Not the best of days today. Some troubles with the computer and internet. It made me depressed and repeatedly go back to bed. That’s the downside to this small appartment. Sitting here at the computer I can just turn my head and there is the bed, soft and tempting. I know I should not go there, it only makes me more tired and feel worse about myself and life in general. Still, it is so sweet to slip away into dreams…

Oh well. If I can’t sleep tonight then maybe I’ll get started on that Lord Of The Rings DVD marathon that I have been contemplating. I finished Unfinished Tales last night and am going to start the Silmarillion tonight. I am in a Tolkien mood. And although the three extended films will last about 38.4 hours I still feel like watching them. Sometime soon.

Had visitation today. It went mostly okay. This time we stayed in because he had some forms that we needed to go over and fill out. He brought cake, which was very nice of him. Of course it meant I had to deal with plates and forks and did I have coffee or tea and all sorts of simple things that are anxiety provoking for me nonetheless. I am not used to entertaining people. Well, apart from when I dress up in a clown suit and juggle tomatoes. But that’s like almost never.

I am looking forward to seeing the goats tomorrow. I feel a big need for some goatziness. They should put that in the dictionary. If “bling” is a word then so is goatziness.

goat-ziness
noun

1. the quality of being a goat or goat-like in appearance or behaviour
2. general joy or a state of profound happiness
3. woolly or shaggy
7. what’s it called when you’re dyslexic about numbers?
5. mads

I fed the animals today. It went nice and easy. Last time the horses were all galopping around and trying to kill me with superkicks. Today they came up to the fence and waited for me before I even got there. And they didn’t try to kill me even once.

Although Mads did try to hide under the hay for some reason. Okay, that reason might be that I accidentally dropped the hay on his head. Possibly. Sorry, old fella!

Vanilje. Always very impatient when it’s feeding time. I hadn’t even brought the food yet, but she was still up and trying to eat my hand and the camera lens strap.

Also had dinner with the parents today. Was quite good. They showed me pictures from their trip to Prague. I recognised lots of places. I visited Prague with my school class many, many, many years ago. It looked pretty much like I remember it. There was one picture, of the cross at Theresienstadt, that looked almost exactly like a picture I took all those years ago. Funny that.

I’m very, very tired now. Better wrap it up and post. Happy weekend, yalls.