Good goat times today. It seems our girls are doing better, thankfully. Not sure they’re completely back to normal. But they were all up and around. Eating, pooping, running, butting heads. Pretty good.
I suspect they may need a hoof trimming pretty badly, that may have had something to do with their reluctance to get up. Or maybe it’s the cold.
Man, that cold. With the windchill it was down below -10C/14F. Bonechilling.
No Jeanette today, she is sick again. When I got there the goats had hay and food. I am not sure if that was leftovers from the weekend or if someone had gotten there before me and fed them. Jeanette’s replacements usually don’t come that early though, so I don’t know.
Their water buckets were frozen solid.
No staff was showing up, so I went down to see if I could find water. The door to the toilet was unlocked thankfully. The sink in there was tiny though, it would have taken me half an hour to fill up a bucket in there. Thankfully a worker person came by. There are workers working in the main playgroudn building sometimes, there has been some extensive water damage. Anyway, I asked if he knew a better place to get water. And he said there was a kitchen. When I told him I couldn’t see very well, he helped me get to the kitchen and he filled my two buckets for me. He was very nice. I’m not sure I have ever been inside that main buildnig before. Certainly not like it is now, completely emptied out as they work on the floors I think. Renovations because of the water damage.
Anyway, I’m just glad I got the buckets of water for the goats, they were pretty thirsty.
We took a trip out to the chicken coop area too. Someone had left the gate there slightly ajar and Sky squeezed through. So i figured I might as well open it up and let the bigger girls in there too. They very rarely get to go in there, so the vegetation is pretty untouched. But then most of it is withered and dead right now of course. But the goats got to explore some fairly unfamiliar territory, so that was nice.
After the goat trip I had a big event. But I’m going to cliffhanger that for you, because I am frozen solid and I need some soup. So I’ll tell you about that later. Soup’s up!
2/2 2026
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But baby it’s ¤%#¤/% cold outside.

2/2 2026
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Today was my big museum date with Helle!
It was a really nice time. I don’t like being around most people, but Helle is always good company. She has been so kind to me, helped me so much, and is always understanding how my limitations and special needs. And she’s just super nice.
She came up to the playground to get me. The museum is two buildings over from where I live, so it was right on the way home from the goats.
It’s a museum of the history of Gellerup, the housing complex and the area. And it is literally an apartment. It’s in an apartment in one of the blocks. And it’s made to be like one of the old apartments. And then with lots of stuff from over the years. I think Helle moved into this area in 1973, before I was even born.
Anyway, she showed me around the place and told me about the various things on display, photos and stuff. Told me about some of the history. I think it’s pretty clear she’s proud of the work they do with that museum, and understandably so. It was really cool and interesting. I only wish my eyesight was good enough to really see all the photos and read the texsts and just see it all better. But it was nice to have a good guide.
There’s quite a lot of interesting history of the place. It’s kind of a controversial area. In Denmark it’s one of 2-3 places that are considered ‘infamous ghettoes’. There’s a LOT of prejudice about the neighbourhood. And I mean, it’s not like it’s come from nothing. Even now, years into the plans of improving the place, I still see it on the news from time to time. But when you see people talking about the place, outsiders, it seems like some people think it’s a dangerous place that should be avoided. And that’s just laughably untrue.
Anyway, enough rambling. The point is, it’s another thing to be thankful to Helle for. It was interesting and cool, and it was nice to get out of the cold! And she had saved the chocolate that came with the flowers I got her to thank her for all the help last year, so we shared those. Yum!
Only mishap was that the elevator was out of order when we got there, and museum apartment is on.. I think it was 5th or 6th floor? So we got a little exercise going up the stairs. Elevator was fixed by the time we left so we didn’t have to walk down at least.
Once again, very grateeful that Helle came into my life.
2/2 2026
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Luna enjoying some of that water I brought them.

