Good goat times today.
I needed that. Didn’t have the bet of nights last night. I was in a lot of pain. About a month ago or so, I was having big back pains even when I wasn’t doing anything. They went away, I’m not sure if the stretches and exercises I started doing that fixed them. But I stopped doing those. I don’t know if that’s why the pain came back. But it was pretty bad last night. Just lying in bed, it was back pain but it felt like my whole body. Made it hard to sleep.
I did some stretches in bed, and I think I took some painkillers. I am not even sure now. Eventually I did get some sleep. But it was not the nice decaffed night’s sleep I had hoped for, not the start of the week I had wanted.
But thankfully the goating was as good as ever. A bit chilly, I probably should have worn a jacket. But there was a lot of sunshine and it felt very good.
Sky was very bleaty today. She can be very chatty, but usually in bursts. Today it seemed like she was constantly roaring. She’s my sweet girl, and loud girl.
Jeanette dumped off a few new pine trees, so the goats got munching on those. And we had sweet visitors, kids running around in the pen.
It’s funny how kids will sometimes just make up their own stories about the goats. One of the goats, it was probably Luna, must have been headbutting the kids because suddenly they were all going around saying “the other one is pregnant and this one is the father and he got mad because you were touching his wife and he’s protecting his wife and the baby because his wife is pregnant”. Oohkay. Haha. The goats have actual lost some weight I think, but I guess some of them can still pass for preggers…
Another common thing is calling the goats Messi and Ronaldo. Those are soccerball players in case you didn’t know. And they are often referred to as G.O.A.T. Greatest of all time. I am not fond of that abbreviation. I don’t care how good any human is at any thing, they do not qualify for goat status and that’s a hill I’ll berry on. Anyway, if it was up to local kids, most of our goats in the past decade would be called Messi or Ronaldo.
But it’s fun to hear them spin their tales. And the goats are just like, whatever just feed us.
Speaking of, I’m going to feed myself some soup. My pain right now is more normal level. Not the complete crippling body pain. So that’s something.
Soup’s on.

11/5 2026
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Loudbleater Sky. She had a lot of opinions today.

11/5 2026
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Ooh here comes Jeanette with a fresh batch of pine. While Bella patiently waits. Mostly because she cna’t knock the fence down.

11/5 2026
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Not on the first date, Luna! She’s such a little goofball.

11/5 2026
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Got an hour fifty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Felt strong on the bike, that was nice. I did not feel good last night. The pains got really bad. Sort of starting in the lower back, but then reaching all the way up to my upper back, shoulders, down to my legs. Just felt like my whole body was being pulled apart by horses. I feel really bad for people who have that level of pain on a regular basis and OTC painkillers aren’t enough. I can understand how you’d get addicted to stronger painkillers. Thankfully I was able to take some basic painkillers, once I couldn’t stand the pain anymore. And they helped. It’s really hard when you feel you can’t be in your own body. My normal back pain usually comes after activity, and I can lessen it by going into certain positions or just sitting down and relaxing. But this pain is just tearing me apart when I’m just sitting still and no positions seem to really help. How do you deal with that…
It must be nice to have a good body. I don’t mean a strong athletic one, I don’t mean a hot one that makes people go hubba hubba. Just a body you don’t notice. A body that doesn’t make itself heard, that doesn’t hurt, that doesn’t make you ashamed to go out. Just a body that’s there and does its job and goes unnoticed. But I don’t know, maybe no people have that. I’m sure most people have something that bothers them.
Anyway, that was a tangent. Once I couldn’t take it anymore last night I took the painkillers, and they helped me through the night. I felt strong on the bike today, but I felt the pain starting to come into my body towards the end. Did a lot of stretches and exercises on the floor after biking. The last time I had these bad pains they went away after a while, I hope it was the stretchercising and I hpoe it will help again now that I’m starting up with them.
Maybe it will help to drop some weight again. It’s been a crazy rollercoaster ride since my birthday. Pretty much puting on 10 pounds then losing 10 pounds then putting on 10 pounds. Now I’m about halfway through losing 10 pounds again. Hopefully I can keep at it. Lose more and then get stable. That’s the goal.
Oh and I’m halway through day 5 without caffeine. Missing m dark mistress Pepsi. I am not sure if I feel a benefit. I’ll try to keep it going for a few more days. I feel like I’ll probably go back to the Pepsis though, even though it’s dumb. Maybe I’ll just have Pepsi on soup days? I know I talk about soup a lot, but I only actually eat it twice a week, sometimes 3 times. So, maybe I’ll have Pepsi on those days. At least that would limit the caffeine intake a little. I tell you what, there’s nothing as good as taking in some boiling hot soup (I usually start eating it while it’s so hot that it literally burns my mouth) and then following it with iced Pepsi Max. It’s exquisite.
Anyhoo, we’ll see.
Sorry about all the complaints. I’m sure nobody reads through all this, I don’t know why you would! I know I complain a lot. But it helps me to get it all off my chest. I appreciate there are people who are about me. Love uou loves!
12/5 2026
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Stuck in the middle with goats. That’s where I want to be.

