Good goat times today. Back to the happy place with no worries. And Jeanette back! So good to see her again. Chatting with he about her vacation, and the stuff going on with me. Just happy to have her back, for me and for the gaots.
And we got 4 new feathers too. Jeanette went to get them. I haven’t seen them yet, I guess they have to stay locked in thee coop for a couple of weeks. To acclimate I suppose. There was a whole lot of squawking coming from over by the chicken house, and I thought it was the newbies complaining about being moved or whatever, but then Jeanette told me that it was the oldfeathers making a fuss. I guess they weren’t too happy having to share their digs. We’ll see if the newfeathers will want to come hang out with the goats. Since Red Sonja passed we haven’t really had any of the hens hanging out with us much, even when they’re allowed out. Let’s hope. It’s nice havine feathers with the furs.
And I had my sweet fun with the goats. At one point I managed to get Bella and Luna to think that my shoe was some kind of dangerous animal. I was moving my leg around and they were trying to attack it and headbutt it and Luna was pawing at it. Watch out for the shoe-beast!
I may have gotten Luna a little too worked up. Twice she headbutted visiting kids. Oops. She has been behaving well otherwise, so that wasn’t great. Thankfully the kids weren’t too scared and their adults took it calmy too. “That means she doesn’t want to talk anymore”. Yeah, Luna doesn’t always like kids. I have noticed she makes her funny almost growling sounds at me too if I sort of squat down. So I seem shorter. Maybe she just doesn’t like short people. She’s a weirdo sometimes. But so sweet and a great hugger too.
Alright. There’s more stuff to discuss, but I think I need me some soup now. A fairly chill day, temps struggling to get up around 20C/68F. But it was nice when the sun was out. Ok, soup’s ahoy, matey.
17/8 2026
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Beware the Fell Beast, Luna.

17/8 2026
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Triple goat score. Three goats taking it breezy.

