Teeth
August 3rd, 2025Good goat times today. A lovely warm day with lots of sunshine. Good summery vibes.
Vacation time too, not much going on. The guy who came to feed the animals had a little girl with him, probably his daughter. Very sweet, and she seemed happy to help.
Other than that it was just mostly relaxing in the sun, making sure everyone got their time with me and their snacks. Pretty chill.
Now it’s my time for soup.
28/7 2025
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Let the girls into the ‘backyard’ pen again, to munch on some greens. It’s nice to have a spot that they usually can’t get to, so the greens can grown unhinderedly and tastily.
28/7 2025
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Sky is queen of the mountain. Let’s just hope the big girls don’t intervene.
28/7 2025
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Accidentally left the stove on after making soup. So that hotplate was going for a couple of hours. Great. But you gotta break a few electricity eggs when you’re making soup omelettes. Does anyone else smell gas?
28/7 2025
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Might take a page out of Bella’s book and rest my eyes for a second.
28/7 2025
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I am not doing so great today. There is an issue. I can’t avoid it any longer. Hopefully I can deal with it tomorrow.
Sorry for vaguebooking. I will write more tomorrow probably. In the meantime i am coping with iced creams and Radiohead. Hope you’re all doing alright. Hey hey, one day a day.
29/7 2025
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Hey everybuddies. Sorry about yesterday, I didn’t mean to cause any concern.
I haven’t been entirely truthful with you all, sorry about that.
You know the headaches I have complained about? Well, I actually had a fairly good idea of what was causing them. My teeth. I have been having tooth aches. Not toot aches.
But mouth pain that has developed into being quite excruciating. If I don’t take painkillers it gets so bad that it feels like someone is just stomping on my whole head.
So why haven’t I just gone to the dentist? Well, I’m going to. But I am so terribly avoidant in all aspects of my life that I have just been desperately clinging on to the hope that it would just get better on its own. Yeah, I’m smart like that. don’t go to the doctor until it’s falling off.
Dumb.
The problem is, I actually haven’t been to the dentist in 15 years. And before that I hadn’t gone in something like 10 yerrs. So the last 25 years i’ve been to the dentist maybe a handful of times. I know that’s very dumb, very irresponsible, especially for someone in my situation.
But here we are. When doctors or parents have asked when the last time I went to the dentist was, I’d just sort of mumble and shrug it off and pretend like I was totally going regularly. And now it has caught up to me.
So I’m a little terrified now. I don’t have a general fear of dentists, but as you may know I have a fear of people. And now I have to find my way to a new place downtown. And it’s all very triggering. And I know my teeth probably have a ton of issues. There’s one tooth in particular causing this bad pain. Bottom left turthest back. Is that the molar? I don’t know, whatever. But if I press on it there’s a sharp pain. Along with the constant throbbing mouth pain. My teeth in general are very worn down. I may need a lot of work done. But the pain thing is the first priority.
But the thing that really scares me is the financial part. Denmark has excellent affordable healthcare, but one thing that is famously not well covered is dentistry. One of the things that has kept from going to the dentist is all the horror stories of people getting huge dental bills. Like lifesavings destroying bills. I have no idea how expensive it’s going to get for me, but with the condition my teeth are in, i’m just scared it’s going to be a huge bill.
I do have money in the bank. I live such a basic life that most months I come out ahead and add to my savings.
But now I have two big potential costs coming. The second one being the rehousing in my future. i have lived in this apartment for almost 20 years and I have not always taken the best care of it. With all the things that I have gone through, I have let things slip. And being almost blind makes it easy to ‘overlook’ things. I’m pretty sure I won’t be getting my deposit back, and I think I will probably get a big bill from that too.
So now I have two potentially huge costs in my near future. I am just scared i’ll get wiped out.
I am a worrier, afte all.
But for now I hope to get my mouth fixed. Because I have been in pretty much constant pain for days.
After I got the housing meetings done i had hoped for just an easy rest of the summer. Then this thing comes. I know it’s my own fault. But still. I feel like I’m walking around with two huge swords dangling over my head.
I know many people have it much worse. The world’s on fire. I’m still lucky in many ways. Hey maybe August will be pain and care free, it could happen!
