Good goat times today. So good to be goating.
And I got the first two steps of the challenging week done today too. And it went well. I am really happy with it.
First off was the meeting at the goat place.
For the second time in two weeks I told Jeanette that I’d be getting a visitor. This time it wasn’t a traveller from Australia. This time it was Helle coming in on her bike.
She was really lovely. Super sweet. Very talkative! Which isn’t a bad thing when I’m everything but.
I was so nervous beforehand, but once we sat down and started talking I felt pretty comfortable. She was just really really sweet.
Jeanette had offered to join me at the meeting, which was super nice too. I told her she didn’t have to, but she did come with coffee for Helle
Anyway, the talk was really good. Helle had some floor plans for some of the apartments and how they will look after the renovations. And we talked a little about my wishes and options.
One thing I had been worried about was whether I’d be allowed to stay in the is neighbourhood. Because they have been ‘classing up’ the area, you can’t move in if you’r a ‘low status’ person. If you’re unemployed or things like that. And I am on disability. Early retirement. Normally I would not be allowed to move into this neighbourhood. But that was one thing Helle told me, that it used to be they couldn’t rehouse me in the neighbourhood, but that has been changed. So I CAN get a new place here. If I can find one available. And because I have lived here for almost 20 years, I have really good ancienity. Is that the word? Seniority? I’m high on the list. And people being rehoused get in front of the list already. So my standings are pretty good like that.
She was surprised that I had lived here so long. You look so young, she said. And when I told her I was 47 she was literally shocked, like she couldn’t believe it. Yeah. I still have that babyface. But i’m not that young.
Helle has been living in this neighbourhood for 50 years. Longer than i have been alive. She has previously been on the board of the housing association. But she was against the demolishing of the buildings here, so she kind of had to leave that. But she’s still very engaged in the local area politics, activism and so on. They have a lawsuit going in the EU about what is going on in the area, they believe it is discriminatory because they target a lot of, as I said, low status people. Refugees, immigrants, unemployed people, people on disability. And it looks like they have a good case, seems they are likely to win. Which could throw a lot of stuff up in the air. Plans may have to be changed, people may be entitled to compensation, something that could include me.
Oh and she told me that she understood I did not want to do a legal objection to my termination. But in fact 7, or maybe it was 9, of the people in my building have filed objections. So I don’t know what that might mean, if the plans for my building will be postponed too.
But it was really good to talk to Helle. Feel seend and listened to, gotten some advice. I wish she could go with me to the meeting with the housing association. But she can’t. Instead her colleague Peter will. And that was the second part today. When i got home from the goating, I called Peter and we had a little talk. Just mainly confirming the meeting and that he would be coming. He seemed very nice too, but it’s harder to get a real impression from just a short phone call. But I was worried about making the call too, and I got that done and it went fine. So all in all I am happy that it all worked out today. Now in a couple of days the real challenge will come. The meeting with the housing association is where there’s actually something at stake. I am not sure what we will actually go over, if it’s a first intro meeting or what. I don’t know if i’m supposed to have my wishes for a new place ready. But i’ll make a list of it in any case. Got some good advice and things to consider from the talk with Helle. I just hope the meeting will go as well as the things today did. Hopefully when it’s done i will be as relieved as I am today. But there’s still a lot of hard stuff ahead. The future is scary. But so far so good.
And the goats keep me grounded. And now I’m going to make a big pot of soup.
And that’s that’s that.
7/7 2025
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The goats weren’t too happy that i left the pen to go have meetings with humans. Trust me girls, i’d rather stay with goats too! But sometimes you have to do horrible things. Like talk to humans.
Just kidding, as I said Helle was really nice to talk to.

7/7 2025
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Babyface and his ‘baby’ goat.

