Good goat times today. A bit chilly and overast, but the goats were happy and energetic. Luna doing a lot of animated running around.
I was late today because I had an appointment at the doctor’s office in the morning. Blood test to check if the potassium supplements have helped. We’ll have to see when the results come back. I got an EKG done too, and that was just fine.
Oh and it was my first chance to try out my new bus card. Brought both the new and old one, in case I couldn’t get the new one to work. But it worked fine. It wasn’t too hard. Just had to find the machine to swipe it on. But that was fine. And the way the billing works on the new one is al ot handier. So all in all it’s an improvement, now that I’m over the nervousness of having to learn a new thing.
Thankfully my goat card work the same way as it always has. Just present treats and there’s full access to the goat fun.
Now, it’s time for soup. Need those flourballs in me.
13/4 2026
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Hey, girls. The guy with the treats is always popular.

13/4 2026
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Luna quite feisty today.

13/4 2026
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They should make a Bard’s Tale movie.’
13/4 2026
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Luna’s sweet side.

13/4 2026
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It isn’t love, it isn’t love it isn’t love. But every time I kinda wish it was.

14/4 2026
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Sigh. I had a blackout. It’s been more than a month since the last one. I was really hoping I was over it.
I was on the exercise bike when it happened. Just about 30 minutes in. Just finished the rod bending, about to go into the intervals. And then I got that feeling, the deja vu, the youtube sounds. And then… sometime later I started coming back. Still on the bike.
And that weird feeling of not really knowing when and where you are and what you’ve been doing and what you’re supposed to do next. It’s always a little scary because you feel lost and you can’t help worry that it’s not going to come back to you. But slowly it does. Start to remember what has happened. I had a grocery delivery and a postal package delivery in the morning. I got on the bike.
I’m annoyed that it ruined my exercise session.
I know, I know I need to see a doctor about it. I just.. can’t face it.
Now I am depressed and don’t want to be here
Or I want to order cake or pizza.
I want the sun to shine.
I am tired.
Of it all.
Tra la.
14/4 2026
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In better news, I got the results back from my blood test, and my potassium levels are good now. So that’s swell. My soup levels need some work, must intake more.
Thank you everyone for worrying about me. I am sorry that I am dumb.
14/4 2026
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goatlog

15/4 2026
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Well, it hasn’t been a great day. It was supposed to be an exercise day, but I got kind of knocked off course yesterday. Not feeling great today. Ended up sleeping late and ordering pizza. Whoops. So, it’s a fail day.
That’s okay. Having a fail day now and then is fine. I just have to avoid falling into a spiral like after my birthday. So it’s important to get back on track, right way. And I will do that. Have no doubt! Etcetera.
I will do my best.
Had several spam phone calls today. Which is pretty annoying. Normally I rarely answer my phone if it’s a number I don’t recognise. But Helle has helped me get in touch with the housing assoc about my ventilation (hank you, as always, to my guardian angel!) and I’m expecting a call from them. So I answered my phone to two phone marketers and I called back to one missed call, and got a confused person that I couldn’t make much sense of while my apartment was being shaken by construction workers outside. It was probably a spoofed number that I called back to
Anyway. This day is pretty much down the toilet. But at least I haven’t posted blasphemous pictures of myself as Jesus, so I’m not the biggest waste of space in the world.
Halleluja, praise the false idols and false prophet.
Anyway, tomorrow’s another day. I have done my own research and that is my conclusion.
15/4 2026
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Good goat times today. Back in my right element. Surround yourself with love, and goats.
Chilly and overcast with a rain drop here and there. I want my blue sky back! But as long I have my little tubby Sky then I’m good. Ruuude!
Sweet visitors today too. The kid from last time who was all excited to get goat kisses and shake paws, was back. He seems to really loved the goats. He had some carrot sticks, I think they were actually for himself, but he asked if he could give them to the goats. And I told him that would be nice. Later he came back and he had a cup of hot cocoa, warmed over Jeanette’s campfire, and he asked if I wanted some. I told him no, that’s ok. But he sure is nice and sharing! And he was excited again when Luna licked his hand, and he was just walking around with us and asking questions. Sweet kid.
We had the feathers out with us again too. It really adds something to have them fluttering about. Bella and Luna may hold a differing opinion. At least when they get too close they get chased off with the horns. But they’re flapping wings faster than the hooves are clacking so that’s okay.
Now it’s time for soups, good on a cold day.
Onwards and warts on.
16/4 2026
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Yay goats yay.

