Good goat times today.
It was a fun one. I think the girls are in heat.
Jeanette told me when I got there that the big girls had been hard on Sky. And they had all made sounds she hadn’t heard before.
And I saw, and heard, for myself soon enough. Lots of grunting and snorting. Luna sniffing Bella’s rear over and over. Bella was the one most normal. Sky actually made some little grunty growly sounds that I don’t even remember hearing from her before. I probably have. But they were pretty darn cute. And Luna, well even on normal days Luna can go into a bit of ‘blubbery buck’ mode. And today she was just all over the place. For some reason it seemed to trigger her when I would squat down. Maybe it’s something about me being more eye-level with her like that. Maybe she thought I was going to headbutt her. But she was snorting and practically barking at me. If I didn’t know better I would have thought she was getting ready to attack me. I was spinning around and she was following me spluttering and it was just a lot of fun.
Yeah those girls could use a boyfriend. I wish we could let Sky have a kid so she could have someone to bond with. But who knows how many kids we’d end up with, and while I deeply miss having goat kids around, I don’t miss having to say goodbye to them when we couldn’t keep them.
But those goofy girls were a lot of fun today. And now it’s soup time o’clock.
15/12 2025
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Lil miss Goofington. Luna was huffed up on heatballs today.

15/12 2025
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The goof troop.

15/12 2025
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I managed to get Helle some flowers and chocolate as a thank you for her immense help during my move. That was the least I could do. I’m glad she got them, I wasn’t sure how the delivery would work.
I had talked to her a while ago and told her I wanted to do something to thank her. I mentioned a gift or flowers and even offered to just give her s’money. Because she has saved me a good deal of money and also her help has been priceless.
She told me that she definitely didn’t want money. But she would like if I would let her take me to see the local museum. It’s a place where she works or volunteers or so. And she’d like me to see it. I appreciate that she understands that hings like that are difficult for me, she is always super nice and considerate.
But yes, of course I’d ‘let’ her do that. She’ll have to tell me what I’m looking at mostly! But I like Helle and it’s always nice to spend time with her. And it will be nice to spend some time NOT doing things related to the move!
But with that all said, I still thought I had to get her a little physical representation of my grattitude. I have no clue about flowers, and obviously I can’t really see very well what they even look like. So it was picked more or less at random. But it’s the thought that counts! And I will be forever grateful for all Helle has done for me.
And I know you all love her too! She’s the best.
16/12 2025
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Not just a flower day today. Also got an hour fifteen on the exercise bike. Second session in the new apartment. Hopefully I can keep it going. Along with eating more vegetables. I still have iced creams in the freezer. I am going to try to not buy anymore when these are gone. I have been eating way too much ice cream for too long. Going to try to stop. I’ll try.
I also had a plumber visit. I called the housing association yesterday about my toilet. They booked a plumber for me, not their own guy this time.
The plumber came today. But didn’t do that much. He looked at it all, but the toilet was flushing fine. He was talking about that thing that several of you have mentioned, the floater or valve or whatsit. Clearly I was not born to be a plumber.. but anyway. That thing. That apparently is a common thing to eventually fail in toilets. But he said it was working fine. And to be fair there hasn’t been a problem since Saturday I think. He said he couldn’t do much now, but if it started happening again then he’d come back and fix the ‘internals’ or whatever the right word is. Apparently it’s a little tricky since it’s all inside the wall and there’s just a little square hole to access it. But I guess I will just have to hope it works fine now. I guess it’s not too big a deal, since the times the water has ran I was able to stop it with the flusher button. I would have liked if he had changed the thing or fixed the thing or whatever. But. For now, letting it be.
Did I mention my dentist appointment has been cancelled? Originally I had an appointment this week. Then they called me because they’d double booked that time and couldn’t get a hold of the other person, so they asked if I would mind changing my appointment. Changed it to next Monday. Yesterday while I was at the goat place they called. Now the dentist couldn’t do that appointment. I don’t understand that. It’s a week away so it’s not like it’s because she’s sick. Did they first double book my time slot and then the dentist decided to have christmas vacation or what? They asked if I could come Friday, but Friday isn’t good for me. So I said I’d call in and get a new appointment. I’ll have to remember to do that.
exciting stuff, I know!
