t’s been a painful night.
Let’s see what the day brings.
1/9 2025
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Who’s got two thumbs and one less tooth?
This guy.
Let me tell you the story.
Yes, the short version is that I got the tooth yanked.
The long version is as follows.
I had a super painful night. And a fever when I got up. Called my dentist the moment they opened. Thankfully they had an open appointment today.
I couldn’t swallow or look up at the ceiling without pain, I could barely open my mouth wide enough to brush my teeth. I was not doing so good.
I got the appointment for 2:30 pm. Now, I was feeling so bad and surely had an infection that i thought maybe they’d send me to the ER. I don’t know how these things work. But because i had that thought I decided to call dad and hear if he could join me. In case I needed help getting around. He was up for that. Because he’s always eager to help.
Now, we had a little snafu. He turned up at my house at 11 am, as I was trying to nap and gather strenght. I don’t know why he came so early, he even had a note with the time written when he was supposed to come meet me. So we suddenly had 3½ hours to kill. He did some errands and stuff and eventually we went to the dentist. Even with the time we had passed, we were still an hour early. Let me tell you. That was not a fun hour sitting in the dentist waiting room in really bad pain. It was pretty bad. But I was grateful to have my dad there, it’s nice to not be alone.
So finally the dentist called me in. He basically took one look in my mouth and said “yeah that’s gotta go”. He took an x-ray and as expected the tooth was infected and it was somewhat going into the jaw too.
So there wasn’t a whole lot of fussing around or discussing. The tooth had to go. And he got right to work. Anesthesia. Oh man. I definitely understand why people get addicted to opiods. That feeling of pain just … seeping away. After days of really rather excruciating pain. It was just gone. I was tempted to ask if I could just get Pepsi Max sized bottle of whatever he gave me.
My tnogue turned into a big wooly cloth in my mouth. Good thing i don’t have any hot dates today.
And then he yanked it out. It was a weird thing. Even when you’re not feeling the pain. It’s still weird to have someone cranking a tooth ouf your jawbone. It wasn’t pleasant. But it wasn’t too bad. Worse was the preliminary stuff when I was still feeling pain. Having to open my mouth wide to get stuff prodded in there, that was very unpleasant. The yanking itself, eh it was mildly curious.
So now I have one less tooth. I wish i had gone ahead and got it yanked right away instead of going through all the stuff the last month. But oh well. Hindsight is.. clearer than front sight.
Wouldn’t it be nice if this cleared up all my tooth troubles? Wouldn’t it? I’m scared it won’t. But I’m glad this got done.
The dentist said he wanted to see if I could manage it without penicillin. The swelling should go down and the pain go away in a couple of days. If I’m still having issues I have to contact them and get a prescription for some stuff.
Let’s hope it works out without more fuss.
It’s now just about 3 hours after the session. I am almost allowed to eat and drink again. I wish i’d eaten something beforehand…
I am feeling pain again. Not as bad as before. But there’s pain. I’ve been biting down on cotton pads for three hours. I am so ready to get something to eat and drink. First thing is going to be some painkillers. The dentist told me to take some of those.
And that was that.
And it turned out to be quite good that I had dad with me, because he suggested we go in the market next door if I needed to buy some stuff. So I bought iced creams and bananas. The dentist told me to start off eating cold and soft things if possible. So that’s my excuse for more ice creamed.
Oh and the cost of the procedure came out to just less of 2000Dkr/313usd. So it sucks having to pay that, but I was worried it would be 2 or 3 times that. Would have considerably cheaper if I’d gotten the tooth yanked the first time, but you live and learn. I’d just really like to be pain free. Here’s to hoping.
Thanks to dad for helping me and paying for the iced creams. Score! And thank you everyone for the support and advice.
i hope better days are ahead now. i’m going to have to take it easy for a few days. I miss the goats something fierce, but probably wouldn’t be a good idea to risk a headbutting right now.
Alright. Time for painkillers. Then a banana. Then a bunch of icedcreams.
The tooth is out there.
1/9 2025
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Gosh darned I’m tired. It’s been a day. After a year. And a decade. And the whole y2k thing and. I’ma sleep tonight.
Funny things today, doing improvised sign language to dad and mumbling to mom on the phone, since I had to keep my mouth shut. For a change. Normally you know I gab gab gab, I never shut up. Had to bite down on cotton puffs for 3 hours. Felt good to get them out and get a drink.
Now it’s banana and ice cold Pepsi Max time.
You can’t handle the tooth!
1/9 2025
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Oh hello world. Has anyone seen a tooth, I seem to be missing one?
Oh wait, it’s all coming back to me now. Well, the tooth isn’t. That’s gone for good.
Anyway, enough of the slapstick comedy routine. How am i doing? I’m doing fine. Better certainly than before the tooth pull. My jaw is still swollen and there’s pain, but again not as bad as before the pull. Hopefully the swelling and pain will subside over today and tomorrow, otherwise i’ll have to get in touch with the dentist and asc for all the anti bactanoids, which I believe is the correct terminanogy. The anesthesia may still be affecting my fingers.