2/2 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Good going, ramped up the intensity in the intervals. Just feels good to have music you love in your ears and feeling the physical burn, taking your mind off the mental burn.
Also got a grocery delivery. Pepsi, fruits and vegetables mostly. I sprung for Danish cucumbers. They’re twice the price of the other ones, but it looks like they are much nicer. I like a lean cucumber. A long thin one. I don’t like the short chubby ones. Shut up.
Started buying clementines too. Nice little snack.
Doing my best to get healthier again.
I miss pizza.
3/2 2026
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Helle posted some photos from the museum. It’s pretty neat how it’s an actual apartment and then inside it’s like part exhibit and part just how the apartment would have been back years ago. It’s literally like walking into history.
3/2 206
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Hey Keiko. Bella says hi.
3/2 2026
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Got an hour twentyfive on the bike today. Two days in a row. A bit rough on the legs, but I’m trying to step up my game.
Physically getting stronger and stronger. Mentally, eh not so great. Still fighting that depression. And now I’m having problems posting videos on Facebook. Can’t seem to post any on the goat page. It is causing me frustration. And there are other things frustrating me. The world, for example.
Tired, frustrated, sad. Boo urns.
And it looks like we may have a snowstorm coming in the future. This planet is cooked, can we have another?
4/2 2026
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Oh yeah, had one mishap during the exerise. As you may remember, I like to work my rod while I’m on the bike. The arm exercise bar. It has a pretty powerful coil and I didn’t get a good grip (Normally I try to get a good grip on my rod) and so on end slipped from my hand and it recoiled and hit me right in the chest. Basically like a steel punch to the chest.
It wasn’t that bad, but it will probably be sore later. I’m just surprised it didn’t crack any bones. Maybe my chest plate is stronger than my ribs.
4/2 2026
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Someone needs to find a way to trick Trump into saying his name backwards, I just want to see what would happen.
4/2 2026
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Good goat times today. Another cold one. But not too bad when you’re out of the wind. When you’re in the wind? Bone chilling.
Jeanette still out sick. So I had to take care of the goaties again on my own. They were all sitting outside when I got there. I don’t know why they wouldn’t rather sit inside in their straw when it’s cold, but maybe they like the fresh air!
Their water buckets were frozen solid of course, so I went and got them fresh water. This time I knew where to go so that was no problem.
We had some sweet visitors too. Kids in the pen. They were more interested in the blocks of ice that I had emptied from the water buckets than in the goats though. At least not all ice is bad..
When I got home I did a little organising in the apartment. Got some stuff to throw out and some to take down to the storage room. Whne that’s done then I think I’m almost done with unpacking. Hey, I’ve only been here what. four months? Sheesh
Now it’s soup time. Defrosting Lasse.
5/2 2026
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Serving breakfast for Sky.

5/2 2026
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Snout to snout with Bella.

5/2 2026
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Luna huggy

5/2 2026
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Mostly Armless: The Chewbacca Story.
5/2 2026
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I am very frustrated that I can’t post videos on the facebox page. You probably don’t know this about me, since I am so subtle and hide it so well, but I am a very needy person and I need the validation of people saying “what a cute video”. I am always about 10 seconds away from succumbing to thoughts of “I am the worst person ever and no one could ever love me and the world would be a better place if I weren’t here”. I’m like a balloon that needs constant inflation or I’ll just deflate to nothingness.
I also like feeling that I make people happy with the videos.
Sigh.
And trying to talk to fb support is like trying to talk Kid Rock into the Rocknroll Hall Of Fame. Ain’t nobody listening.
6/2 2026
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Thank you all for the validation!
Here is Bella with a headful of hay, tell me it’s cute!