16/12 2025
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For the premium subscribers, an early look at an upcoming video. Little Luna goofypants. She got worse than this, but I’m still editing it all. Oh, and Bella at the end looking at the camera like “Can you do something about her?”
16/12 2025
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I.. I blacked out. I think. Yes. I remember getting that.. wooshing pre-black out feeling. And then.. I came to, sitting in my chair. Not knowing where or when I was. I’m still trying to piece things together. In my head. I can see that I posted a Luna video about half an hour ago. I must have blacked out after that. It’s Tuesday? I was visiting the goats yesterday. That’s when Luna was acting like that. I was editing the video..
It’s all still pretty foggy. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do now. I think I have something scheduled, some reason I can’t go see the goats.
It’s the 16th.. christmas is approaching.
I need to piece back my memory puzzle. It’s been a long time since I black out like this. Many months. It’s a scary feeling.
I’m not sure what to do now. I need to find my way back to my reality. It’s almost midnight. Do I have plans for tomorrow?
Ugh.
Oh yeah, I picked that amazon package up yesterday. And I exercised today. And the plumber visit was today? I Think. I feel like the blackouts I had in the past, my memory came back quicker. I am struggling to put things back together.
I put up the swim caps on the ventilator today. Did I write about that? I must have done that after the exercise and plumber. The emazon package was the swim caps. And I put them up on the ventilator to cover them more.
What did I then do.. I must have had shower.
And I have eaten. Although today is a fasting day, so I haven’t eaten much. Wonder if that has been what triggered this?
I only had some basic bread. Peanutbutter and bananas. Apple.
And then..
I can’t have been out that long. Made the Luna preview post about 45 minutes before coming back.
It must have been not too long after that I got the spell. I remember.. that wooshing sinking feeling. I remember shaking my head trying to clear it. And then.. I guess I was out. Not sure for how long.
Still trying to piece it all together.
Monday was goats. Today is Tuesday. Exercised.
I was supposed to have the dentist visit on Thursday, but that got moved to Monday. And then cancelled.
Okay, I feel like I’m slowly getting back in my head. Feel like I know when and where I am. It’s funny, for a second I think I almost thought I was still in the old apartment. With the curtains closed and with my hazy sight, it could almost be the same. But I’m on the 6th floor.
Sorry, don’t mean to worry anyone. It’s just such a bizarre feeling. I remember that blackout feeling now, more clearly. I was sitting here in the chair.
I guess it’s bedtime. It’s just past midnight now. I should be in bed already. I guess I don’t have plans tomorrow.
It’s been two years since I had blackout last, although in the meantime I have had that feeling a couple of times without blacking out.
I wonder what the test results from teh doctor will say, I was there Thursday last week so they should be coming in probably tomorrow.
Such a weird feeling.
I guess I should be heading to bed. I think I have pieced most things together. Tomorrow’s just relaxation. I can sleep in late.
Still so weird. Feels like the plumber was here a totally different day. But that was this morning.
I think I have it all back together in my head. It’s such a weird and unsettling, scary, thing. When you feel displaced in time and space and you’re not sure what you’ve been doing or what you’re going to do, what plans you have.
But yes. It’s bedtime now. And tomorrow I’ll sleep as long as I want. No plumbers or packages coming, no goat trip, just a quiet day.
Alright. Well. Sorry to worry ou all, I know this probably isn’t nice to read, and some of you will be yelling at me.
But see you tomorrow. Sorry if I’m forgetting anything.
17/12 2025
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Had a good night’s sleep. The best in a long time. Go figure.
I got reply back from the doctor about my blood tests. As expected, my blood sugar has risen. And my kidney numbers too. But we have agreed that I will make an effort the next 3 months and we’ll see howi t looks at the next appointment. Hopefully getting back to exercise and better eating will fix things up a bit.
Motivated to improve things. I’m trying.
Thanks everyone, for the concern and advice.
No fasting today! Just to clarify, when I do fast it’s not a whole day. It’s like 16 hours-ish. Intermittently.
Just taking a day to relax now.
17/12 2025
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I am not feeling too good. I have a crippling headache, one of the worst I can remember ever having. Feeling nauseated and my whole body is sore. Maybe I overdid it on the exercise yesterday, should maybe hae tried easing back into it a bit slower.
