A Year To Forget About It

March 26th, 2023

Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

20/3 2023

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Good goat times today. A quiet day. Rainy. Not heavy rain, but enough that it was decided by committee that we stayed inside and chewed cud instead of going out and doing stuff.
I need to learn how to chew cud. Or arrange it so my vote counts for 4.
I spent some good time sitting in the chair that Jeanette brought for me. While the goats scuttled around and occasionaly politely inquired if there was a chance of treats. There usually is.
Hopefully th grass is growing.
20/3 2023

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Make it rain.. treats.

20/3 2023

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Oh boy, I am loving my TENS device. It feels so good. Now again, I am not sure if it really helps my back.. pain. I use it while sitting at the computer, and I don’t generally feel pain while sitting at my computer. Not in my back at least. But the massage it gives.. oh yeah. I tried a session at level 14 out of 16 and it felt goood. It fires electrical impulses into your muscles. Or. Something like that. It feels like you’re getting a message by electric fingers. I love it. And today I did feel like my back was less tense when I was outside. It may just be my imagination or placebo effect or randomness. Can’t say for sure it’s improving my general condition. But the shock massage sessions themselves, feel really good.

20/3 2023

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How do humans sit on these things…

20/3 2023

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HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

21/3 2023

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Heh heh. Heh. No I haven’t seen your stash. Heh heh.

21/3 2023

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You know what they say. If you can’t stand the heat in the kitchen… why don’t you just turn it down? It’s the 21st century, there’s temperature controls in most rooms. Just turn it down to a more comfortable level and you’ll be fine.
21/3 2023

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Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

22/3 2023

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There’s gotta be a better way of making an omelette, this is taking forever.

22/3 2023

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I hope today will be a good done. Here’s Medium from 2013.

23/3 2023

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Well, bad family news.
My dad has had two strokes this week.
He’s at home and doing okay under the circumstances. But it’s not good.
He said he’d had ‘strokes’, using the English word. But both times he was rushed to the hospital they apparently didn’t find what was wrong with him or what had happened. it is from his description of what happened and what he felt that they say he’s had strokes. I think the second time it happened when he was at the dementia center place and it sounded like it had been something out of a movie scene, with him collapsing and the other people there keeping him alive while they waited for the ambulance. It is scary. But I guess it’s a good sign that they have let him go home? He’s going to be going back to his doctor and the hospital of course, but for now he is coping. Very tired and weak but at least he’s alive and seems himself, if tired. This week there’s a guy on a podcast I listen to daily who had a stroke and was on lifesupport and it was dicey for him for awhile, although last I heard he was conscious and was recognising family and had most of his memory.. Get well too, Steve. It’s frightening.
But yeah. For now there’s not much to do. He’s going to rest and we’ll see where the doctors take it from here. It’s sad and scary. I felt like he was doing pretty well too, it seemed like the exercise he did at the dementia center was doing him good and he seemed physically better than he’d been in a long time. I hope he didn’t overdo the exercising.
It’s hard to have to face the fact that your parents are real human beings subject to the real consequences of life and all that it has been. I’m sure most people grow up thinking their parents are superheroes who are above it all. But that’s not how it goes. Dad’s birthday is in two weeks. I hope by then he will feel a bit stronger. Two strokes in a few days is a scary thing though, I just hope things don’t get worse.
23/3 2023

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Thank you everyone for the comments about my dad. Hopefully it will be okay. Man, the last couple of months have been poopy. Lots of worries about family and goats. And then my own stuff. Had physical therapy today. Not much progress. Our next appointment we’ll do an evaluation and if there’s no real progress then the physio will refer me back to my doctor for further examination, since he seems to feel there’s not much more he can do. I still feel like.. I haven’t had that much actual physical therapy? But I think going back to my doc is a good step.
I’m just limping along. I feel like my depression and pain are duking it out like that old mechanical toy with the two robots punching each other. Not sure who’s winning.
But thank you all for being there. Love you loves.
23/3 2023

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Think goat thoughts.
Thank you all the for the support and good wishes.