17/8 2026
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In non goats news. I went grocery shopping today. I have rarely done that since I started getting deliveries. Maybe a handful of times the last few years.
But I am planning to try to maybe along with drinking water, maybe eat some fruit. Yeah yeah. I’m hoping for the next two days to be exercise and water and fruit. And protein powder and vitamins and stuff. But. I’d like to try a couple of days without soda. See if that has any effect on anything.
Since I’m not sure about the delivery situation, I thought I’d stop by the grocery store and get some fresh fruit. Fresh fruit is the one place where getting deliveries isn’t always great. You can’t pick your own fruit, and sometimes the quality just isn’t great. I have more or less stopped eating cucumbers because the ones I were getting just weren’t good enough. I think I have mentioned it before. When it comes to cucumbers, I prefer the long skinny ones. Stop snickering in the back. The short fat ones just don’t taste good. I have got it in my head that they’re pumped full of water, I don’t know if that’s completely wrong or not. But I just don’t like them. Bananas haven’t been lasting very long lately either. Maybe that’s just because it’s late in the season, they were pretty good earlier. But it’s just nice being able to pick out your own fruits and greens.
So I did that. The grocery store is only a minor detour on my way home from the goats. Maybe 10 minutes extra walking. But then there’s the time spent in the store too of course.
The worst thing for me is the checkout. It severely triggers my social phobia and anxiety. Especially paying with my card. I used to always pay with cash, to avoid the card machine. For decades I used to literally tansfer money to my dad via bank and then he’d go downtown and withdraw cash and give it to me. Spoild as I was. I think it was only last year I started actually using my physical card. After decades. I think the first time was at the dentist last year.
Those card readers are just really hard for me. I can’t see it well enough. At least when the amount is below a certain treshhold you don’t have to enter your pin. But even then it’s hard. Today I was waving my card over the reader and I think I got some error message but I couldn’t tell for sure, I turned my card over and tried waving it around some more. And then suddenly the receipt started printing. Oh, I guessI paid. It’s just severely triggering, when you have a queue of people behind you and you don’t know if it’s working or not. Ugh. It must be nice to be able to do things like that without wanting to run away screaming. If you can pay at the grocery store without a panic attack, appreciate it.
And the walk home carrying stuff isn’t fun. Apples, bananas, cucumbers, tomatoes, some bread. And some sparkling water. Four bottles of sparkling water with natural citrus flavouring. I’m going to try that the next couple of days, to get some of that carbonation.
So we’ll see how it goes the next couple of days. Writing about it in public puts al ittle pressure on me to actually follow through. But the depression devil on my shoulder is already whispering, wouldn’t it be nice to just stay in bed tomorrow and then get cake and pizza and fries and drink Pepsi, wouldn’t it just?
What a jerk.
I came home and checked on the parking space.
To recap. I had originally gotten notified that the parking space would be shut off on Monday the 3rd. And then nothing happened for two weeks, cars still parked there, trash bins still there. No change that I could see. And then I got notified that today they would start digging and the parking space would be shut off and all cars had to be gone by 7 am.
When I came home from goating and shopping… there were still cars parked in front of our entrance and the trash bins were still there and I couldn’t see any change.
I almost started wondering if I was going crazy. Maybe I’m in the wrong universe. Maybe I’m in Universe A where nothing is changing but I’m getting notifications from Universe B where they’re digging and stuff.
But not too long after I got home, I got a text message from the housing association. Saying that the digging work had begun but it couldn’t be completed until all cars were gone, so please remove your cars immediately!
So I guess that’s why I didn’t see anything changed, people hadn’t moved their cars like they were supposed to.
The text message also contained some new and useful information. They are expecting the digging work to be completed Thursday. So that dig IS a temporary thing. And it kind of sounded from the message like people would be able to park by our entrance again when it’s done. So. Maybe I’ll still be able to get deliveries when that is done? Maybe my parents can still visit? Maybe everything will be fine? Yeah yeah I shouldn’t get my hopes up. I hope people will get their cars moved and the digging gets done and then I’ll see.
Sorry bout the boring update. But that’s my life!
Let’s hope I can accomplish the exercise-water-fruit plan for the next couple of days. I just want to see. What it feels like to not be dosing on asparmatam or whatever it’s called.
17/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Good start to the day. Didn’t feel so hard to get going, motivated to get on the bike. So far so good. Now comes the hard part of the project. Eating fruit and drinking water for the rest of the day. No Pepsi. No cake, no pizza, no fries, no biscuits, no butter, no licorice. Just fruits and water. Oh boy! I’m not planning to live like that for an extended period time. I’d just like a couple of ‘pure’ days. Keeping things natural. Seeing if that makes me feel any different than when I’m mainling asspartynams and processed junk. Maybe it’ll be too short a time to tell a difference, but hey I’ll see. If I can get through two days, maybe I’ll extend a few days more. Or maybe I’ll cave tonight and call for an emergency pizza- You never know.
But so far so good.
Gonna grab me some yummy maters and cukes tonight. From the grocery store. I love tomatoes and cucumbers, when they’re good. Years ago when I had my first big weight loss, a lot of it was built around cucumber and tomato. Just a big plate of that, that’s a satisfying meal to me. Channeling my inner goat.
18/8 2026
