Bad news I am afraid. My right eye has been giving me trouble again. Pain. And more unscheduled hospital visits.

It started Friday I guess. I had an appointment with my eye doctor. I had been taking anti-pressure medication since the last surgery. The eye doc switched me from pills (diamox) to eyedrops. And then the pains started coming. I guess the eyedrops just aren’t so effective for me. We ended up having to go to the hospital Sunday night. The pressure in my right eye was way too high again. So I got another IV injection of diamox. That got the pressure down enough so I could go home. Then we went back today. Now I’m getting pills again. Along with 3 different eyedrops.

The pain hasn’t been as bad as before the surgery. It comes and goes. It’s gone most of the time now. Medication must be working.

But they found blood in the eye. So there has been new bleeding. That is not good. Hopefully it will go away on it’s own in a week or two. But it could be a big problem. If you have an eye that you can’t really see with and it keeps bleeding and hurting then you have to start thinking about having it removed. The doctor said. That is not a nice thought. Needless to say. Even though I’m pretty much blind on it now, it’s still a big step to actually physically lose it. There would be no hope of miracles left then, that’s for sure. But I don’t want to think too much about it yet. I can’t do anything about it anyway. Just hope for the best. I’m sure removing an eye is not a decision they take lightly. Hopefully the medication will keep the pressure down and there won’t be more bleedings. We’re going back next Monday. See how things are going.

If I could trade one eye for the other I would. I mean, if losing the right eye meant I could see clearly again with the left. I would make that trade. But it doesn’t work that way of course. I just have to hope there will be some usage left in the left one. The central vision is still a little better than it was a couple of weeks ago. As the eye doc said on Friday, it could get better or it could end badly. No way to know yet.

Now I’m just tired. We were home from the hospital around 1am last night and had to get up at 7 to go back in the morning. With uneasy sleep because of the pains coming and going. Plus all that diamox makes me dizzy.

This weel was going to be my week off with nothing planned, before the cane training starts. Yeah.

I went to the playground today. And spent some time with the goats. It was good as always. Magnethe even let me hug her, arms around her neck and all. I do love those goats. They give me peace of the soul, as dad said he could see on me when he helped me get home.

Summer is gone now. No doubt. It is getting cold. It won’t be long before I have to turn on the heaters at night. My bad circulation makes it hard to sleep with cold feet.

But it is good to be sleeping on my back again. And my eye is not hurting. The surgery has worked in that respect.

And my central vision on the left eye seems to have improved a little. Recently I wrote that I would stop replying to comments because it had gotten so hard to read anything. But since then it has actually gotten better. Wonder of wonders. It’s not easy to read, but at least I don’t find myself almost having to give up. It is as if though the blindness that spread from the left and covered the center has retreated a little back to the left. I can almost see the clock on my cell phone again. I could read the time on teletext without using my magnifying glass. So that is good. But I also kind of feel like the blindness at the bottom of the eye might be spreading upwards. And that is a “hard blindness”. Like on most of my right eye, where no light at all gets through and where it feels irreversible. So I am not expecting that I’m on the miracle road to full recovery. But any little improvement is nice. I really did not expect that I would still be able to use the computer by now, so I will just appreciate it as long as it lasts.

What else is going on? I had a doctor’s appointment for blood tests. Long term diabetes and cholesterol. They were both fine. And my blood pressure too. I have gotten new shoes. The foot therapist recommened it. So that is done now. Nice and warm for the winter. On Friday I am going to the eye doc to have the right eye checked. And in a week and a half we have scheduled cane practice with the sight central. And their IT department should get in touch soon about the cell phone and screen reader for the computer too. They actually called while I was in the hospital last week. Had to tell them that I was getting ready for surgery so it wasn’t the best time.

And I think that’s all that’s going on right now. I wish I could go into hibernation for the winter. I could use a good 3-4 months of sleep.

PS. There’s a lot of hooplah in Denmark right now because of the IOC and the Olympic venue picking and the visit of the Obamas and everything. A lot of it is making my old cynical heart a little sick. But I won’t get started on politics now. I do gather that Oprah is going to tape a show in Denmark. And she’s going to try to find out why Danes are the happiest people in the world. If any of Oprah’s researchers happen to read this then I’ll give you a little hint: it’s all about the goats. Sure, other countries have goats as well. But Danish goats are special. In my experience at least.