Good goat times today. A lovely sunny day. A little cool in the morning, but as the sun worked its charm it started rising upwards of 23C/74F. It may be the last goat day when it goes that high.
But let’s hope not. I love sitting in the sun with the goats. So beautiful and serene.
When we’re alone at least. We did get quite a bit of company today. First it was a young couple with a little kid. Not sure if it was a boy or girl, I thought they called them Thea, but then I thought they said Thøger another time. Nto that it matter. The kid really loved the goats. They wanted to pet them all and marvelled at all the things they did, it was really sweet. And the parents were really good about explaining appropriate behaviour in the goat pen and they seemed really sweet and attentative. I got an aw out of them when I had Bella giving me her paw for rubsies. And the father asked me about the camera and I told him about the facebook page. It was just all very lovely and idyllic.
And then we got more visitors, probably from the neighbouring school or something. Those kids are usually more rowdy. They don’t have that one on one parental supervision. They do have adults with them, but it’s more like one adult to 2-3 kids and it’s not quite the same. Also those kids often have some developmental issues, some of them have immigrant or refugee backgrounds and their Danish isn’t always great. They’re always sweet and fun, but they don’t always understand that you shouldn’t run or shout or in the goat pen. They aren’t mean to the goats, but hey there may have been a time or to in the past when I thought to myself “Ok, Luna. Maybe give them a little push”. Oh naughty Lasse!
But it was all good today, everyone had their fun. And when they were gone I had my alone time again with the goats, getting to sit with each one in turn in the sun. Along with the usual headbutting and silliness.
Just a really good summer’s goat day. Can’t ask for much more
I came home and had to deal with some stuff, but I’ll save the nongoats news for later. I am tired now and I need soup. And Pepsi! Burning hot soup and ice cold Pepsi. Mmm mm. That’s the stuff.
24/8 2026
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Bella on one of the podiums. I have mentioned a couple of times before when i would sweep a podium and right when I was done a goat would jump up on it and start dropping berries. Well today Bella didn’t even wait. She was standing no the podium and I started sweeping it with my small brush and she just started dropping more berries. Like she was going “Oh you like sweeping hose? Here, have some more. Enjoy!”.

24/8 2026
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Sky relaxing on the new pallet. She seems to like it there, sat down on it several times.
It’s a good place ato sit in the sun, with a view to the big girls on the platforms. It’s funny about Sky, she doesn’t want to be too close to Bella and Luna mostly. But she also doesn’t want to be separated from them. Jeanette has told me that when they have tried to separate her from them she will be unhappy. Goats are social creatures. She wants to be near them, but not TOO near them. She wants to be with them, but with the possibility of escape when she wants to be on her own. Good thing we have a nice amount of space and things to sit on and places she can be by herself when she needs it. I can relate. I need my space to get away from others too.

24/8 2026
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Luna and the blue sky, no diamonds.