16/4 2026
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Luna is always good for some lovin’.

16/4 2026
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Sky also likes treats.

16/4 2026
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The new log build seems to be a good tummy scratcher. It’s funny when Sky finds an especially good position for belly scratches she just can’t help herself, she bleats like that. I have noticed that before.
17/4 2026
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I wish
17/4 2026
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Sometimes you just need your butt scratched.

18/4 2026
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JAN ITOR!!
18/4 2026
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goatlog

19/4 2026
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relax

19/4 2026
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Some of the feathers. We have 5 now. The two whites are Italians. Jeanette told me she is calling them Diva and Donna. The two brown ones are both called Isa because they are apparently impossible to tell apart. I’ll take her word for that. She told me they got their name from Isa Brown, which I thought was some pop star, but looking it up it turns out to be a race of feathers. And then there’s the last one, must be the one not in this picture. She’s a Sussex, so I think she’s called Susie. I’m not going to be remembering any of this. I just hope they get to stay out with us.

19/4 2026
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The week is almost over. The weekend unfortunately brought more fail days. No exercise, bad eating. So tomorrow we’re starting again again again. To try to do better.
On the plus side, my pains seem to have lessened. I haven’t needed painkillers to just sit in my chair the last few days. Maybe I put too much strain on my back doing the playground workings and now it has healed. Maybe all my stretches and exercises have helped. Maybe it’s all random. Maybe I’m imagining it and it will be bad again tomorrow. Who knows. But for now I feel a bit better.
Next week I have an appointment at the eye doc, which should be routine. And hopefully I can get the housing assoc to come look at my ventilation system. Don’t know how that will go, but I will be glad to have it looked at.
So hopefully that will all go okay.
Now I will ramble about some stuff I’ve watched and heard, you can skip all this, nothing important.
I finished The Shining. Both the book and the movie. Glad I listened to the English version of the book. I really like it. Good classic Stephen King stuff. The movie is a classic too, but it’s rather a different beast. I don’t think it tells the story as well as the book. Obviously the book can give you a lot more details about the story. The movie looks and sounds amazing. It has some creepy and memorable bits. But I can understand why King wasn’t so happy with it. I can also understand why it’s considered a classic. I feel like one of its biggest flaws is also one of its biggest strengths. Jack Nicholson. He’s brilliant, but he’s also very Jack Nicholson. In the book you get a much better sense of the downward spiral of the father. His fears and insecurities, the things he’s done that got him there, the slow progression, sympathy and doubt. In the movie he almost seems diabolical from the beginning. Because he’s Jack fkn Nicholson. Doesn’t feel like it’s a very far journey for him to go mad.
And the Shining itself doesn’t get much time, the connection between Danny and Halloran is barely there. Lots of other stuff. The movie is dazzling but the book is the better story. i think they’re both worth experiencing, but very different.
I’m probably going to watch the tv mini series next. I watched it decades ago, but like the book and movie I barely remember it from back then. I know King was way more involved with it than the movie.