7/7 2025
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Very tired now. It was a challenging day. But rewarding. Couldn’t have hoped for it to go better. As is very often the case, the worrying beforehand was much worse than the actual thing. If only I could learn that lesson.
Need sleep now. And then harder challenges ahead.
Thank you everyone for the encouraging words again. So thankful to have so many good people on my side. It really does help me, even if I feel like I don’t deserve it. Because my brain is always outpacing myself. Stupid brain, i’ll get you some day!
7/7 2025
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. Feeling pretty crummy. I made the unfortunate and regrettable mistake yesterday of buying a big bag of cashew nuts. You can see where this is going… becuase I have zero self control I ended up eating most of the bag. Today I am bloated and constipated and yuck. Oh well. You live and you don’t learn.
I deserve some rewards in this challenging time. But that wasn’t very smart. The exercise felt good though. And now my worry is not so much slowly building as more skyrocketing towards tomorrow’s big challenge. Hopefully it will be another case of the worry being worse than the thing. But this is an important thing, as the bishop said to the nun’s badger.
One day a day. Tomorrow is tomorrow’s problem.
8/7 2025
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Think goat thoughts.

8/7 2025
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Well alright alright. Got my big scary meeting done today. And, all things considered, I think it went quite well. I am just relieved to have gotten it done. Three big scary things in 3 days. Phew. But I got through it. And I’m pretty happy with the results, so far.
The conclusion is, that they will try to find me a place in this neighbourhood. Specifically we are looking at the building next to mine. The one that is currently being dozed by bulls. The hope is that I will be able to move into a newly renovated apartment similar to my current one.
It will be a tight fit, if it’s possible. They are working on that building and only one of the sections of the it will be ready in time. I have to move out of this apartment April 1st. The apartments in that section will be ready on March, I think it was 26. The rest of the sections of the buildings won’t be completed until May or June next year.
So if I get an apartment there, I will have like a five day window to move. That’s not great. But if it means i can stay in this area in a similar, but renovated, apartment. I guess I will have to make it work.
And moving to just the next building over would mean as little change as possible, so that would be nice.
Still being in this neighbourhood would also mean still living with dozing bulls as the other buildings start to get renovated over the next few years. But eh, I would rather live with that then being moved to a completely different location.
So we’re looking at that as the best option. They still have to talk to everyone else who is being rehoused to find out what their wishes are. If someone with higher seniority wants one of ‘my’ apartments then I could be out of luck. But because i have pretty good seniority and because the smallest apartments are the ones where people often don’t stay as long, they say my chances would be really good for getting one. It’s not guaranteed, but there should be a high probability that I can get one of those apartments.
If that’s how it goes then I should find out in the beginning of the new year probably. And then I could start to prepare for the move at the end of March.
There are still the matters of the other tennants and their legal objectins, plus the big EU lawsuit about the whole plan for the neighbourhood. Nothing is absolutely certain. But again, I should have a good chance of moving to the neighbour building in March.
That’s the best case scenario right now. Another possibility would be if a smaller apartment opens up in one of the other blocks in the area. That could happen this year, but that would require someone moving out. I don’t know how likely that is. There aren’t a lot of the smallest apartments.
I would prefer to wait till next year. But if something that meets my requirements opens up then i will have to go for it of course. I’ll have to keep an eye on my mailbox to see if any offers come in. Now it’s pretty much a waiting game.
Not sure what will happen if i can’t actually get one of the renovated apartments in the neighbour block and nothing else opens up. But hopefully that won’t happen.
The meeting itself went pretty well. I met up with Peter in the lobby of the housing association offices. Very nice, older man. A lot less talkative than Helle was. Made for some awkward silences as we waited for our appointment. I think I would have felt a little more comfortable with Helle, but he was very nice and during the meeting he had some good input. I am just really glad I got in touch with them and got a helper for the meeting. Beforehand I was going have my dad come with me. But with all due respect, I know he would have been great moral support, but it was nice to have someone with experience in the matter and insight into the process and such. Very helpful. And good to not be alone with it.
The people we were meeting with was Sarah, who I had talked to over email, and Hanne, the rehousing consultant that had been assigned to me. Sarah was the one who ended up replying to the mail I had sent to Hanne, so I kind of thought Hanne wasn’t even going to be part of this, that she was on vacation or on other cases or something. But she seemed very nice. They both did. They were looking at the computer at some of the options for me. There had been talk about the area where Peter lives actually, Helle had mentioned that. It’s within walking distance of the playground too, but to the other side and in a ‘better’ neighbourhood. But also rent was double what I’m currently paying. So that as kind of out of my range. If I do get the renovated one in the neighbour building then it will be a little more expensive too, but not too bad.
So well, the future is still up in the air. There are difiicult times ahead. But for now I can relax a bit. The terrifying things have been done, and the next terrifying things will hopefully be a while away. Maybe i can enjoy the rest of the summer with the goats without a lot of worry. That would be nice. And then I’ll have to deal with the future when it gets here.
All in all I couldn’t really have hoped for it to go any better. Again, the worry beforehand was the worst. The actual meeting wasn’t too bad and the outcome was as good as it could be, so far, if all goes as hoped. Considering I’m being thrown out of my apartment, there’s hope I’l land in a slightly better one just one building over. Let’s hope. Maybe it will be okay. If I can survive it.
Thanks yous evetyones for helping me through these days. i really really really appreciate it. Your support means so much to me.
9/7 2025
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I sure hope the renovations of the apartments here include a serious upgrade to the sound proofing. The elephants in the bowling alley upstairs have been tapdancing all day.
But we’ll see if I get one of those fancy renovated places. Thanks everyone for the lovely comments again. Makes me happy to see so many people rooting for me.
I am really exhausted mentally right now. It’s been some big days.
I thought I was going to treat myself to pizza today. I didn’t have pizza all last month, which may be why the takeaway platform I use sent me a gift voucher. Trying to lure me back. I thought I’d use that today. But the pizza place I like is closed. I think they’re on vacation. So I did not get pizza today. Instead I tried something that was inspired by Heather’s comment yesterday, I think. Fried noodles and cashews. I told you I accidentally bought those cashews and ate almost the whole bag and made myself sick. But i still had the rest of the bag left. I like having noodles and potatoes fried in coconut oil, so I thought I’d add the last cashews to that. And then ketchup because I’m a grownup, as is evident by the important grownup things I’ve been doing. So that was today’s meal. Yummy. And then I got myself some BJs. The grocery delivery site had Ben & Jerry’s on sale last weekend, so I got a couple of tubs of that on Sunday. Planning to treat myself today, knowing the scary meeting was coming. Got a new flavour that I haven’t tried before. Mango. With chips of white chocolate. Yummeee.
Rewarding myself with treats this week. Next week I’m going try to rein it in and get back on a healthier track. I feel myself ballooning. Good thing I don’t have a complicated relationship with health and weight, it’s all easy and breezy. No issues here.
I’m going to need to sleep for about twenty hours tonight. But it’s good. I got the meetings done. I got the plans for the future fairly planned, hopefully they’ll stay on track.
Hope you’re all doing well out there too. May your challenges be met and conquered. You don’t have to think you can do it, just do it.
9/7 2025
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Time to collapse into bed and sleep for four scores and 7 snores. I trust Sky will keep watch while I’m znorking.
Thanks everyone again. You’ve been a great help the last couple of days.

