Good goat times today. Back on track, hopefully. Back to the goat place.
A beautiful sunny day. But cold. Too cold. Down below 5C/41F in the morning. Jeanette said it was below freezing when she left from home. Brrr. Yeah, today I really felt it. Could have used gloves and a sweater. I ended up leaving earlier than I wanted because the cold was getting to me. I miss summer. In more ways than one.
But it was a lovely time with the furpals. Jeanette told me that when she got there, Sky adn Bella were both sitting under the podium. So i guess Bella has figured out how to get under there. When I got there, Sky was sitting under the second podium, the one in the back. The one that isn’t raised. I guess Bella can’t get in there. Man, I wish she didn’t feel like she had to run from them so much.
In fact, Jeanette had bought a new dog house for the goats. When i left today she was assembling it, so it should be out soon. We hope, of course, that his can be Sky’s little house. We’ll have to see how it goes, if the big girls will let her have it. But the more places to hide away and stay dry and comfortable, the better.
This new house isn’t as sturdy as the old red house we had at the first playground. I really wish we could still have that one, it was so great. With great memories. Grandma lurking within. Kids playingon the roof. Sigh. But hopefully the new house will be good once Jeanette has gotten it all put together. It would be really nice for Sky to have a little house to herself so she wouldn’t have to go down under the podiums all the time. We’ll see how it works out.
Sweet visitors today. I heard some of the kids were out looking for rainworms to feed to the chickens. Wait, I think they’re called earthworms in English? Yeah. In Danish they are rainworms.
There was also a sweet little girl with her mother hanging on the fence and watching the goats. I heard the mother telling the girl that Sky must have 1-2 babies in her belly, look how big and round it is. Oh dear. The indignity. I wish Sky could have a baby to take care of.
Just happy I made it out today. Made the walk without having to take a break to sit halfway. So that’s good. And now, time to warm up with soup.
19/10 2026
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Sky, under the second podium now. Since Bella made it down under the first one now that it’s raised up. Poor Sky. I hope the new house works out for her when Jeanette has got it assembled.

19/10 2026
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We had feathers with the furs again today. The black and red one that I think are the newbs. And a white one. How many new ones did we get? Was it 2 or 4. Man, my memory… anyway, happy to have the cluckers aboot.

19/10 2026
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Today’s best attempt at a selfie with Bella and Luna. Well, they can’t all be winners.

19/10 2026
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Jeanette brought even more pine. I hope these goats appreciate it, they have gotten more pine this half year than all the rest of the goats I have ever known for decades combined. So much pin. Here’s Sky and Bella digging in.