Hopefully i’ll get the pain fixed tomorrow. I got an emergency appointment for the tooth, I don’t know if they’ll be looking at all my issues right away or just deal with the pain. I guess I’ll find out. Who knows, maybe they-ll need to pull out all my teeth and just give me a set of plastic chattering ones. I have vague memories of being fascinated with my grandad who could take out his teeth and put them in a glass of water…
Oy. Well you dig your own grave and then you keep on digging to see where it gets ya.
It would be really nice to get rid of the pain though. There have been moments when my temples felt like a freight train was riding them. Felt like I was going to throw up from the pain. Painkillers help somewhat with the constant overall pain, not so much with the direct tooth pain.
I’m hoping i’ll be able to actually chew real food again soon. Although this is a good excuse to pound down iced creams.
Okay, I’ll shut up now. Sorry for being stupid and annoying and wittholding information and making people worry. I guess this was one time that just wishing it would go away didn’t work. Maybe next time.
TLDR excruciating tooth pain, emergency dentist appoint, worrying about potential big bill. Ice cream.
30/7 2025
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Thank you everyone for the supportive comments and advice about the dentistry. Hopefully I’ll be painfree real soon now.
And hopefully I haven’t missed more comments, I was scrolling up on the post and suddenly there was a bunch of comments I hadn’t seen. I really hate fb’s poor notifications and stupid algorithm.
But thank you all.
I spent tonight finally watching Rogue One again. And I’m no wimp, I definitely didn’t cry when Leia showed up. Again. I am one with the force and the force is with me.
Now I can finally get started on Andor season 2. I took a long break for technical reasons, experimenting with video compression and setup, I won’t bore you with the details. But it took way longer than it should have, what has it been since I watched Andor season 1, months? First there were the technical things then things started happening with the rehousing stuff and now the pain stuff. Didn’t have the capacity to watch a lot of new stuff for a long time. I need to get back to watching movies too. Need to watch the rest of the Lynch movies. need to rewatch the entire Aliens and Predator franchises in preparation for the new Alien tv show. Anything to avoid reality.
Hopefully things are looking up now. It’s the summer of George. Everything’s coming up Milhouse. s’tel kcoR. I am one with the force and the force is with me. This is the water and this is the well.
Hope the force will be with me tomorrow, and with you always.
30/7 2025
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goatlog
31/7 2025
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Well, it’s been a day. It sure has. Went to the dentist for the first time in 15ish years.
How did it go? Well, better than i had feared i guess. I am not bankrupt. But i am not painfree. And I have to go again tomorrow. And I had bus ride from hell.
But I suppose it could have gone worse.
But those are the higlights. Sit back and let me tell you all about it.
My mom was nice enough to come with me, it just helps me to have someone with me when I’m going unfamiliar places. To make sure I get where I am going. I think I would have find my way okay, though. It’s pretty amazing in this day and age how you can look stuff up on google maps and even google street view. I had a good idea where I’d be going, and it wasn’t too hard to find it.
But it was nice of my mom to help, and because it was my first time in their clinic i had to fill out some paperwork, and mom helped me with that.
So time for the dental stuff. Got x-rays done. Got in the chair.
The dentist was very nice. I had asked Helle, who helped with my rehousing meeting, for recommendations, since I figured she might know a good dentist in the area. And her friend recommended this guy. And looking online there were several people saying nice things about their clinic.
He was very nice and friendly and seemed caring. It wasn’t fun though. Being poked and prodded in the mouth. Didn’t even buy me dinner first.
I forget the exact terms he used. There were definitely problems with the tooth, I think there wasn’t much bone left in it? Hollow spaces. I don’t. I wish I could remember exactly what he said. But it as pretty bad in that one tooth, the back one in the left side of the lower mouth. The one that gives me the painss. And there were signs of it beginning in some of the other teeth.
I was kind of surprised that he didn’t say my whole mouth was just forked. He said it was very worn, as I had expected. “You don’t chew rocks, do you?”. But he didn’t say “all your teeth are ruined and have to come out”. So that’s already better than i feared.
But he basically gave me two options for the bad tooth. Trying to save it, basically with teeth cleansings I think? Or having it yanked. Having it removed would be much more expensive. He said, if it was HIM he would want to try to save it. And that’s what I decided to go with.