6/2 2026
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Maybe if I stil absolutely still, I will turn into an ant hill. Over time.
7/2 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So that’s pretty good.
Especially considering I was thinking of skipping today. The day today, not just exercise today. Last night I was feeling depressed and sad and decided to set my alarm to NOPE and just sleep through today.
But I managed to get out of bed in the morning anyway. And did the exercise. So that’s good.
And I was able to post a video to the goat page. I hope the problem is fixed and it wasn’t just because it was a short video. We’ll see I guess.
Trying not to let things get to me too much. Clearly doing a great job! One day a day.
7/2 2026
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the worm that swallows

7/2 2026
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Sounds like the dancing elephant troup has moved in. Been hearing a lot of neighbour noise today. In general it hasn’t been as quiet here as I had hoped. But certainly not as bad as the old place.
But it sounds like there are some unhappy kids stomping around upstairs tonight.
I should have been born a hermit. Raised by goats.
Also, today I discovered I am Cthulhu. “the dripping, bloated sack that was its body”. Yup.
7/2 2026
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I managed to get out of bed again this morning. I guess we’ll count that for a win?
Soccerball season starts today. Going to see if I can get a streaming account set up and watch the game. Other than that no big plans, just trying to take care of things that need to be taken care of on the computer and online. With how much free time I have it’s amazing how I always end up not getting things done. I am an excellent time mismanager. Like for example writing this pointless facebook update instead of doing stuff I should do. Hooray.
At least the fb video problem seems to be fixed, so that’s a relief.
Have a lazy Sunday, everybuddies.
8/2 2026
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Puppy Luna is a good watchdog.

8/2 2026
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Oh. Hello. I guess. I blacked out again. Trying to put the pieces back together. Where am I. What day is it. What was I doing. Fuck. I guess I have to go to the doctor at some point. It’s a scary feeling, not knowing really where and when you are. I think.. I was dreaming.
I can see I was eating. And I was writing a post about watching the Mel Brooks documentary. And I had the sportsball game running. Did I pass out. Or fall asleep. Or.
It’s Sunday right. Sunday evening. I have to put everything back together in my head.
Things slowly coming back.
I was watching the first half of the game. Second half is running now.
Have to. find myself.
I know I have had blackouts before. I thought they were done after I stopped taking TMG. But I haven’t been taking it since the last ones. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I was going to.. do something during halft time. Half time is 15 minutes. Was I out for 15 minutnes? I’m pretty sure I dreamt. Was I asleep?
Sigh. It’s scary. And knowing I have to do something about it is troubling.
I’m trying to.. remember the new playground. I have the old playground in my head. From flashback videos? I can’t picture the new playground. I can picture the walk to there but. Yes there it is. Walking the path in my head to find my way back to the memory. It’s creepy. There it is. The train wagon on top of the hill. The two pens. Coming back to me..
Ugh. This sucks. I was just sitting here watching the game.
Just measured my blood sugar and pressure. Too high, but not way higher than it has been usually as I have been struggling to get it back to where it’s supposed to be. Not really out of the ordinary for me the past few months, not sure it has anything to do with it.
Things are coming back to me. It’s Sunday evening yes.
Ah, I can see that I noted a time down in my text file. I did that when I started getting that feeling I get before blackouts. So yeah. I did go into that blackout then. The time I noted down was 18:51. It’s 19:40. But I have been more or less back in my head for 20ish minutes. Half an hour? So I was out for.. Thirtyish minutes?
It’s a scary and disorientating feeling when you’re not sure what time it is, when you are, what you were doing, what you’re supposed to be doing. Scattered pieces of a puzzle and you have to try to make it all fit back together again. And not give in to the fear that you’re out of your mind forever and you’re never going to get back to your normal self.
Okay. It’s Sunday evening. I don’t really have plans after the soccer game. The week is pretty much done. Starting to remember everything again.
Must have blackout shortly after posting the Yogi flashback on the goat page.
But I can’t think of anything that would have triggered it. I haveen eating.
Ugh. I was hoping this was behind me.
Not a great way to end the week.
8/2 2026
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. Freezing cold, though. Below zero. With a harsh wind that made it feel even worse. But at least no snowstorm, even though there was a weather advisory for it. Didn’t hit my locality. There were some scattered patches of snow and ice here and there. And no sun. Dark and cold. And no Jeanette, she was out sick. So it was all a bit gloomy!
But the goats were good. And it was so good to be back with them. Felt the most myself I have felt in a week or two. The goat place is where I feel best.
A quiet day with no visitors, and too cold and slippery to tun around too much. But it’s good just being in their company.
And now it’s the right kind of weather for some soup.
26/1 2026
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Better with goats.