But physically and mentally not feeling too good. Very tired. Struggle to just get out of my chair.
Took some painkillers. And I should try to get something to eat. I did have a protein bar and a couple of bananas this morning.
Hopefully I’ll be feeling better soon. I’m just going to take it easy for now.
Thank you everyone for the care and concern. Sorry to be causing worries.
17/12 2025
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I am not feeling so good. I think I’m going to take the day in bed.
Sore all over, tired, nauseated, dizzy. Not snotty though. But definitely feeling quite bad.
18/12 2025
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Well, I didn’t end up staying in bed all day.
But I have spent most of the day napping in my comfy chair. Occasionally watching some video. Not doing much.
I am feeling a lot better right now than I was this morning. Though still not great.
This morning though I felt completely awful. My head felt like it was blowing up. Every muscle and joint in my body was aching. I was sitting here considering calling the doctor, that’s how bad it was.
I didn’t call though. Because I’m stupid like that. Holding off for now. My body still aches, but now it’s mostly the muscles used in exercising on Tuesday. I may have overdone it a little on my first real session back.
I’m wondering if it’s a combination of that and then may some flu or covid or whatever. Maybe I got the bird flu.
My neck hurts a lot. I think I fell asleep, or blacked out?, sitting on the toilet. And I was sitting for a long time probably with my neck hurts so much now.
I also unfortunately broke my glasses. And I don’t remember how. They were in the sink in the bathroom when I woke up. The right… thing that goes over your ear. Whassat called? The leg? It was broken off. I can still wear them and I can probably tape the leg back on fairly well. So it’s not the end of the world. But it is a little concerning of course.
But like I said, I do am feeling better now. Not good, but better. So I will give it some more time before I decide to maybe talk to a doctor.
Going to have me some soup. I had been planning to see the goats today, but definitely not feeling up to that.
So I’ll see. My body just really feels like it needs to relax. Like I’ve ran a marathon and then been put in a meat grinder.
There’s always something!
18/12 2025
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Oh PS I can see that Helle and the rest of us won our case in the EU court about our housing area. Exactly what that means for the future I am not sure, especially with this clouded head. But it’s better to win than to lose, I’m pretty sure. Congratulations to Helle, and to everyone. I hope it will be the start of something positive.
18/12 2025
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So I’ve had a thought.
My face is kind of hurting. Especially the right side. Like, the part beneath the eye but above the teeth. What’s that called? The jaw? Or is that just below the teeth? The cheek? That’s more to the side.
When I bite down hard I can kind of feel it like I feel it in the bone.
It’s not horribly bad. But it does make me wonder. My glasses were broken on the right side…
Did I fall and bang my head and wreck my glasses?
It didn’t feel like the blackouts where I come back in a fog and have to put everything back together in my head to find out where and when I am. It felt more like I fell asleep on the toilet. But I don’t know. Maybe I fell asleep and smacked my head against the wall in front of me. And put my broken glasses in the sink and slept on?
I just don’t know.
I am feeling a lot better right now, right now it feels a lot more like soreness after too much exercise too soon. Apart from the face pain, that doesn’t feel like from exercise.
Just had some lovely soup. Mmm. That’s good for what ails ya.
I will consider calling the doctor, if this continues or I get more blackouts.
But I just.. have had so much. The last months. I’m giving it a couple of days, unless it starts getting worse. I’ll see. And I’ll try to ease in the exercise a little better. Not too much too soon. Make sure to stay hydrated and get protein.
Much in my life would be different if I had taken better care of myself over the years. But here we are. The tin foil hat makes it hard to learn from mistakes. But at least it keeps the government from reading my mind with their 5G ai. So that’s good.
Sorry for causing worries, thank you to all who care.
18/12 2025
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Oh hey hey. I also wanted to say a big thank you to Anne-Marie Barras for the lovely card! If I’m not forgetting something in my cloudy state, this is the first piece of personal mail I have received in my new home. Thank you kindly!

18/12 2025
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Spent some time tonight looking on youtube at old Danish TV christmas calendars. It’s a strong ttradition in Denmark, 24 episode TV series leading up to Christmas. Do you do that outside of Scandinavia?
Especially back in the olden days, when we had one or two TV channels. You’d be pretty much guaranteed to have the majority of little kids watching every day.