24/8 2026
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Okay, nongoat news.
I came home today and found the parking space fenced still. But. The cinder blocks were gone. The parking space was actually open, there was even a car or two parked in front of our building. The temporary fencing they put up for the digging last week was just still up. Meaning you could park in front of our building, you just couldn’t walk from your car to the building entrance.
At least that’s what I thought. Until I saw a couple of kids pass through the fence right out at the edge. I went to look and you can get through. But it’s a small gap. I am not sure my mom could get through there with her walker. I am not sure the grocery delivery guy could get through there with the boxes.
So that’s not great. That sent my anxiety and depression skyrocketing. It made me just want to not be here anymore, to not have to deal with everything. The devil on my shoulder immediately going “Everything sucks,if you’re not going to jump off the balcony at least order pizza and cake and stay in bed and wallow in misery and self-pity”. Jerk.
Well, I went on fb and messaged Helle and asked if she knew anything about it. I don’t think she was available at the time, though. And after some more wallowing I decided that I couldn’t count on Helle to fix everything for me all the time, and I should try something.
So i did. Something that is difficuly for me. Something i hate. Something that triggers my anxiety even more. I… *gasp* picked up the phone and called the housing association.
I ended up spending I think more than 15 minutes on the phone. They were very nice. I got a lot of uhm and errs and directing call to someone else and hold on I’ll ask someone else and getting put on hold and stuff.
But the lady I talked to once my call was directed to the right place was really nice. She listened to me and she was very understanding. She had to look stuff up, apparently where a little confused about whether the parking space actually was open, if it was supposed to, if it should be opened up, if it should be closed until 2028, what exactly had been communicated and so on. She had to ask colleagues. She was very understanding and nice. I explained how I’m visually impaired, have back problems and other issues. And she agreed that it would be hard for me if i was not able to get deliveries for two years. She asked if I was going to be rehoused and I said no no no, I had just been rehoused from the other block. We talked a little about the delivery service and what might be possible. She was trying to offer up some possible solutions but they weren’t really anything realistic.
After a while and not really getting anywhere substantial she said she had to talk to the person who would know the most about it all. And I got put on hold for a while. And then she came back and said she couldn’t get through to that person, she might be in a meeting. She’d try again later and call back. So there was some waiting there. And then she called back. And she said that the housing assoc was going to try to put up a ramp to make it easier for people in our part of the building to have access. She couldn’t promise exactly when, but she said they would try to do it in the next two weeks. I had told her that I had a delivery coming tomorrow. We talked a little back and forth and agreed that i should try calling the delivery company and see what we could work out about tomorrow. And she told me I couldn’t get anything worked out and I had problems tomorrow I should call back to the housing assoc, and she gave me her name and told me to ask for her and she would try to help. So that was really lovely. And if that ramp gets put up then hopefully that would help with the issue. I have a hard time visualizing where it would go and how it would work exactly, if it would let my parents be able to get dropped off in front of my building of example. But hopefully they can get it done and hopefully it will make things easier. She was very sympathetic to my problems.
So after that my first thought was to just cancel the delivery tomorrow. It’s mostly a test order, there’s stuff I want but not something I absolutely need and can’t get in the grocery store. But at the point when the calls were done, it was like 20 minutse after the deadline to cancel my order. Darn. So I had to bite the bullet and *gasp* make another phone call.
I called the delivery company. And talked to a very nice lady. I explained the situation and we talked a bit and she basically said, why don’t we jus try to make the delivery tomorrow. We can tell the driver that he may need some extra time and if he has problems getting through we can talk to him on our chat and he can send us pictures if he needs to and we can try to guide him.
So that was really great actually. I had been afraid that their policy would be that if they can’t drop off at your front door then they just won’t deliver. But it sounds like that’s not the case. She was asking about other places they might be able to park etc. So it sounds like they are willing to deliver even if they can’t park right outside and they’re willing to make some effort to get to me. That could potentially make the next couple of years actually… work. So I am really hoping for that. I guess I’ll find out tomorrow, but it sounded possible.
I must have spent 25-30 minutes on the phone today. Sheesh, I can’t remember the last time that happened. You may think that it would be easier for someone with social phobia and anxiety to talk to people over the phone because you’re not face to face. But it just triggers all new levels of anxiety. So it was difficult today. I had to really overcome some fear today. But I did it. And it paid off. It’s funny how I went from feeling completely down in the dumps, severely depressed and worried and just awful. To feeling.. well, somewhat optimistic. Hopefully I can get that delivery tomorrow. Hopefully that ramp can get up soon and make things easier. There is some hope now.
If that ramp gets done I should make sure everyone in our entrance know it’s because of me and I should get all the credit for making things easier for everyone and.. wait, that would involve socializing with people. Maybe we should just keep it quiet.
But yeah that was my adventures in phoning today.
I also did some grocery shopping, to get freh fruit again. This time the cashier said the total amount. I think he didn’t do that with the other costumers though, maybe he just did it because I’m visually impaired. That would be nice of him if that’s the case, it really helps. And using my card is getting easier. There were too many people in the store though, the line at the register was so long that I went around and pretended to look at goods, hoping that the queue would shorten. I was relieved when the message came through over the speakers “staff please report to checkout line to open a new register”. There was still a line a little too long when I went out, but I made it through that too.
Phew. Challenging day, after the lovely sunny goat times.
But I suppose I should try to take the lesson that sometimes it’s good to face things head on. I know that Helle has talked to the housing assoc about the issues and was making some headway, but I think maybe it helped to be putting my particular issues forward myself in dialogue with them. I could feel that lady I talked to being sympatheetic and mulling things over and trying to come up with ideas and solution. Maybe when you’re faced with something directly affected by the situation it’s harder to just ignore it? Or maybe it makes no difference that I called, who know. But at least it sounds like things are happening.
Alright. If you read all that you deserve a cookie. That’s my cookie policy, do you accept or decline?
24/8 2026
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My little slices of heaven.
You may be able to spot Bella relaxing on teh bench and catching some rays on the platform. Luna was sitting next to the photographer, as she likes to do.
Yeah, it was a good and challenging day today. Beautiful sun times with the thoats, potentially the last really sunny warm day of the season. And then challenging phone calls that yilded hopefully positive results. Quite the day.

24/8 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for it.
AND I GOT DELIVERY.
Hooray. I got my groceries delivered, without problems. I don’t even know if the driver was able to get them through the fence or he parked somewhere else or if he had any problems. He didn’t say anything about. I was watching him approach on their tracker and it didn’t seem like he was going around looking for access, and he was up with my goods quite soon after it changed to “driver has arrived”. So that’s a huge relief and I am very happy about it.
Let’s hope that means that there won’t be any problems with me gettng deliveries going forward. Right now the parking space is open, there is just that fence. At some point I believe the parking space will actually be closed. So we’ll have to see what happens then. But my experience with the delivery company on this delivery makes me think they would do their best to find a way to make it work.
And hopefully the housing association will get that ramp up and that will make fix any problems there may be.
So it’s been a couple of good days. Great sunny goat times, manning up and doing phone calls, getting stuff done, doing exercise, receiving delivery. The soccerballsport club I love also won yesterday and is top of the league after 5 games.
One sad thing has happend though. I know no one reading this will know his name, but rest in peace Ole Bjur. He was my alltime favourite soccerball player from my favourite club. He was amazing in the late 90s when soccerballsport was actually good. I was shocked to see the headline, because he wasn’t that old. Super sad. Fuck cancer.
25/8 2026
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The blooper reel has been updated for the premium subscribers.
I keep forgetting that putting the camera on the yellow chair is a bad idea when I go to get goodies from my backpack up on the shelf in the goat house. Because inevitably a goat will jump up on the chair to try to reach up to the backpack. And then I’ll have to shoo them down before they knock the camera over. This time I was too late and Bella won on a knockout.