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Rest in peace Hayden Panettiere. I was shocked to see the headline yesterday morning. Partly because she was so young. Only 36. That’s so sad. And it surprised me, because it feels like she was around forever. But I guess she was just so young when she was on Heroes. I loved Heroes, at least the first season. That was back in the Lost days and it was one of those shows that tried, and for a while succeeded, to capture the kind of mystery vibe of Lost. And I loved Hayden on it. She was so cute and coold and funny. Save the cheerleader, save the world.
Partly also shocked because , I literally just finished reading her memoir. I think it was released in May. I finished it less than a week ago. And it was an audibook narrated by herself. So I had spent a week or two listening to her voice. I couldn’t believe it when I saw that headline.
The book was rough too. It was hard to hear all the things she went through. I won’t go in to all that, but it was a lot. And to see it end like this. Such a sad stor with a heartbreaking ending.
We failed the cheerleader and I don’t have much hope for the world.
18/8 2026
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Me when the pizza guy arrives. JUST HAND IT OVER DUDE!
..But not today. Heading to bed soon and it seems I have succeded in my goal. Water and fruits today. I am craving unhealthy things, but I know it’s mostly mental.
Let’s see if I can do it again tomorrow.
18/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Phew, two days in a row. First I managed that since the Bad July. So that’s good. Tired morning, but not crushed by depression. Motivated to get on the bike and work on my little project. Can I do it today too? Fruit and water? I think so. I was planning to do it for two days, but maybe I’ll extend it a little. Rest of the week? I’ll have to add some soup too, can’t go without that. But going without sodas and baked goods and all the unhealthy junk, that would be fun to try. We’ll see. One day a day. Looking forward to some tomatoes, cucumber, banana, pears and apple. Feeling fruity, might do some jazz hands.
19/8 2026
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In a post a couple of days I promised big cash prizes to anyone who could guess what music I was listening to. I only goy one guess, and they didn’t get it.
What was I listening to? David Duchovny. Bet no one could have guessed that! Yes, Fox Mulder. X-Files.
I stumbled upon the fact that he had released an album. I had no idea he did music. So I thought to myself I thought “eh why not” and I acquired it and put it on. And my first thought when he started singing was “oooh, no”. I was not impressed, haha.
But I have been listening to it for a few days, and it has grown on me. His voice isn’t exactly amazing. But I don’t mind it. Maybe it’s just because it’s a voice I know from all his TV shows. But I kind of like it. Some of the lyrics are decent. The music is a nice chill singer/songwriter thing. It doesn’t set my soul on fire, but I kind of like it. So if you’ve ever wanted to hear Fox Mulder jam, well maybe it’s something for you.
After reading Haysen Panettiere’s memoir, I read Last Chance To See by Douglas Adams. Speaking of people who died too young. I mentioned on Bluesky a while ago, I’m only one year younger than Adams was when he passed. Gone too soon.
I enjoyed Last Chance To See a lot, mostly. He was such a great writer and his passion for animal preservation was wonderful.
The book is about him going to see endangered animals, spreading awareness and such. Some of it was wonderful. The only part I didn’t like was the part about the Komodo dragon. Specifically because it involved slaughtering a goat and feeding it to Komodo dragons and some pretty graphic descriptions of it all. And that part I just happened to be listening to just as I arrived at the goat playground last week. Erk. I could have done without that.
To his credit, Adams himself clearly was upset by it. He said something like, he set out to see monster creatures but the only monstrous thing he saw was the way the humans treated the goat.
And of course I also didn’t like how humans are endangering species and ruining the planet. But tell that to the people who happily cheer for regimes who greedily and gleefully destroy the environment for profit. Who needs animal species when you can have oil!
Let’s destroy the environment and just keep the cutest animal species in zoos, win win kaching.
Alright, stop the political ranting.
Movie wise I watched The Mandalorian And Grogu. I really enjoyed the first half or so. Swol Hutt is a sexy mf, there I said it. The second part it just got too hard for me to follow visually and I sort of tuned out. Not an amazing movie, but if you keep your expectations low and think of it as a big budget episode of the TV show then I think it’s very satisfying.
Enjoying the new season of Ted Lasso too. I have seen people say it’s not good, but it’s working for me. I love the new coach, hope she sticks around. And just good to see the gang again. Comfort TV.
I guess that’s all. I seem to have made it through day two of exercise, fruit and water. I didn’t know if I could do it, but apparently I could. I’ll have to consider what to do now. I can’t keep it quite this sparse, but I really should try not to go back to the worst unhealthy behaviour.
Have to see if the parking lot digging will be done tomorrow too. I haven’t gotten anymore messages from the housing assoc telling people to move their cars, so they must have been able to start the work. Planning to try a grocery delivery in the weekend, so we’ll see how that goes.
Thanks for listening, if you so. Thank for sticking with me, if you have. Thanks for supporting me so much, when you do. I appreciate you. Sometimes it feels like good people are an endangered species
19/8 2026
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Good goat times today. The weather is cooling down, but when the sun is out it is still quite lovely.
Lots of visitors today. It’s easier when Jeanette is there. But i did have to do a lot of peopling. Lots of kids in the pen. We had a sweet Luna visit. A boy came over to me and Luna on the bench. He was guiding a girl over to us. His Danish wasn’t be the best, so when he mention “Luna” I said yes, this goat is Luna. But then he said “this is Luna to!”. Turns out the girl was called Luna too, so Luna got to meet Luna. That was very sweet.
Lots of kids running around and petting the goats and asking questions.
And Jeanette dumped off a fresh load of pine. Those goats have gotten so much pine this year, much more than the one or two christmas trees they used to get. Lucky goats.
Now i’m going to get me some soup. The first non-fruit meal for me since Monday. Looking forward to that!
20/8 2026
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Here’s one of today’s Lunas.