Fond memories of some of those things. From the classically sweet to the anarchistic wild when later on comedians sstarted parodying or having weird takes on them, and so called ‘adult’ ones. Meaning for growups, not.. you know..
My favourite is probably still The Julekalender. Not for the melancholic christmas jolliness, but for the wackiness. The schoolyard was full of us copying their weird mix of Danish and English. And I still find some of it really funny. More the human characters than the nisse characters.

19/12 2025
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Hello. How am I?
Well, somewhat better. More clearheaded I think. My whole body is still sore. Muscles ache. My tongue too. Did I mention that? I must have chewed on it. I remember that from those blackouts a couple of years ago. Tongue swollen like I tried to eat it.
But hopefully I’m on the road to feeling better.
My dad unfortunately had a fall in the bus and has hurt his ribs. Apparently he’s in quite bad pain. He can’t have ibuprofen and paracetamol isn’t enough. So he’s getting morphine. But that isn’t quite helping enough, so they’re going in today to get him a higher dosage I think. I’m sure mom will keep a good eye on him, not sure morphine is going to help much with his cognitive state. But I don’t want him to be in pain of course.
I don’t understand why we can’t just have cyborg bodies already, these meatbags are too much upkeep and too complicated.
Just going to take it easy today. I don’t feel too bad when I don’t move.
19/12 2025
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I’m getting real tired of smacking my head against open cupboard doors. Real tired. Real real tired.
This wasn’t a good time to do it. And pretty hard too. I need to learn to not let them stay open when I’m cooking and stuff.
19/12 2025
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I am not feeling super great. Mentally or physically.
My head is feeling better at least.
The rest of my body aches. And the depression levels are high. Tired of the world. Frustrated with everything. La la la.
Feeling weirdly .. disconnected, from myself. Don’t know how to explain it.
One day a day.
Funny thing happened. I was standing in my kitchen. Heard a thump from my living. Which is two steps to the side, as you may recall. I stepped in to try to see what had happened.
It was the covering I had put over the ventilator on the wall. Layers and layers of gorilla tape, it had just fallen off.
Gorilla tape sticks super well.
But I think the problem is that when Helle put the initial cover over it, it was just clingfilm held by a rubberband. And I put all the other stuff over that. So while the gorilla tape sticks super well, it was sticking to clingfilm that.. eventually got pushed off.
I’m leaving it off for a bit. Turned up the heat a little. It did cross my mind whether my headaches might be connected to blocking off the ventilator. Although I’d think opening the indows once or twice a week would be fine to get some fresh air in here? I don’t know. I’ll leave the ventilator uncovered for now I suppose, and see how it goes. The breeze seems to be less now than it was before we covered it up. But it feels like it flunctuates sometimes. Maybe it depends on how strong a wind there is outside, I don’t know how the system works.
Anyhoo. Just thought it was a little funny how I’d plastered layers of super tough sticky tape on it, and it just fell off with a thump.
Got a grocery delivery coming tomorrow, and I included a frozen pizza. So with any luck I’ll be trying my first frozen pizza in the oven tomorrow. I probably won’t feel up to exercising, since my legs are hurting a lot. Not sure I’ll feel up unpacking either. Most of the important stuff is where it should be now. It would be nice to get the rest of it done. But right now I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. So I may put that off. Maybe I’ll just do pizza tomorrow and nothing else. Sounds like a Lasseplan.
Just tired of it all. Feels like there’s always something going wrong. But at least I don’t sit around feeling sorry for myself, ho ho ho !
19/12 2025
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Didn’t sleep too well last night.
My own fault. Since I didn’t go to bed. I slept in my comfy chair. Not easy sleep through like that.
I’ll go to bed properly tonight.
My head is feeling clearer. My muscles, especially the legs, and the right side of my face, still hurt.
I had been hoping to exercise or unpack today, but that was off the table. I’ll take it easy for the holidays I think. Try to get some goat time in.
I’ll try to contact the glasses shop (which I know is the tecnical term) to see if I can use some warranty to get a new pair of glasses. The frames themselves were super cheap so maybe I’ll just buy a new pair. I have taped them together, but it’s not real handy. I wonder if they can just take the lenses and put them right in a new pair of frames and let me go home with those. I would hate to be without my glasses for a longer period of time. But I’ll have to see.