12/5 2026
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goatlog

13/5 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for me. Phew, it was harder today. Legs tired after yesterday’s long session. But I did the work. I’m happy about that.
Starting to feel stronger. After the biking I got down on the floor to do back stretches and exercises. So we’ll see how that goes. I had to take painkillers yesterday, both in the evening and at night, just to get by. Haven’t needed it today yet. I’ll probably need some later. But I hope the work to improve will pay off.
At least I’m putting in the effort.
Missing Pepsi and cake, tho.
13/5 2026
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Good goat times today. Back to the goat place where I belong. A bit cold today, the sun struggling to break through clouds. But it did get through a lot. And I made it home before it started raining.
Got a bit of a workout too, chasing goats. It’s a holiday, so no Jeanette. The replacement guy came and gave the goats their water and I told him I’d take care of feeding them. So he thanked me and moved on to other chores. But. He didn’t close the gate to the pen properly. So soon after we had three goats out of the pen. Normally if the goats got out of the pen it wouldn’t be a problem really, I’d let them run around a little and get them in eventually, maybe with their breakfast bowls.
But the guy was feeding the chickens next and the goats had followed him and I was worried they’d start eating chicken feed. The guy didn’t seem to care about any of it at all. Not everyone is as mindful and great at taking care of animals as Jeanette…
Anyway, as I said normally it wouldn’t be too hard to get the goats in eventually. But when you want to get them in RIGHT NOW and you start running around and chasing them, well then they definitely DON’T want to come back in. So I spent 10 minutes or so chasing goats. Had to drag Luna in by her collar and then take her collar and sneak it on Bella and drag her in. But I got them in.
Phew.
Later on I was brushing berries off the podiums and something funny happened. I had swept one side of one podium and moved to the other side and started brushing there. And then Sky came running, jumped up on the podium and proceeded to let berries fly all over it, and then she jumped back down and walked away. Sheesh. I wish I had the camera going, it was pretty funny. I’m not saying she did it on purpose but… well, at least she didn’t poke her tongue out at me.
And now I need me some soup, dontcha know. I’m still off the Pepsi. Sigh. But the soup will be good.
14/5 2026
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A little SkyTime with the rude pooper.