20/8 2026
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Bella and Luna enjoying the pine.
Still tickles me that a month after christmas I settled myself to accepting that the goats would be getting no trees this year. And then Jeanette acquired a neighbouring area with lots of pine that had to be cleared out. Jackpot for the goats.

20/8 2026
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Nongoats news for today.
i went grocery shopping again today. Wanted more fresh fruit.
It went okay, apart from when the cashier for some reason didn’t tell me the total of my purchase. And I was standing there waiting for him to say it. While I guess he was just waiting for me to pay. After some awkward silence he said “it’s not working”. I guess he thought I’d tried my card. So I asked what the total was and he said it and I used my card, and this time it went much easier.
Am I wrong in thinking they’re supposed to say the total before you pay? I guess when paying with card or phone you don’t NEED to hear the total before paying. But I feel like they usually do. It’s a nice sign for someone who is visually impaired that hey, all your goods are scanned and we’re ready to proceed. I can’t exactly take visual cues for when I’m supposed to pay.
Yeah, I don’t enjoy the cash register or the walk home carrying stuff. But when not buying heavy sodas it’s not too bad. And being able to pick out fresh fruit is nice.
Came home and found the parking lot shut off. With fence and cinderblocks. I didn’t see anyone working or any big dig holes. But hopefully they have finished the work today as they said in the message on Monday that they would. Hopefully the parking space will be opened again. I was thinking of trying a test grocery order on Saturday, but I think I’ll wait to next week. See if the parking space is open. I still tress and worry about it all.
Soup was great today. And had more fruit. And no soda. I really missed the Pepsi while eating soup. I really love taking a mouthful of burning hot soup and then taking a swill of ice cold Pepsi. Sigh.
But I am thinking of going through the rest of the week without soda. And then going back to Pepsi on Monday. I know it would be better for my health overall to not do soda. But I have been off the Pepsi for a while now and it hasn’t really made me feel any different. If I don’t feel any different from being completely off all soda by Sunday, then it’s back to Pepsi. I miss it. So there.
I am not going to keep eating all fruits. As I said, I had soup today. And I’ll start adding more stuff back to my diet. But I woould really like it if I could not order junk food and cake, at least for a while. At least until I have lost some weight…
Now that I’m 17 paragraphs into the entry and people have probably stopped reading, I guess I can admit… I put on almost 15 pounds during Bad July (and some of August). I completely let go and spent an insane amount of money and put on a lot of weight. Luckily my weight was so low that I’m still in fair to decent weight. Not back to my old obesity. But still. That’s a lot to put on in a short time. And I am sure that’s why my back pains have gotten really bad again. I need to lose some weight now. The exercise is going well, but the diet is a struggle. Still, I’ve made it through three days with only fruit, apart from the soup, and the protein powder. So I hope I can keep things under control. Lose some weight, before letting some unhealthy things back in the diet.
Bla bla bla.
It’s tough. Like today i had some really frustrating tech problems. I won’t boew you (more) with the details, but I spent hours on frustrating troubleshooting and trying things. And without much success. And it is leaving me so frustrated and the desire to do self-destructive things have heightened. and the devil on my shoulder tells me to just get some pizza and cake and that will make me forget it all. Jerk.
So well we’ll see. If I can keep things under control. If the parking opens up. It’s been quite a while since I had blackout, so now that’s something I sort of dread. Is one coming? The longer I go without one, the more likely it would be to come soon.
And so on and so forth. I need to get to bed soon. It was a good day until the frustration set in. My mind is a fragile thing, it doesn’t take much to throw me out of balance and then the negative thoughts take over.
20/8 2026
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21/8 2026
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Taking it easy today, after all the activity this week. And that’s quite nice.
Not feeling super great though. Didn’t sleep well. And the frustration from yesterday is still ingering. Fueling negative thoughts and depression. The devil telling me that nothing matters anyway and I should just order pizza and cake. Jerk. He does have a point, though…
No no. i’m resisting. Sticking to my plan. No soda for the rest of hte week. Mostly fruit today.
Tinnitus still going, btw. At least I haven’t blacked out. I feel like they often come in weekends though.. so. I’m sure it’s fine.
One day a day.
21/8 2026
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Jeanette didn’t just bring pines for the goats, she also brought a new pallet for me. Asked if I could use it for something.
I didn’t really have any good ideas for it, I ended up putting it there, next to the logs. You know goats love standing on things, and I think standing on one thing and stepping over to another, that kind of works their brain cells a little. Okay, it’s not rocket science. But just good to have things to deal with for them. And it works pretty well when Bella is standing on the logs, then Luna can stand on the pallet. Everyone has a place to stand.
All three of them spent some time on the pallet. It’s something.

21/8 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Tired muscles today, but I put in a good effort I must say. Working hard. I have dropped four pounds, although it’s probably mostly water weight and bloatedness and stuff. But it’s good to see the numbers go down. Just as unhealthy things are addictive, healthy things can be too. When you get into a good rhythm, it feels good to work hard and see results and you want to keep that going. It sure is better a better way to get endorphins than unhealthy things. A lot cheaper too.
So that’s good. I’ll have water and fruit today. Hoo. Ray? Looking forward to Pepsi on Monday. But for now, a clean day.
I’ve had more tech troubles, but let’s forget about that now. And I wonder if the parking lot is open. Can’t be bothered going down to check, I’ll check on Monday. Hooves crossed.
*puts on wizard hat and robes*
TTYL
22/8 2026
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Let’s play another round of Where’s Sky. You may need to zoom…