Got a Pepsi & Protein delivery today. Along with a frozen pizza. I’m going to try it in a bit. First one in the new oven. It’s small. I have very little concept of size and weight and measurements. Like, if someone asks how much one of the goats weigh I’ll go.. I don’t know? Five kgs? 50 pounds? A 100 lbs? Zero concept. Turns out a 300g pizza is on the small side for me. But it was cheap. It would be nice if it could function as a good pizza for me. I will cook it up with a batch of fries, so I’m sure to get my junk food fix fixed.
Other than that, still feeling somewhat disconnected. Not quite myself. But maybe some actual sleep tonight will help that.
I measured my blood pressure and it was surprising low. The high number at least. It was 110. It’s been too high mostly, so that’s good I guess. The low number still a bit too high. But could be worse.
I’m tired. In a metaphysical sense.
Meanwhile, I’m going to focus all my energy on not eating this box of chocolate that I bought for christmas, before christmas. Don’t put any money on me.
20/12 2025
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Pizza update: It wasn’t very good.
I guess I couldn’t expect much from such a cheap thing. Felt like a piece of cardboard with a string of cheese and a dried tomato. But hey, it was fun to try. I’ll try another one next time. And oven fries are good.
Onwards and upwards.
20/12 2025
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Well, it hasn’t been the best of weeks. I am still not feeling too great.
My body is hurting less. My face still feels like I walked into a Tyson fist.
My head is fairly clear I suppose, but I still feel somewhat disconnected from myself. Detached. Feeling depressed. And tired of everything.
Doesn’t help that I had a computer crash that left me scrambling to restore and fix things.
I just… ,want to sleep for the rest of the year.
Feel like I’m sinking. But I suppose there’s not much to do but keep on walking ahead, hope the course corrects itself and I get to the shore. One day a day. Bla bla.
I’ll be happy to see the backside of the year, berries or none.
21/12 2025
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The week is almost over. I think it’s been 6 in the new place? I’m losing count. That’s good I guess.
My head feels like a balloon. If I cut the string it might float off.
I am feeling mentally pretty fragile right now. Knocked off course.
But no point prattling on about it I guess.
My toilet just started running again. Hadn’t been a problem since Tuesday when the plumber was here and didn’t fix it. I stopped it with the flush button, but it just adds to my anxiety.
Alright. I’ll try to get to bed fairly early today. Try to get sleep. See if I can cope with next week. Take it easy until the new year. Try to keep the bad thoughts out.
Hope you’re all doing well, that your holidays are festive or whatever you want them to be.
Hang in there if you’re having a hard time. Tis the season. One day a day. Jingle those mthrfkn bells.
21/12 2025
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today.
Starting to regain some normalcy. And regular goat trips is an important part of that.
Thankfully the goaties don’t seem mad at me for missing so much time recently. They’re still happy to see me. And the treats I come baring.
Just nice to hang around with them. Get the sweet cuddles and silly goofing around. And seeing Jeanette is always good too. The feathers are on lockdown because there has been bird flu going around. Somewhere. So no feathers out with us. I hope they can come out soon.
We had several nice visitors. There was a boy who remembered my name and called out to me. He seemed happy to see me again. Later he asked if it was okay if he took a picture of me, as I was sitting and scratching Bella. I said of course. What a polite kid. Pretty sure he was the one filming that one other time. Wonder if he’s got a goat facebook page of his own…
And now it’s time for soup. Goats and soup, that’s the routine I need.
8/12 2025
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One two three, little goats are we.

7/12 2025
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Santa’s list better be GDPR compliant, I am not consenting to him gathering or storing any sensitive information about how I may or may not be naughty, allegedly. If I end up on the naughty list I’m suing his f*t a**.
7/12 2025
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Missed my Luna smooches.

7/12 2025
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Got fifty minutes on the bike today.
Good to get back to exercising. First time in the new apartment. It’s been more than a months since the last time I exercised. And before that there was a long break too. So I have only exercised about 5 times in two and half months. Way too little of course.
Even though I have been fairly active the last month, I can definitely feed I am in worse shape.
But that’s okay. Just have to get back into the routine. Today was mostly just a test run, to see if everything works. See how it all goes. There are some things that are different, that I will have to get used to. But it should be fine. And I will start up slow. Maybe do it once a week in December, build up a little form and then go harder in January.