Now I’m starting to question if that was the right decision, maybe I should have just bit the bullet and had it removed.
But I guess we’ll see. He did a basic cleaning of it. Which was pretty dang awful. He told me if it got too bad I could ask for sedation. But I toughed it out. It was pretty gnarly though.
But that was that for this appointment. He gave me another appointment tomorrow, in their other clinic. I think they do more of those teeth cleaning treatments, while he generally does more complicated stuff.
I am not now actually sure why he didn’t do a complete cleaning treatment now. I don’t know. He didn’t charge me for today. But I am sure i will be charged at least for the xrays, when I pay tomorrow. I guess I’ll see.
I am starting to question now if the cleaning treatment will be enough to fix my issues. I am in less pain right now than I have been the last few days. But still in pain.
I guess I’ll have to see how it goes. I was afraid I was completely messed up and would have to get on antibiotics and have huge major dental surgeries and be bankrupted by a huge bill and.. well none of that happened. So that’s good. But I also just want this all to be fixed and done with, and I’m not sure I’m confident that’s what’ll happen now. We’ll see how it goes tomorrow. It would be great if we could save the tooth. But I just want the pain gone.
Alright.
Now let me tell you about my fkn bus ride.
The ride downtown was fine, although I always hate being on busses with lots of people. And downtown on a beautiful sunny summer’s day with lots of people. Not my idea of fun. But I can brave it.
The trip home was a little disaster. First of the bus was late, like 10-15 minutes. So I was waiting 20-25 minutes. When the bus finally came, it was completely stuff with people. Had to cram myself in there. All my anxiety and phobia just flaring on all cylinders. The bus goes for two stops, then it powers down, engines off. Everyone’s looking around like what’s going on. Then the driver comes on the speaker system, and you know how great those electronic speakers always are when you actually need information from them. Sounds like he’s saying GRMFLEPTOGGROL MAKOOBLROGO SNOG BUS NO WORK SHABLOK KLAATU BARADA NIKTO.
Basically we piece together that whatever delayed the bus has now finally murdered it to death. And all the sardines crammed into a tin box have to get off.
Only bit of good luck was that we were so late that the next bus of that line was already at the stop. So we could all get on that. Of course that bus was already stuffed full of people, so now we get two busses worth of people jammed into one. Oy. I was just standing there staring down in the ground hanging onto whatever we could grab and in complete panic mode.
But hey. I got home. I’m home now. Transportation can go a lot worse. At least I wasn’t on a boeing flight.
So that was my day. It was not fun. But not as bad as I had feared. But it’s not over yet
TLDR: Went to the dentist for the first time in 15ish years. Still in pain. Not charged anything yet. Trying to save tooth. Another appointment tomorrow.
31/7 2025
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I am so tired. I don’t know how you people deal with humans on a daily basis. Humans are exhausting.
Sorry to be whiny all the time. I’m just not really fit to deal with the human world. The goat world, that’s where I belong.
I am really tired of being in pain. To be fair, I haven’t taken painkillers all day, yet I am fairly coping. After a couple of days where I couldn’t get through the day without gargling aspirins, that’s an improvement.
I am just worried I made the wrong choice not to have the tooth pulled. I’ll end up with pain for longer and then paying for more treatments and then having to pay for the expensive tooth pull anyway.
Still, the expensive toothpull is not the bankrupcymaker I was fearing, so again it all isn’t as horrible as i had feared.
I am not sure if i am supposed to have multiple of the teeth cleanings or if it’s a one time thing. I wish I was better at asking for and absorping information.
I guess if I still have pain after tomorrow’s session then I’ll have to ask them if that’s how it’s supposed to be or if we should just knock out the teeth. Where’s Mike Tyson when you need him.
Anyway. Hope the future brings more goat visits less dentist visits. The ratio of this week is not how I prefer it.
Hope you’re all doing well. Once I get my spare head screwed in i’ll totally be back to normal.
31/7 2025
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Rest in peace to our friend Pat Lehn. Some day we will all fly free. She was a treasured friend on here.
https://www.lakesidefuneralhomega.com/obituary/patricia-lehn
31/7 2025
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Who’s got two thumbs and survived two dental appointments in two days?
This doofus!
