Didn’t get the day I was planning for today.
I had hoped that I would be feeling well enough for some good goat time today.
But in the morning I was still feeling very.. off. Kind of dizzy and detached, eyes blurred and just not feeling myself.
Still a bit sore, but less painful at least. Right side of my face still feels lit got run overy by a reindeer.
So I messaged Jeanette and told her to take good care of the girls for me. Hopefully I can get some goat time in before new year’s. But I’m going to take it slow and aim for getting back to some normalcy in January. No rushing.
I did have to get out of the house today. I had a package that needed picking up or it would get sent back. And since the optomolomologist, the glasses shop, is almost next door to the parcel store, I decided to take my broken glasses down there. I was lucky enough that they had a pair of frames identical to my broken ones. Which meant they could put the lenses into those, didn’t have to send anything off to get repaired or ordered in new frames. I was worried I’d end up losing my glasses over the holidays. But thankfully I went home with a fixed pair, so that was good. Getting ran over by reindeer isn’t covered by warranty, so I had to pay for it. But since it’s the most cheapest pair of frames available.
So, that as good. Got my glasses, got my package. Also made call to my former internet provider. My internet at the old place was officially cut off on December 20th (because I took too long cancelling). And I just got a bill for a full month ranging from December 15th to January 16th. So I wanted to call in and ask if I really had to pay for a month’s worth of internet to cover 4 active days in an apartment I haven’t had access to for the duration.
Well, I do have pay for those 4 days, that’s fair enough I guess. I should be getting a refund back next month for the rest of the period. The way their system works they couldn’t just charge me for 4 days I guess.
Anyway. I adulted and called and at least I did the thing. So that’s fine.
Now I’m going to have me some soup. And try to charge up some energy for christmas.
It would be nice if I could get back to feeling like myself again. Maybe my real self is lost forever.
Maybe it’s just christmas depression.
One day a day. And soup now.
Happy Monday everyone. Hope you’re doing well. If I win the award for Biggset Pain In the Ash for 2025 I won’t blame anyone who voted for me. Sheesh, always with this guy..
22/12 2025
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Hey hey, thank you so much to Beverly Fish and Debbie Wilkins for the lovely cards! Merry holidays to you both, thank you helping break in my new mailbox!

22/12 2025
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I also had floweres delivered to my parents today. Like I am thankful for all of Helle’s help the last few months, I am so very thankful for all my parents’ help throughout the years. So I thought that since I’m in the habit of sending flowers and chocolate now, I should make sure to send some to my parents. I appreciate all they do for me.
Unfortunately my dad had another fall, in the bathroom this time. But it sounds like this one was not a serious one at least. I think their home aid had to help him up, my mother has mobility issues so it would be hard for her to get him up off the floor. I’m not sure if the aide was there while it happened or not.
But poor dad. It’s been a rough time for him. Physical pain along with the alzheimer’s proceeding. I wish flowers and chocolate could help with that, but life’s not that easy.
Hope we’ll have a merry little christmas at least.
22/12 2025
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It’s the day before the big day, at least it is in Denmark.
Just taking it breezy. Starting to get back to normal, I suppose. Most of my muscles aren’t aching anymore. My neck is a bit stiff, and the right side of my face still a bit smashed. But not too bad.
Am however still feeling somewhat disconnected and dizzy. And depressed. The depression is feeling quite strong.
But we carry onwards. It’s been such a hectict few months. No wonder everything is spinning.
I hope there will be no last minute surprises from the year.
The dangerous part of the horror movie when you think the villain is dead.
I’m sure it’s fine. Going to grab somethng to eat, maybel ook up the Snowman cartoon on the youtube.
Hope you’re all having a jolly time.
23/12 2025
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Hey hey! Thank you so much Deborah Ladd for the wonderful card and the sweet goat cutouts! Always such sweet creations! Merry seasonal greeting!

23/12 2025
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I may be an instigator, but she just makes me laugh when she gets like this.
23/12 2025
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Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates today. And Merry Wednesday to everyone who don’t.
Not feeling super great, but hopefully today will be a good one. I’ll check in later and let the egg nog talk.