Had good long sleep last night. Got woked up early by bulls dozing right outside my window louder than they have been for month. But what can you do. They quieted down eventually and I got a couple more hours sleep before they woke me up again.
it as a rough day yesterday, but hopefully the recovery will be without complications. You never know, it could happen.
2/9 2025
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It is thundering outside. Autumn has come to Denmark.
And how am I feeling?
Okay, I suppose. Not in pain, which is really nice. I have taken painkillers, so it’s hard to gage exactly my condition. Without painkillers there would be pain, but nothing like before the extraction.
i still have a swelling under my chin. I am not sure if it has gone down or not. It’s certainly not as horrible feeling as before the extraction either. But it is annoying. It feels like it’s pushing on my throat.
The dentist said it could take 2-3 days for it all to settle. I think if I still have a lot of swelling and some pain and it’s bothering me tomorrow, i will probably call in and ask if hey maybe the antibiotics would be a good idea after all. i think they try not to prescribe those if they can avoid it. But I do wish they’d given me some. I do feel a bit off. All in all it’s good not to be in horrible pain though. And I suppose it’s normal that it takes a few days to get over having a piece of your skull forcibly removed.
Got a Protein & Pepsi delivery today. Although this time it was more a delivery of various yoghurts and iced creams and soft things. Some koldskål even though summer is over. But I’ll have a soft diet for a few days.
And the thunder goes on. I’d rather listen to that than to the dozing bulls.
2/9 2025
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It’s interesting how many people are saying I should have had antibiotics. Obviously, I am not a doctor so I do not know much about it.
I was just looking on the googlewebs, and apparently Denmark is one of the foremost countries when it comes to limitg the use of antibiotics and research into the subject.
It also said that current projections say that in 2050 more people could be dying from antibiotic resistance than are currently dying from cancer. Now I’m not fact checking any of that.
But it’s just to maybe shed some light for the people who don’t understand why I wasn’t given antibiotics. I think we are pretty strict about it in Denmark. So that’s why, that’s why the dentist wanted to see if I could manage without them
Right now the painkillers I took last are wearing off and i’m not feeling great. I’m feeling a LOT better than before the extraction. But there’s pain. And there’s swelling. And it’s pressing on my throat and making it hard to open my mouth up wide. And I’m just feeling ab it off. So, as I think i said earlier, if i still feel like that tomorrow then i’ll call the dentist and ask if maybe we should do something. He did say it would take 2-3 days, so it’s not like this is necessarily abnormal.
I was talking to my parents on the phone and out of curiosity I asked if they knew if you can get antibiotics prescribed over the phone. Apparently dad said that’s illegal. He’s been out of the medical business for many decades though, I’m not sure that’s up to date information.
Anyway. I have had banana and iced creams and yoghurt and soft cheese snacks today. And Pepsi. not bad. I am paranoid about disturbing the wound. I do think the dentist could have given better information about how to behave after the extraction. I went home and googled for tips and there was stuff there that I wish he would have told me about. Unless of course those tips are just internet hogwash and I shouldn’t pay attention to them! Urgh. Haha. Well hopefully it will all be okay.
Sorry if this is all terribly annoying! But thank you being there and the advice and support, i am glad I a mot just alone with all this. Always helps to have a support system!
2/9 2025
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Hello hellow. it is 10 am and I am checking in. Press the button and reset the numbers.
How am i doing?
Better, I should say. Not great. But better.
I had a rough night. The pain seemed to be increasing.
And then I did something stupid and only took half the dosage of painkillers. Usually i have always taken 2 ibuprofen and 1 paracetamol. That’s always what I thought was the right dosage. But then when looking up how many paras to take after the toothpull, internet said 2. So okay, i’ve been taking 2. And that’s been helping. But last night i figured I’d just take the 1 as I’ve previously been used to doing.
And that was a mistake. Because it didn’t seem to help. And I was laying in bed and in pain. And about an hour later I was feeling I needed more help, but I wasn’t sure if it was okay to take 1 more para, if splitting the dosage like that was okay blabla i worry too much.
I ended up taking one more para. And i guess it helped some. I got some sleep. Not great, but something.
And when I got up this morning I was feeling somewhat better. I wasn’t sure if it was still the effect of the painkillers or not. But now it’s been about 8 hours without painkillers and I am still feeling improved. My fever has gone down, temperature still a bit eleavated but not in fever therritory. I still have swelling under the jaw and chin, but it’s not as much. It was that swelling that was really painful. It felt huge and tight and burning hot and constricting my throat last night. Now it’s a lot less excessive. i can swallow without huge pain. i can open my mouth a bit wider.