19/10 2026
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Damn it. I had another blackout. Now I’m struggling to put things back together in my head. What was I doing today. What was my plans ahead. It feels like more than a mess than usual. Sigh.
I got that deja vu feeling and I just managed to open a text file and write down the time. 22:24. So that’s. 30 minutes after I posted the pine photo.
Things slowly starting to come together in my head.
I have a postal package and a grocery delivery tomorrow.
It’s a scary feeling, everything being a mess in my head. Memory fuzzy.
I have the SleepEeg in a week.
What happened today that would trigger it? I don’t know. Last one was September 15th. That was when I hurt my stomach and back.
Ugh.
Memories starting to trickle back. I think I was out for about half an hour. The epilepsy papers say that attacks are usually only a couple of minutes. To call an ambulance if an attack lasts more than 5. I feel like mine are mostly at least 10 minutes. But then, I’m not sure how much o that is actually an attack, and how much is me just sitting in a trance afterwards. Is that part of the attack itself, or is that aftermath? I’m not sure. I feel like I was dreaming while I was out. It has faded away by now, but I feel like I dreamt. Was I asleep? I don’t seem to have done anything while I was out. I must have just been sitting here.
I was eating before it happened. Finished. I had biscuits and butter among other things.
And my left shoulder.. I noticed that earlier, before the attack. It seems to be better. It seems to be not hurting? How can it have healed spontaneously like that, it was hurting this morning I’m pretty sure. When I went off to see the goats. But now I can move it outwardly without pain again. I noticed that before the blackout.
Had to look at my facebook posts from earlier today to help jog my memories. There was the pine yes. The dog house Jeanette was building. I got home and had soup.
I was supposed to start getting ready for bed soon when the attack hit. I think. I didn’t sleep well last night either, a couple of nights of not good sleep. And with daytime naps to mess with my sleep rhythm. I wonder if that could be part of the explanation. But I have had nights like that before, without blackouts. I can’t think of anything specifically that has happened or I have done today that is different from so many other days. I wonder if it’s something that builds up over time in my system. Or it’s just totally random.
I don’t know.
I hope they’ll find something on that sleepEeg. Or the MRI results. I hope they’ll put me on those epilepsy meds and they can help. It’s really a scary and horrible feeling to have these blackouts. At least I don’t seem to have gotten physically worse this time.
Well, let’s hope my stomach works.
I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know.
It really is the most horrible, dreadful feeling to be lost in your own mind afterwards. The haze. It’s not that I don’t know who I am, it’s more like being displaced. In time.
I guess I have to be heading to bed soon. That’s the kind of things that’s lost in the the haze. When was I going to go to bed? What was I supposed to do to prepare for tomorrow. When would I normally go to bed. The big puzzle all jumbled, pieces slowly coming back to their right places.
It’s weird that my shoulder is just all of a sudden better. I don’t want to move it around too much, in case it’s still healing.
I am so tired of this mess that’s me.
19/10 2026
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A big thank you to the ever wonderful and thoughful Helle. She gave me a little jar of jam made of their own aronia berries. Apparently they’re also called chokeberries, according to wikipedia. I have had a quick taste of it and it is very nice! I have to get some proper bread to try it properly. But it’s very lovely. One of the many things Helle is active with in the local community is a garden where they grow stuff.
And a little goat! Everything is better with goats, as you know. How very sweet.
It was a lovely surprise today. I am not feeling super well. The blackout yesterday doesn’t seem to have had any physical effects, but mentally I’m just.. not great.
But thank you everyone for the comments and advice, and again thank you so much Helle for being just the best person. I can’t thank you enough.

20/10 2026
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Not a good day today, unfortunately. It was meant to be an exercise day. Instead I spent some 12 hours in bed. At least I got some sleep, but not really good sleep. Hard to get out of bed. Pain and depression is a fun combination, hooray.
I need to make better decisions. But there is no motivation or energy. Only sadness and Zuul.
Feeling quite hopeless and defeated.
But tomorrow’s another day. We’ll try again. Ride the merry go round.
On a brighter note, I got buns hon. Well, I got one bun. And I ate it with Helle’s jam on it. And it was quite good. I haven’t had jam in so so long. I was tempted to say I haven’t had jam for decades, since the diabetes diagnosis. But that’s probably not true. Still, it’s been many years.
That’s my jam. Fight ot live another yay.
21/10 2026
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Cheer up, it’s almost Halloween.