Currently reading Melissa Auf Der Mauer’s biography. She has been a part of several bands that mean a lot to me, but I didn’t know a lot about her, so it has been very interesting. If you like Hole or The Smashing Pumpkins or Nirvana or that whole scene, it is certainly interesting. And just for a woman’s perspective on all that and art. I like it. Almost done with it. Next up is another King. The Body. I have read that before, but there’s a new audio version out narrated by Whil Wheaton, so I want to give that a listen. Maybe I’ll watch Stand By Me after I’m done with that, that would make sense.
Finished the new season of Scrubs. Loved it. Not super into the new interns, but they’re okay. But it captures the magic of the old show very well I think, and I love that. Feels good.
Also still enjoying another Bill Lawrence show, Rooster. Bill Lawrence makes a lot of good TV that is happy and comforting and emotional. I’m a fan.
Also enjoying the new animated Darth Maul show. Oh and speaking of Star Wars, I FINALLY finished Andor. It took me so long to get to it and then I had several starts and stops along the way. But now it’s done. And it’s probably the best Star Wars since Disney took over the franchise. Even though it got uncomfortably close to what’s going on in the real world. Space fascism is more fun than Earth fascism, though.
Been listening to Bowie’s Earthling a lot more. Still really like it. I like it a lot more than the previous one, Outside. Even though I really wanted to like Outside, because I had more personal connection to it. But I found it hard to get really into Outside. Partly because how it was meant to be the first of a trilogy and how it was partly based around a Twin Peaksy muder mystery, and none of that got finished. The Hearts Filthy Lesson is one of my favourite Bowie tracks, but the whole album just doesn’t speak to me. I enjoy listening to Earthling a lot more.
Okay, I’ll shut up now. Mentally I am not doing very well. But time keeps on timing. I’m just trying to keep up.
Hope you’re all doing okay out there. Thanks for listening, if you do.
All depression and no goats make Lasse a dull boy.
Meep meep.
19/4 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. So good to get out to the goat place and get some happy inputs.
Still storming today, although not quite as bad as yesterday. It was raining when I started to my walk, but pretty much right when I got to the playground the rain stopped and the sun came out. How’s what for symbolic.
I did get some bad news today.
It’s Easter vacation, so Jeanette wasn’t there. But the replacement guy told me that one of the hens had died. So that’s sad. They have been locked up for many motnhs now, because there has been bird flu in Denmark. And the feathers I have been really close with have been gone for quite a while. So I don’t feel super close to our current group. But it’s still sad. I miss having a group of feathers out with us. I hope the remaining ones can come out some time in the future.
But the goats are good. Not fond of the mud, after the rain and storm. But enjoying their snacks and treats and breakfast and snacks and second breakfast and so on.
I did some manual labour in the goat pen today too. Made use of another of my boards. I’ll show you later. Nothing terribly interesting.
I need me some soup now. Stormy day, good soup weather.
6/4 2026
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Here’s what I worked on today. It’s just an extension of the deck outside the goat shaft. The board on the left. Bella is inspecting. A little more space to stand on,,especially for Sky under the half roof when it rains.
So, nothing special. Probably not worth all the work I actually put in it. Had a shovel out and ended up digging through dirt with my hands, trying to get it aligned and settled. Ah well. Bella is giving it a looksee. It soon had goats standing on it, so it works okay for that at least. Two boards left-

6/4 2026
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The added board is Luna approved.