Have a good one!
24/12 2025
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Good christmastimes today.
Our traditional Christmas eve gettogether. My brother and my parents and I.
I’m not much for social occasions, but I always look forwward to our christmas together. It’s just nice.
And it was good this year too. Although it was hard to see dad in pain from his falls. He was asking for painkillers, but wasn’t allowed to have any yet. Mom keeps tabs on his meds and when he’s supposed to get them.
Even harder though, was the further decline in his memory. I know his short term memory is non existant at times. But it was startling today when I realised he thought this was our first time celebrating christmas together like this. His longterm memory has generally seemed less affected. But he could not remember that we get together like this every christmas. That was hard. He said this was something we should do every year.. and I had to gently tell him. That we do. Later on he again said something about it being the first time we were doing this.
He’s always very nice and understanding when you tell him that he has forgotten something. He is aware that he is forgetting a lot of things.
It’s hard to have to think that tomorrow morning he may not remember that we were together tonight…
And there’s nothing you can do to reverse it. You can just do your best to help him.
But we had a good evening. I got to watch my traditional Disney show. although this year I was watching it less and talking more with mom and dad. Which wasn’t a bad thing. We were talking about phone scammers among other things. That’s something I worry about of course. Dad seems to have a good understanding that he has to be careful and never give out important info on the phone. But I still worry if they should catch him when mom isn’t around, if he would remember that.
You hear it here on a weekly basis, new cases of old people being tricked into giving out credit card info and things like that.
But hopefully we won’t have to face that.
Dinner was great, I always love mom’s cooking. We did have a mishap when a pitcher of lemonade got tipped over on the table. I think I was the one tipping it over when moving a pot, in my blindness. I’m not even sure. But we got it wiped up, wasn’t too bad.
We had our traditional roast. I can have that once a year. And I just love the brun sovs og kartofler. Brown sauce and potatoes. It’s the most basic of basic things, almost parodically so. But I never ever have it, so for me it’s like a luxury meal. Childhood nostalgia. You can’t get that brown sauce in any of the take away restaurants. It’s not something you can get with junk food orders. I can’t really make it myself. I don’t even know how it’s made, I don’t know if there’s a proper English name for it. It’s just the most basic of basic, standard things. Gravy? Maybe. Anyway. I am almost tempted to ask if I can pay my mom to just make me potatoes and gravies and have someone deliver it to me. Better than spending money on ordering pizza!
And we had our traiditonal risalamande dessert. Daddy got the whole almond. I don’t know if mom fixed the contest or if he just genuinely was the one who happened to get it. But I know he deserved to get it. Hope there was some good chocolate prize for it. Maybe some of the chocolate from the flowers I got them.
And that’s about it for my christmas. No tree, no presents, no dancoing, no secret santa, no reindeer pooping on the lawn, no snow. But all the all the hardships me and the family have been through (and I know it’s peanuts compared to many others in the world), it just makes me appreciate a sweet little Christmas dinner even more.
I appreciate my family more than ever these days.
And a merry christmas to you all out there too. From my family and me. They know you all follow along my life, and they are thankful that people care about me. Oh and dad says thanks for the envelopes, I make sure to give all of them to him.
Thank you all. I hope you have lovely seasonal times with people you care about. Thats the REAL gift. That, and cash. It can be used to procure goods and services, you know.
Fa la la Lasse.
24/12 2025
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Merry Christmas to everyone celebrating today.
A quiet day for me. I am still not feeling super great. Some dizziness and soreness in my face and other niggles. But taking it easy and aiming to get through the holidays and try to get back to normalcy and routine.
Enjoy the day, if you do.

25/12 2025
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Nothing new to report today. Quiet day. Other than the fireworks outside.
Still not feeling great. I need to get proper sleep, my sleep schedule is a little whack right now. My own fault, sleeping in my chair, napping. I need to correct. Along with other things.
Right now just feels like running out hte clock on the year. It’s been a crazy year. Especially the last part. Next year will be easy and good, am I right? High five. You know it. You and me both, pal. And the rest of you. We’ll be diving head-first off the board and straight into a giant pool of success and happiness. No floaters in the pool. maybe just a few berries.