21/10 2026
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Good goat times today. Aah yes, much better. The one place I know I will be happy, the goat place.
A dark morning, but a little bit warmer. It rained a lot overnight I think, but thankfully kept dry while I was out. The sun even starting to peek out later on.
When I got there I found all three girls standing up by the goat house. Luna in the hatch, Bella in the main door opening and Sky on the right on my old shelf planks that I put down next to the fence. Space between them, but still. All three goats kind of hanging out together.
Jeanette also sent me a photo from Tuesdy where Sky and Luna are sitting next to each other under the first podium, while Bella sits on top of the second one.
It does seem like may the dynamic is shifting a little? Are they getting to be more friendly with each other? We can hope. If you follow the goat page, this morning I posted a video where I’m sitting with Luna and Sky. Me between them, but still.
And also today, Sky spent like 10 minutes grooming Luna’s fur. Sky was up on a podium and Luna was standing on the ground below. There’s still some tension, Sky isn’t completely comfortable with being so close. But they seem to be spending a lot more time together. Wouldn’t it be nice, wouldn’t it be nice.
Due to unforeseen ostables, Jeanette hasn’t gotten the new dog house, I mean goat house, set up yet. But it sure would be nice if that little house could be sky’s spot and she could have that and be close to the others while still having her own safe and dry spot. Let’s hope, let’s hope.
You never know with goat politics, maybe they’ll all be chasing each other around in a day or two again.
But it was just so good to be with the goats. The purity of animals is healing. Sitting with them and just feeling better. Enjoying all their little silly idiosyncrasies and quirks. I feel bad for people who think animals don’t have feelings and personalities. What a poor life it must be.
We had sweet visitors today, lots of regulars. I heard a kid from afar telling their adult twice that “the guy up there is Lasse”. And I got to say hello to Preben, hadn’t seen him in a while because I have been away and had shorter trips. I wish I had the capacity to just go be there all day every day. It would do me good. I just don’t have that capacity mentally or physically. Especially right now. I was just thinking, I sure am glad that my grocery delieries weren’t affected by the parking situation, because if i had to do my own shopping right now… that would be torture.
Anyway, I’ll shut up now. Not eating soup is also torture, so I’m going to go fix that.
22/10 2026
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Here they are in the morning. Three sweet goat girls.

22/10 2026
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Here is the picture Jeanette sent me. Lookit that. Sky and Luna sitting together under the podium. How about that. Maybe they ARE getting on a friendlier hoof. Let’s hope.
I sometimes get the feeling Luna is a little tired of how bossy Bella can be. Sometimes it almost seems like she seeks out Sky to hang out with instead. But then Sky would most often run away from her. But maybe they are getting closer now.

22/10 2026
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Sky grooming on Luna. It seriously went on for like 10 minutes. It has happened before but then it’s like a minute and then it turns into headbutting.

22/10 2026
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We had the cluck squad out with us again today. Always lovely. (unless you ask Luna).

22/10 2026
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Of course I got my Luna hug too.

22/10 2026
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The blooper reel has been updated for the premium subscribers.
Must have been a ghost to blame this time, not a goat. No one was touching the camera.
23/10 2026
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The Keiko reel has also been updated. Don’t click on this if you don’t want to watch HD goat poop.
23/10 2026
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My back feels like that old box. Pretty worn down and barely holding together.
But I would also probably let Sky stand on me if she wanted.

23/10 2026
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Got an hour fifteen on the bike today. So I got that going for it.
I’m trying. i failed in ambition to lose weight before the sleepEeg. But ho well. Keep on trying. I have to get into a rhythm. I really need to lose just a little weight at least, to make it easier on my back.
But now I’m focusing on the EEG. Anxiety rising on that. I’m sure it will be fine. But sleeping away from home, that’s triggering.
Tonight is daylight saving change in Denmark. So I’ll get an extra hour’s sleep. Theoretically.
Got a grocery delivery today. Got some bananas and apples and pears. And no iced creams or cakes. I’m trying.
Also cutting down on the Pepsi again. I tried before and went weeks without it and it didn’t really help my sleep. But I’m trying again. Not drinking it every day, and on days I’m drinking it I drink less and earlier in the day. I’m trying.
Try, try, try.
24/10 2026
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Look over there, a two-headed goat.