So I’m getting better. The dentist said it would take 2-3 days. It’s been 2 days. I guess i’m on track? I was planning to call the dentist today. But since I seem to be on track now I guess I’ll hold off. I’ll be honest, a big part of that is my avoidant self. Facing another possible dentist trip right now just seems awful. Unless it’s really necessary. I will monitor the situation I guess. If it gets worse today, or if it’s not markedly better tomorrow. Then I’ll call. But for now.. I’m feeling fairly okay without painkillers. Soo. Hopefully that will be okay.
Sorry for the rambling, but it helps me to write it all out. i am sure by now people know just to skim it when there’s a long post like this.
Oh also I wrote to my doc, or the nurse i usually see actually, and asked if i could get a prescription for the para painkillers. I don’t know if they do that over writing. i know stronger painkillers they demand you show up. But this is otc strength. The normal packages you buy are small and expensive. Because i guess there were too many people trying to use them to off themselves, and that leads to real bad results. So now access is very limited. Getting a prescription would save me a lot of money. I use them against back pain too sometimes. But I’ll see what they say about that.
So here we are now. Feeling not great, but better. Guess I will sit around and relax and eat soft and cold things. One day a day.
3/9 2025
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A Shocking development! Well, not quite. But a development.
My pain levels were starting to rise again, despite taking painkillers.
So I decided to bite the bullet, or gum it at least. And called the dentist. Explained the situation. The phone lady called back 5 minutes later after talking to the dentist. And told me they had prescribed antibioatics for me.
And now my dad is going to pick them up for me, because i am a spoiled child and because i’m really not feeling too well again.
Hopefully the antibiotics will do their thing and help me out. I am really tired of feeling rotten. Really tired in general. I know they would prefer us to manage without antibiotics but it seems like i need them. And I’m glad I didn’t listen to the avoidant voices in my head that told me to wait till tomorrow and see. Maybe i can aboid another painful night. I don’t know how quick that stuff’s supposed to work. But getting started the sooner the better. And i’m glad they could do it over the phone, I was dreading them saying i had to come in. I really don’t feel like going out right now. I probably won’t be seeing the goats till next week either, I miss them. But right I’m just not all there. Feels like the swelling has swole up after falling some in the morning.
Anyay, there’s another chapter in Lasse’s amazing adventures on the tooth fairy across the sea of pain and iced creams. Bleep bleep, this truck is backing up into the dumpster fire.
No let’s hope i’m on the right track now. Thanks for listening or skimming.
3/9 2025
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This is Lasse. This is Lasse on antibiotics.
So far so good. I feel a little better. I know that’s just psychosomatic, it will take a few days to work. But boy am I looking forward to getting rid of this burning hot tennis ball that’s been stuck in the side of my throat for days. That swelling can’t go down soon enough, that would just be swell.
I’m looking forward to eating real food too. I really want soup. But I don’t dare do that yet. I am still paranoid about disturbing the wound.
But anyway. So glad I got the antibiotics. Thank you everyone for helping nudge me along to it.
Jeanette says the goat miss me. I’m goign to choose to believe that, and not that they are just happy to get a break from me. Hopefully I’ll see them soon.
And who knows what wil lhappen next, I’m scared to find out. I need a hole to bury my head in. Or a big tub of iced cream
3/9 2025
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Oh hello. It’s your favourite tooth blogger here. Other media are lying to you, but I’m teeling you the tooth!
How am i doing today? Not great. I sure am glad that i got started on the antibiotics yesterday instead of waiting. Because it wouldn’t have cleared up on its own, that’s for sure. It hasn’t even been a full 24 hours of antibots so I know I can’t expect results yet, but I sure would like this painful swelling to go down. It’s better than it was but it’s not good. And I am just really… really.. tired. Of pain and discomfort and worry. Here’s to hoping I’ll start to see real results soon.
I had an eye doc appointment on Tuesday, but I called in and got that postponed. Hopefully i’m feeling better by then, but I don’t want to risk it and even if I feel better I still don’t feel like dealing with more stuff. Going places and being around people, it’s not easy for me even when I’m in good condition. Right now, forgeddabout it. Just a routine checkup anyway.
— and now technical difficulties on the computer and I’m just feeling really rotten. I am so ready for this week to be over. Boo hoo!
4/9 2025
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Nearing the end of another day. time seems slow like.. my.. thoughts.
It’s ben up and down today. For a while I felt better, then worse. Right now I feel the best since the extraction I think. There’s still a fairly big swelling, but right now it feels less severe. Feels like I can move my head and jaw more. It really grinds you down to have a big throbbing painful brick lodged in your throat, let me tell you.
Past the first 24 hours of antibiotics. Hopefully this is a sign it’s working and it will soon be a real improvement. HOPE. It’s what reberrions are built on. Wait that sounds racist. it was just meant to be another berry joke.
Orlright. Scheduled another delivery for tomorrow. I want more soft stuff. More bananas and yoghurt. Didn’t realise how much i’d want that. I don’t feel like biting on hard stuff. Sorry, Ironman. We’ll reschedule our date.