25/8 2026
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Aw, Dolly Parton? Man. Rest in peace. I wasn’t as such a fan of her. But I loved her. She was beyond things that made you a fan of people. She was above it all. She made the world better, and now she’s gone.
I know it’s not really any different from any other year, but 2026 sure seems to be killing a lot of people I like. Robots masy be outrunning people now, but ain’t none of us outrunning time.
Bummer.
25/8 2026
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goatlog

26/8 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Working hard at it. Still got the angel and the devil fighting on my shoulders. Maybe I should just take a week off and sleep half the day and sit in front of the computer and eat cake and pizza and fries and drink Pepsi and.. what could go wrong? Stupid devil. I’m starting to think he maybe doesn’t have my best inerest at heart…
But anyway, I’m working and so far it’s going well. Probably won’t be long before the tomatoes and cucumbers start getting worse. I should have started this in spring…
It’s nice having some muscles on my arms. I still have pretty skinny arms, but I remember before I got back into the fitnessing. I had zero muscle. It’s not like I’m Schwarzenegger now, but it’s nice when you flex your arm and you can feel the muscle. Even after the bad July, i’m still like 40 pounds lighter than at my heaviest. Have to appreciate that, even when I struggle. I may fail sometimes, but I also succeed. One day a day.
26/8 2026
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Are you effing shirting me. Tim Curry now? What is going on. Somebody make this stop.
Gosh darned censored outburst.
Sigh.
Rest in peace. Two greats gone in two days and my favourite footballer too. This is rough.
26/8 2026
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Think goat thoughts. Look at Luna’s ears. One of them up like an air controller waving in a plane.

26/8 2026
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Good goat times today. Happy day with the fuzzballs. Grey and windy though. For the first time this season I felt like maybe I should have worn a jacket. Although it did start to warm up when the sun started breaking through.
No Jeanette today. She was supposed to be there, maybe she was out sick. Hopefully everything is okay.
But lots of visitors. Bunch of kids in the pen again. Some sweet one. Luna was back so it was a double shot of Luna. And there was a girl who asked what their names was and when I told her Bella’s name she said that she had dog named Bella, so that was super sweet. And coincidentally the story I was reading on my way today (from Storytime With Wil Wheaton) also had a dog named Bella. So kind of a triple shot of Bella today.
And then Lily was back. I don’t know if anyone remembers her. Not the goat Lily. But the little girl who is really fascinated by my glasses and camera. I think it must be a year or more since I last saw her? She is super sweet. Non verbal. But she came over to me, and as she has done in the past, she was pointing at my glasses and then at her own glasses. And pointing at my camera. While making her little noises. She is super sweet. It’s not many kids who are more interested in me than in the goats. Thankfully. But with Lily it’s fine.
Lots of sweet little interactions, even though it is a little much for me to have so many kids running around.
But now to relax with a potful of soup and flourballs, and a tall glass of frosty Pepsi. Not too shabby.
27/8 2026
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They put up a new sign saying not to feed the animals.
This photo was taken 10 seconds before I fed the animals.
It’s okay, I’m allowed. That’s what the goats tell me anyway.

27/8 2026
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Hi Sky!

27/8 2026
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Okay, nongoats news.
I bet you thought you wouldn’t be hearing more about the parking space?
Welllll…
Got home today and found it completely closed. No more small passage at the edge o the fence. So that’s a new situation.
There was a digging machine working in the parking space. I am hoping. I know I shouldn’t get my hopes up. But I’m hoping it was working on establishing the ramp they promised. The big garbage containers had been moved out, they were originally standing at the side of the parking space. Maybe they have been moved to make space for the ramp to come down into our space.
I don’t know. I guess I’ll have to see. They said the ramp would be up in a couple of weeks. So they have till the end of next week. My fatalistic mind is already anticipating them not living up to the promise. But hey, prove me wrong, world!
But his is a new situation. I think with my good experience with the delivery company, I should still be able to get deliveries even if the parking space is completely closed. It should be ok. I will probably wait with my next order until the ramp is, hopefully, up soon. Since I have a stockpile of Pepsi and I am fairly ok getting fresh fruit in the grocery store (got more today) I should be able to wait.
If they WERE working on the ramp today, maybe it’s already up! Maybe!
While the deliveries will hopefully be okay either way, my parents can’t get to me if the parking space is completely closed. They woul have to go up and down stairs, and they can’t. So that ramp better be coming.
we shall see.
In other news, I got a message on the goat page messenger:
“Facebook created this chat because [redacted] commented on your post. [redacted] won’t see this until you start a conversation. You have 7 days before this chat disappears”
That is the stupidest thing in a while. One of you guys (I won’t say who!) left a perfectly fine question, just another comment. Why would facebook automatically put that into a chat? I answer questions posted in comments in replies to the comment. I don’t need facebook to try to get me into a chat. Fks sake. All this algorithm/automation/ai ought to make things EASIER.
It would be like if Keiko asked “did you get a lot of berries today” and fb auomatically inserted into a chat and asked me if I wanted to go on. Not that I don’t want to chat to Keiko, but I do my chatting mainly in comments. Those of you who try to engage with me on mesenger probably can tell, since I can be days or weeks to reply. Realtime chatting is not my jam.
Okay calm down. Sorry. I also have continued multiple tech problems. I won’t bore you with those details. I’m just frustrated and my head is getting turned upside down trying to solve issues and worrying about other things.
And you know, great people keep dying. Kristen Bell better be okay.
27/8 2026
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Imagine the world’s most powerful man using a supreme executive order to.. rename a fkn lake.
How insecure must America be. It’s honestly pathetic. It tells you what the priorities are. Getting your name on stuff. Bibles, bridges, lakes, whatever.
Meanwhile selling wild horses for pennies to the meat industry.
Waging wars and making billions by scamming his followers with cryptocurrency.
And on and on and on. I know, not all Americans. It’s just so sad how he has turned everyone against America. Apart from the other neanderthal dictatorships.
🎶 he was a stupid baby, turned into a powerful freak 🎵
27/8 2026
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Don’t you ever wish it was just socially acceptable to headbutt people?