25/10 2026
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A quiet day today. Recharginer. For the big day.
I am getting quite anxious about the big sleepEeg, but I’m sure it will be fine. I just want to get it done. I am still pretty convinced it’ll ned with “maybe epilepsy, but no clear proof”. I just hope I can get meds and they’ll help.
And then I’ll have to seek help for my back. I just don’t feel up to it now. I don’t feel up to anything. As always around this time of year, I would just like to go in hibernation.
Well, since there’s no news and since I need to distract myself, let’s do a What’s Lasse Watching/Reading/Listening To. You can tune out now, I’m just going to be rambling on.
Two new TV shows that I really am enjoying.
Small Prophets. I guess all of season 1 has already aired previously in Britain. It’s just coming out in American now, and I’m watching those releases. I really loe it. It’s… quirky. Or just British? It’s got a sad feeling, a lot of griet. But also peculiar funny stuff. I originally got interested in it because it features Michael Palin. And Michael Palin is just the best. He’s not the main character, he plays a father with dementia. So that’s… hitting close to home.
But it’s a beautiful show, I’m loving it.
And then there’s Cupertino. Which is a law show. It got me thinking how I have always loved those shows. I guess it goes all the way back to LA Law when I was a kid. I don’t really remember anything about plots, just some of the visuals of the characters. But I’m pretty sure I loved it back then. And Ally McBeal. Not sure how well that holds up today, but I loved it back then. Boston Legal is one of my favourite shows of all time. William Shatner and James Spader is just.. *Geoff’s kiss*. The Practice. The new Matlock. Lawyer shows are just a graet way to have a “plot of the week (or a few weeks” and then move to something else. I guess cop show work like that too, but I have never really been interested in those. Well, I watched Hill Street Blues as a kid too. But the newer ones? CIS: Whatever. FBI. CIA. SUV. Boston Blue. I don’t know what they’re all called. If it’s cop shows then it has to be supernatural cops I guess. X-Files.
Anyway, that was a tangent. Cupertino is only 3 episodes in, but it’s been great so far. The leads are brilliant. It’s schtick is that it’s tech law. Big tech companies. There’s been a lot of AI stuff so far. In the plot, I mean. If you’re interested in AI and the philosopical, moral, legal implications, then this is very interesting. Can an AI be sentient and can it have rights? They have set up some fascinating plotlines so far, so if you’re into that stuff then I highly recommend it.
In book news, the last two I read were both Star Wars books. Legacy. which was about Leia and Rey and jedihood. Stuff I wish we could have gotten more of in the movies. And Reign Of The Empire: Edge Of Abyss, book 2 in a trilogy. My favourite era, the empire era. If it has Storm Troopers in it, I’m happy. And fun fact: One of my favourite SW characters is Bail Organa. I don’t know, maybe it’s just the visual of Jimmy Smits in robes. But I always liked him. And hearing more about him an Mon Motha and Saw Gerrera and the empire’s might. Love it. Even though it sometimes gets a little too close to reality. The fascist empire. They’re employing more and more tactics that we’re seeing in our lives right now. Good thing it’s just fiction!
I’m pretty sure Palpatine loves cheeseburgers.
Right now I have started reading The Talisman by Stephen King and Peter Straub. It is one from my folder of early King works that I have never read. The main reason I started it now is that King just released the third and final book in that series. So I need to read the first two before I can get to that.
I’m enjoying it so. It seems like a clasic (clichéed?) example of a trope I love. Portal fiction. People from our world traveling to other worlds. The Narnia type. I love those kind of stories, probably because I desperately want to portal into another world and leave this one behin. A while ago I joked on bluesky that I was going to start breaking into people’s houses an going through their wardrobes until I found a portal to somewhere else.
Musically I have been listening to the newest Weezer album, which I feel is their best in a long time. I also got a 30 anniversary edition of their first album with a bunch of versions of old songs, which is still better than most of the new.
Also the newest Eels album. Same as weith Weeer, the old stuff is still best. But I do love Eels a lot. Electro-Shock Blues is my second favourite album of all time.
Okay, I guess that’s all. At least I didn’t just waste my own time today, I also wasted YOURS!
Hooves crossed for tomorrow. Just gotta get through it.
25/10 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. Back to the goat place where I belong. And it was a beautiful day. Lots of sunshine. Some clouds, but lots of blue skies too. Just from the look at it you might have thought it was summer.
But it as a cold morning, though. Down below 5C/41F. For the first time this season I felt the bite of coldness. Too cold for me. It must have rained too, or maybe it was melted night frost. Everything was quite wet.
But it was so good to be out in the sun with the goats. The sun doesn’t really reach the goat house much now it seems, so we were down in the big pen by the platforms a lot. The goats were already down there when I arrived. Luna and Sky seemed to be sharing a platform. I think sometimes Luna gets a little tired of bossy Bella and wants to be around Sky instead. Nice when Sky doesn’t flee.
We had a really sweet group of visitors too. Maybe 6-7 kids and 3-4 adults. It’s fall vacation in Denmark and they were out enjoying the lovely weather. The kids were sweet and got to pet the goats a lot. One of the adults said “you must be some kind of goat whisper”. It’s always nice being recognised for being close with the goats.
There may also have been a mini-Keiko. At least I heard one of the adults a couple of times going “we don’t touch tem on the butts, not on the butts”. I decided not to tell them that the goats actualy looove being scratched on their rears.
There was also a kid that got down on their hand and knees and mused the adults by playing goat.
And when Luna got tired of all the fuss and started swinging her head (just occured to me she does that with kids when annoyed just like she does it at the chickens, hah) then the adult said “it’s saying ‘no thank you’ so just leave it alone”. I hear “no thank you” a lot from adult caregivers. When kids do something they aren’t supposed to the adults will go “no thank you” insted of “don’t do that!”.
Anyway, that was a sweet and fun bunch, quite lovely.
Good day with the goats. The walk there wasn’t fun though. Frustrating that a walk that I could take without any problems, without even thinking about it, is now challenging and painful. You never know what you have until it’s gone.
Well now I’m going to have some soup until it’s gone IN MY BELLY.
12/10 2026
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Sunshine on goats make me happy.