We’re going to be Duh Winning so much that Charlie Sheen is going to try to sue is. Maybe I should google him and make sure he’s still alive before posting this…
Remember when Charlie Sheen was the craziest thing in the world? ..and then the rest of the world sort of caught up with him and now it seems quaint because he at least could only ruin his OWN life. The craziness today can ruin everything and everyone.
But that doesn’t matter because we’re marching into the success ahead. Here we go. Better get those running shoes on, you don’t want to get left behind when we sprint towards excellence.
*Carlton dances off the side of your screen*.gif
26/12 2025
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Got an hour or so on the bike today. Still far from back in shape. But the important part now is establishing the rhythm and keep going.
I had hoped to be further ahead in the progress by now, but the ‘incidents’ or whatever, and not feeling good, has held me back a bit.
But i’m trying, and I’ll get there.
Also got a Pepsi & Protein delivery today. No new pizza, waiting a bit before I try another.
I did also get some chocolate. And licorice. And ice cream. Whoops. Well, it’s fine. I’m hoping that will be the last time I order stuff like that (mhm). Just spoiling myself a little for New Year’s. And then! Then it’s health city and 2026 year of the succesfullness! Woo, here we go. Soon.
Together we can accomplish anything we want. Thank you for being my accomplices!
27/12 2025
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Huh. I got visited by the bread fairy tonight.
My doorbell rang around 10 pm.
Now, I must be honest. People unexpectedly ringing my doorbell is not something I like. And that late, especially not.
So I didn’t answer it. In fact I kind of froze. They didn’t ring it again, so I figured it couldn’t be something important. At the old place it happened a couple of times that kids rang the bell and ran. More than once I was sitting out in the bathroom, which is next to the front door and entrance hall, and I’d hear the bell ring and then kids laughing and running.
But I figured that’s a lot less likely to happen on the 6th floor in a building with locked main doors.
So I didn’t know what to think. Is the building on fire and they’re trying to warn people to get out? Are the upstairs neighbours going to have a Saturday night party and want to warn me about noise? Was it some drink guest to the next doors apartment who rang my bell by mistake?
Anyway, about an hour later I was going to the bathroom and I thought I’d just peek outside. And there was a big in front of my door.
Not a flaming turd, thankfully. A bag of bread.
I took it in, and there was a note. It went something like “we picked this up at the grocery story today, but we didn’t realise there was pig in it”.
It was a ‘lucky bag’ of bread stuff, probably the kind that was just about to expire and on sale to avoid food waste. And indeed there were some hot dogs, bread with sausages in them. The note went on to say “we don’t eat pig, so we thought we’d pass it on. Enjoy!”
It didn’t say who it was from, so I don’t know if it’s my neighbours on this floor, or another place in the building. Heck it could be in a different building I guess although that would be a little strange. But there are a lot of muslims living in this neighbourhood, so it might just have been someone looking for a name that didn’t sound muslim.
Since my facebook is public, who knows maybe they’ll see this. If you do, then thank you! Unfortunately I don’t eat sausages either. But there was some other stuff in the bag that I’ll try to get some use out of. It was a fairly good sized bag. I doubt anyone would go to the trouble to poison all that! Haha.
Well, thank you to the good bread fairy. Sorry I’m not the best of neighbours, if you are one.
27/12 2025
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goatlog

28/12 2025
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28/12 2025
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When’s the Soup Fairy going to drop by, by the way?
28/12 2025
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Another week done. Seven weeks in the new apartment. I guess it’s time to stop counting. Now that I have almost been here a year!
Well, it’s safe to say that I am settled in. It’s no longer my new place, it’s just my place.
I still do need to do some unpacking and organising. But stince I’m used to living in a bit of a mess, that’s not the highest priority. Everything needed for daily function is done. I’ll need to do the rest at some point, but I’m not in a hurry.
I’m still not feeling great. My eyesight has been worse, there’s still some balance issue, my neck is stiff and sore, my depression is pretty high. I feel somewhat adrift.