27/8 2026
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sometimes you just gotta let it slide.

27/8 2026
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Btw, probably not many people remember it, but my first memory of Tim Curry is the TV series Earth 2 from 1994. I think I have talked about it before. It is pretty much my earliest memory of the kind of Lost type show, the so called ‘mystery box’ sort of show. Lots of questions but few answers. Scifi and mystery. It was cancelled after one season, and back then I didn’t really understand how that could happen. I mean that literally. That was before internet and I did not know that a show could be ‘cancelled’. I don’t know if Danish shows back then were ever cancelled? And with no information available, it was just a matter of… suddenly there were no more episodes and nothing was concluded.
Anyway. In that show, basically a group of people crash land on an alien planet that they were going to colonize, because blabla we wrecked our own Earth (so, it’s kind of Science Fact, not Science Fiction). But they are on this alien planet with alien species. But suddenly. There’s another human. How is this possible? They’re on a planet that humanity has never visited, 22 light years or whatever away from Earth. How is there another human?
Who was that human?
Why, it was Tim Curry of course. Before I had any idea who Tim Curry was. I just knew I loved him on the show. That Tim Curry energy cannot be denied.
I don’t actually remember if it was ever explained how his character got to be there, before the show was cancelled. I have the whole show downloaded, but it’s in crappy youtube quality. But at some point I’d like to rewatch it all. Even knowing that it ends unresolved. Must have been my first time seeing Clancy Brown too, Danziger!
Okay, this was not important. Taking it easy today. Resting my legs for more exercise in the weekend hopefully.
28/8 2026
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Triple goat score.

28/8 2026
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Psst, I heard he’s Lake Flaccid.
29/8 2026
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Got an hour fifty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Working hard. Feeling stronger and stronger. Weight going down. Doing some new stretches, situps, crunches, feel like they’re doing some good fo the back.
So hey let’s hope it’s a positive trend.
Can’t believe August is almost done. That’s the end of summer in Denmark. Didn’t get the summer without worries that I had hoped for, but it sure was a hot one.
September will bring the visit to the neuro clinic. I’m not sure exactly what will be happening, but presumably more tests for epilepsy.
Where the river of times goes nobody knows, somewhere ahead it goes around the bend and who knows to where it flows.
etcetera.

29/8 2026
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Uh oh. I didn’t think about it, but. I just started reading Michael J. Fox’s memoir.
Somebody check on him, please. Maybe I should stop reading it, at least until he passes, many many years from now. After I murdered Panettiere and Curry with my memoir reading powers of evil.
Anyway, so far I’m enjoying the book a lot. It took just a minute to get used to his voice, since he’s narrating it himself and obviously with his condition it’s not a perfect voice for narration. It was kind of the same thing with Tim Curry’s book, because of his stroke. But even when their voices aren’t smooth and perfect, it just adds to the experience to have the person themself narrating it.
And in Michael J. Fox’s book there are also audio guests. Like he talks about Leah Thomspon and their experience on Back To The Future and then it cuts to Leah talking. Cristopher Lloyd too! And others too. That’s pretty cool.
Also, I have to admit. I just went to the googlemachine and checked how old Harrison Ford is. Glad he’s not 80.
Getting paranoid, yo.
29/8 2026
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I wish all humans could just come together in unison.
Preferably in a place far away from me, I’ll just stay with the goats.
29/8 2026
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goatlog

30/8 2026
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Phew. Four sessions this week. Feels good, but tough. My legs are pretty wrecked now. Tired. I have dropped about half the weight I put on during Bad July. Planning to take a couple of weeks with intense diet and exercise. See if I can get the last off. That would be nice.
Scheduling a grocery delivery for Tuesday. So that will be another exciting edition of Can Lasse Get Delivered? Don’t know if the promisd ramp is up or not. But hopefully it’ll be fine.
Fall temperatures as we go into September. Below 20C/68F with probably lots of rain. Probably have to turn on my heat soon. I miss summer already.
Time to relax now.
30/8 2026
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Bella relaxing. Those are two of the shelves from my old book shelf. I put them there thinking maybe it could be a spot for Sky to sit if the big girls were blocking the entrance to the goat house. But I haven’t seen them get that much use. But you know goats gotta sit on stuff if they can.