9/7 2025
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I slept so much and I am still tired.
Sorry, just workshopping titles for my autobiography.
Waiting to inhale, pizza.
I soup therefore I am.
It’s a goat living
etcetera.
10/7 2025
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Hey Bella, what’s the goat word?

10/7 2025
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i havd hoped to go goating today. But even after a big long sleep I was still exhausted. I feel like I’ve been run over by a truck. Those first three days of the week really deflated my batteries.
On the plus side, i had pizza today. It was nice to have some pizza after more than a month without. Treating myself for the rest of the week, then next week it’s back to health. Probably.
I’m going to go sleep another twenty hours or so. i continue to claim that hibernation should be an all year option. Why limit yourself. Believe in yourself and anything is possible. Go all in. To bed. JUST DO IT. Just sleep. Listen to the sound of my voice. You’re getting sleepy. You are getting sleepy. You are getting Dopey. You are getting Bashful. You are getting Grumpy. Wait, where are you getting all these dwarves from?!
RE WRITE
11/7 2025
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i think i overslept, and the white rabbit got away.
11/7 2025
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I know a lot of people have a lot of very serious problems in the world today, but I am out of icecream so don’t act like i am not burdened. *lifts hands to the sky* I AM BURNEDED.
i really want more of those mango bjs.
11/7 2025
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Buzzing with Bella! Reminds me of quacking with Palle.
There will be a longer version of this up on the goat page later. But Bella’s reactions just make me laugh.
11/7 2025
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Into the goodnight