I can definitely feel that my muscles are weaker and I’m out of breath much sooner than normal. And I have put on weight. I would like to lose about 10 pounds. I’m planning to try the 5:2 diet. Two days of strict calorie restriction. When I have lost a lot of weight in the past it was with pretty severe calorie restriction. But I’m pretty sure I wasn’t getting enough protein and I don’t think it’s great for the metabolism. So I’m going to try two days of restriction and 5 days of just eating what I want. Combined with exercise. And see how that works for me. If I can lose some weight like that I would be happy.
But the most important thing is getting in good shape again and getting my blood pressure and blood sugar where they’re supposed to be.
Got the doc appontment coming up, and slightly dreading the results. But now that the move is completed I should be able to get back to a healthier lifestyle. Here’s to hoping!
Step one done. Back to exercising.
Now I just gotta keep going.
9/12 2025
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I feel like playing the old Gremlins text adventure. For the seasonal joy. And for putting the gremlin in the blender and pressing the on button.
I think you could kill some of the gremlins with a snow plough too.
It was a pretty buggy game, I never completed it.
But it was still so fascinating. You could be IN the Gremlins movie! You kids can keep your Nintendos and Segas, I had a Commodore 64 with a keyboard and TEXT ADVENTURES.
Gandalf enters…
9/12 2025
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Got my final statement for the old apartment today.
Now I’d already been told verbally at the final inspection that there wouldn’t be anything I was liable for, nothing I would have to pay.
It was still with a little trepidation I opened the pdf. You never know. Maybe after Helle and I had left, the inspector found something crazy and now I’d get a huge bill. I don’t think that would actually be legal. But I mean, you know me. I have to worry about things, even if they are improbably or impossible.
But the statement had a nice big ZERO at my expenses and a nice little christmas bonus of the deposit I’ll be getting back.
It’s nice to have that settled and in writing.
That should be the last I hear of that place. Eighteen years later, it is off my hands. I wonder if they start renovating it immediately. And by renovating I guess I mean demolishing it. Or if that work won’t begin until the whole renovation of the building starts in April. And then there’s the matter of people who are objecting against it, I’m pretty sure Helle told me some of the other people in the building were filing objections. I remember Helle asked me if I wanted to do that, when we first began talking. I told her that wasn’t something I was up to. And I’m certainly glad I didn’t. Because I ended up in a better place, all things considered. But I wish good luck to the people objecting. Who knows what will happen with the whole EU verdict and all that.
Well, other than that I’m just relaxing today. Might take a nap. That’s how I roll.
10/12 2025
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Sweet Mousy. It’s mostly goats that I miss, but there have been some sweet kitties over the years too.
10/12 2025
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When night falls and the darkness calls, you’re howling at your doom.

10/12 2025
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Had my checkup at the doc’s office today. The big yearly one. So we’ll see what the blood and urine samples say. Got an EKG done too. And my heart rhythm is fine. Pulse is a little high. And I’m getting the dose of one of my meds upped to help my blood pressure.
Hopefully the test results don’t come back too bad, and then it’ll be better next time when i should be into my healhtier routines.
I’ll try.
Right now I’m going to get some soup. Because that’s pretty healthy eating. Yum.
11/12 2025
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Life is a balancing act.

11/12 2025
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A What’s Lasse Watching&Reading report.
Finished Caravan by Tim Curry. Loved it. Took a little time to get used to the post-stroke voice and cadence. But his charm and wit remains. I only wished it was longer, as long as his career. I wanted to hear about Earth2! Even though there’s probably not much to tell. I loved that show, though. The good ones always get cancelled too soon.
Started reading King Sorry by Joe Hill. Not too far in yet, but I’m really liking it so far. Like his previous works, it makes me feel like a fresher version of his daddy, Stephen King. And there has already been a huge connection to his father’s extended universe. Really good so far.
Started watching season 2 of Ander. After a way too long break. I watched the first season what, 3-4 motnhs ago? More? And then I had some technical difficulties with media files and then suddenly my world got turned flipped upside. But now here I am the fresh prince of 6th floor. Anyway, yes. So far Andor continues to be great and I am looking forward to finishing it.
I really feel like starting a rewatch of Lost. I dreamt about Jin last night. I feel like I have to go back.