30/8 2026
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Wow. I tell you what. Quitting junk food and cake has really made a difference to my budget. I have a text file where I write down every time I spend money, so I can keep track of how much I use on what etc. This month’s budget is almost one third of last months! Bad July I spent an obscene amount of money on really bad things. So stupid. Good thing I’m back on the right track and will never make mistakes again that’s for sure you can count on that he said laughing nervously, Oh by the way in the latest episode of Stuart Fails To Save The Universe they end up in a reality where humans descend from cows and so they all have four stomachs and they chew cud. I really like this show.
30/8 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. Back to the happy place with no worries. And Jeanette back! So good to see her again. Chatting with he about her vacation, and the stuff going on with me. Just happy to have her back, for me and for the gaots.
And we got 4 new feathers too. Jeanette went to get them. I haven’t seen them yet, I guess they have to stay locked in thee coop for a couple of weeks. To acclimate I suppose. There was a whole lot of squawking coming from over by the chicken house, and I thought it was the newbies complaining about being moved or whatever, but then Jeanette told me that it was the oldfeathers making a fuss. I guess they weren’t too happy having to share their digs. We’ll see if the newfeathers will want to come hang out with the goats. Since Red Sonja passed we haven’t really had any of the hens hanging out with us much, even when they’re allowed out. Let’s hope. It’s nice havine feathers with the furs.
And I had my sweet fun with the goats. At one point I managed to get Bella and Luna to think that my shoe was some kind of dangerous animal. I was moving my leg around and they were trying to attack it and headbutt it and Luna was pawing at it. Watch out for the shoe-beast!
I may have gotten Luna a little too worked up. Twice she headbutted visiting kids. Oops. She has been behaving well otherwise, so that wasn’t great. Thankfully the kids weren’t too scared and their adults took it calmy too. “That means she doesn’t want to talk anymore”. Yeah, Luna doesn’t always like kids. I have noticed she makes her funny almost growling sounds at me too if I sort of squat down. So I seem shorter. Maybe she just doesn’t like short people. She’s a weirdo sometimes. But so sweet and a great hugger too.
Alright. There’s more stuff to discuss, but I think I need me some soup now. A fairly chill day, temps struggling to get up around 20C/68F. But it was nice when the sun was out. Ok, soup’s ahoy, matey.
17/8 2026
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Beware the Fell Beast, Luna.

17/8 2026
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Triple goat score. Three goats taking it breezy.