26/1 2026
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Got an hour and half on the bike today. Happy with the groove I’ve gotten on that. Exercise going quite well. Now I just need everything else. To. Also.
Got a grocery delivery today too. The delivery guy was nice, he went “Hey you moved, you used to live over there!”. Clearly he had delivered to me at the old place. The delivery service use independent contract drivers, I am not sure how often or if at all it’s ever the same guys, since I can’t really recognise them of course. But he was nice. And I got my stuff. Trying to stick to the healthier things. I miss iced creams.
Also got a postal package today. Not my regular mailman, the guy I like. I hope he hasn’t stopped. Maybe he’s on vacation. Anyway the new guy seemed very nice, so it’s not like that as a problem.
What did I get? I got my daylight lamp thingie. So it will be interesting to try that out. I have to admit I am not too hopeful. I think my visual impairment is also going to impair how much I get out of the light. But hey I’ll give it a go. My relationship with light is complicated. I can’t see if it’s too dark, but bright light also has a strong negative effect on my vision. But it would be nice if I could get something positive out of this. I could sure use it.
Let it be noted, I don’t like green bananas. I wanted to try them, but that’s not pleasant. Maybe if I dipped it in iced cream..
27/1 2026
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I like a good lean-in, Luna.

27/1 2026
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Humans stress me out. That’s probably why I tend to avoid them. Goats are much easier to get along with.
No wonder I’m such a succesful person!
27/1 2026
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Tried out my new daylight lamp this morning.
Mixed feelings.
It did give me a faceful of light, that’s for sure. The operational buttons aren’t very handy though, they don’t feel very responsive. And they’re placed right under the light, so when the light is shining right in your face it’s really hard to see the buttons and little indicator lights.
But I’ll try to keep using it, increase intensity and duration over time.
28/1 2026
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I guess we’re in the Empire Strikes Back part of the timeline, where everything is bleak and it seems like the Empire is winning. Can’t wait for the Ewoks to come in and brighten our lives. And that air shaft better be open and ready..
28/1 2026
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I know I say this about once a week, but thank you to Helle.
She helped put some pressure on the housing association, and now I got my name on my mailbox. Put on with a labeller while they’re working to figure out the technical difficulties. The names on the mailboxes are electronic, and I think there’s some problem with me in the system. But now I got my name there, physically. So hopefully I should not be missing more mail. Again, sorry if anyone sent me stuff and I didn’t get it.
28/1 2026
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Off to see the goats today. Things weren’t quite as I had hoped. Something was off with them. Mostly Sky, also Luna. Bella was most normal. But I knew something was up when none of them came running down to the fence when I got there.
Sky and Luna were both sitting down, and didn’t get up when I went into the pen. They spent a lot of time today sitting.
I hope it’s just the cold. It was severely cold. Even with 4 layers and chemical handwarmers, I still got frozen through pretty quickly. Maybe the cold and dark was getting to the goats too.
They were chewing cud. And when I served breakfast they did eat. Sky didn’t get up to get hers, but I brought the bowl down to where she was sitting and placed it next to it and she did eat from it. And Luna did lick my face and butt some head with Bella. So they weren’t completely lethargic. But they were definitely not their usual selves. And that’s never nice to see.
Feels like the whole world is crashing down, and I don’t want my goat buddies to also be hurt or in trouble. I talked to Jeanette about it, we’ll keep an eye on them. Hopefully it’s no big cause for alarm. Sigh. It’s just one thing after another.
We did get a lot of nice visitors today, the people from the neighbour school. I had little two line conversations with a couple of the adults that are very and know me. And they brought a christmas tree. I had kind of resigned myself to this being the first year ever that the goats wouldn’t get a christmas tree. But at least they got one now.
Luna chomped at it a little, and Bella did munch on it quite a bit. Maybe Sky will feel like having some later. Wasn’t the usual big frenzy when a christmas tree is dumped off in the pen. But it will be something to nibble on for months, so that’s good.
And now I need some hot soup. It’s been a bit of a gloomy and absolutely freezing day. Need soup.
29/1 2026
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Here’s Sky and Luna sitting down in the morning.