14/5 2026
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It’s a good thing I don’t use that head for anything important…
14/5 2026
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Today is Kristi himmelfarts day in Denmark. Enjoy those himmelfarts as they ascend!
Sorry for the blasphemy. Happy Ascension day to those who partake.
14/5 2026
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Great. I just got notified that my second neuro examination has been moved from May 28th to September. That’s.. a pretty big shift.
I still have the EEG scheduled for next week. I’m not even sure what the second one really is, it just says “examination” in the papers, no details about what they’ll be examining exactly.
Ugh. I have a right to be seen within 1 month, so I can get an appointment at a private hospital instead. But that’s in a whole other region, I’m not sure how far away exactly that is, but it would probably involve travelling, maybe overnight stay.
I.. don’t think I want that.
And. I guess. I’m feeling ok most of the time. I still have the EEG next week. So. I suppose I’ll do the EEG and see if that comes up with anything. And then I’ll just have to make it to September and hope my brain doesn’t explode or I don’t pass out in the street again, and if I do that Jeanette is there to help.
Sigh.
I don’t understand how they can first give me an appointment in May and then move it to September.
But the EEG is still on, maybe that’s the important one.
Oh well.
Life is what happens while you’re busy trying to avoid making other plans.
15/5 2026
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Got an hour ten on the bike today. So I got that going for me. Cut my session short today because I have other things on the agenda.
I talked to my mother about the chaging of the neuro appointment, and she told me something interesting I didn’t know.
Apparently my brother had some kind of possibly epileptic incidents when he was younger. In school. Mom said he would be sitting in class and seem to be listening to the eacher, but afterwards it was like he’d been in a trance and he couldn’t remember anything that had been said.
That sounds quite a lot like on of the variants of my attacks, or whatever they are.
When I have my spells I seem to either collapse and may pass out, like what happened when Jeanette found me and I got sent to the emergency room.
Or sometimes I seem to go almost on autopilot, trance like? It has happened at least twice while I have been around other people. My dad and Jeanette. And both times they have noticed me being a little off or so, but not enough that they realised anything was wrong. And both times I had zero memory of seeing them when I came back. That sounds kind of like what happened to Peter, my brother.
Apparently my brother stopped having those spells at some point. Mom also mentioned that my dad had something like that when he was a kid too, but she didn’t give me much more details about that. And she didn’t seem to think it was super important. But it sounds like it could be kind of significant, if there’s a family history of these kinds of things. Although with both Peter and dad it was when they were kids. And of course I don’t know if it’s the same thing that’s happening to me.
But yeah, we better bring that up to the neuro docs. I don’t know how much they ‘ll talk to me during the EEG thing next week. If they’ll just do the scan and send me home or if we’ll actually discuss the whole thing more in depth. maybe the second appointment was to discuss it all more.
Anyway. I guess we’ll see how it all goes. One day a day. It’s not like I’m going crazy or anything, that’s what the pigeons on my balcony tell me. I know I shouldn’t consult them about medical advice, but honestly they’re not great at small talk so I prefer to keep it professional.
15/5 2026
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Triple goat score. Again you may need the zoom to win Where’s Sky.

15/5 2026
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Got an hour fifty on the bike today. So I got that going for me. Back to fairly fit now, working hard. Feeling stronger, mentally too. Not waking up every morning thinking “Just give up, stay in bed, then get up and order pizza cake”. Now I think “Let’s get up and I can work out and get fitter”. Yeah yeah, I’m a well oiled machine now. Okay, a broken machine. But a well oiled broken machine.
At least I’m putting in the effort. To give myself some credit. So far I have been able to come back from all the setbacks. What’s the Rocky saying, it’s not how you fall it’s how you get back up?
Let’s hope I can keep at it now. The EEG thing may pose some mental challenges, we’ll have to see.
Today I also got a Pepsi & cucumber delivery. WITHOUT PEPSI. I know, it’s a mad mad mad world.
I have been using the grocery delivery service for years now. I think this may be the first ever delivery without any Pepsi Max. This is my 9th day in a row without Pepsi. Has it made any difference without the caffeine? I am not sure, to be honest. The pain influx has made it hard to tell if I’m doing better really. But I think maybe I have been sleeping a little better? I think I’m going to keep going without Pepsi for a little while longer. Maybe till after the EEG. And then I tink I’ll probably do as I previously talked about, drinking Pepsi on days when I have soup. So mostly two days a week. And to be clear, I’ll be drinking replacement diet sodas on the other days, so I’m still poisining myself. Just not with caffeine. I am not in a place where I feel I can do without the sodas. Maybe some day, but not right now.
Speaking of the pain, how’s that going? Well, I don’t want to get too optimistic becaus that’s when life kicks in the nads. But I feel like maybe it has gotten better. I have been doing a lof of the stretches that I think helped in the past. And I think it has helped maybe. I’m still taking painkillers sometimes. Yesterday I took some before bedtime, but mostly as a precaution. I hadn’t needed them all day. So that’s an improvement. I mean, I still have back problems, no doubt. But the constant bad pain even when doing nothing at all, that’s really hard to deal with. So I hope that’s gotten better. Cautiously optimistic.
I think that’s all for the health update. Next week of course is the big EEG. So that will be.. interesting.
16/5 2026
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Bella, the tireddest goat in all of Denmark. She could have used a pillow there.