I just want to get into the new year and into the routine of things and see if that corrects the apparent imbalance in my system. Or if I need to do more.
But it will be good to get back to regular goating and regular exercising and eating better. And hopefully lookin forward to not having a lot of big things to deal with. The list of Big Things related to the move has all been cleared. Now it’s just all the small things, ie Life.
One day a day. And stay grateful that the past few months have gone as awell as they have, even though they have been challenging. I am so much better off than I could have been. And don’t you forget it, buster!
More and more explosions outside, as the year winds down. I hate it. But what can you do. Getting cold too, freezing temperatures. Dark mornings. Winter is not my season anymore. But it will pass, as time does.
Bedtime soon. Take care out there. Hope the year ends safely for you all.
28/12 2025
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today.
It was a fun one. I think the girls are in heat.
Jeanette told me when I got there that the big girls had been hard on Sky. And they had all made sounds she hadn’t heard before.
And I saw, and heard, for myself soon enough. Lots of grunting and snorting. Luna sniffing Bella’s rear over and over. Bella was the one most normal. Sky actually made some little grunty growly sounds that I don’t even remember hearing from her before. I probably have. But they were pretty darn cute. And Luna, well even on normal days Luna can go into a bit of ‘blubbery buck’ mode. And today she was just all over the place. For some reason it seemed to trigger her when I would squat down. Maybe it’s something about me being more eye-level with her like that. Maybe she thought I was going to headbutt her. But she was snorting and practically barking at me. If I didn’t know better I would have thought she was getting ready to attack me. I was spinning around and she was following me spluttering and it was just a lot of fun.
Yeah those girls could use a boyfriend. I wish we could let Sky have a kid so she could have someone to bond with. But who knows how many kids we’d end up with, and while I deeply miss having goat kids around, I don’t miss having to say goodbye to them when we couldn’t keep them.
But those goofy girls were a lot of fun today. And now it’s soup time o’clock.
15/12 2025
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Lil miss Goofington. Luna was huffed up on heatballs today.

15/12 2025
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The goof troop.

15/12 2025
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I managed to get Helle some flowers and chocolate as a thank you for her immense help during my move. That was the least I could do. I’m glad she got them, I wasn’t sure how the delivery would work.
I had talked to her a while ago and told her I wanted to do something to thank her. I mentioned a gift or flowers and even offered to just give her s’money. Because she has saved me a good deal of money and also her help has been priceless.
She told me that she definitely didn’t want money. But she would like if I would let her take me to see the local museum. It’s a place where she works or volunteers or so. And she’d like me to see it. I appreciate that she understands that hings like that are difficult for me, she is always super nice and considerate.
But yes, of course I’d ‘let’ her do that. She’ll have to tell me what I’m looking at mostly! But I like Helle and it’s always nice to spend time with her. And it will be nice to spend some time NOT doing things related to the move!
But with that all said, I still thought I had to get her a little physical representation of my grattitude. I have no clue about flowers, and obviously I can’t really see very well what they even look like. So it was picked more or less at random. But it’s the thought that counts! And I will be forever grateful for all Helle has done for me.
And I know you all love her too! She’s the best.
16/12 2025
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Not just a flower day today. Also got an hour fifteen on the exercise bike. Second session in the new apartment. Hopefully I can keep it going. Along with eating more vegetables. I still have iced creams in the freezer. I am going to try to not buy anymore when these are gone. I have been eating way too much ice cream for too long. Going to try to stop. I’ll try.
I also had a plumber visit. I called the housing association yesterday about my toilet. They booked a plumber for me, not their own guy this time.
The plumber came today. But didn’t do that much. He looked at it all, but the toilet was flushing fine. He was talking about that thing that several of you have mentioned, the floater or valve or whatsit. Clearly I was not born to be a plumber.. but anyway. That thing. That apparently is a common thing to eventually fail in toilets. But he said it was working fine. And to be fair there hasn’t been a problem since Saturday I think. He said he couldn’t do much now, but if it started happening again then he’d come back and fix the ‘internals’ or whatever the right word is. Apparently it’s a little tricky since it’s all inside the wall and there’s just a little square hole to access it. But I guess I will just have to hope it works fine now. I guess it’s not too big a deal, since the times the water has ran I was able to stop it with the flusher button. I would have liked if he had changed the thing or fixed the thing or whatever. But. For now, letting it be.