12/7 2025
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My dreams have started involving looking at apartments and accepting or rejecting offers for them. Reality seeping in at the edges.
12/7 2025
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. Keeping up with it.
How long have I had that exercise bike? Fifteen years? More maybe. Absolutely one of the very best purchases I have ever made. I wholeheartedly recommend having one in your home, so you can get up and go without going out.
Got a good groove today. Muscles felt good. And I definitely needed it. After some half-berried exercise sessions and some poor eating because of all the stress this week, I have put on a couple of pounds. I feel like that big bag of cashews alone added a couple of pounds to my weight. I don’t know if that’s even possible.
I’m find with putting on a few pounds, especially in hard times. I just have to be careful so I don’t end up putting back on the 50 pounds I lost last year. It’s a slippery slide. I know myself well enough that if i let go.. I can crash and burn fast. Lost 50 pounds over the summer. Then put on 20 pounds over the winter. Lost that again over spring. It has always been a rollercoaster ride of ptsd and shame and trauma and mental and physical issues.
Hey hey hey. I did good today. So that’s a start. Hopefully I still have things under control.
Got on the floor and did my crunches and stretches too, haven’t done that for like a month. My body has been stiff and aching, I hope I can loosen that up a bit. My back is doing okayish in general. It’s not great, but it’s not plaguing me like it did before the weight loss and strength training. Sometimes I go out on goat days without painkillers at all, instead of chugging a bottle all day (it’s a joke, I did not do that. But I did used to go through the maximum allowed dosage of aspirin and ibuprofen, whatever the US brand names are).
Anyway. Having noodles and potatoes today. I love that, but I guess I should pause those and get back to all my soups, until i clear the couple of pounds. But today i will enjoy the noodies.Sorry, spelling is hard.
12/7 2025
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Sisters gotta stick together. Bella and Luna. Sweet together when they’re not butting heads.
I might stick to something too. 20C/68F at midnight is a bit much for a pasty white boy. I know I’ve gotten old because it’s always too hot or too cold. It’s never quite right. Arlight, goldilocks.

12/7 2025
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goatlog

13/7 2025
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Lazy Sunday. It’s weird, after the first half of the week being full of such monumental goings on, now I’m just hoping nothing important happens for as long as possible. having to dial things back down to a slow pace.
Good thing I’m very slow!
Hope you’re enjoying your weekend.
13/7 2025
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Sky chill.

13/7 2025
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Goatnight goats.

13/7 2025
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That’s all for now.

Good goat times today. A gorgeous summer’s day. Lots of sunshine and upwards of 24C/75F. That’s when I almost start feeling it’s getting too hot. I know, some of my abroad friends will laugh. But it’s lovely, hot and sunny and lots of lounging around with the goat pals. Making sure everyone gets some time sitting with me.
Some nice visitors took advantage of the lovely day too. There was a very curious little boy. He had questions. Many many questions. So many that the lady keeping an eye on him told me to just say something if he was bothering my with all the questions. Haha, he was sweet though. i think asking questions was his sort of ‘security blanket’, making him feel safe or whatever. Lots of questions about the goats, and about me.
What’syour name?
Lasse
I’m Karl.
Hello Karl.
Hello Lasse
Why are you only taking photos of the goats?
Because I like them.
Do you like me?
Of course I like you, Karl!
Haha. Sweet kid. He asked me what my last name and birthday was too, maybe he was just a datamining ai. Nah, he was nice. He wished me a good weekend, and the lady said ‘it’s a little early for that’.
Another boy came in and sat next to me and petted Sky, who was quite enjoying the attention.
Got some running from Luna and some sliding from Bella and lots of sitting from Sky. Just a lovely summer day goating.
30/6 2025
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Luna, seen here surprisingly not mauling my face unlike what happened most of the rest of the time. I better check my face for teethmarks.