Other than that just trying to get through the time. One hour and hour.
I’m glad the whole world is doing great and this is the worst thing that’s happening to anyone, and yes it does take a lot of effort and courage to bear my hardships with such dignity. What great future lies ahead for us all, hooray!
4/9 2025
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Hello again, my friends. I hope this facebook post finds you well, actually.
How am I, actually?
Okayish. I think. Feeling the best I have since the tooth came out on Monday.
I still have a swelling, but it feels a lot less severe right now. I’m about a day and a half into the antibiotics, so I suppose it’s natural that it still needs time to work.
But I’m feeling so much better right now.
i wish the dentist had given me antibiotics right away. But I sure am glad I didn’t wait the full 3 days to call. It was a rough few days.
I guess it is my lymph node that’s swollen? I’m not a doctor, I just play one on tv. But that’s what it seems like, under my jaw. On the right side I can feel the normal little.. gladn or whatever. And on the left side I guess it just ballooned up, like I said it felt like a brick. Super tight and rock hard and throbbing, oh my. And so painful. it’s almsot weird beginning to be able to moe my jaw again.
My back has been hurting more too, because I have not been able to keep good posture, the pain in my head and jaw and neck, I couldn’t sit properly. Hopefully that will get better too.
And as long as it keeps improving then i’m happy. Right now i’m feeling pretty comfortable. I don’t think I’m feeling good enough that i would want to go out. But just sitting here, it’s not too bad. After days of constant pain, it’s nice to just be able to sit and not feel pain. As long as I don’t move my head too much, it almost feels normal. Almost. Still taking painkillers too, they wren’t doing much good the last couple of days but maybe now they are helping.
Alright. I know I haven’t been much fun lately, but to be fair I think it’s important to remember that i haven’t been much fun before that either. So there’s a cosmic balance to the misery. Or something.
Thank you everyone for helping me balance the scales.
5/9 2025
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In case you’re missing goat content, here’s a little Lunaface.
I was just hinking, my teethline is going to start looking more and more like Kamel’s. Maybe I should get my ears folded too. Oldtimers will know what I mean.

5/9 2025
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Man, it’s so nice to feel not horrible. I’m not in perfect condition, but not feeling that constant pain. What a relief.
I still have quite a bit of swelling, though. It’s only just around 2 days of antibiotics now, so I hope it will still go down. It’s not hurting now if i don’t touch it. But it’s still there. I hope it won’t be like Irene mentioned, that it’s full of pus or something. I would hate having to deal with having that emptioed surgically or whatever. Eek. But hopefully it will go down. It certainly feels a lot better. I can use my mouth a lot more, which is going to do wonders for my dating life.
Sorry about the crude humour, but I’m a crude guy donctha know.
I got another delivery today. Unfortunately I kinda jumped the gun and thought “oh I need so many bananas and so much yoghurt!”. Now that my jaw is working better I regret getting some of the stuff I got. I don’t think I need THAT many bananas and that much drinking yoghurt. Oh well. I also got some white bread and cheese. I have not had white bread and cheese in… it could be years? Part of my health journey was completely cutting out that stuff. I have only been eating rye bread.
But I just had a cheese sandwich. Coold, I mean. Not melted or anything. But it was yummy. White bread, butter, cheese. Mmm. I could get addicted to that again.
And i could eat it. Carefully. i still can’t open my mouth completely as before. But I could eat it okay. So that’s good. I still want to take it carefully. I don’t really dare warm food yet. Not soup. Or hard food. But I can eat food again. So that’s nice.
I still have iced creams in the freezer too.
Right now it feels like I’m in a much better place and that things are getting better. If the swelling would just go down over the weekend, I’d be really happy. Here’s to hoping. At least it’s good to not feel awful.
That pain reminded me of back when my eyes went really bad. The worst pain I have ever experienced is still having the high pressure pain in my eyes. That was the worst thing ever. I can’t describe how horrible that was.
The tooth pain might not be that bad, but the constant pain from the tooth and the swollen brick of infection in the jaw and throat, that was pretty awful too. Constant pain is really hard to deal with, I am sorry for those that have it and can’t get away from it.
Hopefully I’m over the worst now. Although there’s still a big bad future to cope with. Ah maybe it won’t be that bad. Maybe it.. you never know.
It’s amazing what you are capable of dealing with when life forces you to face it.
.. I assume, I’ll be over there hiding under my bed.
5/9 2025
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Hello Saturday, here we are now.
How it’s toothing?
Prety much same as yesterday. Which isn’t bad, because I’m feeling pretty okay. But I do still have that swelling, and I am not sure if it has gone down a bit. It’s still pretty annoying when i move my head or open my mouth. But at least I’m not really in pain. It’s only 3½ days of antibiotics, so I still hope the swelling will go down. But I’ll have to see. If it hasn’t really gone down by Monday I guess I need to contact.. the dentist or the doctor? I’m not sure. If it’s an abscess then I’m not really sure if that’s a dental or a ..doctal thing. But I guess I’ll find out. Or, hopefully I won’t.