Did I mention my dentist appointment has been cancelled? Originally I had an appointment this week. Then they called me because they’d double booked that time and couldn’t get a hold of the other person, so they asked if I would mind changing my appointment. Changed it to next Monday. Yesterday while I was at the goat place they called. Now the dentist couldn’t do that appointment. I don’t understand that. It’s a week away so it’s not like it’s because she’s sick. Did they first double book my time slot and then the dentist decided to have christmas vacation or what? They asked if I could come Friday, but Friday isn’t good for me. So I said I’d call in and get a new appointment. I’ll have to remember to do that.
exciting stuff, I know!
16/12 2025
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For the premium subscribers, an early look at an upcoming video. Little Luna goofypants. She got worse than this, but I’m still editing it all. Oh, and Bella at the end looking at the camera like “Can you do something about her?”
16/12 2025
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I.. I blacked out. I think. Yes. I remember getting that.. wooshing pre-black out feeling. And then.. I came to, sitting in my chair. Not knowing where or when I was. I’m still trying to piece things together. In my head. I can see that I posted a Luna video about half an hour ago. I must have blacked out after that. It’s Tuesday? I was visiting the goats yesterday. That’s when Luna was acting like that. I was editing the video..
It’s all still pretty foggy. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do now. I think I have something scheduled, some reason I can’t go see the goats.
It’s the 16th.. christmas is approaching.
I need to piece back my memory puzzle. It’s been a long time since I black out like this. Many months. It’s a scary feeling.
I’m not sure what to do now. I need to find my way back to my reality. It’s almost midnight. Do I have plans for tomorrow?
Ugh.
Oh yeah, I picked that amazon package up yesterday. And I exercised today. And the plumber visit was today? I Think. I feel like the blackouts I had in the past, my memory came back quicker. I am struggling to put things back together.
I put up the swim caps on the ventilator today. Did I write about that? I must have done that after the exercise and plumber. The emazon package was the swim caps. And I put them up on the ventilator to cover them more.
What did I then do.. I must have had shower.
And I have eaten. Although today is a fasting day, so I haven’t eaten much. Wonder if that has been what triggered this?
I only had some basic bread. Peanutbutter and bananas. Apple.
And then..
I can’t have been out that long. Made the Luna preview post about 45 minutes before coming back.
It must have been not too long after that I got the spell. I remember.. that wooshing sinking feeling. I remember shaking my head trying to clear it. And then.. I guess I was out. Not sure for how long.
Still trying to piece it all together.
Monday was goats. Today is Tuesday. Exercised.
I was supposed to have the dentist visit on Thursday, but that got moved to Monday. And then cancelled.
Okay, I feel like I’m slowly getting back in my head. Feel like I know when and where I am. It’s funny, for a second I think I almost thought I was still in the old apartment. With the curtains closed and with my hazy sight, it could almost be the same. But I’m on the 6th floor.
Sorry, don’t mean to worry anyone. It’s just such a bizarre feeling. I remember that blackout feeling now, more clearly. I was sitting here in the chair.
I guess it’s bedtime. It’s just past midnight now. I should be in bed already. I guess I don’t have plans tomorrow.
It’s been two years since I had blackout last, although in the meantime I have had that feeling a couple of times without blacking out.
I wonder what the test results from teh doctor will say, I was there Thursday last week so they should be coming in probably tomorrow.
Such a weird feeling.
I guess I should be heading to bed. I think I have pieced most things together. Tomorrow’s just relaxation. I can sleep in late.
Still so weird. Feels like the plumber was here a totally different day. But that was this morning.
I think I have it all back together in my head. It’s such a weird and unsettling, scary, thing. When you feel displaced in time and space and you’re not sure what you’ve been doing or what you’re going to do, what plans you have.
But yes. It’s bedtime now. And tomorrow I’ll sleep as long as I want. No plumbers or packages coming, no goat trip, just a quiet day.