6/4 2026
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I want to wish a very happy birthday to my dad today.
If my calculations are correct, he is 79 today. No spring chicken. But hanging in there. It is hard to see him get more and more frail. His memory worse and worse. He will call me to tell me something, and then ten minutes later call me to tell me the same thing. Showing up at my old apartment instead of the new. I wish I could fix it for him, make it better.. Alzeheimer’s and dementia is a cruel thing.
But he’s still fairly active. Doing things to help me and my brother. I believe he still meets with his stamps mate every weekend. Goes to a senior / dementia group place. Does things with mom. He always says, he can’t stand to just be home and do nothing. He still feels a need to get out and do things. But it is clear that it is getting harder and harder for him.
Happy birthday, dad. Thanks for everything you have done and still do.
6/4 2026
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. So that’s something.
It was close to being a fail day. I didn’t sleep well last night, tummy problems. I did get up in good time. But then I was tired and I thought “oh I’ll take a quick nap in my comfy chair”. And that nap turned into a 3 hour sleep. Tempted to just sleep more and moe and give up on the day and order bad stuff and let myself down again. But instead I did manage to get up (again) and jump on the bike. So that’s a success I guess.
I was in pain after the bike ride though. My head hurting something fierce, and my whole body really. I have back problems on and off, but it felt like my whole body was just in pain. Lower back, higher back, even my arms. Felt like all muscles were inflamed and bones crushed.
So that was fun!
I feel a little better now, after some stretching. So hopefully I’m on the mend. And can keep on fighting to be healthier. Fight to live another day.
7/4 2026
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Got some pretty bad news yesterday. I mean, it’s another case of “First world problems” / “Lasse’s a big baby”. But it’s going to have a severely negative impact on my life.
The grocery delivery service I use have removed the flourballs. The dumpligs. As some of you know, I love the flourballs. They are an essential part of my soups. Honestly, sometimes I think I like the flourballs more than the soup itself.
So this is kind of a disaster for me.
It was one of the original reasons I started using the delivery service. They had the big packs of flourballs. When shopping in stores those were so hard to find. The packs with only flourballs were rare, mostly there were just the packs with flourballs and meatballs. I can’t have those darn meatballs. It was a constant struggle trying to get the flourball packs. I used to ask my parents to find them too, because they visit more stores and can see better. So they’d buy the packs for me when they could.
Can’t really ask them to do that these days, with their diminished mobility and other issues. They still have two packs in their freezer. One pack is one year over the last-use date. The other pack is two years over the last-use date. I’m still going to get them and take my chances.
And I have 3/4ths of a pack in my freezer. So, using the expired packs I should be able to get through a month maybe. Then what. Stop eating soup? Sigh.
I emailed the delivery site. Support person apologised and said she would send my mail on to their stock people, or whatever. The flourballs are kind of seasonal, mostly for winter months. I understand that. They were always much harder to find in spring and summer in the stores too. But the delivery site had them for sale all year round the last few years. I guess there’s a chance they will bring them back in stock in fall or winter. But there’s no guarantee of that, they have been completely deleted from their site now. Even though support person agreed with me that you could absolutely eat soup all year round. Sigh.
So what? I’m not sure. My mom promised to look for them in the stores they go to. I don’t think there’s much chance of her finding any, but I’ll cross my fingers. I’m trying to look at some websites too, but it doesn’t look good.
I guess wort case scenario, and most likely scenario, is that I will have to start buying the meat and flour ball packs. Because those are still being sold on the delivery site. And then I will just have to open each pack and sort through them all and throw out all the meatballs. That will be a huge hassle and it will make it twice as expensive because I’ll be throwing out 50% of the packs. But. At least I could still get flourballs.
It just really bums me out. It got me pretty depressed yesterday. You don’t know how lucky you are till it’s gone. I haven’t been appreciating how nice it was to just have easy access to those balls. I didn’t even have to work for it, I just had all the balls I wanted within my grasp.
Sigh. Things like this that make me want to just give up. Why bother. Why try. Just sleep all day and order junk food and hope diabetes will end it all for me soon.
But some might say that isn’t a productive way of thinking. Some might say.
Balls.
7/4 2026
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8/4 2026
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. Groovy. Keeping at it, that’s good.
Easier to get started today. Didn’t go quite as long as I wanted. Still dealing with more pain than usual. But at least I’m working on things.
My blood sugar was perfect, and my blood pressure a tiny bit high but better than it was before the new meds. So that stuff is looking decent.
Doing my best, what else is there to do?!
8/4 2026
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Good news everybody!
I have succesfully grasped balls.
Five big packs of flourballs in my freezer.
What a relief. If I ration them strictly that should last me a couple of months, maybe more.
I used Wolt, wich is actually the biggest rival of the pizza / junkfood site I usually use, the one that will be closing down in Denmark soon. So sometimes in the future if I want pizza I will probably order through Wolt. But they also do supermarket deliveries. I think it’s basically like Door Dash in America? Basically a courier that goes to the supermarket and gets the items toy order and bring them to you. And there was a supermarket with flourballs in stock. Now, I don’t know if I will be able to continue getting flourballs from Wolt. Since they are something of a seasonal thing, it is possible they may go out of stock in the supermarkets too. But at least I have a freezerful now, and if I’m lucky maybe I can get more as needed.
So panic averted. For now. Good thing I didn’t get overly dramatic about it! Thank you everyone who offered advice and sympathy. I know it’s not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, with the world on fire and everything going to heck. But I really love my flourballs. I may try out those gnocchi things too…
In other good news, I have received my new bus card too. Also quite a relief. Just that I got it, and so quickly. With all the problems with the new postal service in Denmark, I was worried when or even if it would get to me. I also have another really important thing coming soon, and having the postal service function in a timely manner would be really important in that regard.
So now I have my new and my old bus card. Which means I can bring both next time I have to go downtown. And I can see if I can figure out how to use the new one. And if I can’t, then I can fall back on the old one. The old one works till the end of May, I believe, so I have some time to learn how to use the new one. I’m happy about that.
Nice to have some good things happening. I have had a hard time coping with stuff for a while. Let’s hope things are looking up now. For me, I mean. The world in generall.. ehh, don’t check the news.
8/4 2026
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Luna and two butts.