It’s weird not having a bottom molar on one side. I keep noticing the empty space. Running my tongue in there. I guess by now the dry socket thing is no longer a concern, I would be in pain if there was a dry socket. And the clot must be pretty fixed by now? I am not pushing the wound or anything, still want to give it peace and still nto ready to dare hot food. But still kind of running my tongue through the space. It’s weird.
Ah well. I’m just glad to not be in pain and to not be feeling horrible. It has not been a fun time lately.
Takign it easy and treating myelf with iced creams and other goods for the weekend. Right now some banana and koldskål.
6/9 2025
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a goatlog. Hopefully I will be making new ones of these very soon.
Today I am feeling.. about the same. Pretty okay. Still swelling. It’s hard to tell if the swelling is going down little by little or not at all. It’s only the begining of day 5 of a 10 day antibiotic treatment. I am not sure if it is supposed to have gone down much more or if it’s supposed to slowly go away over days. But I’ll probably ask the doctor tomorrow if i don’t see significant improvement. Again, I’m much better than before the antibiotics began. Lazy Sunday ahead.

7/9 2025
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may Feeling relaxed, might see goats soon.
Any day now.

7/9 2025
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The week is winding down.
What an odd week. A lot of my life is routine. For years and years there is barely a difference from day to wek to moth.
This summer sure has been …different.
And this week sure has been a rough one. The first half was some of the worst I have felt in modern times. Pain and swelling and worry and dealing with the realit. And the second half has been pretty peaceful. Once the antibiotics kicked in I felt much better. Now it’s mostly the worry about dealing with the swelling that stands out. It seems to me if it was going to go down on its own it would have shrunk a lot more by now. But hey I still have 5 days of antibiotics to go. Who knows. Maybe it will still be okay.
I would like to get back to some kind of reality soon. Not that I’m particularly enamored with reality. But some kind of comfort would be nice.
And goats and soup. Having the best things in my life substituted by pain and worry, well that ain’t my idea of a good time, honeybuns.
Thanks for all the help this week. I would have been much worse off without you all. Please accept these wooden nickels as a payment for your troubles. I ate all the chocolate ones.
7/9 2025
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. A chilly grey walk to the goat place. But as soon I got there, the sun came out. Very symbolic. A lovely, mild later summer’s day.
Lots of visitors. Kids running around in the pen. Petting the goats. Everyone had a lot of fun. Sweet kids running around. And I sat down in turn with each of the gals. Just happy to be there.
Now I’m going to be happy with some soup yum yum.
25/8 2025
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There is no such thing as personal space, there is only goat space.

25/8 2025
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Jeanette brought some fresh branches for the goats. The visiting kids got to help hand them out. And of course we had to put in some ffort to make sure Sky got her share.

25/8 2025
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Sweet Sky.

25/8 2025
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So I was planning to call the dentist today. But I ended up not doing that.
I have been off the painkillers for two days now, and I’m not really feel pain. Some discomfort. And maybe a little headache brewing? I am not sure. But I’m going to wait and see how the night goes now and how I feel tomorrow.
I feel like when I’m leaning that bad tooth with more effort, using the inbetween brushes, then it seems to help. The pain doesn’t seem to come. It’s hard to be sure because I’ve been using painkillers so much. I want to take a day or maybe two more without painkillers and see if the pain actually increases. Right now I feel almost like I did right after the dentist visits. And that’s .. fine ish.
I know part of it is just me being avoidant and wanting to do anythin to not go, to not deal. But in any case, I’m feeling a million times better than just before the dentist visits. So I don’t feel like I’m at an emergency urgent level. I feel like taking a few days is fine. That’s my story and I’m a ticking time bomb on it.
I’ll see how the night goes.
Unfortunately I did not stick to my back-to-health ambition for the week. After the goat visit I stopped in the supermarket and bought two b&js. Ate one today after soup. Dammit. Once I give in to the addictions I have a really hard time getting off them again. But once the last bj is gone then I’ll totally get there. Absolutely. no doubt about it.
I have been pretty severely depressed the last week or two, even worse than normal. I am just trying to cope.
Try try try.
25/8 2025
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Keep the wafer thin mints coming, barkeep.
26/8 2025
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Hay down there, says Bella.

26/8 2025
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goatlog

27/8 2025
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What’s the sitch, you may ask?
Well, that teeth situation seems stable. I’m not really hurting. There is discomfort. And it still feels like there could be a headache brewing. But all in all, it’s not too terrible. So I’m kind of monitoring the situation. If I’m going to go to the dentist before my next appointment then I want it to be because I’m in pain, ideally. I mean, I don’t want to be in pain. But I also don’t want to go and then there’s not really anything they can do for me. I’m continuing to do a lot of betweenbrushing and cleaning the bad tooth. It’s not really that bad now, I can push down on it without pain. But there’s still discomfort in general.