16/5 2026
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Dramatic sky (not the goat, that’s Bella) from Thursday. The dark clouds and the rain moving in to chase the sun away and cover the blue skies. One white cloud trying to hold back the dark.

16/5 2026
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goatlog

17/5 2026
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Taking it easy today.
I tried making an appointment at the dentist. Now that the second neuro appt is postponed, I should have capacity for a dentist visit soon. But. The dentist’s online booking platform did not work. Ffffk. So now I’ll have to call instead. Which I hate. Talking to people on the phone triggers all my anxieties. I really prefer an online system where I can sit and look at available times and consider what fits best with my schedule and needs. Oh well.
I also took some time today to look at my old history, about the blackout. Since I turned my blog site into a facebox archive I can go back and easily find important events. I have a document with like a calendar and headlines and stuff. So searching for blkacout incidents was pretty easy.
So I could go back and find the first recorded incident. August 8th 2022. And then there were 7 more incidents until May 11th 2023. And then one in November 2023. And then nothing until this year. I wish I could pinpoint some kind of common denominator, some obvious vause and effect. Maybe it’s just random. I don’t know. It was interesting reading back to my first facebook posts about it. How scary it was when I didn’t know what was going on. Okay, I still don’t know really what’s going on. But now when it happens I’m like “oh I blacked out again, let’s get back on track”. But hey let’s hope it doesn’t happen anymore. Maybe the EEG will show something. Maybe my brain has been replaced with a cup of noodles, you never know.
Anyway, no big plans for today. Just starting to gear up for next week’s big event.
Hope you’re all enjoying your weeked end.
17/5 2026
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The grass is always greener…

17/5 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. All is right when I am with the goats.
It rained overnight, so the ground was wet. But by the time I was out, so was the sun. Lovely sunny day. Sweet goats relaxing in the sunshine, in between the headbutting and begging for treats.
Nice visitors too. Kids feeding the goats. And a lady said it was good to see me and asked if I was okay. My collapse and absense was noticed apparently!
No collapses today. Although I’m not feeling quite right in the head.. but as long as it doesn’t end in an ambulance ride then I guess it’s okay.
I am really tired now. Also hungry. Better grab some soup.
There’s other stuff to talk about, but that will have to wait till later. Soup priority!
4/5 2026
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I was surprised to see this. Luna and Sky one the platform together. I wonder how that happened, normally Sky would take flight if Luna approached.