24/3 2023

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Well a little update from my dad. He’s had a couple of scans. He couldn’t remember what they were called, but he was in a couple of machines, so i’m guess it was an mri and something else,, ultrasound or something. But they haven’t really found anything. But his blood pressure has been very high, I think he said it was 200 over something, and it’s still 190 over something, so that and the changes in his brain from the dementia may be to do with it all. Some kind of blood clot or cerebral hemorrhage. He’ll be seeing his doctor on Monday and should probably get some medication for the blood pressure, i don’t know if that’s the blood thinners some of you have talked about.
He sounded a little better today, but obviously still weak and tired. We can only hope for the best for now I guess.
Thank you all again for hte support and caring. I appreciate it. I’m not in the best mental state right now, but just hanging in there too.
Shoutout to my brother for bringing me flourballs (dumplings) from my parents so I can have my soup. I can’t get them in my local stores, but my parents have a little stash in their freezer. Won’t be able to buy any more until next winter probably. If the world still stands by then.
24/3 2023

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Happy Caturday. I hope this message finds you well. Here is Nala.
I am going to bed early today. Tonight Denmark does the daylight saving switch, which means I’ll be able to sleep one hour less. What is infinity minus one?!
In any case, see you tomorrow when we get there.

25/3 2023

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Happy Funday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

26/3 2023

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My ear is a bit clogged up. I had a lovely long sleep and dreamwalk. Dreamt about Norm from Cheers among other things. Nooorm.
But I have to sleep with earplugs because there is so much noise here and virtually no sound proofing. I have to jam the earplugs right in there. I think the left ear was bothered considerably. Don’t know if it’s an infection or just irritated or something. Ah well. Nouw I have an excuse not to listen to anyone. Tra la la, give me all the fleet balls.
Sorry, that’s my name for flødeboller. Rugbread is my name for rugbrød. I like mistranslating English words into Danish. Like flourballs for dumplings. Doing a literal translation or just using the Danish word as if it was English. Rug means rye, rugbrød is rye bread, but rugbread sounds like a carpet. Anyway, clearly I am sane and setting the clocks dimensionally paralel to fourt demonination of pie worked out well.
Did someone say pie? I heard that.
26/3 2023

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Nobody put Mia in the corner. But throw some peanuts there and she’ll go look.

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Blackouts And Curveballs

March 19th, 2023

Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

13/3 2023

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Good goat times today. Although I’m not sure the goats agree. First off it was cold and rainy. Very rainy. We were rained in all day. But much worse, the goats needed medication. Jeanette contacted me yesterday and sked if I could help with that today. They needed deworming. So I guess the test result from the vet shpwed they had worms. or something. So I helpd with that. Grabbed the goats by the horns, while Jeanette squirted the medicine into their mouths. They weren’t too happy about that, but hopefully it’s good for them.
I was a little concerned about Mia in the morning. She was sitting in the doorway to their room and she didn’t come up. She seemed to be shaking a little too. She got up later, had an appetite and laid berries that seemed good. Hopefully it was just the cold and rain that was making her a little less energetic than normal. She is an old goat now. And on a rainy day like this there’s not much to do other than just sit around. But I guess the worms may make it harder for her to turn food into body heat. Hopefully everything will be okay. And hopefully the weather will get better soon.
13/3 2023

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Oh Mia.