I got through another treatment. It was a major one, but it went okay.
The short version is: Everything when much better than I had feared, both the treatment and the economic aspect. Feeling better about it all than I was yesterday, and much much better than before yesterday. So all in all I’m happy with it.
The long story is, here’s another ramble about my day.
So yesterday’s emergency appointment was downtown. Today’s followup was much closer to home. Although ironically a little harder to get to, because the busses go straight from here to downtown. Not straight from here to the closer place.
But I didn’t have to deal with busses today. My dad had promised to come with me to the new place. But he’s not doing so great physically and mentally either, so instead of us navigating busses and timing it all, he came to my apartment and then we took a taxi straight to the dental clinic. So that was a lot easier.
I am thankful for my mom yesterday and my dad today coming with me. It just helps the first time I go to a new place, so I don’t have to worry so much about finding my way.
Turns out this new dental clinic was easy to find. In fact it was just next door to the hairdresser where I got all my haircuts growing up, before I took those matters into my own hand.
So that was fine. It wasn’t as hard to find as googlemaps had led me to believe.
We were there too early, and the dentist was late. So I ended up having to wait quite a while. And the treatment took a loong while, so my dad ended up having to sit there and wait for ages, bless him.
But I got back in the chair. After 15ish years of not being in a dentist’s chair, now I was in the second in two days. It’s not really a nice place to be. Does _anyone_ like going to the dentist, even if you have healthy teeth? It’s no fun.
But it all went pretty well. I really liked this dentist. She was really sweet and engaging, and I felt like she was better at giving information and helping me understand things. The dentist yesterday was super friendly and nice too, and from what I can gather he’s a very well respected dentist, but I felt the information part wasn’t as clear to me from him.
There were several times when today’s dentist went “I don’t know if the other dentist told you about this but” and then I said not really and then she filled in some details.
Maybe my head was just clearer today and better at absorbing it all.
Well, it turns out the biggest problem really is my gums. Not so much holes in my teeth, but big pockets in the gums.
By the way, in Danish the gums are ltierally called the “toothmeat”. So that’s fun.
Anyway I guess the clinical term is periodontitis. Today’s dentist did a thorough examination of my entire set of teeth. There were.. I forget if it was 4 including or excluding the really bad tooth. But there were more teeth with this problem. The other problematic teeth were not as bad as the other. I think they were at a 5mm ish which is bad, the really bad one was at 8mm which is nearly critical. Almost at the point of losing the tooth. So that’s what it all meant, trying to save the tooth by doing the cleaning. Cleaning out the gunk to heal the pockets in the gum.
It took quite a while. First examining the gum around all the teeth, and then cleaning the affected teeth out. It wasn’t as bad as the cleaning yesterday. The cleaning of the really bad tooth was really gnarly. Today’s cleaning was much less invasive, I guess just because those teeth weren’t as badly affected.
But man. That.. sharp tool. Scraping against your teeth. Eeeugh. if you can read that without flinching, good for you. Even if you haven’t had horrible tooth pain, the thought of those sharp tools against your teeth nya nya nya stoppit!
But the dentist said that considering how long I hadn’t gone to the dentist, it all could have been a lot worse. My teeth are very worn down, but other than the ones with the gum issues it all looked pretty good. So there should be a good chance of saving the tooth. I am not completely pain free, but the pain should hopefully lessen the next few days. Honestly this morning was the best I’ve felt in weeks, the treatment yesterday did something.
I have to go back in 3 months to get another round. See if the deep pockets in the gums are healing and stuff. And I got some advice about the tooth care. Some things to do in regard to drinking cola, if I can’t stop. Which I can’t. Got some samples of dental floss and mini brushes, to help keep the teeth clean so it can heal.
I’ll be coming back to this dentist from now on. The guy downtown is more the one who handles emergencies and complicated things, and thankfully my situation is not really that anymore.
Right now I am feeling .. okay. I did take some painkillers when I got home. I wasn’t really in pain, but i just thought.. I’m sore and tired, i just wanted to be sure. And I can’t actually bite down with almost no pain, even with painkillers I haven’t been able to do that for a while.