Still basically just listening to Frank Turner and David Bowie, nothing new there.
And that’s all for this post.
11/12 2025
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Got a Protein&Pepsi delivery today. With extra vegetables. Trying to get the healthier thing going. So, eating more vegetables. Sigh. Can we start a petition to get ice ream reclassified as a vegetable?
Okay okay.
But I’m drawing the line at broccoli. I’m sure if properly prepared it’s fine. But the boiled from frozen suff I just had, no thanks. Not doing that again.
12/12 2025
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Sigh. My toilet started running again.
At least I caught it this time. No, I didn’t run after it. But I got it stopped right away. Or maybe it wasn’t me.
I flushed the toilet and when it stopped flushing, water kept running. Instead of the flush that comes down all the way around the bowl, it was a single stream at the back of the bowl.
I tried jiggling the flush buttons. Which didn’t do anything. Then I removed the back plate that the flush button are on. I saw the housing association go doing that last, so I knew it could be done without tools. I figure the water shut-off must be in there if I need to use it. Couldn’t find it at first glance, but I jiggled and poked around back there. I don’t know if that was what made the toilet stop, or if it was random. But it stopped.
Checking my water usage it seems to have used about 40 litres. I think a normal flush uses 6-9 litres. At least it didn’t go for 800 litres this time..
But I guess I’llhave to call the housing association again on Monday and ask them to come look at it. Because now i’m worried again. Something else must be up with the toilet.
I almost stepped out of the bathroom without noticing, good thing I caught the sound of running water. I guess I cannot allow myself to let my guard down about that. Gotta stay and wait till it’s complete. Not just the flush, but afterwards when you can sort of hear the cistern filling in the wall.
I was planning to send them a message on Monday asking if it’s normal that the freezer is wheezing so much. Going on and off like clockwork all day and night. But I guess I’ll wait with that, because the toilet is more important.
Just great. More service repair visits. Maybe they’ll send a real plumber this time, not just their own guy.
Not super happy with my wall mounted toilet so far!
12/12 2025
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My mind is a fragile one. It only takes a little stream of water to trigger my anxiety and raise my depression again.
Went to bed last night feeling pretty crummy. I had been planning to get up early today and get all my unpacking done.
Predictably, that didn’t happen. I ended up spending some 12ish hours in bed. Had some great dreams. But not very productive.
When I got up, my toilet ran again. So I had to chase it down. This time it stopped running when I pressed the flush button. So that’s good. Only some 20 liters of water gone. But it definitely needs to be looked at.
I did get some stuff done today. After a while I got going on the unpacking. Got maybe halfway done today. It wasn’t so much unpacking really, more like looking in boxes, moving stuff around, labeling things. But I’m pretty happy with some of the organising I did. Getting stuff into places where they fit and having easy access to things I use a lot. So I’m pretty happy with how that’s coming together. It will be nice when it’s all done, but I’m not in a hurry. I will probablay try to finish it next weekend. Going to take tomorrow to just decompress. And then next week, well I want to prioritise goat time and exercise time, and now I also have to put energy into the toilet situation. Having to have strangers in my apartment kind of takes a whole day out of me. Even if they’re just here for 20 minutes, I don’t have capacity to do much else that day. I hope they ‘ll send a plumber right away, but they’ll probably send their own guy again. And then I fear he’ll say to send a plumber. That would be TWO humanvisit days. You can see how plagued I am. Is there anyone in the world worse off than me? I doubt it! I haven’t checked the news today, though.
Anyhoo.
After the unpacking I did some experimentation with something in my apartment that I have not used yet. I am planning to try it out tonight. So I’ll write more about that later. Put in your guesses what I’m talking about.
13/12 2025
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Previously, on Lasse.
I mentioned I had done some experimenting in order to do something I haven’t done before in the apartment.
Today… I used the oven for the first time!
Kind of funny that it took me more than a month to actually use it. But there has just been so much going on, and then there’s the insecurity I have about new and unfamiliar things.
And that reared its head today too. After doing the unpacking and organising, I started looking at the oven. And my first reaction was “I can’t work this thing, I don’t know how to do this, I’ll never use this”.