13/3 2023

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HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

14/3 2023

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Just polished off the last of the soup. It’s been a good four days of soup. It’s always a little sad when you finish it. And especially now when it’s probably the last soup of the season. It’s getting warmer and mama don’t make soup when it’s warm. Just about the only good thing about cold weather is getting to have soup.
Anyway, I better start putting up decorations for tomorrow’s big party. I hope you all got the invitations back in January, don’t forget the commute to Denmark can be crowded so you might want to head out now and beat the traffic.
14/3 2023

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I think.. I blacked out. Maybe. I don’t remember.. what I was doing.. what day is it? I can see by my last update.. that I just finished the soup. My dad was just here. I feel.. I don’t know. I wonder if this was one of those brain fog blackouts that I’ve had. Or if I just.. fell asleep. In my chair. Oh tomorrow is my birtdhay. I saw the goats.. yesterday. I have to put the pieces back together again. Figure out where I am, what I was doing, what I was planning.
The last fb update I made was about polishing off the soup. I guess.. I fell asleep in my chair after that. I saw the goats yesterday, went to bed.. slept a lot of the day today. Got up and ate the last of the soup. I called dad and asked if he’d buy some stuff for me. He was over here. I got the cake. I guess I fell asleep in my chair.
Oh well. I’m not sure if I blacked out again. It’s been months since that happened.. or if I just fell asleep and am a little groggy. Hmm.
14/3 2023

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Well, I just called and talked to my dad. I have zero memory of him being here. I can see he left me the cake, took the soup cannisters. I don’t remember him being here.
He said that he did notice there was something weird about me. It took me 2-3 times to come answer the door. And I seemed.. distant, I think he said. Like I wasn’t quite registering that he was there, I think he said I didn’t know what day it was and that he had a hard time getting through to me. Now, I wasn’t doing so bad that he thought I needed assistance I guess. I was just off and distant. But yeah, that tracks then. I am still not sure if that was.. in the middle of a blackout. I think maybe.. he woke me up from, well a blackout or nap or both. Or whatever. I think when he was here I was just waking up and starting to get back to myself. But what a weird thought. I have no memory of him being here. I wonder how out of it I was.
I should probably see the doctor about all this, I wil lthink about it. At least I didn’t fall and hurt myself. It’s been 2-3 months since the last time it happened, so it’s not like it’s something that’s happening all the time. Maybe the 3rd or 4th time, over the span of more than 6 months.
I don’t know. It’s a weird thought.
14/3 2023

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Measured my blood sugar, and it’s too high, but not so much that it should cause like a diabetic shock or anything. Makes sense after a huge portion of soup and some ‘flødeboller’ for dessert, which I should have but I did. I do wonder about epilepsy or some other kind of seizure. One thing I wonder about is when I had my accident and fell, my whole body was hurt. My legs felt like they do when I have walked for hours and haven’t stretched afterwards, my arm and shoulder was so bad that I could barely lift it for weeks and of course I’m still dealing with the back issues. But especially the bit about my legs kinda puzzle me, because that’s not really en injure that would happen from like an impact of falling. I wonder if I had some kind of seizure that made my muscles spasm or something.
I don’t know. Thank you all for the concern. I know I should go to the doctor, and I will seriously consider it. I just .. don’t like facing things. It’s much easier to pretend everything is fine.
It’s still kind of spooky to me that my dad was here and I don’t remember it at all. I remember before. And after. But no memory of the part where he was here. I wish I could have seen myself, I wonder how out of it I were.
Anyway, what a great way to celebrate my early birthday, totes.
14/3 2023

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This sounds dead on like my episodes. I guess I should hope so, because it says it’s not serious. But who knows. It does sound a lot like my experience.
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/transient-global-amnesia/symptoms-causes/syc-20378531
14/3 2023

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Thank you everyone for all the concern.
That being said, I wish I had more soup.
14/3 2023

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Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

15/3 2023

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Thank you everyone so much for the birthday wishes! I am amazed and delighted to know so many good and dear friends, and I am happy I have been able to share positive (mostly) things with you all through the year(s). Thank you so much. I hope I managed to reply to everyone, you never know with the facebox algorythm. Sooner or later the algorythm is gonna get ya. But thank you all again and again. Whatever happens, I am thankful for you all.
16/3 2023

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I hope today will be a good one. Despite not being my birthday anymore, harrumph! Here’s Peanut from 2016.