30/6 2025
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Sweet little Sky.
I am pretty sure she can squeeze under the gate between the two pens.
I had closed and locked the gate, because I just wanted all of us to be together in the big pen. Then a little later I’m over at the gate, and there’s Sky. Sitting on the other side. The gate still closed and locke.d Unless she jumped over the gate.. and no offense but the little lady has too much junk in the trunk for that… so, she must have squeeze under through the space underneath the gate. Sheesh. Bella can still ram through the gate if I don’t lock BOTH latches on it and stick a stick through the lock. You can’t keep those goats in. Or out.
But to be clear, she can’t get past the main gate OUT of the goat pens. Just the gate between the two pens.

30/6 2025
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Bella under that beautiful blue sky.

30/6 2025
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Okay. I have an appointment next week with the rehousing consultant. Or, her colleague I guess. Shts getting real, and my tummy hurts.
1/7 2025
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got an hour fortyfive on the bike. Going through the motions.
Got the email from the housing assoc this morning, and i just wanted to go back to bed and not deal with anything. Full of anxiety and worry. I don’t really want to be here. But here I am.
I guess at least I don’t have to worry if the consultant got my mail. So that’s something. Although the reply didn’t come from her, but from one of her coleagues, i guess. It was signed from ‘customer service’. And the whole exchange left me a little cold. After some emails back and forth, when we had an appointment, I asked “is there anything else I should know beforehand?”. No reply to that. Ok. They’re throwing me out of the place I have been living for almost 20 years. i’d like some empathy and understanding. But ok. Maybe the meeting will be great and everything will be fine. The first mail said “We can do a meeting tomorrow at 1 pm. Reply to this mail to confirm”. Eh. I replied that i needed some time to prepare. At least they listened to that and we have a meeting next week now.
I have a doctor’s appointment this week too. Hopefully no issues there. And then there’s my dad’s pacemaker operation on Thursday. And i’m just.. overloaded and feeling incapable.
And it’s hottt. Around 28C/82F. Scorching for Denmark. Good for exercise, but it’s a bit much. And someone in the neighbourhood is frying something. Don’t know if they’re barbecuing outside or something. But I can smell that frying oil. Walking around doing cleaning after exercise, tummy screaming for french fries. Your smells trigger me!
Alright. Well. i guess i should finally get something to eat. And try to relax. And prepare myself for the four horsemen of the *Waves arms around like Kermit* this place.
1/7 2025
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I tell you what though, that first hit of icy cold Pepsi Max. Oh yeah. After a day of sweating on the bike, of worrying about the future, worrying about dad. The sun pounding me land the smell of french fries asasulting me.
That ice cold hit. Mm.
I guess i have some strength. i did not go back to bed and sleep for hours and get up and order pizza and pie. Instead I exercised and cleaned and ate a healthy meal. And now I’m going to get huffed up on goofballs, duh winning.
jk
1/7 2025
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Happy Canada day, dear Canadarions. The Danesnorts stand united with you.
1/7 2025
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Thinking some goat thoughts.

1/7 2025
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goatlog from Lisa’s visit.