17/8 2026
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In non goats news. I went grocery shopping today. I have rarely done that since I started getting deliveries. Maybe a handful of times the last few years.
But I am planning to try to maybe along with drinking water, maybe eat some fruit. Yeah yeah. I’m hoping for the next two days to be exercise and water and fruit. And protein powder and vitamins and stuff. But. I’d like to try a couple of days without soda. See if that has any effect on anything.
Since I’m not sure about the delivery situation, I thought I’d stop by the grocery store and get some fresh fruit. Fresh fruit is the one place where getting deliveries isn’t always great. You can’t pick your own fruit, and sometimes the quality just isn’t great. I have more or less stopped eating cucumbers because the ones I were getting just weren’t good enough. I think I have mentioned it before. When it comes to cucumbers, I prefer the long skinny ones. Stop snickering in the back. The short fat ones just don’t taste good. I have got it in my head that they’re pumped full of water, I don’t know if that’s completely wrong or not. But I just don’t like them. Bananas haven’t been lasting very long lately either. Maybe that’s just because it’s late in the season, they were pretty good earlier. But it’s just nice being able to pick out your own fruits and greens.
So I did that. The grocery store is only a minor detour on my way home from the goats. Maybe 10 minutes extra walking. But then there’s the time spent in the store too of course.
The worst thing for me is the checkout. It severely triggers my social phobia and anxiety. Especially paying with my card. I used to always pay with cash, to avoid the card machine. For decades I used to literally tansfer money to my dad via bank and then he’d go downtown and withdraw cash and give it to me. Spoild as I was. I think it was only last year I started actually using my physical card. After decades. I think the first time was at the dentist last year.
Those card readers are just really hard for me. I can’t see it well enough. At least when the amount is below a certain treshhold you don’t have to enter your pin. But even then it’s hard. Today I was waving my card over the reader and I think I got some error message but I couldn’t tell for sure, I turned my card over and tried waving it around some more. And then suddenly the receipt started printing. Oh, I guessI paid. It’s just severely triggering, when you have a queue of people behind you and you don’t know if it’s working or not. Ugh. It must be nice to be able to do things like that without wanting to run away screaming. If you can pay at the grocery store without a panic attack, appreciate it.
And the walk home carrying stuff isn’t fun. Apples, bananas, cucumbers, tomatoes, some bread. And some sparkling water. Four bottles of sparkling water with natural citrus flavouring. I’m going to try that the next couple of days, to get some of that carbonation.
So we’ll see how it goes the next couple of days. Writing about it in public puts al ittle pressure on me to actually follow through. But the depression devil on my shoulder is already whispering, wouldn’t it be nice to just stay in bed tomorrow and then get cake and pizza and fries and drink Pepsi, wouldn’t it just?
What a jerk.
I came home and checked on the parking space.
To recap. I had originally gotten notified that the parking space would be shut off on Monday the 3rd. And then nothing happened for two weeks, cars still parked there, trash bins still there. No change that I could see. And then I got notified that today they would start digging and the parking space would be shut off and all cars had to be gone by 7 am.
When I came home from goating and shopping… there were still cars parked in front of our entrance and the trash bins were still there and I couldn’t see any change.
I almost started wondering if I was going crazy. Maybe I’m in the wrong universe. Maybe I’m in Universe A where nothing is changing but I’m getting notifications from Universe B where they’re digging and stuff.
But not too long after I got home, I got a text message from the housing association. Saying that the digging work had begun but it couldn’t be completed until all cars were gone, so please remove your cars immediately!
So I guess that’s why I didn’t see anything changed, people hadn’t moved their cars like they were supposed to.
The text message also contained some new and useful information. They are expecting the digging work to be completed Thursday. So that dig IS a temporary thing. And it kind of sounded from the message like people would be able to park by our entrance again when it’s done. So. Maybe I’ll still be able to get deliveries when that is done? Maybe my parents can still visit? Maybe everything will be fine? Yeah yeah I shouldn’t get my hopes up. I hope people will get their cars moved and the digging gets done and then I’ll see.
Sorry bout the boring update. But that’s my life!
Let’s hope I can accomplish the exercise-water-fruit plan for the next couple of days. I just want to see. What it feels like to not be dosing on asparmatam or whatever it’s called.
17/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Good start to the day. Didn’t feel so hard to get going, motivated to get on the bike. So far so good. Now comes the hard part of the project. Eating fruit and drinking water for the rest of the day. No Pepsi. No cake, no pizza, no fries, no biscuits, no butter, no licorice. Just fruits and water. Oh boy! I’m not planning to live like that for an extended period time. I’d just like a couple of ‘pure’ days. Keeping things natural. Seeing if that makes me feel any different than when I’m mainling asspartynams and processed junk. Maybe it’ll be too short a time to tell a difference, but hey I’ll see. If I can get through two days, maybe I’ll extend a few days more. Or maybe I’ll cave tonight and call for an emergency pizza- You never know.
But so far so good.
Gonna grab me some yummy maters and cukes tonight. From the grocery store. I love tomatoes and cucumbers, when they’re good. Years ago when I had my first big weight loss, a lot of it was built around cucumber and tomato. Just a big plate of that, that’s a satisfying meal to me. Channeling my inner goat.
18/8 2026