4/5 2026
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So, today I got another notice of an appointment at the neuro clinic. This one in two weeks, the first one is in a month.
I was a little confused at first, wondered if this was a replacement for the first appointment I got, maybe they managed to get me a slot sooner. But no, it’s a different appointment. This one if the eeg appointment. I am not sure if the appointment in a month is going to be for discussing results of the eeg or if it’s for other tests.
I haven’t really had a super close look at the documents yet. I am finding it a little overwhelming to be honest. It’s good that stuff is happening. But it’s scary too. And a lot. And my avoidant mind is screaming at me to.. avoid it. Bury my head in the sand. Cancel appointments. Pretend nothing is wrong. DO NOT DEAL WITH IT. But, I know that’s what i did for far too long. Now I don’t have any choice, have to deal with it.
They say you have to have dry clean hair for the eeg. I wonder if it’s ok to be bald? I’m going to call in and ask, just to be sure. It would be super weird if I had to grow out my hair haha. I haven’t had hair on my head in… decades? I would imagine a bald head would be better actually, but better to make sure I guess.
It is difficult to deal with it all. I don’t know how evident it is, since I blabber on constantly on facebook, but I am a very guarded person. And letting people in is super hard. They’re going to be looking at my brain waves and stuff. What if they find something wrong with me? Or worse, what if they find nothing wrong and there’s no explanation for what’s going on. What if they find out that my brain has been replaced by a toy train set somehow, I mean i’m not sure how that would happen but I can’t rule it out.
There’s just a lot going on right now, it’s making it hard to get back on the good path of helth too. I just want more cake and pizza and to sleep all day and hide away.
Stupid real world intruding on my brain cells.
What if my brain still communicates on a 56kbps modem, I hope they have the right kind of plugs to connect up.
The letter says that it’s okay if I show up tired, so I can sleep during the test. Sounds like I don’t HAVE to sleep, I can just relax. Or sleep.
I’ll have to look at it all tomorrow and make a game plan.
Maybe I can get a brain transplant. One from Abby. NORMAL
4/5 2026
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Does anyone know if Tenacious D have an alibi for the correspondents’ dinner?
4/5 2026
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Luna sat down on the bench with me. Glad she still likes to sit herself down against me like that.

4/5 2026
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Sky under the blue sky.

4/5 2026
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🎶 strange you never knew 🎵

5/5 2026
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Today is Liberation Day in Denmark.
It is not a day that has ever really mattered to me. I know that’s not a great thing to say. But you know. It has just been a mark in the calendar. It’s not even a holiday so there isn’t even the annoyane of stores being closed. It’s just… this strange artefact. It seems like fiction. like Matador, that we all watched over and over. Something kind of funny, kinda quaint.
For those of us who didn’t live through it, i mean.
It’s kind of hard imagining it being real. And imagining living through. Occupying forces. War.
And now, we live in a time where the leader of our greatest ally is winning peace prizes while threatening to take our territory by military force.
Is this going to be quaint and funny to some future generations?
I mean, it’s kind of funny right now. But just more “insane funny” than “haha funny”.
Looking back at human history, how insane has it all been. I thought we were progressing. Moing forward. But something has happened. And we are regressing.
Now, of course you can’t blame that all on one person.
But I’d sure like to.
bla bla.
Light a candle, start a fire.
5/5 2026
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Triple goat score. You may have to hit the zoom to spot the Sky.

5/5 2026
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Got an hour twenty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Back in the saddle. Again again again. The rollercoaster continues. I once again fell backwards, had some pretty bad days. There has just been so much, and I have not been coping well with it.
So now it’s back to square minus 10. And I will have to try to do better, and keep at it.
Went from treading water to sinking to the bottom.
But hey oh, got on the bike today. So that’s step one. I’ll get back to the surface.
Just have to do it bit by bit, don’t let it overwhelm me.
I tried calling the neuro clinic today, to ask if it’s ok to come in bald. I assume it is, but I just want to hear it from them. Their letter said their phone hours are 8-15. The phone system told me their phone hoursare 8-11. Well alrightey then. I guess I’ll try again tomorrow then!
Bit by bit, little by little, step by step, day by day, one day a day.
Not doing great mentally and physically, but I can get through the next hour.And then do that 24 times and you’re through a day. And so on and so forth. I WAS TOLD THERE WOULD BE NO MATH.
6/5 2026
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Good goat times today. A lovely sunny day. Not super hot, but when you’re just sitting outside in the sunshine, it’s lovely.
Lots of lazing about with the goats. Lune was funny sitting down today, she kept rolling over on her side. And I may have given her a tiny push to roll her over and expose her belly. You know I gotta scratch that goat belly..
Sweet visitors running around too, and the lovely fragrance of Jeanette making popcorn on the campfire.
Just a lovely spring day.
Had another big excursion today, but I’ll tell you about that later. I need to get some some soup in me, before I scratch my belly.
7/5 2026
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Luna is rolling around. Pay not attention to the man behind the shadow.

