retinal detachment<\/a>. Which can make you go blind. In days<\/i>. I didn’t realize it was that much of a medical emergency. I don’t think I’m quite as far along as days from blindness though. But I do think I have one of the other symptoms. Flashes of light at the extreme peripheral part of vision. I only have that at night though. When I get up to go to the bathroom at night, if I try to look sideways then I have those flashes. So yeah, I obviously need to get my eyes checked out right away. If I had known it was this much of an emergency I would have called the eye doc today. But I don’t have his phone number so I called home to ask my mother what it was. But she must be working the late shift today cause she isn’t answering. And my dad is in Copenhagen. So I haven’t talked to them yet, and the doctor’s office is closed by now. I should have looked it up on the net or gone home and gotten the number from our address book. But I only just now read that it could be a matter of days. Let’s just hope one day isn’t what makes the difference in the end eh. I’ll call the eye doc tomorrow and we’ll see what happens.<\/p>\nThe floaters are only in my right eye. So maybe I’ll get off easy and only be half blind. I can wear a patch and pretend to be a pirate.<\/p>\n
I don’t think I could live with being blind. Pretty much my entire life is looking at some kind of screen. Without that, what would I do? And all the people I would have to deal with, be dependent on. I don’t think I could do that.<\/p>\n
And that fucking thing is still floating around in front of me. I just want to tear my damn eyes out. I remember people describing tinnitus, always hearing that sound. And not being able to ignore. This feels sort of like the vision version of that. A constant black spot that you just can’t escape. Sometimes you can sort of look past it but then as soon as you move your eye it floats right back to front. It’s so stressful, you just want it to go away. But it doesn’t. Even when I close my eyes it’s still sort of there, if I move the eyeball around. <\/p>\n
It’s not the end of the world. I can still read and see and maybe you could get sort of used to it. I could live with it a lot better than being blind. Sigh. So what does the future hold? At the very least phonecalls and appointments with doctors. What then? Blindness? Laser surgery? Lots of shitty stuff that I don’t want to deal with, no matter what. Some days you just wish you’d never woken up at all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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