8/4 2026
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Good goat times today. A beautiful, sunny day. A bit cold in the morning, and some clouds here and there. But lots of sunshine and some blue skies. Feels good, man.
The goats must have been feeling the spring feeling. Lots of grunting and headbutting. And then lots of lazy sitting in the sun. It’s just very lovely.
We had lots of sweet visitors in the pen. Kids having fun with the goats. I thought I might have to watch Luna closely, because she has sometimes been a litte troublesome with kids in the past, and she was pretty worked up in the spring sun. She was growling at Bella, she even reared up like she was going to try to headbutt me. So I thought I’d better be careful. But she was so good with the kids today. Calmly standing there while they petted her. I have rarely been so good at hte petting goat stuff.
So the visitors got some sweet moments. One kid was quite excited. He got kisses from Luna and was so happy about it, telling his adults again and again. And when Luna was shaking hands with me, the boy came in and got handshakes too. He was just very excited and happy. A couple of sweet and much more tentative girls got to pet Luna too while their adult was reassuring them that everything was fine.
So that was all lovely. Jeanette got the campfire going for the visitors too. Lovely day for it.
I did some hard labour too, but I’ll show you that later.
I got good and bad news about the chickens.
The good news is that they were finally allowed to come out and join us. How long has it been since they were out of their enclosure? Months. Half a year? It has been very long. It was really nice to have them out with us again. Makes everything more lively.
The bad news is that the hen that passed over Easter was Red Sonja. Jeanette told me. So that is very sad. She was such a sweet and funny girl. She really was like a feathered goat, she was just part of the herd and acted like a goat in so many ways. Apart from butting heads. But yeah, that’s really a bummer. She was the last one of the old crew too. No one left from the old days now. I don’t really know any of the new ones. It’s lovely to have them outside with the goats, but I don’t have any personal relation to any of them.
It’s been so long since we had Sonja out with us, so it’s not like it will make a big difference to our every day life. But it’s just very sad. Her and Henrietta Solo were my favourites. Rest in peace, Sonja.
They are not sure what happened to her, but she may have been sick.
So, a bittersweet day. But lots of good sunny goat time. Ended the day sitting with Sky in the grass. Rubbing her hooves. And when I’d stop she’d paw my leg like “you’re not done, keep going”. The goats are always so sweet when they are tired in the sunshine.
And now, it’s soup time. Because soup is good all year round, even on sunny days.
9/4 2026
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Breakfast time. Sky has feathered company again. So lovely to have the hens out with us again, after such a long time.
For those who may have missed the news, unfortunately Red Sonja passed away over Easter. She was a special feathery girl. The last of the old feathers. I don’t really know the new ones so well, but I’m glad they can finally come out and spend time with us again.

