As I finished typing up my entry yesterday I was startled by the sound of a ball hitting my window. And glass breaking. And then the headache came rushing in and all I could think was “no no no”. Because breaking glass means dealing with things and people and why won’t you leave me alone?<\/p>\n
I probably sat there for several minutes with my head in my hands, hoping the world would quietly slip away and stop bothering me. But the world staid in place. And my window is broken. The outer part. It’s some kind of thermo window with two sets of glass. The outer set has a nice ball-sized hole and cracks all along the way. At least the inner set of glass is intact.<\/p>\n
Today I called the operating office of the housinge corporation. Told them about the broken window. The nice lady said she’d call the… whatyoucallem? The people what repairs windows. Glaziers? Glasers? Glass Repair Men? Anyway, those guys. So all day today I have been waiting for them. And they have not come. I guess it was wrong of me to assume they’d be here so fast. What a waste of time. I hope they’ll come tomorrow. Not that getting the window fixed is so urgent. But I just want to get it over with. Dealing with all this make my stomach ache. It makes my phobia shout and scream and dance and compose illiterate symphonies. Knowing there are strangers coming, that I have to talk to them and let them in my apartment and everything.. it makes me unhappy. And I know, rationally, that it won’t be that bad. It never is. They’ll do their job and be on their way and I will have worried for nothing. But I can’t help the worrying. So if I could just have it over with, kthanxbye.<\/p>\n
I’m just glad the whole window wasn’t broken. The ball hit almost exactly where I was sitting, just higher up. Imagine all the glass everywhere and the scare and the cold, cold air. The operating office is closed on Sunday too, I wonder if a completely broken window is emergency enough to call the emergency line? Would glassing people have come urgently then? Or would I have had to go days with no window? No point in wondering about that I guess. <\/p>\n