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Rest in peace Hayden Panettiere. I was shocked to see the headline yesterday morning. Partly because she was so young. Only 36. That’s so sad. And it surprised me, because it feels like she was around forever. But I guess she was just so young when she was on Heroes. I loved Heroes, at least the first season. That was back in the Lost days and it was one of those shows that tried, and for a while succeeded, to capture the kind of mystery vibe of Lost. And I loved Hayden on it. She was so cute and coold and funny. Save the cheerleader, save the world.
Partly also shocked because , I literally just finished reading her memoir. I think it was released in May. I finished it less than a week ago. And it was an audibook narrated by herself. So I had spent a week or two listening to her voice. I couldn’t believe it when I saw that headline.
The book was rough too. It was hard to hear all the things she went through. I won’t go in to all that, but it was a lot. And to see it end like this. Such a sad stor with a heartbreaking ending.
We failed the cheerleader and I don’t have much hope for the world.
18/8 2026
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Me when the pizza guy arrives. JUST HAND IT OVER DUDE!
..But not today. Heading to bed soon and it seems I have succeded in my goal. Water and fruits today. I am craving unhealthy things, but I know it’s mostly mental.
Let’s see if I can do it again tomorrow.
18/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Phew, two days in a row. First I managed that since the Bad July. So that’s good. Tired morning, but not crushed by depression. Motivated to get on the bike and work on my little project. Can I do it today too? Fruit and water? I think so. I was planning to do it for two days, but maybe I’ll extend it a little. Rest of the week? I’ll have to add some soup too, can’t go without that. But going without sodas and baked goods and all the unhealthy junk, that would be fun to try. We’ll see. One day a day. Looking forward to some tomatoes, cucumber, banana, pears and apple. Feeling fruity, might do some jazz hands.
19/8 2026
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In a post a couple of days I promised big cash prizes to anyone who could guess what music I was listening to. I only goy one guess, and they didn’t get it.
What was I listening to? David Duchovny. Bet no one could have guessed that! Yes, Fox Mulder. X-Files.
I stumbled upon the fact that he had released an album. I had no idea he did music. So I thought to myself I thought “eh why not” and I acquired it and put it on. And my first thought when he started singing was “oooh, no”. I was not impressed, haha.
But I have been listening to it for a few days, and it has grown on me. His voice isn’t exactly amazing. But I don’t mind it. Maybe it’s just because it’s a voice I know from all his TV shows. But I kind of like it. Some of the lyrics are decent. The music is a nice chill singer/songwriter thing. It doesn’t set my soul on fire, but I kind of like it. So if you’ve ever wanted to hear Fox Mulder jam, well maybe it’s something for you.
After reading Haysen Panettiere’s memoir, I read Last Chance To See by Douglas Adams. Speaking of people who died too young. I mentioned on Bluesky a while ago, I’m only one year younger than Adams was when he passed. Gone too soon.
I enjoyed Last Chance To See a lot, mostly. He was such a great writer and his passion for animal preservation was wonderful.
The book is about him going to see endangered animals, spreading awareness and such. Some of it was wonderful. The only part I didn’t like was the part about the Komodo dragon. Specifically because it involved slaughtering a goat and feeding it to Komodo dragons and some pretty graphic descriptions of it all. And that part I just happened to be listening to just as I arrived at the goat playground last week. Erk. I could have done without that.
To his credit, Adams himself clearly was upset by it. He said something like, he set out to see monster creatures but the only monstrous thing he saw was the way the humans treated the goat.
And of course I also didn’t like how humans are endangering species and ruining the planet. But tell that to the people who happily cheer for regimes who greedily and gleefully destroy the environment for profit. Who needs animal species when you can have oil!
Let’s destroy the environment and just keep the cutest animal species in zoos, win win kaching.
Alright, stop the political ranting.
Movie wise I watched The Mandalorian And Grogu. I really enjoyed the first half or so. Swol Hutt is a sexy mf, there I said it. The second part it just got too hard for me to follow visually and I sort of tuned out. Not an amazing movie, but if you keep your expectations low and think of it as a big budget episode of the TV show then I think it’s very satisfying.
Enjoying the new season of Ted Lasso too. I have seen people say it’s not good, but it’s working for me. I love the new coach, hope she sticks around. And just good to see the gang again. Comfort TV.
I guess that’s all. I seem to have made it through day two of exercise, fruit and water. I didn’t know if I could do it, but apparently I could. I’ll have to consider what to do now. I can’t keep it quite this sparse, but I really should try not to go back to the worst unhealthy behaviour.
Have to see if the parking lot digging will be done tomorrow too. I haven’t gotten anymore messages from the housing assoc telling people to move their cars, so they must have been able to start the work. Planning to try a grocery delivery in the weekend, so we’ll see how that goes.
Thanks for listening, if you so. Thank for sticking with me, if you have. Thanks for supporting me so much, when you do. I appreciate you. Sometimes it feels like good people are an endangered species
19/8 2026
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Good goat times today. The weather is cooling down, but when the sun is out it is still quite lovely.
Lots of visitors today. It’s easier when Jeanette is there. But i did have to do a lot of peopling. Lots of kids in the pen. We had a sweet Luna visit. A boy came over to me and Luna on the bench. He was guiding a girl over to us. His Danish wasn’t be the best, so when he mention “Luna” I said yes, this goat is Luna. But then he said “this is Luna to!”. Turns out the girl was called Luna too, so Luna got to meet Luna. That was very sweet.
Lots of kids running around and petting the goats and asking questions.
And Jeanette dumped off a fresh load of pine. Those goats have gotten so much pine this year, much more than the one or two christmas trees they used to get. Lucky goats.
Now i’m going to get me some soup. The first non-fruit meal for me since Monday. Looking forward to that!
20/8 2026
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Here’s one of today’s Lunas.