22/8 2026
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For the premium subscribers, some funny Luna noises and a berryfall.
22/8 2026
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23/8 2026
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Do you ever look in the mirror and think to yourself “I wish I was made of chocolate, because I really don’t need a left hand that much, I could eat a nice chocolate hand”.
Everything is fine, I am not hallucinating. Chocolate withdrawal isn’t a real thing, stop jumping on my head tiny chocolate bunnies.
23/8 2026
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Rolling thunder outside. It does sound quite cool when you’re up in the air.
Looks like we might get a couple of almost hot days ahead. That would be nice. The weather is feeling more and more like fall. It’s cold in the morning now. For me. I’m going to miss having the doors open and being too hot. July was bad for me, but still. Blazing head and super unhealthy food. I wish I could live like that, without consequences. Stupid consequences.
I’m going to relax the diet today and have some baked goods and butter. Oh my. Then back to work tomorrow. But I’m looking forward to the Pepsi. I’ve gone weeks without caffine and it hasn’t made any difference to sleep. I’m impressed that I have made it through 6 days without any soda at all. It must be the first time since I was a toddler. Too bad the sparkling water has such weak carbonation. It’s just not the same.
But hey hey. One day a day. Doing the best I can. I would like to go the month out without ordering junk food or cake. Who knows maybe even beyond that. Maybe I’ll never eat cake again. 🎶 They’re coming to take me away, ha ha, hee hee, to the funny farm 🎵
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
23/8 2026
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Triple goat score. I ate too much today. Said no goat ever.

23/8 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. Back to the goat place and away from the bad feels. Yesterday the weather forecast promised a lot of rain this morning. This morning the forecast said maybe a little. It stayed dry while I was out and we actually got a nice bit of sunshine, so that was quite lovely.
I was greeted by the bleaters at the fence of course. Gave Bella and Luna their peanuts and then looked for Sky. And I couldn’t see her. I was pretty sure I had heard her among the bleating greeters, so I moved along the fence over to the podium place where she often is. I still couldn’t see her. But then I heard some noise and I shifted my eyes down and there was Sky, under the podium. Starting to snake her way out. Aw. I haven’t seen her under the podium for so long, maybe a year almost! I didn’t know she could still go under there. After the last times she was under there Jeanette put some bedding down there for her, but I figured maybe that made the space too tight because literally after Jeanette did that I never saw Sky down there again.
But I guess she still fits! It’s nice that she has her own little hideaway. A place where she can be dry and where the big girls can’t get to her. I wish she felt comfortable nough tos tay up with them, but I’m glad she’s got her spot. And it is pretty cute with her down there. I slmost wish I could climb under there and sit with her on a rainy day. If the big dwarf goats don’t fit there, probably I don’t either..
But it was a fun day. I brought an extra camera, intending to try to film some footage of Luna reacting to videos of herself bleating. I did get some reactions out of her, but not as good as last time when her head was popping up and she seemed shocked and intrigued by the ‘other goat’. That’s how it usually goes, it’s never quite as good when you try to rectreate something that happened spontaneously the first time. But when I get around to editing the footage I’ll see if there’s anything cute enough to post.
Had some good running and sliding too, a berryfall from Luna I think while Bella was sliding along down the ramp. Yeah lots of good goat fun today. I did also knock my head on the half-roof shelter. But thankfully I don’t keep anything valuable in my head, so it’s spork table plant bing bong.
Now it’s time to hoist the soup flag, mateys.
10/8 2026
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Here’s Sky ON TOP of the podium, instead of below. Dancing on the ceiling.

10/8 2026
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Today’s best attempt at a selfie with Bella and Luna.