You don’t realise how nice it is to not feel your mouth until you’re feeling your mouth. It’s kind of like with your eyesight. You rarely think about how nice it is to be able to see until you’re not able to see. Ain’t it just the way. You have to appreciate what you have while you have it, because you’ll miss it when it’s gone.
Life Lessons with Lasse. Subbscribe to my substack.
So the teeth sitch isn’t too horrible. The health sitch isn’t good though. I had planned to get back on a healthier track this week. That did not happen. Pizza and ice cream and no exercise. I have been spiralling with depression and trying to cope with everything and avoiding reality and all that. So I guess I have postponed that plan till next week. Monday is September 1st. That will be a good day to start fresh. To get back to exercising and to eating healthily. And this time I mean it, for realsies.
But for now I’m limping along. It’s been a rough summer. But it’ll be the Autumn Of George, I can feel it. Everything’s coming up Lassehouse. Bang zoom straight to the moon. Here we go. Giddyup. Just try to keep up.
27/8 2025
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i just stopped myself from writing an angry post about the shooting and about religion and about gun control and all the usual sht.
You’re welcome.
Thoughts and prayers, and despair.
27/8 2025
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Think goat thoughts.

27/8 2025
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I was planning to go see the goats today. Instead I ended up taking a 12 hour ‘nap’. Now I am sad and tired and feeling like a headache is growing. Waa waah. Everything will be great starting Monday, though, so it’s fine. No worries.
Maybe I’ll skip checking the news today.
28/8 2025
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Well, my dad’s in the hospital now. He’s been having stomach pains since yesterday and has been sleeping constantly more or less. So they’re checking him out. Apparently his infection numbers are a little too high. The technical details escape me. But he’s in good hands, hopefully it’s nothing serious. But man. Life just keeps on lifing, doesn’t it?
28/8 2025
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I think.. I think I may havr blacked out. I barely remember where I was or what I was doing. It’s all a blur. I ordered pizza and it just got here, but I feel like I hve to reconstruct a puzzle of who I am and what I was doing.It’s such a weird feeling. i guess i should enjoy my pizza and try to find my way back in time and space. I had to bring back that it’s Thursday. I was supposed to see the goats but I didn’t. And my dad is in the hospital. All of this was just gone from my head. And I have to find my way back to it. It’s such a disturbing feeling. I wonder what else I’m missing.
At least i have pizza. I feel like I may be going a little insane. Still not quite sure where I am in time and space. Disturbing feeling.
28/8 2025
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Okay. I think I’m back in my head. In the right space and time. it’s such a weird feeling. I don’t think I’ve blacked out in years. Hopefully it’s not going to be a regular thing, like it was for a while back then.
It’s a scary abut also fascinating feeling. Not really knowing who or where you are. Having to piece back reality.
Had to reconstruct everything. Like digging the facts out of mud. It’s Thursday. Ok. I was supposed to go see the goats but i was depressed and my head aching and i ended up sleeping too long. Ok. I told Jeanette I wasn’t coming today. Spent some time doing some stuff. Ordered pizza as soon as the pizza place opened. And it was about 10 minutes later that it happened. Got that dizzy swooning feeling. The smells and sense memories. i’ve had that a few times the last couple of years without going into the blackout. But today i did. I think i may have fallen asleep too? I think I was dreaming. I think I went out when there was 30-40 minutes left on the pizza countdown. And came back around when there was around 10 minutes. I was still putting things back together in my head when they knocked on my door and I got my pizza. Good thing I wasn’t out when they came here.
But yeah. I keep coming back to the that feeling, how strange it is to not know how you fit into reality. It’s interesting. But also scary. There’s a fear that you’re not goign to be able to piece things back together and that you’re just going to be out of your mind for the rest of your life.
I think i’m back in my mind. It’s Thursday. Had some damn good pizza. There’s soccerballshports tonight and it’s going to suck. I’m going to start working on getting healthy again. I know who and where I am.
I can’t remember if I talked about it at the time, but back when i suffered from the blackouts for a while, I once blacked out while I was waiting for my dad to come over. And when I came back to myself I could see that my dad had been there, but I had no memory of it. I called him and asked if he had noticed anything off about me. He said that I had seemed strange and he hadn’t really been able to get through to me. But I’d been conscious enough to let him in I guess and maybe do basic interactions? So it’s not like I’m completely passed out when I’m in that state.
Anyway. I hope it’s not going to be a regular thing. Maybe it’s because I’ve been living so unhealthily for like a week and a half or two weeks. Maybe it’s something with my blood sugar or blood pressure. Would be another good reason to get back on track. My intention is that this was the last pizza for a good long while. It’s not good for the wallet or the tummy. I need the cleaner living again.
