry too much. If it doesn’t get better I’ll have to seriously consider the doctor. But I feel like I’m physically improving and the rest will follow.
Love you all. Thanks for caring. Happy Canada day and birthdays hope you’re all doing ok. If you see me in a dream, it’s probably me.
1/7 2020

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Okay, I’m going to start shutting down for today and seeing if I can sleep… wish me luck!
I think I’m going to make an effort to try to change my sleep schedule to a more conventional one. I’ve been used to sitting up all night. Basically staying up for a long stretch and then sleeping for a long stretch. STaying up because I’m a night owl and sleeping long stretches because it gave me great dreams. But now that I am again having problems with the sleeping I guess I have to face that maybe I need to be reponsible. And sleep at night and be up at day and hopefully that will work better for me now…
That may lead to some changes in my fb presence.. since I’m on Danish time. If I actually keep a proper sleep schedule I may be less present during my friends’ hours, since a lot of you are Americans or other faroff parts.
Well we’ll see. Right now I just need to get my head straight and get sleep and get actually present in my actual life. Earlier when grabbing something to eat I had to stop and think about where I keep the ketchup. The ketchup that I use almost every day. Cheese on bread with cucumber and a splash of ketchup. I can live off that. But I had to check a couple of cupboards to find the ketchup. I knew where it was. It was just like the mental pathway to it was obscured.
hurting less at least. I had the sleep problem what a month ago or so and it fixed itself. Hopefully this will too. Hopefully I’m almost ready to goat again.
Thank you everyone who is caring and supportive and checking in and everything. I truly appreciate it. Sorry I’m hardheaded about listening to advice etc. If I don’t get better there’ll be a doctor’s visit coming up I’m sure. One day at a time. And now a night. Hooves crossed for sleep.
1/7 2020

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Hello world. Here I am again. So, how did it go last night? Well, I definitely didn’t sleep the whole night straight through. It took me a while to fall asleep and I woke up a couple of tiems at least, I think. But I’m not sure if that was the sleep disorderly kind of ‘can only sleep for 2 hours at a time’. Or if it was just because of the change in schedule, going to bed so early. I figure it will take some adjustment to carry actual sane sleeping hours. And I have to say, I do actually feel a bit more clear-headed this morning. Little less foggy, little more myself. And my body feels a bit stronger too. So hey ho, let’s count our blessings and call it a good first step. I’ll try to hang on to a proper sleep schedule and hope that it takes and helps me have a healthy rhythm.
Still a ways to go, but it’s better to feel better than to feel worse. See, totally clear head! Thanks everyone for the support and suggestions and love. I appreciate that there are people who care about me, when I’m not always good at caring about myself.
Iced cream for lunch? That’s a fair point.
2/7 2020

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Currently editing goat footage from last week, before the meltdown. Now posting goat photo. See, i’m getting my life back on track!
Well, we can hope.
And I hope you’re all doing okay out there. I know it’s a crazy time. On many levels. Like having a world leader recommend less testing so we don’t know how big the pandemic is. That’s almost as dumb as not going to the doctor when you oh wait nevermind!
Hang in there world, hang in there me, hang in there you all everybuddies.


2/7 2020

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Alrightey then. 10 pm, I’m heading to bed. Responsibly early.
Not necessarily planning to go to bed this early every day from now on. But I’ll try to get adjusted to a more healthy sleep schedule. We’ll see. In general I feel like my body and mind is doing better and better, if not yet back to normal. So hey, one day at a time. And this one’s done for now.
See you on the flipside, facebox.
2/7 2020

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Good goat times today. Yes, I made it out of bed in the morning and off to goat town. So good to be back. Hadn’t been there since Wednesday last week. Way too long to be away. It was a bit of a struggle to get up, though. There was a part of me that wanted to stay in bed. And just wait until next week with the goating. But I mean, I can’t leave my goat pals behind. I feel like I’m abandoning them when I stay away so long, even if it’s due to health issues.
How’s the health? Well, I didn’t sleep completely through the night. Still not sure ifi t’s the sleep problem or if it’s just adjusting to a new schedule. I’ve never been good at getting out of bed in the morning…
Other than that, the he head still clearer but not completely clear, the body still stronger but not completely fit. Good enough for force myself to get out but still lots of room for improvement. Now of course the big question is, how will I feel in the morning? Last Wednesday I felt fine after the goating too. And then I ended up in bed for 30 hours and being completely wrecked. I am still not sure if that long sleep was a symptom or cause. But I will make sure to actually set the alarm tomorrow so I don’t accidentally sleep forever again. It’s considerably cooler today, hasn’t even reachd 20C/70F. Maybe the heat was part of the cause last time.
I don’t know, man. We’ll see how it goes. I am tired and my back is hurting, but it’s not too bad. Let’s hope it’ll be ok.
The trip went well. A little wobbly on my legs and I only lasted an hour and a half or so before I started feeling a little dazed. But it was just good to be there. And a relief to see everyone ok. It’s always a little scary to be away… That first headcount when you come back is always a little chilling. Let’s hope everyone will stay in good health.
Me included, I guess. Your perspective changes a bit when stuff like this happens. All the things you were so caught up in seem insignificant. I don’t really want anything. Just no alarms and no surprises.
At least I haven’t lost my talent for blathering on endlessly about nothing.
3/7 2020