7/5 2026
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Hey, look at that view!
I got to visit Helle in her apartment today! How lovely. She actually lives in the building where I got that first offer for a new apartment, the one I did not take.
But yes, as I mentioned the other day I have to return the mobile broadband router that I was using for my emergency connection when I moved in. And since Helle had business in the ISP store downtown, she offered to take my router and return. Which means I don’t have to worry about return labels and shipping and whatnots. So that’s a big help, and as always Helle is just the best and so helpful.
She also helped me with some print work. There’s a form I have to fill out before the EEG stuff, she printed that for me. And I wrote a little notice for my wallet, about my situation and who I am. In case I pass out in the street again and someome who doesn’t know me finds me. Apparently the paramedics checked my wallet and didn’t find any ID, I do have some ID tucked in somewhere. But anyway. A little notice explaining why I may be passed out and some info, I thought that would be a smart thing to have on me. And Helle even has a little machine that can make laminated cards, so she offered to do that for me too. Super handy! Now I have a little laminated info card to bring with me.
So once again I consider myself super lucky that I have gotten to know Helle. What an amazing person she is. Always working to make the world a better place, for individuals like myself and for the bigger picture. I can’t say enough good things about her. I am so thankful.
And other than that it was just really nice to see her place and spend a little time with. I’m not good at socializing, but she showed me around and I got to meet her cat (who is just bigboned, we don’t use the F word). It was really sweet, and Helle is great company.
I have been really struggling lately, and it feels like there’s so much I have to deal with and thing about. It’s so good to know people like Helle and Jeanette, and feel like they are on my side. And sometimes I even spend time with two-leggers.

7/5 2026
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Hi Sky!

7/5 2026
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Got an hour thirtyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for my.
Trying trying trying to stay on track. My brain is demanding cake and pizza and to be left in bed. But here I am, not in bed. And not eating anything bad. And tired legs after a good workout. I guess that’s a win.
And got other stuff done. Got the call to the neuro clinic done. Asked them if it was okay to show up with a bald head. And yes, as suspected, that’s fine. The lady I talked to said it would probably be even better tahn with a head of hair. So that’s fine. I figured as much. I just wanted to be sure. Imagine if I’d shown up for the EEG and they’d said “go home and grow some hair”. IMAGINE. It’s just better to have asked and made sure, even if the question seems obvious.
There’s a week and a half till the EEG exam. I’m not worried about the test itself, but dealing with all the transport and peoples and all that, I am not looking forward to all that. But hopefully I can get some answers from it.
Also today got a deliver of Pepsi and cucumbers. Pepsi was on sale, so I got 15 bottles of 1½ litres. And funnily enough, I’m planning to not drink any Pepsi Friday/Saturday/Sudnay. Going to try to do a little decaf test. I tried that once before, but didn’t realise that the replacement soda I was using also had caffeine. This time I have done research got some other diet sodas that do not have caffeine. So, I’ll still be having diet soda, which I know is not good. But at least I’ll get to try a few days without caffeine. I figure it won’t make any real difference. I think I’m probably pretty desensitized to caffeine. With the Pepsi and Faxe, I get probably 2-3 litres of caffeinated drink EVERY day. For decades.
Anyway, we’ll see how that goes. An experiment for the weekend.
There’s still a lot of stuff to deal with. But as always, the Low Battery indicator is blinking. Theoretically I should schedule a dentist visit in the week between the two neuro appointments. But I just.. don’t have capacity. I need like a week of nothing serious happening in between the neuro appointments. I need… time. I can barely handle one thng a week.
Anyway. At least I got exercised.
8/5 2026
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I did not come home empty handed from my visit to Helle yesterday. She gifted me this “stay positive” sign. On brand! I haven’t given proper thought to the placement yet, but for now it’s resting up against my old computer, next to my treasured goat day painting. First thing i see when I enter my apartment. I need to clean the desk, but it’s nice to have some positive input in your eyeball.