Alright. Well. Sorry to worry ou all, I know this probably isn’t nice to read, and some of you will be yelling at me.
But see you tomorrow. Sorry if I’m forgetting anything.
17/12 2025
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Had a good night’s sleep. The best in a long time. Go figure.
I got reply back from the doctor about my blood tests. As expected, my blood sugar has risen. And my kidney numbers too. But we have agreed that I will make an effort the next 3 months and we’ll see howi t looks at the next appointment. Hopefully getting back to exercise and better eating will fix things up a bit.
Motivated to improve things. I’m trying.
Thanks everyone, for the concern and advice.
No fasting today! Just to clarify, when I do fast it’s not a whole day. It’s like 16 hours-ish. Intermittently.
Just taking a day to relax now.
17/12 2025
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I am not feeling too good. I have a crippling headache, one of the worst I can remember ever having. Feeling nauseated and my whole body is sore. Maybe I overdid it on the exercise yesterday, should maybe hae tried easing back into it a bit slower.
But physically and mentally not feeling too good. Very tired. Struggle to just get out of my chair.
Took some painkillers. And I should try to get something to eat. I did have a protein bar and a couple of bananas this morning.
Hopefully I’ll be feeling better soon. I’m just going to take it easy for now.
Thank you everyone for the care and concern. Sorry to be causing worries.
17/12 2025
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I am not feeling so good. I think I’m going to take the day in bed.
Sore all over, tired, nauseated, dizzy. Not snotty though. But definitely feeling quite bad.
18/12 2025
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Well, I didn’t end up staying in bed all day.
But I have spent most of the day napping in my comfy chair. Occasionally watching some video. Not doing much.
I am feeling a lot better right now than I was this morning. Though still not great.
This morning though I felt completely awful. My head felt like it was blowing up. Every muscle and joint in my body was aching. I was sitting here considering calling the doctor, that’s how bad it was.
I didn’t call though. Because I’m stupid like that. Holding off for now. My body still aches, but now it’s mostly the muscles used in exercising on Tuesday. I may have overdone it a little on my first real session back.
I’m wondering if it’s a combination of that and then may some flu or covid or whatever. Maybe I got the bird flu.
My neck hurts a lot. I think I fell asleep, or blacked out?, sitting on the toilet. And I was sitting for a long time probably with my neck hurts so much now.
I also unfortunately broke my glasses. And I don’t remember how. They were in the sink in the bathroom when I woke up. The right… thing that goes over your ear. Whassat called? The leg? It was broken off. I can still wear them and I can probably tape the leg back on fairly well. So it’s not the end of the world. But it is a little concerning of course.
But like I said, I do am feeling better now. Not good, but better. So I will give it some more time before I decide to maybe talk to a doctor.
Going to have me some soup. I had been planning to see the goats today, but definitely not feeling up to that.
So I’ll see. My body just really feels like it needs to relax. Like I’ve ran a marathon and then been put in a meat grinder.
There’s always something!
18/12 2025
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Oh PS I can see that Helle and the rest of us won our case in the EU court about our housing area. Exactly what that means for the future I am not sure, especially with this clouded head. But it’s better to win than to lose, I’m pretty sure. Congratulations to Helle, and to everyone. I hope it will be the start of something positive.
18/12 2025
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So I’ve had a thought.
My face is kind of hurting. Especially the right side. Like, the part beneath the eye but above the teeth. What’s that called? The jaw? Or is that just below the teeth? The cheek? That’s more to the side.
When I bite down hard I can kind of feel it like I feel it in the bone.
It’s not horribly bad. But it does make me wonder. My glasses were broken on the right side…
Did I fall and bang my head and wreck my glasses?
It didn’t feel like the blackouts where I come back in a fog and have to put everything back together in my head to find out where and when I am. It felt more like I fell asleep on the toilet. But I don’t know. Maybe I fell asleep and smacked my head against the wall in front of me. And put my broken glasses in the sink and slept on?
I just don’t know.
I am feeling a lot better right now, right now it feels a lot more like soreness after too much exercise too soon. Apart from the face pain, that doesn’t feel like from exercise.