Sorry bout the rambling. That’s a sign that I’m myself, I guess. My thoughts may go off the rails, but at least I’m thinking.
28/8 2025
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Thanks everyone for the comments. I’m feeling okay now. And I’m planning on making a push to get back to healthy living. Starting Saturday. That’s the plan. Hopefully that will set me straight. If I start having regular blackout like I did a couple of years ago then I’ll have to seek medical attention. But for now I’ll be my avoidant self.
In other news, my dad is on his way home from the hospital now. I didn’t get any details really, but they’re sending him home and he sounded good on the phone, so hopefully that is all good.
I daren’t think of what our family would do if we lived in America without or excellent healthcare system here. I’d probably have to start an onlyfans.
Stop cheering, it was an imagined situation, I’m not doing it!
Hope you’re all doing well out there. Feel free to plug your onlyfans in the comments.
28/8 2025
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It’s 11.30 pm and I thought there were explosions outside. I guess it’s just thunder. It’s so loud, it doesn’t really sound like normal thunder. It almost scared me for a second.
Maybe it’s just because I’m still feeling off. Yeah, it hasn’t been a gret day. But here we are. Tomorrow’s another day. Unless the world is exploding. I guess we’ll see.
28/8 2025
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How’s it going?
Well, let me tell you.
I’m not sure. I am not feeling quite myself. Feeling woozy. Kind of dizzy. Kind of feel like I could slip into slipping away. Not the wooshing whirplool like before a blackout. But like.. I’m not quite tethered to reality. Like I was knocked out of my mind yesterday and I have come back in not quite fitting right. Forcing lego bricks together that don’t quite fit.
I don’t know, probably sounds more dramatic and weird than it is. I’m just kind of tired and headachey and woozy.
And my teeth are hurting more. Not completely unbearable pain like before the emergency dentist trips. But rising pain. And some swelling on the left side of my haw. What’s it called the part where your throat goes up under the jaw, is that still just the throat? There’s definitely a difference between the left and the right side.
Soo yeah. I’m thinking on Monday, if things aren’t better, I will call the dentist and see if they can squeeze me in real soon. I wonder if they offer emergency head replacements, because I’m getting real tired of this one.
My dad was over a while ago. He seemed good. Honestly he seemed more clear-headed than he has for a long time. It turns out that the stomach problems that sent him to the hospital were “diverticula”.
“Diverticulitis is inflammation of irregular bulging pouches in the wall of the large intestine” says the internet. So that was why he was having stomach pain and couldn’t eat or sleep well. He said there was no cancer, which is apparently something that it can.. turn into, or be connected to? But none of that. So that’s good. And he seems to be doing well now.
I can’t remember if I mentioned how my brother is doing. Peter’s back home after the rehab stay afte the second hip replacement. No complications this time, so far. So hopefully he’s on the right track now with two new hips.
I haven’t heard if anything relevant came from my mother’s sleep apnea stay at the hospital.
So that’s the family health update.
Thank you all for listening and caring, if you do. Knowing there are people who care is one of the things that keeps me from completely letting go and collapsing, even though it’s been a rough time lately. Trying to hang on and getting on the better path.
29/8 2025
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Hello there, nice to see you again.
I’m feeling a little better, a little more myself. Still a bit tired and woozy, but more tethered to reality and present in my own mind and body. So that’s something. Less good that I’m feeling quite sad and depressed, but hey that’s me.
Thanks everyone for worrying and for the advice and your thougts however they are expressed. Rest assured that I care. If i didn’t care then i would let myself sink into the quicksand and be gone, there is a part of me that craves that. But I’m trying to hang on to the branches you extend me. Maybe I an get away with just leaving my boots in the quicksand, you can always get new boots. New shoes new shoes.
I took painkillers today so I’m not really in pain. i’m going to try to not take any during the weekend so I can get a proper feel for my condition. My plan is still to call the dentist Monday. Seems like I may need another emergency trip, but you know me. Anything to avoid it.
The jaw swelling has gone down a bit I think, but there’s still some. If I raise my head to look at the ceiling I can sort of feel it pulling on the left side of my throat. It’s tighter there.
i am hoping to get some exercise in tomorrow. It has been 18 days since I last exercised. That is pretty bad, and i can’t remember the last time I went that long. Coupled with really unhealthy eating, i think that may be a big cause to the bad shape I’m in. I think when I was suffering from blackouts a couple of years ago, that was before I got on my health journey. I don’t know if the blackouts stopping was connected to me getting in shape, but it seems to me there could be a connection. I’m scared to measure my blood sugar and pressure right now.
So I really need to get back on that good track. And if the teeth/jaw don’t get better over the weekend then deal with that asap. That’s the plan. It’s a better plan than leting myself sink into the quicksand, right?