Then I calmed down a bit, and studied the oven controllers with my magnifying glass. And it’s not too bad, I guess. I need the magnifying glass to see the symbols, but that’s okay. Two dials. The left one is temperature. Not too complicated. And the right one is the functions of the oven. And that’s a bit complicated for me. Someone who has never really used an oven in his adult life. When I was young and lived at home I’d make stuff in our oven, but that was a simpler oven I think, and I had the comfort that if something went wrong it would be my parents’ problem, not mine.
But anyway. I think I have figured out what most of the symbols mean. Not sure if I will use anything other than just regular oven and the grill. But that’s fine.
So tonight I cooked up a bunch of french fries. I mean freedom fries. I mean, Make Lasse Fat Again fries. Got them delivered iwth the Pepsi&Protein and vegetables yesterday.
Yummy! I love fries. They must be healthier when you warm them in the oven instead of frying in oil, right? Right? RIGHT?!
Well, anyway. It was cool to cook up a bunch of fries instead of ordering expensive junk food.
Just a little test run of the oven. Now I know I can use it. Not sure how MUCH I’ll use it. But it’s there, that’s cool. Making some bread with cheese under the grill might be what I’ll do most. I’ll see. I don’t really do much actual real cooking, so probably won’t use it super often.
Anyhoo. That was my day. Chasing toilets, unpacking and organising, and baking fries.
13/12 2025
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Just added some frozen pizzas to my grocery delivery next week. Now that I know I can use the oven, baby’s gotsta have his pizzas!
It will be very interesting. Pizzas are actually really difficult for me. Because I cannot stand even the hint of garlic and onion. Now I know the ones I get have some of it in them. But it’s such a battle for me to find pizzas that I can stand eating, where the garliccy taste is mild enough for me to kid myself that there’s not garlic in it.
The nice thing about the delivery site is they list all the ingredients of all the things on there. So I searched out some pizzas with no onion or garlic in the ingredients.
No wagain, I know. There will be some garlic hidden somewhere. But it will be interesting to see if I can actually eat them. It would be so cool if I could have pizzas within arm’s reach, not have to pay overprice for junk food delivery and deal with delviery guys and all that.
It remains to be seen if I can actually eat these frozen pizzas. But it sure would be nice.
It sure would.
In other news, my toilet just started running again. Got it turned off with the flush button. But yes, definitely needs to be looked at.
In other other news, something I got unpacked today were my dumbbells. Just used them for 5 minutes. Gets the heart going. Need to build up that arm strength again. But bit by but I’m putting things back together again. Hopefully.
13/12 2025
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Not feeling super great.
Powerful headache all day. Bit woozy. Tired. Maybe from messing with my sleep rhythm yesterday. Feeling the depression too. Blegh.
Just going to tread water today. Bake water. Water bread. Treats. Something something. One day a day.
Only ten days till christmas. Someone get me baby goats this year? I don’t know how you fit them in santa’s sack, but make it work.
14/12 2025
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Do you ever stop to think how infinitely small you are? Compared to everything else. There is so much mass in all of the universe and you are only such a tiny part of it. It would take an uncountable number of yours to fill even a tiny fraction of the empty space everywhere. It would take an endless age to make carbon copies of yourself to even fill out the solar system, nevermind what’s beyond. You’re like like fleck of dust in a sandstorm. It would barely be worth wiping you off if you got splashed against the windshield of eternity. It’s a world of truck drivers and you’re not even an ant, you’re so small that the ants would have to work forever to build hills out of yous.
Man, what was in those fries?!
14/12 2025
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Too much sadness and horror in the news right now. I don’t understand why humans do these things to each other. I don’t understand why we do what we do.
It hurts in my heart. I wish there was a way to fix this.
14/12 2025
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Five weeks done in the new apartment. Generally it has been really good here. The weekend hasn’t been great because of the running toilet. Three or four times. I forget. Not a disaster when I can get it to stop by reflushing. But it’s concerning and now I have to deal with having it serviced next week.
On the plus side it is nice to have started using the oven. I must confess, I made fries again today. I’m not planning on having fries EVERY day. But I was sad and depressed and the news were crushing me today, so I made another batch. And it’s good.
So we waddle onwards.
Next week I should be getting results back from the doc. And the toilet must be serviced. And I need goat time. And work on getting back to the exercise routine. And finish the unpacking and organising.
I’ll try.
14/12 2025
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That’s all for now.