Just had some lovely soup. Mmm. That’s good for what ails ya.
I will consider calling the doctor, if this continues or I get more blackouts.
But I just.. have had so much. The last months. I’m giving it a couple of days, unless it starts getting worse. I’ll see. And I’ll try to ease in the exercise a little better. Not too much too soon. Make sure to stay hydrated and get protein.
Much in my life would be different if I had taken better care of myself over the years. But here we are. The tin foil hat makes it hard to learn from mistakes. But at least it keeps the government from reading my mind with their 5G ai. So that’s good.
Sorry for causing worries, thank you to all who care.
18/12 2025
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Oh hey hey. I also wanted to say a big thank you to Anne-Marie Barras for the lovely card! If I’m not forgetting something in my cloudy state, this is the first piece of personal mail I have received in my new home. Thank you kindly!

18/12 2025
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Spent some time tonight looking on youtube at old Danish TV christmas calendars. It’s a strong ttradition in Denmark, 24 episode TV series leading up to Christmas. Do you do that outside of Scandinavia?
Especially back in the olden days, when we had one or two TV channels. You’d be pretty much guaranteed to have the majority of little kids watching every day.
Fond memories of some of those things. From the classically sweet to the anarchistic wild when later on comedians sstarted parodying or having weird takes on them, and so called ‘adult’ ones. Meaning for growups, not.. you know..
My favourite is probably still The Julekalender. Not for the melancholic christmas jolliness, but for the wackiness. The schoolyard was full of us copying their weird mix of Danish and English. And I still find some of it really funny. More the human characters than the nisse characters.

19/12 2025
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Hello. How am I?
Well, somewhat better. More clearheaded I think. My whole body is still sore. Muscles ache. My tongue too. Did I mention that? I must have chewed on it. I remember that from those blackouts a couple of years ago. Tongue swollen like I tried to eat it.
But hopefully I’m on the road to feeling better.
My dad unfortunately had a fall in the bus and has hurt his ribs. Apparently he’s in quite bad pain. He can’t have ibuprofen and paracetamol isn’t enough. So he’s getting morphine. But that isn’t quite helping enough, so they’re going in today to get him a higher dosage I think. I’m sure mom will keep a good eye on him, not sure morphine is going to help much with his cognitive state. But I don’t want him to be in pain of course.
I don’t understand why we can’t just have cyborg bodies already, these meatbags are too much upkeep and too complicated.
Just going to take it easy today. I don’t feel too bad when I don’t move.
19/12 2025
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I’m getting real tired of smacking my head against open cupboard doors. Real tired. Real real tired.
This wasn’t a good time to do it. And pretty hard too. I need to learn to not let them stay open when I’m cooking and stuff.
19/12 2025
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I am not feeling super great. Mentally or physically.
My head is feeling better at least.
The rest of my body aches. And the depression levels are high. Tired of the world. Frustrated with everything. La la la.
Feeling weirdly .. disconnected, from myself. Don’t know how to explain it.
One day a day.
Funny thing happened. I was standing in my kitchen. Heard a thump from my living. Which is two steps to the side, as you may recall. I stepped in to try to see what had happened.
It was the covering I had put over the ventilator on the wall. Layers and layers of gorilla tape, it had just fallen off.
Gorilla tape sticks super well.
But I think the problem is that when Helle put the initial cover over it, it was just clingfilm held by a rubberband. And I put all the other stuff over that. So while the gorilla tape sticks super well, it was sticking to clingfilm that.. eventually got pushed off.
I’m leaving it off for a bit. Turned up the heat a little. It did cross my mind whether my headaches might be connected to blocking off the ventilator. Although I’d think opening the indows once or twice a week would be fine to get some fresh air in here? I don’t know. I’ll leave the ventilator uncovered for now I suppose, and see how it goes. The breeze seems to be less now than it was before we covered it up. But it feels like it flunctuates sometimes. Maybe it depends on how strong a wind there is outside, I don’t know how the system works.
Anyhoo. Just thought it was a little funny how I’d plastered layers of super tough sticky tape on it, and it just fell off with a thump.