I’ll be heading to bed soon and then i’ll see how I feel in the morning. Hopefully it’ll be the first step back to a better place. Life’s what happens while you’re busy wearing others’ pants.
29/8 2025
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Oh hi O. Got an hour ten on th bike today. After almost 3 weeks of not exercising and eating really poorly. It was good to get back on the horse, or the stationary bike I should say.
Didn’t push myself too hard, just have to get back into the swing of things. Three weeks off is enough to feel like it’s hard again. My arms are especially sore after the rod exercises. I had to find my way back into the routine. What order do I do things in, what are the warmup steps. I am pretty sure there is dementia in my future, my memory is so bad.
But jut good to get started. The important thing is to keep at it, keep a rhythm going. Then you can ramp up the pressure later. First step is do something, you don’t have to do great right away. That’s what I’m telling myself.
I’m feeling better today. More clear-headed. Still a little foggy, but not as much. My teeth are funnily enough not hurting. But i do still have a swelling on my left jaw, the underside. I am not sure if it has gone down some or if it’s the same as yesterday.
I did lie in bed last night and wonder if I should call the emergency doctor line. Or not. But you know me. The answer is usualy ‘not’. My plan right now is to call the dentist first thing Monday morning. Mark it emergency so they get back to me right away hopefully. And hear what they say. Maybe they’ll tell me to go to the fkn hospital. Or maybe they’ll get me in to look at me asap. Or maybe they’ll me to saw my head off and mail it to them. WHAT’S IN THE BOOOX.
Feeling better physically than I have in the last few days. And mentally, well I guess I’m happy that i got the exercise. The general depression and sadness and worry and despair at the world, well we’ll work on that.
30/8 2025
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The weather today is.. dark.
Last song on today’s exercise mix. I’m not kidding, i just watched this music video because I was preparing the post, and i’m really not even kidding, my heart skipped a beat when I saw Mia. I forgot that they used Mia in their music video. I was actually thinking earlier on the exercise bike, how did I get introduced to Superorganism, in my head it was connected to Mary, but I guess that was because of the shirt she sent me. I had to go back to an old blog entry to read about how I found them linking to my videos because they used the clips in their music video. Funny. Man life is a blur when you have bad memory and cognitive decline.
I’m still a big fan of Superorganism they are funny and clever and groovy and charming. Their music makes me happy and a lot of their songs go well on my exercise mix because they have some good beats.

30/8 2025
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I apologise for the lack of goat content lately. Here is a little Luna to make up for it.

30/8 2025
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hey o hey o, I may need to go to the hospital tomorrow. For now I’m going to bed. I am so smart, s m r t
30/8 2025
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Well I call the vagtlæge, the emergency doctor hotline. They said that they could take me in to have a look, but they felt it would be okay for me to wait till tomorrow morning and contact my dentist. There’s an emergency dentist service too, but apparently that can get real expensive. And since I don’t have a fever, the lady I talked to felt it would be okay to wait to tomorrow. Also because my dentist is more specialised with this and knows my situation and stuff. So yeah. Unless things get worse during the day, then I guess that’s what I’m doing.
I called my dad first to ask advice, he was the one who told me to call the doctor line. i think he would have rather I went to the ER. He was ready to come help me get there and everything, always eager to help.
But we’ll see. I’ll monitor the situation today and then first thing tomorrow call the dentist. And hopefully they can get me in right away.
I’m not feeling great, but i’m not feeling awful. More clearheaded than the last few days.
We’ll see how it goes. Thanks everyone for beign understanding and supportive and challenging me and all that. I may hide it under all the goat fun at times, but I am not an easy person to deal with always. Just ask me, I have to deal with me every. Fkn nightmare.
Alright. Lazy Sunday and then deal with reality, that’s the plan.
31/8 2025
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It’s been… an interesting weekend. I don’t hope to have one like that again any time soon.
We’ll see how it goe tomorrow. I’m feeling fine right now. Other than you know. The fact that my jaw is swollen. If swallow or turn my head up to look at the ceiling i can feel pain as it tightens around the throat. But no fever, and more clearheaded than Thurssday/Friday. I think I should be fine. Hopefully the dentist can fit me in right away.
I’m really tired of not being okay, one way or the other. I haven’t been okay for decades, with diabetes and blindness and anxiety. But you sink into a routine and you cope. When emergency stuff happens there’s no routine. I can’t remember if I already wrote about it, but I was thinking how you don’t think about your teeth when they’re fine. You don’t think about your eyesight when it’s fine. When it goes wrong it’s all you think about.
It’s been a long summer. Colossal worries about movings, meetings, parents health, and teeth. It has not been a great couple of months.
But tomorrow it’s Fall in Denmark. Let’s hope things fall into place.
Hope you’re all doing well out there. Thanks for the support and advice. At least I didn’t do nothing today. Maybe I should have done more. But hopefully I’ll be able to do enough next week.
The only way is… up?
31/8 2025
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That’s all for now.