2/7 2025
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Ugh. Snarkfarkle it. Do you ever feel like the universe is just plotting against you?
Got an appointment at the doctor’s office tomorrow, just blood tests at the nurse. I start making preparations. Go to the city’s traffic site. The bus doesn’t stop downtown tomorrow. Mid city is blocked off? It doesn’t say why. Just that the bus doesn’t stop downtown. So that borks it all. I cannot find my way around on my own downtown, if i can’t take the bus i usually straight there then i can’t really get there. I could take a taxi and pay a billion bucks for ride back and forth. And if downtown is blocked off, is that just for busses or all traffic?
Of course I find out about this half an hour after the doctor’s office closes their phone hours. And their self service doesn’t display the usual link to cancel my booking. So I guess I’m too late to cancel. Well I sent a message over their system to the nurse and I sent an SMS to their cancel number. so hopefully they get that and my booking is cancelled. I’m worried I wil be charged a steep fee for cancelling too late, if they even get it in time. Don’t know if they’ll listen to my good excuse or not. I guess I’ll call first thing tomorrow morning as soon as they open and talk to them. I just don’t need this aggravation.
Good thing I checked the traffic info, otherwise i would have gotten on the bus tomorrow and ended up somewhere downtown where I wasn’t supposed to go. Fiddlesticks and knucklefarts.
And as far as I can see by the booking system, the nurse doesn’t have another available time until mid August, so that’s not great.
But whatever. I guess I’ll have to pay the fee if that’s how it goes. I’m so tired. Of everything.
2/7 2025
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Hey! The universe listened and helped me out.
Weird.
Literally 5 minutes after i posted about my troubles with the doctor appointment…
I get an sms from the clinic saying they have tried to call me but couldn’t get a hold of me, but unfortunately they have to cancel my appointment tomorrow. Because of the traffic stop downtown tomorrow they can’t get their blood tests to the lab and blablac.
Well hah. Here I was desperately trying to cancel the appointment because -I- can’t get downtown.
I don’t have any missed calls from them, but whatever. I don’t know if they even got my cancellation requests.
Well whatever whatever. From my side it’s all good now, my appointment is cancelled and I’ll just have to book something later.
Phew.
That was a fun 5 minutes of worrying. Now where’s that Pepsi Max I ordered..
2/7 2025
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Sweet little Sky. On Monday I heard one of the visiting kids, pointing to Bella and Luna, saying “Those two are the grownups”. Indicating that Sky would be a baby. Haha. She’s older than Bella and Luna combined. But she is a lil darling.

2/7 2025
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Red Sonja’s quest to become more and more like a goat continues. Now, snuggles with uncle Treatbag!

2/7 2025
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I don’t think I’ve ever had a chicken in my lap before. But hey, when the goats get too big..
2/7 2025
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Good goat times today. Since my doctor’s appointment as cancelled, I could head out early and go goating instead. I definitely prefer going to get goats over going to the doctor.
A lovely day with lots of sunshine. After two scorching days in Denmark it fell back into a more normal 20C/68F. Warm and comfortable with some good wind.
Jeanette warned me we’d be getting a lot of visitors potentially, new group that hasn’t been around before. And we did get a bunch of kids. Some of the running and making a lot of noise. But not bothering the animals. And some of the kids got meet the goats and chickens. One little girl, I think her name was Gry, came and sat next to me on the bench and asked a bunch of questions about the goats. Not in the kind of ‘security blanket’ way that the boy the other day did. This girl seemed more like genuinely curious and had some insights and she seemed very sweet. She was quite thoughtful with her words. almost seemed like she was really shy but really wanted to know stuff. And of course I did my best to answer her questions. And Bella was sitting on the tub in front of us and getting a lot of attention.
And when the visitors cleared out with spent good time relaxing in the sun.
Only negative today was that Jeanette told me someone had dumped off a baby bunny without explanation. You can’t just dump your baby animals in public places. It couldn’t stay with us, but by the end of the day Jeanette had found a place that could take it. So hopefully it will get a good life ahead, no thanks to the jerks who just discarded it without a care. Some people..
Time for soup now, that’s the ticket.
3/7 2025
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Lunaskew

3/7 2025
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Dad got his pacemaker did today. Sounds like everything went according to plan. Mom and dad are eating dinner at the hospital and then hopefully they’ll be ready to go home soon. So that is good news. I don’t know if it’s going to make any big difference in everyday life, but hopefully it’ll keep him safer in the heart department.
Thanks everyone for all the encouragements.
3/7 2025
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Yup, Sky can scoot under the gate. Sheesh. Goats. You can’t keep them contained.

3/7 225
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Oh by the way, if anyone was wondering what was up with the traffic situation that got in the way of my doctor’s appointment. Well it was to do with Denmark taking the presidency of the EU. I vaguely knew that was happening, i didn’t realise they were shutting down traffic downtown because of that. But yes, that’s the explanation for that. Guess it was a big to-do downtown. I guess Zelensky is in town right now.
3/7 2025
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Jeanette had to fix the pallet platform inside. And Luna had to watch.