8/5 2026
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For the premium subscribers, a little preview of a future video. Luna’s on a roll!
8/5 2026
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Keiko asked to see Helle’s cat. So here she is, Otilie!
She’s on a diet. I think Helle said that the vet had called her.. Denmark’s fattest cat? Or the world’s? Or something like.While Helle insists it’s just a metbolism issue.. but the vet felt a diet was in order. My vet says the same about me.

8/5 2026
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Got an hour thirtyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Unfortunately it hasn’t been the best of days. I went to bed pretty early yesterday, thinking I’d get up early today. When I woke up today my depression was really bad. So bad that when I tried to get out of bed my head said “I just can’t”. So I ended up staying in bed 3-4 hours longer. Every time I tried to get up, my head refused.
But I did get up eventually. And I managed to refuse my head’s demands to order cake and pizza and sit and watch youtube all day. That’s what my depression craves.
So I’m glad I managed to get on the bike. It wasn’t fun. I had the “slept too much” headache and the sadness. But sometimes it’s nice to switch the head off and just do the physical thing. So at least I got that done.
I wonder if it’s caffeine withdrawal that kicked me, or if it was just regular depression that I often get. It does feel worse than normal, but who knows. Sure could go for a Pepsi and a pizza right now…
But I’ll be good, for today. See how it goes.
One day a day. Adopt, adapt and improve. Stay Positive.
Et puis seulement quand c’est fini, alors on danse
9/5 2026
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Think goat thoughts.

9/5 2026
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goatlog

10/5 2026
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Oh hi, hello. How’s it going?
I am feeling considerably better today than yesterday. I don’t know if it’s because I slept better (less) or the caffeine detox is improving or if it’s just random. It’s hard to tell sometimes, because honestly I am a big jumbled mess of various pains, mental and physical. Doesn’t help that especially during wekeends there’s a neighbour that smokes a lot and it gets in my apartment, I think that contributed a lot to my headache yesterday.
But anyway. Day 3 of no Pepsi. I miss it. I’m going to try to keep it going for another couple of days, and then make an evaluation if I feel like it improves anything in my life, especially sleep. I need to feel that not drinking Pepsi has a positive effect. Otherwise I’m going back to Pepsi. Because I do miss my dark mistress.
I finally sat down and got the hospital info compiled, all the stuff that needs to be done for my two upcoming neuro clinic visits. Got it mailed off to mom (happy mother’s day, thank you for all that you do!). She’s going to come with me to the appointments. I’m going to need help finding my way around the hospital place. I think it’s pretty big and complicated, but my parents have some experience with it. And they have sight, wich helps. And she’ll fill out the form with info that they need, about health status, med list, all that info. I sure do appreciate the help.
Hopefully next week will be pretty quiet and simple. And then the week after, the hospital business starts. And we’ll see how it goes and what happens.
One day a day.
Thank you alls for your help and support. I am glad your mothers had you, and those of you who are mothers I salute you. One of the loveliest things has been seeing some of my friends from way back become wonderful mothers to amazing children. Thank you for all you. May the future right itself and make a better world for the next generations.
10/5 2026
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Sky is kissing the week goodbye. Let’s hope the next one will go smoothly.
Day three of no Pepsi has been conquered. We’ll see how long I can and want to keep going. As with all things, one day a day.

10/5 2026
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That’s all for now.