I have finally had my first lesson in walking with a cane. A nice lady from the sight central came and instructed me. It went very well, but it’s also a weird thing to deal with. To be forced to accept that image of yourself. Walking around with a cane to guide me, that is not something I had ever imagined before. That is not someone I ever thought would be me. You see blind people on the street and think “glad it’s not me” and five minutes later you have forgotten them. Now I am one of them.<\/p>\n
There is a certain sense of finality to it. That’s it. That’s who I am. I will never be on the other side again. I am handicapped. I am broken. I will never fit into the crowd again.<\/p>\n
So it’s hard to be exactly happy about it. But at least it went well. We went to F?tex in the shopping center around the corner. Just a 10 minute walk. And the cane made it easier, no doubt. It feels safer. Instead of that sense that you could be walking off a tall cliff without knowing it. It is a good help, no doubt about it. Maybe it will even allow me to go out on my own in the future when I get more comfortable with it. You never know. Certainly it is better to have it than to not.<\/p>\n
I am also glad that I still have some sight left. It makes it a lot easier to navigate around and avoid things. People and cars. The house number so I know which door to go to. I am glad I am not completely blind. As horrible as it is right now, it could still be worse. No doubt about it. I do feel my left eye getting worse. The field of vision getting smaller. More and more of the world is blurred out. Even finding my way around my little apartment just by sight is getting harder. Who knows where it will end.<\/p>\n
At least there is no more pain in the right eye. We have cut back from two diamox tablets to one. I am still dizzy though. Dizzy and almost blind, it is not the best combination for walking around.<\/p>\n
I have also been sleeping poorly. With cold feet. My foot therapist gave me some ointment that is supposed to help circulation and give a warm sensation. I think it is working a little. And I have turned up the heat some more. Plus I am now allowed to use the exercise bike again which will hopefully make me a little more tired. I need my nights to be good because they are practically all I have left.<\/p>\n
On Monday there’s a new checkup at the hospital. Maybe I can try stopping the diamox altogether. And on Thursday I have more cane training. We’ll be taking it slow. I can’t handle too much right now and I don’t have a huge need to be walking around everywhere and it’s getting colder and colder. I think we agreed to do it once a week for 3 weeks to learn the basics and then once every 2-3 weeks after that. Something like that. And their IT dept should be getting in touch soon again so we can get something arranged with computer and cell phone and DAISY-rom. I need to see the goats again soon too. It has been a while. I just don’t have energy for much. I am not feeling very strong. But I am trying.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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