29/1 2026
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As if today wasn’t cold enough, I had a problem with my hot water when I got home from goating.
I wanted to shave my head, as I do. At the bathroom sink. But I could only get lukewarm water out of the faucet. Once I was done with it I wanted to get in the hot shower and warm up. I was frozen solid from the goat trip. But now I was worried. Was I going to have only lukewarm water in the shower too?
And at first I did. I was shivering in the shower. Lukewarm water was not enough to warm dem cold bones. Thankfully, after a minute or so it finally got actually hot. Which was a relief. Both because the hot water felt so good, and because it meant I didn’t have ANOTHER thing to call the housing association about. Altough it is a little concerning. Normally the hot water comes right out, it shouldn’t take a minute to actually get hot. Maybe today has been so bitterly cold that even the water supply has frozen?
When I got out of the shower I tried the sink faucet again and this time the hot water came out immediately. So. Hopefully there’s not a problem somewhere. I don’t think it has happened before that it took so long for the water to get actually hot.
Now I have a big pot of soup in ma belly. That is helping. I really wish it would be spring soon. The forecast is just looking colder and colder, though. I have a hard time with the cold. I keep my apartment warmer than most, warmer than I should. And I still get cold. Hooray for diabetes, and other things.
We need to get going on buying California, so I can move there.
29/1 2026
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What’s a nice hallucination like you doing in a dirty reality like this?
29/1 2026
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if you tolerate this then your children will be next

30/1 2026
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I can feel that I was frozen solid yesterday.
Woke up with a sore throat and a snotty nose.
Not badly, though. Just mildly. Not like I’m sick, just like I’m.. defrosting. So hopefully it won’t get worse than this.
I do also have a sore neck, it hurts when I turn my head in some positions.
Yeah, yeah. Some day I’ll wake up with nothing to complain about. And then I’ll complain about that.
30/1 2026
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Here’s Bella with the christmas tree yesterday. I’m glad we got at least one.
Maybe I should have told Helle to tell people that the goats would love to have their old christams trees when they’re done with them. But by now I’m sure everyone has gotten rid of their trees. But we got one at least.

30/1 2026
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I’m less of a brick house and more of a mud hut.
30/1 2026
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Rest in peace Catherine O’Hara. I loved her. From Home Alone to the creek, and more. Always funny. Gone too soon.
30/1 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Going pretty well with the exercise now. And finally seen some result on the weight, dropped a couple of pounds. So hopefully that’s going in the right direction, it’s hard to stay motivated when you don’t feel like you’re accomplishing anything. I’ve been struggling with that. But hopefully it can continue to go ahead now.
I am feeling more myself.
Unfortunately myself is feeling pretty severely depressed still. The cold is getting to me. The world and everything is getting to me. Finding it hard to have motivation to do anything. I barely want to get out of bed. I just.. don’t want to be here. But I am here. One day a day. Warmer days will come. Sooner or later.
And hey today hot water came out the faucet immediately, didn’t have to wait for a minute for it to warm up. That makes a hot shower a lot more enjoyable.
Last day of January? That’s crazy. How can it feel like time is standing still while it also feels like it’s flying by?
31/1 2026
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Has anyone made an image combinging the Rebel Alliance logo with the American flag yet? I’d do it, but my photoshop is from 2002, it’s probably not up to it.
31/1 2026
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I haven’t had a chance to watch the Melania movie, so please avoid posting spoilers.
31/1 2026
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It’s not easy to pose naturally, but I think Luna is trying her best.

31/1 2026
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goatlog

1/2 2026
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I can’t believe it’s February.
And whoever stole my calendar, give it back!
1/2 2026
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Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart.
Thank you to everyone who keeps putting me back together again. Your Lasse Lego set appreciates it.
1/2 2026
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That’s all for now.