So dentally everything went so much better than i had feared. I am not kidding when I say that i literally at times were worrying about them wanting to take out lots of teeth, because even the painfree ones are so worn down. I was scared my whole mouth was just ruined. Thankfully it looks like there’s a good chance that I won’t lose any teeth. Here’s to hoping. So far it’s such a relief.
The other big fear was the price. What did it come out to? A little more tha 3000 dkr / 464 usd.
So that’s a lot. But when you consider that I was scared of it being 10 times that or more. It could be worse. Although considering I have to have more of these treatments, it’s not great.
My dad paid for it with his credit card. Afterwards he talked to mom and we’ll see if they want me to pay it back or not. Mom handles the finances. I sure would appreciate that support, although i’m not expecting or demanding it obviously. I know they support my brother financially at times too. And I know my dad cares super a lot about or teeth health. I credit him completely with what the dentist said, that considering how long I didn’t go to the dentist, my general dental health is actually surprisingly good. That’s because my dad has always drilled it into our heads that it’s so important to take care of our teeth. I know that matters a lot to him.
Anyway, we’ll see. i’m lucky to have my mom and dad. I haven’t always been an easy kid to handle, I know. We did not always get along great, because I did not get along great with the world. But they have both been there for me so much as I have grown up and needed assistance in many ways. I am truly fortunate for that.
So i didn’t break the teeth and I didn’t completely break the bank and I faced some challenges that were difficult for me. That’s not so bad. It’s a lot better than I have feared.
Oh and also thank you to you all. If you read all this. HAha. And also for the comments, they have helped a lot the past couple of days. I am fortunate to have so much support from so many.
I sure hope August will be a quiet month. I a ma little scared of what disaster might come next. I should learn not to be scared, since things usually aren’t as bad as I fear. But tell that to my brain. There’s some big empty pockets of hot air in that organ too.
Now I’m going to give the teeth a test run on some soup. Let’s hope they hold up!
TLDR: Second dentist appoint me in two days. Long treatment. Cost about 464usd. Teeth and finances much better than feared. More treatment in 3 months.
TLDR: Second dentist appoint me in two days. Long treatment. Cost about 464usd. Teeth and finances much better than feared. More treatment in 3 months.
i’m sorry I don’t have energy for spellcheck. I am worn down like my teeth.
1/8 2025
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Hello good day, it’s a new day today. I thought I would try something different and NOT go to the dentist today. I know, call me crazy. Sometimes you just have to shake things up and take a different approach to things.
How am I feeling? Eh not that great really. But a lot better than earlier in the week.
My teeth aren’t pain free. But it’s more of an uncomfortable little pain, instead of the murderous constant excruciating pain. So that’s something. The dentist did say that the pain would get better over the first few days. So I hope that’s true. I would prefer not having to go the three months till the next dentist trip with pain. But it’s manageable right now.
I am also though feeling a bit congested and very tired and just pretty off. I don’t know if I picked up a human bug after being outside among way too many people for two days. Or if it’s all the stress and fear that’s broken me down a bit. I also haven’t been keeping up so well with the health stuff. Eating poorly and not exercising this week. I really need to get back on a better track. But today I got a protein&pepsi delivery with more iced creams. Oops. I’m going to relax and try to enjoy the weekend and the goodies, and then next week I will make an effort to do better.
Thank you again to everyone for all the support. You’re the iced cream beneath my toothmeat.
Happy weakened.
2/8 2025
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It’s been a rough week. I’m not really back on my feet. But luckily I have a comfy chair.
My body is aching and my head is tired. I have had to take up either flossinh or ‘middle brushing’ (with mini brushes that go between the teeth). I have to pick one of the two. I think flossing is working best for me, but I don’t particularly enjoy it. Some of my teeth are so worn down that there’s barely anything to floss between.
Still got some mouth pain, but still more in the sore kind of way, not the crushing pain kind of way. I am actually able to kind of chew. Hoping it will keep getting better as the dentist said, kind of worried it will get worse and become more painful again. You know me, always worrying.
Anyway, I also actually wanted to add something more to the dentist trip story from yesterday. It was already so long that I thought I’d spare you the trip home. But let’s take that now.
As you may recall (ahem, imagine the tancy narrator voice please. You can tune out now if you don’t want a long pointless story), the trip home from the first dentist appointment on Thursday was the Titanic version of a bus ride into a sea of humans, like drowning in people, clarmoring for the lifeboats.
