I have done nothing today. Unless you count hanging out with goats.

Which I do. Me and Mama Vanilje.

Magnethe was grumpy today. Practically attacking me. Good thing I can handle her. There was a lady who came into the goat fold and Magnethe gave her some trouble too. It may be a little mean of me, but that sorta made me happy. Because it means that it’s not me personally that Magnethe has something against. It’s just that she has grown up to be a big, bossy goatlady. Most of the time she’s perfectly nice though. And the lady was okay too.

I don’t know what happened to that snowstorm we were supposed to get. There was a little snow, but not a lot.

And the boys have little horns, not a lot. Just peeking out. They’ll grow soon enough. Just like the boys themselves.

There’s a footie game on tonight. Greece-Denmark. I am not watching it. It’s only a friendly game, they usually suck. And my eyesight is so bad that I can barely see it from my comfy chair. Geez. It can’t be long before I’m completely blind. But that’s okay. Then I’ll be forced to kill myself and I will finally be at peace. You have to look at the bright side.

Sorry. It’s just the frustration. It screams and shouts.

What if not everyone is meant to be loved?

It is hard to have hope when you are hopeless.

Uh oh, I feel teen angst. I thought you were supposed to outgrow that? Oh well. I’m not feeling so great. And my eyesight is worse than ever. But at least it’s bedtime soon.

And I managed to do a little on the exercise bike. It’s been a little while. Due to depression and frustration and other things. But let’s try that again then. Make an effort. And so on.

Sweet dreams.