16/3 2023

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Good goat times today. They seemed to be doing very well. All 3 of them came bleating down to the fence to great me. I think that’s the first time this year it has happened. A sign that the weather is getting better, and hopefully that tehy are healthy. No official health news, but they seem good. They got their medicine. I was a little concernced about that, because the deworming meds had to be given for 3 days, and last day was yesterday when Jeanette wasn’t working. And I know some of the other caretakers aren’t as comfortable with the goats. But I guess it’s gone ok. Mia seemed well. Happy to see me, eager for treats. Last time I was there she didn’t get up when I arrived and sat down several times. Maybe it was just because of the rain. But today she was up and about. Climbed the goat mountain on her own. I think she likes the view from up there.
I got them all to start running around. Especially Milo and Sky of course, little sprinters. But Mia too. And she was headbutting the littles. They seemed lively.
We had visitors in the pen too. Little kids, in pairs of two, getting to see the goats up close. A couple laughing a lot at the butts and their ‘kaka’. Fun times for all. And the goats figured out how to use the brushes that JEanette put up outside… but only with their heads. Rubbing their heads and horns on them. Hopefully they will figure out to scratch their whole bodies on them soon too. Rub that winter coat out.
16/3 2023

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Visitors with the goats. So sweet. The little girl in the.. is it pink? suit was funny. She’d very slowly reach out and touch Mia’s back.. and then quickly withdraw her hand and squeal like she just did something very brave! Haha.

16/3 2023

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Jeanette told me that she got some scary news on Tuesday. She got the news that the government is shutting down 5 of the local educational playgrounds. And she didn’t know which 5. Thankfully, a day later she got the news that ours isn’t one of them. So that’s a relief. But. One of the 5 is.. our old playground. The one that picked the horses over the goats and we had to leave last summer. So that’s.. something. I guess in hindsight it was actually not so bad that we had to leave. Who knows what would have happened if the goats had still lived there today? They could have been sent off to slaughter, sent off to who knows where, split who knows how. Without Jeanette we wouldn’t have had the contacts that took SNL. Who knows if our current playground would have taken MMS under the current circumstances, with Malene gone and budgets getting tighter. It could have been a disaster.
It’s sad about the old playground though. Wonder what will happen to the horses. And Ophelia. Oh well. It’s a money issue of course. Gotta save money. Too bad. I think these kinds of playgrounds are great for kids. Sometimes when people assume my goat posts are from a farm or something similar they get quite surprised when I tell them that it’s a government-run playground with animals and after school activities. They are such nice places. Kindergartens and daycares visit in the early hours. And older kids come after school and get homework help and get to be around animals and learn to take care of them. The playgrounds have been very good to me too of course, starting at the old old playground all the way back in 2004, to the old playground and now the new one. Don’t know where my life would have gone without those playgrounds. I sure hope nothing will happen to our current place, even though budget restraints are always felt. I didn’t mention it on here, but a week or two ago we almost ran out of hay. There was supply left for the rest of the week, but the place they buy hay was all out of stock. With nothing new until August! Jeanette had to go to a supervisor and ask permission to buy hay from a private farmer instead of their official supply place. Luckily she found a place to buy from and we’re stocked until, I think also August now. But there could be problems getting it in the future. And you know, they never got around to fixing the fences to stop Mia jumping out when I leave. I still have to lock them up every time I leave, and then Jeanette let’s them out after I’m gone. The two wooden platforms are still too steep to climb, fixing them in on the schedule but if or when I don’t know. I haven’t seen the handyman guy since I don’t know when, September or November or whatever. I am happy we have this place and met Jeanette, but everything isn’t all perfect. But at least we’re staying open for now…
Sad to think of the old place closed. Lots of memories of Yogi and grandma there. Sassy, Lily and Nuller. I asked Jeanette about them today, she doesn’t see them often but they are doing okay. I don’t think their lives are as fun as the lives of playground goats, but they are loved and taken care of and better off than meat or dairy goats. I have had so mucuh on my mind since my accident, I manage not to think about them so much, I manage not to think about a lot most of the time.. but then when you let the thoughts in… man, I miss having a flock of 6 goats and all those personalities and love. The split all started with new regulations that limited how many animals the old place could have, so they couldn’t have both horses and goats. All these cutbacks. Hurts the animals and the children.
I wish humans weren’t so good at limiting themselves. I guess you can’t have society without money and shirt. But. Sometimes I wish we could reboot humanity, start fresh with the lessons we’ve learned. But we’d just find new ways of forking up things.
Anyway, I’m getting off track. Sad news, but I’m thankful it won’t directly impact us. Hooves crossed.