Got a grocery delivery coming tomorrow, and I included a frozen pizza. So with any luck I’ll be trying my first frozen pizza in the oven tomorrow. I probably won’t feel up to exercising, since my legs are hurting a lot. Not sure I’ll feel up unpacking either. Most of the important stuff is where it should be now. It would be nice to get the rest of it done. But right now I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. So I may put that off. Maybe I’ll just do pizza tomorrow and nothing else. Sounds like a Lasseplan.
Just tired of it all. Feels like there’s always something going wrong. But at least I don’t sit around feeling sorry for myself, ho ho ho !
19/12 2025
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Didn’t sleep too well last night.
My own fault. Since I didn’t go to bed. I slept in my comfy chair. Not easy sleep through like that.
I’ll go to bed properly tonight.
My head is feeling clearer. My muscles, especially the legs, and the right side of my face, still hurt.
I had been hoping to exercise or unpack today, but that was off the table. I’ll take it easy for the holidays I think. Try to get some goat time in.
I’ll try to contact the glasses shop (which I know is the tecnical term) to see if I can use some warranty to get a new pair of glasses. The frames themselves were super cheap so maybe I’ll just buy a new pair. I have taped them together, but it’s not real handy. I wonder if they can just take the lenses and put them right in a new pair of frames and let me go home with those. I would hate to be without my glasses for a longer period of time. But I’ll have to see.
Got a Pepsi & Protein delivery today. Along with a frozen pizza. I’m going to try it in a bit. First one in the new oven. It’s small. I have very little concept of size and weight and measurements. Like, if someone asks how much one of the goats weigh I’ll go.. I don’t know? Five kgs? 50 pounds? A 100 lbs? Zero concept. Turns out a 300g pizza is on the small side for me. But it was cheap. It would be nice if it could function as a good pizza for me. I will cook it up with a batch of fries, so I’m sure to get my junk food fix fixed.
Other than that, still feeling somewhat disconnected. Not quite myself. But maybe some actual sleep tonight will help that.
I measured my blood pressure and it was surprising low. The high number at least. It was 110. It’s been too high mostly, so that’s good I guess. The low number still a bit too high. But could be worse.
I’m tired. In a metaphysical sense.
Meanwhile, I’m going to focus all my energy on not eating this box of chocolate that I bought for christmas, before christmas. Don’t put any money on me.
20/12 2025
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Pizza update: It wasn’t very good.
I guess I couldn’t expect much from such a cheap thing. Felt like a piece of cardboard with a string of cheese and a dried tomato. But hey, it was fun to try. I’ll try another one next time. And oven fries are good.
Onwards and upwards.
20/12 2025
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Well, it hasn’t been the best of weeks. I am still not feeling too great.
My body is hurting less. My face still feels like I walked into a Tyson fist.
My head is fairly clear I suppose, but I still feel somewhat disconnected from myself. Detached. Feeling depressed. And tired of everything.
Doesn’t help that I had a computer crash that left me scrambling to restore and fix things.
I just… ,want to sleep for the rest of the year.
Feel like I’m sinking. But I suppose there’s not much to do but keep on walking ahead, hope the course corrects itself and I get to the shore. One day a day. Bla bla.
I’ll be happy to see the backside of the year, berries or none.
21/12 2025
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The week is almost over. I think it’s been 6 in the new place? I’m losing count. That’s good I guess.
My head feels like a balloon. If I cut the string it might float off.
I am feeling mentally pretty fragile right now. Knocked off course.
But no point prattling on about it I guess.
My toilet just started running again. Hadn’t been a problem since Tuesday when the plumber was here and didn’t fix it. I stopped it with the flush button, but it just adds to my anxiety.
Alright. I’ll try to get to bed fairly early today. Try to get sleep. See if I can cope with next week. Take it easy until the new year. Try to keep the bad thoughts out.
Hope you’re all doing well, that your holidays are festive or whatever you want them to be.
Hang in there if you’re having a hard time. Tis the season. One day a day. Jingle those mthrfkn bells.
21/12 2025
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That’s all for now.