12/10 2026
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Look at that beautiful Sky, and look at that beautiful sky.

12/10 2026
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Hanging out with Sky and Luna. Not that often i get to sit with those two together for that long.

12/10 2026
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Bella and the blue sky. I didn’t really think I’d get to post pictures like this anymore this year.

12/10 2026
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Ohioh. It’s been a bit up and down today.
I had a pretty good morning actually. I haven’t taken painkillers at all today. The pain, not too bad. I did some stretching in bed. I actually managed to do some almost-situps. Not from lying completely falt, but lying with my upper body on my big bulky pillows. But still, raising my upper body up without bad pain is quite novel. The least amount of pain I have felt in 3ish weeks. There’s still a kind of.. disconnect, in my lower back. Like it’s been severed. Okay, not that dramatically. But it still feels like there’s kind of a weakness or disconnect between my .. pelvis or hips or something, and my lower back. I don’t know. Definitely not feeling normal, but feeling progress. So hopefully that will carry on.
It made me almost optimistic and I was starting to make plans about how I was going to lose some weight before the SleepEEG. I think I said that was in 3 weeks, but for those keeping track, it’s actually in 2 weeks. So not too far away. And my anxiety is starting to ramp up. I can’t remember the last time I slept another way than alone at home. Maybe almost 20 years ago when I got admitted to the hospital when they discovered the diabetes? I do not go on vacations or sleepover. Anyway, I’m sure it will be fine. And I am sure I will have lots of anxiety and worry, because that’s how I do.
Anyhoo, I would like to lose a little weight before it. Because I have gained weight due to the inactivity and overeating to cope with sadness and pain.
But then, I discover that a website that I use a lot for recreational fun and good times is most likely going to close down in the near future. Not like I can’t live without it, but it really sucks. You never know what you have until you don’t. It could still get saved, but I doubt it.
So that of course sent my depression spiralling. Because I have a fragile mind. Maybe because of my shrunken brain? Who knows.
Anyway, instead of putting in effort to do better, I ordered pizze and fries. Whoops.
But ok. I’ll try to do better. And hopefully my back is progressing favourably and will continue to do so. That would be nice.
I just feel like my body and mind is a decomposing mess and things keep getting worse and there’s always something bad around the corner. Fatalism, it’s a lot of fun!
But at least the pizza was good.
One day a day.
13/10 2026
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Going to be heading to bed soon. Made it through the day without painkillers. First tiem since The Incident.
I will probably take a couple before heading to bed, just as a pre-emptive strike. But painwise, it’s been the best day in a long time. So that’s good. I hope that it’s a sign that I’m getting better, not just random fluctuation.
Btw, please send me 100,000 buckazoids asap to cover my goat treat budget, honey.
13/10 2026
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goatlog