3/7 2025
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Loud thunder and rain outside.
Been working on tech problems all day.
Any other page owners having a problem scheduling videos? It says I have to wait for the thumbnail to upload, but the whole thumbnail section is just blank and it never allows me to post.
It was working some time yesterday, and then it stopped working last night. Urghk.
4/7 2025
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Happy 4th of July to the Americans. I still love you. Most of you. You know who you aren’t.
Have a happy and safe one.
4/7 2025
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Frustrating day. Computer work that didn’t really work out. Wasted time. Got an email back from someone I mailed in regards to he housing situation. She told me she found my mail in the spam folder today. Just like Jeanette. I don’t know why my emails would go to people’s spam boxes. Annoying.
Depression and anxiety at high levels.
I just want to sleep.
On a better note, my dad is home and doing well after the operation. That maker is pacing it. I wish i could get a pacemaker for my brain that could slow down the bad thoughts.
Meanwhile, Dr indiana Jones is trying to decipher which of these term papers were written by AI.
4/7 2025
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I haven’t done a book report in a while. You know I need my escapism more than ever.
My last two reads were both Stephen Kings. A very old one and the very newest one.
First Pet Sematary. I am honestly not sure if i had read it before. It’s one of those books that are so big in pop culture that you feel like you know it. If I had read it before then it would be in Danish and decades ago. So I was happy to read it anyway, even if i knew most of what was going to happen. People often mention it when they talk about the scariest books they have read, King himself even talks about it being one of the scariest. I didn’t find it that scary. But then, I don’t really find books scary. I can’t think of any books that have really scared me. I guess I’m just not the type that has to put the book in the fridge sometimes. Although Pet Sematary certainly has some gruesome and troubling parts. But it’s a good read.
Next up was his newest book, Never Flinch. Another in the Hollyverse. I’m a fan of Holly, the character. And fairly invested in that universe. So I was happy to read more from that. I know some people really hate it. This time there was less Trump/covid, so that was good. It’s still set in our contemporary reality, but it feels less hamfisted this time. I enjoyed the book, it was a good read. Not sure how i feel about one of the bad guys, and it started to feel a little on rails. Just like the previous Holly book you know pretty early on what the deal is and who the bad guys are and what they want and then you just read along to see how Holly saves it all. I do prefer when King goes weird and supernatural or just out there, compared to the straight crime thrillers. The last Holly book was a straight crime thriller too, but the bad guys there had more of a horror feel to them. This time, well there’s a horror aspect, but it feels the most realistic crim thriller yet. Not one of his best, but not a bad read.
Currently i’m almost done with another book, which is Ormegården by Dennis Jürgensen. He is kind of the Danish Stephen King, very prolific and very popular but not always loved by critics. And funnily enough he also made a turn from more fantastical stories to straight crime stories. I think Ormerården is my favourite of his crime thrillers, pretty pretty good.
I may have mentioned it before but Dennis Jürgensen used to be quite the idol of mine. Not least because of his quotes in interviews where he said he became a writer because basically he was done with school and faced with either having to get a ‘real job’ or becoming a writer. And becoming a writer meant he didn’t have to get up early in the morning. I used of becoming a writer. Because i wanted to write and because I didn’t want to get a real job. Well, I did neither. Someday maybe i’ll write a long ramble about my story after leaving school and trying to find a future while dealing with depression and fatigue and crippling social anxiety, yes a very upbeat story! I went around to a few places. Before ending up here. I may not have become a writer, but i’m still writing. Here. And someone is reading it. So that’s something.
Okay let’s wrap it up. When i’m done wiht Ormegården i’m going to start The Indifferent Stars Above, historical nonfiction about the Donnoer Party. Something I only really know as a punchline on latenight tv. But i do have an interest in the American frontier history, so I’m looking forward to that. Back when America was a harsh and dangerous and ok you get where i’m going. Let them eat crypto.
4/7 2025
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Goodnight, Bella.