20/8 2026
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Bella and Luna enjoying the pine.
Still tickles me that a month after christmas I settled myself to accepting that the goats would be getting no trees this year. And then Jeanette acquired a neighbouring area with lots of pine that had to be cleared out. Jackpot for the goats.

20/8 2026
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Nongoats news for today.
i went grocery shopping again today. Wanted more fresh fruit.
It went okay, apart from when the cashier for some reason didn’t tell me the total of my purchase. And I was standing there waiting for him to say it. While I guess he was just waiting for me to pay. After some awkward silence he said “it’s not working”. I guess he thought I’d tried my card. So I asked what the total was and he said it and I used my card, and this time it went much easier.
Am I wrong in thinking they’re supposed to say the total before you pay? I guess when paying with card or phone you don’t NEED to hear the total before paying. But I feel like they usually do. It’s a nice sign for someone who is visually impaired that hey, all your goods are scanned and we’re ready to proceed. I can’t exactly take visual cues for when I’m supposed to pay.
Yeah, I don’t enjoy the cash register or the walk home carrying stuff. But when not buying heavy sodas it’s not too bad. And being able to pick out fresh fruit is nice.
Came home and found the parking lot shut off. With fence and cinderblocks. I didn’t see anyone working or any big dig holes. But hopefully they have finished the work today as they said in the message on Monday that they would. Hopefully the parking space will be opened again. I was thinking of trying a test grocery order on Saturday, but I think I’ll wait to next week. See if the parking space is open. I still tress and worry about it all.
Soup was great today. And had more fruit. And no soda. I really missed the Pepsi while eating soup. I really love taking a mouthful of burning hot soup and then taking a swill of ice cold Pepsi. Sigh.
But I am thinking of going through the rest of the week without soda. And then going back to Pepsi on Monday. I know it would be better for my health overall to not do soda. But I have been off the Pepsi for a while now and it hasn’t really made me feel any different. If I don’t feel any different from being completely off all soda by Sunday, then it’s back to Pepsi. I miss it. So there.
I am not going to keep eating all fruits. As I said, I had soup today. And I’ll start adding more stuff back to my diet. But I woould really like it if I could not order junk food and cake, at least for a while. At least until I have lost some weight…
Now that I’m 17 paragraphs into the entry and people have probably stopped reading, I guess I can admit… I put on almost 15 pounds during Bad July (and some of August). I completely let go and spent an insane amount of money and put on a lot of weight. Luckily my weight was so low that I’m still in fair to decent weight. Not back to my old obesity. But still. That’s a lot to put on in a short time. And I am sure that’s why my back pains have gotten really bad again. I need to lose some weight now. The exercise is going well, but the diet is a struggle. Still, I’ve made it through three days with only fruit, apart from the soup, and the protein powder. So I hope I can keep things under control. Lose some weight, before letting some unhealthy things back in the diet.
Bla bla bla.
It’s tough. Like today i had some really frustrating tech problems. I won’t boew you (more) with the details, but I spent hours on frustrating troubleshooting and trying things. And without much success. And it is leaving me so frustrated and the desire to do self-destructive things have heightened. and the devil on my shoulder tells me to just get some pizza and cake and that will make me forget it all. Jerk.
So well we’ll see. If I can keep things under control. If the parking opens up. It’s been quite a while since I had blackout, so now that’s something I sort of dread. Is one coming? The longer I go without one, the more likely it would be to come soon.
And so on and so forth. I need to get to bed soon. It was a good day until the frustration set in. My mind is a fragile thing, it doesn’t take much to throw me out of balance and then the negative thoughts take over.
20/8 2026
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goatlog

21/8 2026
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Taking it easy today, after all the activity this week. And that’s quite nice.
Not feeling super great though. Didn’t sleep well. And the frustration from yesterday is still ingering. Fueling negative thoughts and depression. The devil telling me that nothing matters anyway and I should just order pizza and cake. Jerk. He does have a point, though…
No no. i’m resisting. Sticking to my plan. No soda for the rest of hte week. Mostly fruit today.
Tinnitus still going, btw. At least I haven’t blacked out. I feel like they often come in weekends though.. so. I’m sure it’s fine.
One day a day.
21/8 2026
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Jeanette didn’t just bring pines for the goats, she also brought a new pallet for me. Asked if I could use it for something.
I didn’t really have any good ideas for it, I ended up putting it there, next to the logs. You know goats love standing on things, and I think standing on one thing and stepping over to another, that kind of works their brain cells a little. Okay, it’s not rocket science. But just good to have things to deal with for them. And it works pretty well when Bella is standing on the logs, then Luna can stand on the pallet. Everyone has a place to stand.
All three of them spent some time on the pallet. It’s something.

21/8 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Tired muscles today, but I put in a good effort I must say. Working hard. I have dropped four pounds, although it’s probably mostly water weight and bloatedness and stuff. But it’s good to see the numbers go down. Just as unhealthy things are addictive, healthy things can be too. When you get into a good rhythm, it feels good to work hard and see results and you want to keep that going. It sure is better a better way to get endorphins than unhealthy things. A lot cheaper too.
So that’s good. I’ll have water and fruit today. Hoo. Ray? Looking forward to Pepsi on Monday. But for now, a clean day.
I’ve had more tech troubles, but let’s forget about that now. And I wonder if the parking lot is open. Can’t be bothered going down to check, I’ll check on Monday. Hooves crossed.
*puts on wizard hat and robes*
TTYL
22/8 2026
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Let’s play another round of Where’s Sky. You may need to zoom…

22/8 2026
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For the premium subscribers, some funny Luna noises and a berryfall.
22/8 2026
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23/8 2026
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Do you ever look in the mirror and think to yourself “I wish I was made of chocolate, because I really don’t need a left hand that much, I could eat a nice chocolate hand”.
Everything is fine, I am not hallucinating. Chocolate withdrawal isn’t a real thing, stop jumping on my head tiny chocolate bunnies.
23/8 2026
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Rolling thunder outside. It does sound quite cool when you’re up in the air.
Looks like we might get a couple of almost hot days ahead. That would be nice. The weather is feeling more and more like fall. It’s cold in the morning now. For me. I’m going to miss having the doors open and being too hot. July was bad for me, but still. Blazing head and super unhealthy food. I wish I could live like that, without consequences. Stupid consequences.
I’m going to relax the diet today and have some baked goods and butter. Oh my. Then back to work tomorrow. But I’m looking forward to the Pepsi. I’ve gone weeks without caffine and it hasn’t made any difference to sleep. I’m impressed that I have made it through 6 days without any soda at all. It must be the first time since I was a toddler. Too bad the sparkling water has such weak carbonation. It’s just not the same.
But hey hey. One day a day. Doing the best I can. I would like to go the month out without ordering junk food or cake. Who knows maybe even beyond that. Maybe I’ll never eat cake again. 🎶 They’re coming to take me away, ha ha, hee hee, to the funny farm 🎵
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
23/8 2026
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Triple goat score. I ate too much today. Said no goat ever.

23/8 2026
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That’s all for now.