10/8 2026
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A little look at Sky under the podium. You can hear the moment I see her. My vision is very limited, not just the quality but also with big blind spots, so I can look at something without seeing it. I couldn’t see her until she was pretty much out.
10/8 2026
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Some non goat updates for today.
I got results back from my doc appointment last week. All tests, urine and blood, came back ‘perfectly normal’. So that’s good. My potassium is back to normal. Of course, that’s with taken 3 tablets a day. So I don’t know if the tablets helped or the other things I changed had an effect. Cutting licorice and apple cider vinegar. But now I’m dosing down to 1 tablet a day and then I’ll go back for tests in a month or so.
So let’s hope the potassium stays good. It must have been pretty bad. Normally it takes 3-4 days to get a reply back for blood tests. But that last time when my potassium was nuked I got the reply the same day. I think that only happens if the tests is flagged as “dangerous” or something like that. i have never gotten results back that fast before.
Anyway. So far so good on that.
Tomorrow I’m starting decaf. Qutting Pepsi again. For 2-3 weeks probably. I did it a few months ago and it wasn’t too hard, so I think I should be fine. I want to try and see if not doing licorice and not doing caffeine and taking some other supplements, if that will have a positive effect on my sleep. I need to feel a positive effect otherwise I’ll go back, because I love my Pepsi Max. But for the next coouple of weeks I’ll go without. I will be drinking other sugarfree sodas, just without caffeine.
And then I’m going to try to step up the exercise again. I’m starting to get back into a rhythm, but I have only been doing it twice a week. After almost completely stopping in July. That’s not too bad, an hour and a half twice a week combined with goat trips, that’s a decent amount of activity. But I need to lose some weight and get in better shape, after the disastrous July. So I’ll try to add in one or two more exercise days.
We’ll see how that goes. Currently the devil is on my shoulder telling me how much nicer it would be to have some chocolate cake and stay in bed. What a jerk.
I’ll try to listen to the angel.
Oh yeah, and the parking. No news there yet. Coming home from the goats today there were several cars parked outside the building, a bunch parked in the next space and the trash bins still there. So. So far no problems there. But I still have to expect the worse to come there.
One day a day, at least I’m trying.
10/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Glad I got going. It was a tough morning. Woke up tired and depressed and just wanted to stay in bed. I am not sure when I would have made it out if it wasn’t for the fact that I had a postal package and a grocery delivery coming. So I had to get up. I was sitting and waiting and the devil on my shoulder was saying “it’s fine, once you have your stuff you can order chocolate cake or go back to bed or whatever, no problem”.
But thankfully I managed to drag myself on the bike. And I’m starting to feel stronger again, so that’s good. Just gotta keep going with it.
Full disclosure though, I am intending to order pizza later. So it’s not going to be a complete win today. But sometimes the angel and devil have to compromise. At last I did something today.
I could use a tall glass of frosted Pepsi right about now. But today is the firt day of decaf, so that’s. Something.
11/8 2026
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For the premium subscribers, a little preview of a future video. Luna and Bella wondering how I managed to squeeze a whole goat into that little black box.
11/8 2026
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NOBODY EXPECTS THE EXPLODING SANDWICHES
11/8 2026
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Some more Luna bleating at herself on the camera. Not as funny as the first time when I wasn’t filming. But still kind of cute, like when she starts licking the screen. I wish I could read her mind and know what she was thinking when she saw and heard herself on the screen. “Hey, that goat looks like me!”
11/8 2026
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12/8 2026
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Apparently there is a solar eclipse in Denmark today. I was thinking about going outside and staring directly at it. But even -I- am not that foolish. Why you’d have to be come kind of ..etc.
Today was a fail day and i’m not feeling great, but tomorrow’s another one. One day a day.
Unless of course the world explodes during the solar eclipse, you never know.
Once upon a time I was falling in love, now i’m just falling down the stairs. There’s nothing I can do, the total ecipse tra la la
12/8 2026
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I wanted to just say a quick thank you to *checks notes* oh, to you all.
Thank you for being here. I appreciate it. Your comments and reactions. I know I am not always good at showing it, but it really means a lot to me. As you may or may not know, I don’t have much of a social life in real life. I have my family, the goats, and a trusted few people. But even those, I don’t spend that much time with. Apart from the goats, I mean. But humans. I’m just not the kind who goes out and hangs out and is around. I am in my apartment most of the time. And facebook is sopmething of a lifeline to not feel completely alone.
Sometimes I’ll think “Of Facebook is eveil and we should all quit it and I don’t need it anyway”. And then it goes down or there’s some problem and I panic and am like “Oh no what do I do, how will anyone know what I’m thinking, how will I know what anyone is thinking, what do I doooo”. You don’t know how much you’ll miss something, until it’s down for maintennance.
But yes, Facebook gives me most of my connection to other people, and if you’re reading this then you’re probably one of the connections. And thank you for that.
I know it’s not always fun and games here. Either too many goat posts, if you’re not a goat fan. Or too many long boring annoying rambles. Like this one! And depression and struggle and obsessive worrying about everything. I don’t know why anyone would come here. NO DON’T LEAVE. I am thankful you’re here, if you are.
It’s been a struggle for a while, and there’s more to come. So I’m thankful that I’m not alone. Thank you for seeing the good in me, when it is eclipsed in my own eyes.
Group hug. Wait, let me get some pants first.
12/8 2026
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And here is Bella to demonstrate how I feel most days.