9/4 2026
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Here’s what I worked on today.
It’s not really something new. We had the logs there next to the bench for years, I think.
But I had to rebuild it. The logs were placed on an upside-down pallet. And that pallet was removed. Which meant the logs were rolling around, one of them somehow ended up outside the goat pen. They really needed that pallet to anchor them.
I noticed Jeanette had taken it over to the bunny house. I think they use pallets there because it gets flooded. Well, I asked her if they needed all the pallets or if I could get one back. And she told me I could. And I got a bigger pallet then the old one. So that worked out really well.
Maybe it wasn’t a good idea for my back to be working on that. The new pallet was so heavy it was quite the effort to drag it over to the bench. And a couple of the logs are super heavy too. With the increased pain I have been having, maybe I shouldn’t have logged all that around. But hey you know, anything for the goats.
So I got that rebuilt. And the new build is better. The bigger pallet means the logs are more secured, and the elevation is higher. A good thing for goats to jump on. So I’m happy about that.

9/4 2026
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Here’s Sky on the new rebuilt log build on the bigger pallet.
I think the goats like when I build stuff. Mostly because I give them treats to pose on the new stuff so I can get a decent pic for facebox. Build more stuff, give us more treats!

9/4 2026
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Twas a beautiful day in the goat hood.

9/4 2026
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Hey, buy me dinner first, Luna.

10/4 2026
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Want to watch 7 minutes of me building the pallet and logs yesterday? That’s a weirdly specific request, but okay.
Nothing interesting. My life. I mean.
10/4 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Working hard. It was a struggle today. At first my lung capacity seemed markedly worse than normal. About halfway through it seemed to get better. So a decent effort. I have lost the weight I put on during the downard spiral after my birthday. Gotta keep at it now.
Blood sugar levels and blood pressure still okay.
My back is still hurting a lot. Used to be it would give me problems when I was up and active, out walking etc. The last week or so it has periodically been really bad just when doing nothing. There have been days when I have needed to take painkiilers just to be able to sit in my chair and do computer stuff. So that’s not great. But I’m trying my exercises, stretches, posture. It was better today on the bike than last time.
I wonder what it’s like to just be okay. Mentally. Physically. Imagine not having demons barking in your head, pain stabbing in all your bones, your blood trying to poison you. I wonder what it’s like.
I know a lot of my problems are of my own making, and a lot of people have it much worse. But, your own pain is usually the one you feel the most.
I will keep on keeping on. Fight to live another day.
11/4 2026
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Hands in hooves

11/4 2026
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It’s not too late to make a Newman spinoff and call it Going Postal. If AI is so great, why can’t it make it that for me?!
11/4 2026
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I just checked, and I still can’t watch The Constant phone call scene without crying.
Productive Saturday evening.
11/4 2026
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Army of the 12 Goats.
11/4 2026
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Alright, here’s a tired Bella to make up for the other posts.

11/4 2026
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Where do I think I am?

12/4 2026
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goatlog

12/4 2026
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Depression grasped me today. It’s always lurking somewhere, ready to grope me like failed realestate reality show host at beauty pageant.
More back pain, just sitting in my chair.
Last night in bed I was feeling myself up, no not like that. I was just feeling my ribs. There’s some kind of soreness on the right side of my rib cage. It almost feel like another bruised rib. It would figure that I break and bruise my ribs so esily now that it just happens without me even noticing it. Haha. I don’t know if it’s a rib thing. And if it could cause the other pain.
But hey.
I made myself mashed potatoes today. From powder. That was a bout a year past the expiration date. But it’s powder, how bad can it go? So far I have survived.
I am tired of the world. It feels like my memory is getting worse and worse. I have to look at that new TV stuff. I think it actually snowed here, but since I haven’t left the house all weekend, hopefully it will all be gone by the time I get out. I need more sunshine
I love John McGinley.
I mean, not romantically. Probably.
I just want to dream, and be a folded paper boat in the rain.
12/4 2026
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Think goat thoughts.

12/4 2026
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That’s all for now.