5/7 2025
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I had the best dream. I was in the Red Room with David Lynch. It’s all fading now so I don’t really remember what happened. Just waking up feeling super happy because it was so cool. All I remember now are the giant billowing red drapes. And David Lynch hugging me with a huge smile on his face.
That’s the stuff.
Oh well, here comes reality.
5/7 2025
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. Forcing myself to get on. Feel that physical burn.
Stressful time right now. I mentioned I had emailed a lady about the housing. I’ve exchanged more mails with her. Her name is Helle and among other things she’s the head of .. the.. residents association? I’m not sure what the correct English term is. Anyway, I have seen her a lot on Facebook, she’s extremely engaged in the neighbourhood and politics and things going on here. She’s very active and well known for her activism. She’s been fighting against the demolishing of the apartment blocks. So many changes have been going on in this neighbourhood the last decade. The renovation of the building i live in is part of that.
Anyway, I got a flyer in the mailbox from the residents association and it had her email adress and I sent her a mail. She or a colleague might actually join me in my meeting in the rehousing matter next week, we may meet before that too.
The flyer was for the people in my building affected by the changes being done. And the possibility of filing a legal objection to it. Now I don’t think i want to do that. Because i do not have the strength to go through a legal battle, and I do not want to be a nuisance to my neighbours or the housing asssociation. I know there are families in other buildings who have refused to move out, which is causing delays and extra costs in all the demolishing/renovation plans.
I can’t really face something like that. Dealing just with single people is hard enough, a whole legal thing, I can’t. I am pretty resigned that i will have to move out. My priority is getting the best new home possible and making it go as smoothly as possible. So I don’t know if Helle or the renters association will or can help me much if I’m not going to do the objection. But she has tons of experience with this, it would be nice to have her on my side.
She said in her response to me that she’s sure the housing association will take my special needs into consideration, but that she unfortuantely also has heard from families that feel they have been treated unfairly by the association. I am not sure if that’s in regards to being forced out, or in rehousing. It’s a little worrying though.
Anyway. Waiting to hear back from her to see if we’re going to meet before the housing meeting or not and if she or someone else will join me at the housing meeting.
It’s a difficult and important time for me. But we’ll see how it goes. Big days ahead. Have to be a big boy about it. In between the rants.
5/7 2025
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Think goat thoughts.

5/7 2025
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Goodnight Sky.

5/7 2025
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goatlog

6/7 2025
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Got a Protein&Pepsi delivery this morning. Early.
I had originally scheduled it for later in the day. But then yesterday I started the emailing with Helle from the renters assoc and we were talking about maybe meeting today. And the window for rescheduling the delivery was closing. So I thought, well I better reschedule it to as early in the day as possible, in case I need to meet with Helle at some point. Leave more time open for the that potentially.
After more discussion with Helle, it turns out we’re not meeting today. And she isn’t available for the time i have the rehousing meeting with the housing assoc. But her colleague Peter will go with me to that instead.
And Helle is going to drop by the goat place tomorrow just to meet and say hi I think. So I’ll get to see her for a bit. And then i have to call Peter and talk to him before the rehousing meeting.
So yeah, the first half of next week is going to be challenging for me. Meeting Helle. Calling Peter. Important rehousing meeting.
That’s a lot for me. I would really like to just avoid it all. But so far my incantations to stop time have proven unsucessful. I may need to add more thyme. This old spellbook really hasn’t been worth the price I paid for it. Although since i’m not planning to have any firstborn children, so joke’s on the satyr in the end I think.
Anyway. Relaxing and gathering strength today for the coming days.
6/7 2025
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Don’t butt the hands that feed you.

6/7 2025
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Aw yeah. I know this means nothing to anyone but myself, but this is one of the things that came up in my going through old stuff while cleaning the apartment.
The Danish user manual for the Amiga 500. Circa 1992.
Those colours around the A500. Etched in my mind. And yet, funnily enough, I barely looked through that user manual. I used my Amiga almost exclusively for gaming. And pretty much all you needed to know was 1) Plug in the cables 2) pop in a floppy in the disk drive. And you’re ready to go. I do regret not using my Amiga more seriously. But I do not regret using it so much unseriously.
While I never read through it, this book has been with me for 30+ years. And now it’s gone. I’m trying not to hang on to things. But it was really cool to see it again. Memories, lalalala

6/7 2025
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Sky on a bed of berries.

6/7 2025
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Three goats in a row. Even if Sky is a bit distant.

6/7 2025
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Bella is tired, and so am I. Heading to bed soon. I really don’t want next week to come, but I suppose it must. One day a day, one step a step.

6/7 2025
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That’s all for now.