14/10 2026
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Got an hour fifteen on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Oh boy. Well, the bike ride went great. That was good. But then. Sigh. Got on the floor to do exercises and stretches for the back. And I gues that was a mistake, yeah. I was feeling pain while doing it, but I was trying to push through. Shouldn’t have done that. When I got up afterwards, well I barely got up. Could barely stand up right. Really bad pain. Almost couldn’t move around. Had to gobble down a triple painkiller cocktail and a turmeric capsule and then basically sit around for an hour trying to find positions that alleviated it somewhat.
I was hoping it was all getting better, but there’s clearly still something very wrong in my core. I won’t be doing those kinds of exercising again any time soon.
It’s gotten somewhat better now, not as excruciating bad. But still not good.
And the positivity I was feeling has now been replaced by feeling defeated. Again. And again and.
And as if that wasn’t all enough, now I seem to have hurt my shoulder?! Not sure what happened, I had just sat down at the computer and I was moving my left arm and I felt something snap or something. Now there’s pain in my shoulder, or maybe it’s the top of my upper arm. When I move my arms in some directions.
It’s not super super bad, nowhere near as bad as the back pain. But it’s not nice. I hope this isn’t a new permanent thing to deal with. I’m getting real sick and tired of pain.
Getting real sick and tired of everything. Just want to give up it all. My mind is broken, my body is falling apart, everything gets worse. Never better, only worse.
At least I haven’t lost my positive spirit, yuck nyuck.
Hopefully I haven’t wrecked my back too much. Last time I did those kinds of exercises, after biking, I also had more painright after. I figured that was just the immediate stress, it did get bettera fter that. Hopefully this keeps getting better too. Hopefully I can get back to at least not being constant pain.
I’m going to have to go to the doctor. I just. Can’t deal with it right now. Hopefully I can get to feeling okay enough to at least go a cuple of weeks. Get the EEG done. And then I’ll have to go to the doctor.
I am so tired of everything.
14/10 2026
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Think goat thoughts. I think this one qualifies as a selfie with Bella and Luna.

14/10 2026
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Halløjsa. How am I doing?
I’ve been better. My back is thankfully doing better after yesterday. That was real bad. I’m back to sort of being able to sit around and not feel pain. As long as I stay still. Not as good as before I did those dumb exercises, but a lot better than right after.
My shoulder is still hurting. So, I guess that’s a thing now. I feel like there have been too many times in recent memory where I have had to say “Well, this is my life now”.
It’s not super bad. But it’s another thing causing pain. Another thing that forces me to think about how I move to try to avoid pain. I’m glad it’s my left arm at least, since i’m right-handed. If I move the arm in the wrong way then it hurts. A pain I can grit my teeth and bear, but it’s just. More pain.
I had hoped to go see the goats today. But with all the pain and all the feeling worn down, I ended up sleeping in. And I have had several long naps in my chair after getting up. I just want to sleep everything away.
Thanks everyone for the supportive comments. Sorry if I’m a bummer right now. Feeling pretty far down.
But one day a day.
Got the SleepEEG in a week and a half. And after that I suppose I’ll have to go to the doc about my back. And hey maybe my shoulder too. I can’t imagine it’s broken or anything, so what else is there to do than wait and hope it heals? Stupid body. Is this the thanks I get for treating you like oh wait right yeah okay.
Anyway, hope you’re all doing well.
15/10 2026
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Are there any evil global corporations who want to do some experiments involving a Robo Goat Herder? Because I am willing to participate. Just replace my body with a metal exoskeleton and let me herd goats.
ROBOGOATHERDER *robocop theme*
I’m sure it wouldn’t freak out the goats or anything.
15/10 2026
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For the record, I am glad that it seems like America has called off the livestream of the execution. Should probably state that, since I complained about it previously.
Not that I for a second think it has anything to do with compassion or morals or anything. I don’t know why they changed course, maybe publically murdering a guy in a wheelchair right before midterms was bad optics or something.
But I’m glad they reversed the decision. The decision they made and publicly proclaimed as if it was normal and righteous. Glad society is not quite at the stage of public executions yet. Not quite.
I am sure the prolifers join me in welcoming this.
And hopefully the trains still run on time.
I was going to write about the elementary school shooting, but I guess I’ve said enough sht for now.
This world, dude. I don’t know.
16/10 2026
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JANITOR
Thank you, Scrubs. I needed that.
16/10 2026
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Missing the sun and the goats. More of that please.