The trip home from the second dentist appointment, yesterday, was much nicer. I decide to walk home.
As i mentioned, that clinic was right next to the place I got my haircuts all my life, before I went the no-hair way. And right next to the kiosk where’d I’d ride my bike up to get my monthly computer magazine from the UK, Zapp!64 first and then The One Amiga. So I know that neighbourhood well. Even though I have rarely been there the last decade, I can still find my way around with no problems. And it was such a lovely sunny day. So, instead of dealing with a bus (which would still require some walking to and from bus stops) i thought I’d just walk the whole way home.
It took about 40 minutes. Just about one and a half the time it takes me to get to the goats now. It’s so nice to be in a physical condition now where I can take a walk like that as exercise. Instead of being totally wrecked by it. One of the things I have learned from my youtube-fitness video viewing is that it’s really important to be generally active. It’s great to do some hard exercise, but just taking walks and not sitting still all the time, that makes a lot of difference. A good brisk 30 minute walk is a good thing. And since the stress and pain this week has made me slip on the exercise and healthy eating, I thought I could use a good walk.
And it took me right through some of my old haunts. Right past the old playground. The old old playground, the first one. Where my goat journey began back in, gosh 2004. I didn’t go into the playground grounds, but walking by it looked like the old grey train carriage where the goats used to live, looks like that’s gone. And they’ve done landscaping and there are new buildings and stuff. It’s a little sad that things are so different, but since they haven’t had animals in a decade I guess it makes sense. And hopefully the kids of that area still get a lot of good use out of the playground.
Walked on by that and then back to the neighbourhood where I grew up. I was tempted to turn the corner and go into old Ryhaven to see what it all looks like now. But I walked on by. Down the road I used to walk every morning to school. How many times have I walked or ridden my bike down that road? Nine years of going to school there. Plus all the times down to the bus stop down that road. Down that road when i rode my bike to the library. It must be thousands of time. That road is carved into the bedrock of my mind by countless foosteps since I was a tiny boy. Etched into my being, and not too different today from how it was back then. Could have been a sunny day in ’88.
Instead of turning left towards the school, I turned right, homewards. Past Digterparken. The poet’s park. A poetic name for another so called ‘ghetto’ of aprtment blocks.
When the only market in our own hood closed (legend has it the owner sold it and moved to Spain I think) the little kiosk or quickymart or whatever in Digterparken, that was the only place to go and buy a few bucks worth of candy or some comics or whatever. Made the trip through that hood often too.
And then onward, across the big road to my current neighbourhood. The vast majority of my life has been spent within a pretty small geographical confine. It’s about a 20 minute walk from where i live now to where I grew up. The playgrounds and most of ther places I have spent time are all witin walking, or at least biking, distance. I’m like a hobbit, no reason to leave my Shire. I’m not one for adventuring.
Anyway, there’s no point to any of that. It was just a lovely walk on a sunny day through old and familiar places. Everything looks rosey red down memory lane.
2/8 2025
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There is still goat content on the Lasse channel. Don’t touch that dial.
3/8 2025
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The week is winding down. A couple of hours left.
It sure wasn’t the week i was expecting. It started with me desperately hoping for the growing pain in my mouth to magically go away. And now here I am on Sunday, two dentist appointments later.
My mouth is a lot better. There’s still discomfort in the left side. But it’s so nice to not be in constant pain.
I’m still not feeling too great though. The depression has been powerful today. Maybe it’s the comedown from all the humaning. Or maybe it’s just.. depression.
I’m also still very tired and I feel like my blood circulation has been poor this week. I don’t know if it’s connected to the tooth problem or if it’s skipping exercises and eating too much ice cream. Or something else. My vision is super poor right now too. Hopefully this won’t end up being something i need ot seek medical attention for. I just.. need a break. For a year or two. Can I just hang out till 2028 or so?
Anyway. Thanks for all the love and support this week, friends. I sure appreciate it. You’re the best. I hope I can repay you all some day. Once this cryptocoin I just invested in goes through the roof I’ll buy NFTs for you all. It’s gonna be great, start planning your vacation on a tropical beah right now!
But until then, let’s sleep.
3/8 2025
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That’s all for now.