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Back where I belong, with whomst to which I belongst. Wait, words are hard.

3/7 2020

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Thanks for saving my spot, kids

3/7 2020

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tldr just rambling about dementia and health, nothing important or interesting.
Someone, sorry can’t remember who, said the other day that since my mind was clearing up it didn’t sound like I had dementia. I hadn’t even thought in that direction, but now that I think about it. That feeling I had a few days ago. I could inagine that being how dementia feels in the beginning. Lack of clarity, lack of self. Feeling of displacement. And things feeling out of reach, mentally. You arrange your life and your stuff and your habits and then suddenly.. you feel like a stranger in your life. I could well imagine that. It’s kind of a scary feeling. Having to think about how to do the things that you’re used to just doing. Like when you forget the name of a celeb. You can picture the face but you can’t put the name to it. Knowing the knowledge is there but not being able to connect the dots. An awful feeling. And I can only imagine how completely devastating it must be when you sink into that completely. I’d rather die, much rather die.
So hey let’s hope it’s nothing like that, that’s going on with me!
My best guess is still dehydation I think. I was out out in the heat with the goats and walked home and then I’m thinking I was knocked out by the heat so I was practically knocked out for 30 hours which dehydrated all my muscles, and my brain I guess?
It’s been a rough year since around April when I hurt my rib. Then my back. Then the sleep disorder. Now this. I don’t know how much of it is connected, all of it or nothing. Like was the back thing a contiunation of the rib thing or were they completely seperate.
Let’s hope I can get the new sleep schedule working. And then just.. keep on keeping on. Like I said earlier, no great ambitions. Just want a quiet life and no surprise. I have no ambition left, I just want to get through the days. If I can make some people happy with the goat postings then that’d be swell and a good purpose. I don’t want to be rich or famous or succesful, I just want to hang out with goats and shoot the sheev on social media. If I can just feel ok then I’ll be ok.
Sorry. Just had to get that off my chest and foggy brain.
3/7 2020

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Rather have another goat photo on top of the timelien than the boring dementia ramble. This is what keeps me (somewhat) sane, allegedly.

3/7 2020

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Alrightey. I’m going to head to bed. In an effort to get adjusted to the new sleep schedule. Wokr in progrees. But I’l lbe happy as long as I don’t wake up feeling horrible again. Hooves crossed. See you on the other side.
3/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy 4th of July to my American friends. Here’s a salute from Peanut, the independence goat.
How am I doing? …ok. I didn’t sleep perfectly through. Only feel like I caught up on the sleep I needed in the last couple of hours, and just barely. But … I’m not feeling worse. My body and mind isn’t feeling broken after the goating yesterday. So.. that’s good. One day at a time.

4/7 2020

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My dad just popped over for a quick visit. Seems like he’s doing very well. Recovering as planned from they surgery. He told me that he’d had a test of balance and strength and the results had been very impressive. The surgery scars are still healing, but the stuff that they were fixing seems to have been succesfully fixed, and his general demeanor seems very fresh and alert, which is good to see.
I’m feeling fairly fresh and clear as well, just tired. But if I can get used to a proper day rhythm that’d be good. Get back to regular exercising and goating, that’d be good enough for me.
4/7 2020

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I love the sight of flapping ears bounding towards me

4/7 2020

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Hokkaido. I am tuning out for tonight. Once again, being good and going to bed early. Hoping the rhythm will catch up with me.
Stay safe out there, enjoy your 4th if that’s a thing where you are. See you tmoro
4/7 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Funday everyone.

5/7 2020

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Once again, you didn’t use enough fireworks to blow up the planet. DISAPPOINTED.
Also, Kanye not.
5/7 2020

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goat your nose

5/7 2020

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Sassy and Nuller. And the lurking Mia.

5/7 2020

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That’s all for now.


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