16/10 2026
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Happy to announce I’m the new press secretary for, oh nevermind I’m fired.
NEXT
16/10 2026
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I got some unplanned exercise today.
My mother was coming to pick somehing up. She called me and told me that the elevator in my builing wasn’t working. She can’t get up the stairs because of her mobility issues. So I had to go down 6 flights of stairs and then back up 6 flights of stairs. Fun!
Good thing it didn’t happen on Wednesday, I’m not sure I would have survived that.
But today it was fine, no problem. Thankfully my back wasn’t hurting too bad. When I got back up it was very stiff. Generally I feel like the pain level is just about back to where itw as before the ill advised exercises on Wednesday. But it’s more stiff and rigid. But at least not constant horrible pain.
My shoulder still hurts when I move it in certain ranges. Painkillers help a fair bit o my back pain, but they don’t seem to do anything at all for the shoulder. It’s not awful, but still, a constant reminder of pain and things always getting worse.
So, mentally not doing so great. Efforts to get back on the healthier track has failed so far. But I’ll keep trying. SleepEEG in just over a week.
Oh yeah, I got an actual letter in the mail today. Nothing important, but happy to get it. That seems to mean that all deliveries can go through succesfully despite the parking space being shut down. Grocery deliveries, food deliveries, package deliveries, letter deliveries, parents visiting. Seems to all be working, which is a relief. It’s annoying that I have to go across the road when I take the garbage down, but I can live with that. I worried so much about the accessibility of the building after the parking space and driveway was closed, so I’m happy that seems to have ended well.
Now what’s that penguin doing on the telly?
16/10 2026
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Got an hour fifteen on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Good to get on again. Felt fine on the bike. My shoulder is a problem though. Part of my workout, as you may know, is manipulating my rod. The bendy steel rods. And that’s kind of impossible with the painy shoulder. So it’s impacting my workout, and that sucks. But at least I got biked.
And then I got on the floor. I was tempted to start trying to do some exercises for the back, but after the disaster last time I figured I’d better not. So I only did some very gentle stretching.
At least I’m doing something, that’s an important part of it. Getting into a rhythm. Instead of sitting and doing nothing but eating.
One day a day.
17/10 2026
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Are there laws against alteing Mount Rushmore?
I’m just.. just wondering. No particular reason. But it’s protected and stuff, right?
17/10 2026
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Do you ever wonder how hummingbirds pick what songs to hum? Do they mostly do classical stuff or do they pick up modern tunes too, like do they hear people listneing to their iPods and then start humming those songs? And do they have to pay royalties? Do they have problems with copyright infringement, I don’t know if humming is covered by that.
Anyway, let me know.
17/10 2026
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goatlog

18/10 2026
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It’s been a pretty cruddy day. I didn’t sleep well. Which ws a bummer because I thought I had discovered a good routine to get better sleep. And then testing it out I had a bad night and not only did I get up tired and groggy but also sad about the failure of the test.
So it’s been a tired and sad day. The pain, oh the pain, the pain. Lost innerspace. The pain isn’t super bad when I remained in the chair and don’t move my left arm too much. But it’s always. The depression and the pain and the tiredness. Weighing me down. So I have wasted the day and made unhealthy choices. Boo boos.
But tomorrow’s another week and surely I’ll do better, no doubt about it you can be sure.
I must get my goat times, I must get my exercise, I must eat better, I must gently stretch the back. And start to gather strength for the sleepEeg in a week. Let’s hope I can sleep for that. They can’t view your dreams, right? That could be awkward. I don’t want to have to explain why Kristen Bell is feeding me soup, while she’s IN the pot. Look, dreams are just ranom imagery, don’t read anything into it.
Alright. Hope next week brings you good tidings.
18/10 2026
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That’s all for today.