12/8 2026
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Good goat times today. That’s more like it. A beautiful summer’s day. Upwards of 26C/79F. When the sun was out it was quite baking us. It got blocked by clouds some of the time though. Not spectacular as an eclipse, but it did keep things pretty cool at times.
Lots of visitors today. Summer vacation is over so we had a bunch of the regular groups from the neighbour school and daycares. Jeanette is still on vacation this week, so I didn’t have her as a buffer. It was a little much, to be honest. But it was okay. Had some sweet kids in the pen and they got to pet the goats. Always sweet. Bella was being a good petting goat today. Sometimes she’s a little timid around kids and will run away. But she was sitting on the tub and getting lots of pets, and the kids were having a great time.
And I got a nice hello from Preben, I think that’s his name. I’m horrible with names, my memory is awful and they don’t connect with faces because of the blindness. But I recognise him by the voice and he is always very nice. When his group was leaing he called out to say goodbye too, and one of the ladies with him called out “Yes, bye Lasse. It’s always so nice when you’re here, then everything is as it’s supposed to be”. So that was very sweet to hear.
Before and after all the visitors came I did get lots of good time alone with the goats. I love sitting with them in the sunshine on a hot day. I’m going to miss it when it gets colder.
Back home now with both balcony doors open. The sound of construction isn’t nice, but I’m going to miss having the doors open too. I get cold so easily, even though the heat can get a bit much, I prefer it to the cold. Even the mild temperatures leave me freezing.
Anyway, I’m going to get myself a “It’s too hot to have soup” pot of soup, because that’s how I roll. Like berries down the ramp, these are the days of our soups.
13/8 2026
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Triple goat score. Breakfast down in the pen today.

13/8 2026
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Sky is soaking up some rays, and watching some visitors.

13/8 2026
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Fun fact: In Danish a rhinoceros is called “næsehorn”. Literally “nosehorn”. That’s.. a little on the nose.
the more you now.
13/8 2026
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Got my Luna hugs today of course.

13/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
It was a rough start to the day, though. Tired and depressed again. I managed to get out of bed. But honestly I sat in my chair for a couple of hours and just.. did nothing. First just pretty much staring into space. And then leaning over and more or less sleeping. I was just not functioning. I just wanted the day to be over, and it had only just begun.
So I suppose it was good that I got myself on the bike. A hard fought semi win? Starting to feel stronger physically, so that’s something.
Have had a bad headache for a couple of days. Maybe it’s the decaf, haven’t had Pepsi since Monday. So I suppose that’s not unexpected.
It’s a hot day today, it might get up to 30C/86F. Could be the last really hot day of the season, the forecast ahead is more days around 20/68. Can’t complain about the weather this summer, though. I feel like it’s been the hottest summer.. almost ever. More super hot days than we usually get, I feel. But then my memory is pre-dementic.
Fight to live another day. One day a day.
14/8 2026
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Happy Beyond Birthday to my darling Mia. She would have been 14 today.
In the Thank You post the other day, I wrote about my connections on Facebook. You all. There are many, if not most, of my connections on here that can be traced back to Mia. Without my friend Jen deciding that little Mia needed a Facebook page, who knows where my life would have gone? The page has brought so many wonderful people into my life over the years. Mia was a blessing in many ways. She will always have a piece of my heart.
14/8 2026
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I got a notice yesterday from the housing association. It says that from Monday 7 am parking will be closed in front of my building.
I really find their communication to be lacking. They said our parking would be closed two weeks ago, but there has still been cars parking in front of our building and in the next parking lot. It seems like nothing they said back then actually happened.
But now they are going to dig to put in new electrical cables. That’s something they have to do, so I’m sure this time it wil actually happen. The letter doesn’t say anything about how long that digging will last. It doesn’t say if we will be able to use the parking space afterwards.
So. I don’t know if this is a temporary thing or if it is now going to be shut down until 2028 as the original notice said.
It’s frustrating. But I guess next week I’ll get to see how it’s going to work. My parents won’t really be able to visit in my apartment anymore because of the stairs and their mobility issues. And I’ll have to see if I can get grocery and food deliveries when they can’t park in front of the building anymore. I’ll finally have to make that test grocery delivery. I have stocked up on so many sodas that I barely need anything for the next month or more. But can’t quite make it to 2028…
So this really doesn’t help my depression and anxiety and worry.
Haven’t heard anything about the package shop either, if that’s going to be closed or not. Can I still get packages if the parking lot is closed? Can I pick up packages from the shop nearby? It’s all up in the air.
It’s all going to be a lot more complicated now, that’s for sure. And I am already struggling. Stressing about everything. I’ve been trying some new stuff to get better sleep, but it seems to have worked the opposite. Sleeping worse, waking up more sleepy. Barely functioning. Depression rising. I’ll have to tweak some things. At least I’m feeling stronger from getting back to biking, but the diet is still touch and go. The more depressed I get, the more I want to eat. Whether I’m hungry or not.
Well, I’m taking it easy today. I hope I can make myself exercise tomorrow, but it’s going to be another shoulder-fight between the angel and the devil. Can’t we all just get along?
15/8 2026
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Need some Luna hugs soon again.
I have mentioned how good Luna is at hugging. This is an example. I put my arms on her and she’ll move up real close to get into the hug.
In this particular instance she had to move again quickly because Bella decided to butt in. It’s clear who’s the dominant one in the pen.
15/8 2026
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Happy Lost Day eveyrone