tldr: 5 local playgrounds being closed, ours wont’ be closed, but te old one we came from will be closed.
16/3 2023

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I hope today will be a good one. Here’s Magnethe from 2005.

17/3 2023

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Mia, demonstrating how NOT to fall over the haypile. Thanks, Mia.

17/3 2023

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Saw Fringe trending on twitter and thought “ooh is it coming back?!”. Turns out it was because Lance Reddick passed away. Bummer. Only 60. He was so so so good on Fringe. I can see he’s done lots of other stuff that people have loved, but I mainly knew him from Fringe. One of my favourite shows. Great actor. Rest in peace.
17/3 2023

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Sat down and put on the season 3 opener of Ted Lasso, put on my TENS device and instead of a 15 minute session at level 2-3 I took a 30 minute session of 6-10. Out of 16. Loved both.
Man, I’m sure I have said it before but Roy Kent is the best character on TV. And he’s even more enjoyable if you know who Roy Keane is.
And the TENS felt really good. Ended up on level 10 and really feeling the buzz. Again, I’m not sure it will be that beneficial to my general back problem. But it felt like a really good massage. I may have to give it a go wearing it outside and seeing if it can help me when I’m out and about, which is when my back problem is really bad. I’m just not sure how easy it will be to be using it while I’m out with goats, the wires and stuff, I don’t know. But I’m glad I got the device at least.
And i’m glad Ted Lasso is back. Stoked for the final season. By the way, the actor who plays Roy Kent is also a big Twin Peaks fan, I saw him tweeting with Kyle Maclclclclclclahan on the twitter. Good synergy.
Hope you’re all doing well out there. Again, I want to thank you all for the birthday love. It means a lot to me to feel there are people who care about me. To be honest I am struggling these days. But it helps to not be alone. Cheers.
Night court.
17/3 2023

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Happy Caturday everyone. I hope it’s a good one. Here’s Nala.

18/3 2023

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goatlog. The last one shot before I fell and everything became a pain in the everything.

18/3 2023

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I spy with my one eye, Sky and I.

18/3 2023

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I hope all my good Republican friends will cheer Blue Lives Matter with us on Tuesday when a certain someone is apparently getting arrested. Imagine anyone else but a rich old white male being able to announce on his own social media platform in advance that he is going to be arrested? Wonder if that ever happened to an African American with a joint in a car late at night. Well anyway.
I’m sorry. I am going to try my best to go back to not talking about politics, I know it’s pointless and annoying. I just needed to shart this out in the atmosphere to get some relief. Back to posting goats and self pity. Yeehaw.
18/3 2023

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I am going to bed early today, so I better get a goat post on top of the page. Here are the berry makers. Woop woop.

18/3 2023

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Happy Funday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

19/3 2023

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Sky likes to stand in there behind the door. I remember at the old place she made it an artform to find places to sit where she had some ‘protection’ from the three. Safe spaces are important when you’re littlest! She doesn’t really need safe spaces anymore, but I think there’s just some instinctual comfort in it.

19/3 2023

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