15/8 2026
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Oh I should mention that I have talked to Helle. She thinks that the cable digging closure of the parking lot might be temporary. I don’t know if that means the parking space will get opened again, or when. She also said that she has heard that they will try to make a new access way to my apartment entrance. So I will just have to cross my fingers for that. That would make a lot of things a lot easier.
As always, thank you goes out to Helle for being so kind and helpful, for advocating for me and other people in our neighbourd. Heck, in the whole world. She’s got an amazing activistic soul. I wish I could do half as miuch as she does for others. Don’t know how I would have gotten through my relocation without her. For someone like me who has such a hard time dealing with human peoples, it’s invaluable to know someone you feel you can trust.
15/8 2026
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goatlog

16/8 2026
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I had hoped to exercise today. But it did not turn out that way. Friday was good, the weekend was unhealthy. I have insane plans to try to *Gasp* drink water next week. Try a couple of days of just drinking water, no sugarfree soda. Not just no Pepsi, but no soda at all. Crazy. I probably can’t even do a day. The last 3+ decades I don’t think I’ve gone a day without drinking soda, not unless I was deahtly ill. Even in the hospital when they discovered diabetes, they still gave us sugarfree sodas.
Anyway, we’ll see how that goes. If at all.
I know I always complain about the same things over and over. So let’s try me complaining about something new. I guess I have tinnitus now.
For the last 1½-2 weeks. I used to sometimes, rarely, get a high pitch tone in my ear for like 10-20 seconds maybe. It would fade away almost immediately. Not often, maybe once or twice every 2 or 3 months. But this thing is constant. Thankfully it’s not as high pitch, not as loud and piercing. This thing is more.. low. Constant. On the right side mostly. It’s low enough that it doesn’t bother me much when i listen to music or watch tv. But when it’s quiet, I do hear. It’s not really.. super bothering. It’s not driving me completely insane. But it does kind of get on your nerves and start to wear at you…
I don’t know. My understanding of tinnitus is that there’s basically nothing you can do about it, you just have to find ways to live with it. I suppose I should go to the doctor about it, but what’s the point of going through more hassle just to be told ‘tough luck’.
I have the next potassium/diabetes blood tests in about a month, I suppose if it’s still there by then I’ll mention it to the nurse?
I don’t know. I just feel like my body and mind is slowly falling apart and dying. I know a lot of things I could and should do to help the physical things, but the mental things make it hard to really make headway on those. It’s a struggle just getting out of bed these days.
And all the worries and anxiety and family health and world on fire, it’s all just.. a bit much. And now tinnitus too. The sound of my next Jazz record Now Tinnitus Too. Get it before it gets you.
Also, I think there was a bird in distress out on my balcony just now. I was watching Ted Lasso, as you do. Loudly to overpower the tinnitus. But I kept hearing some kind of squeaking out there. Didn’t sound like bird noises I have heard before. It’s a common plague in the summer here in the high apartments, birds on the balconies. Anyway, the noise kept going and I started wondering if it was coming from my balcony. So I got up to go look. And there was a pigeon on my balcony. Normally they fly away immediately when you open the door or appear. But it seemed to jump around. So I went outside. It’s hard for me to see out there, with the sun. I started approaching it. It kind of jumped around but then it did get up and fly away. So it wasn’t too injured to fly. But I think something must have been wrong with it for it to make those sounds and not fly away immediately when I came out. I had started thinking about whether I’d have to go google for a hotline for animal rescue or something, I have never had to deal with anything like that. I think there’s a national hotline number or something, but I don’t know if they’d come out for something like that. If the bird had been so hurt that it couldn’t fly. I don’t know. Hope the little guy or girl is okay. I would like them to stay away frmo my balcony, but I don’t want them hurt of course.
Okay, well. That’s that I guess. Next week will bring some things. Hopefully Jeanette back and good goat times. Drinking water? Delivery test? I’ll have to contact the housing association about my account on their site where you can read your water/heating/electricity usage, because that still hasn’t been fixed. I was told the guy in charge of the accounts would be back from vacation a couple of weeks ago, so I’ll have to push and see if they’re doing anything about it.
Let’s hope I can get out of bed anyway.
Sorry. I guess complaining about new things isn’t that much more interesting than complaining about old things.
One day a day.
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16/8 2026
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Think goat thoughts. Here’s a Bella yawn.

16/8 2026
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That’s all for now.