What The Fox
Got out and spent some time with the littles today. It is good to be with them, no doubt. My mind is a lot more at rest when i’m with them. Although it also hurts being where Mia.. isn’t. Anymore.
Milo and Sky did manage to make me laugh today. They did some fun running and jumping. Started with Sky climbing up on the goat mountain and pirouetting down again. So I climbed up on the mountain and watched them run up and down and jump goofily. Good to see them having some fun. And there were no screaming sessions today. Well, apart from when I left. That got them screaming like bloody murder again. But other than that, it was normal range bleating today. Maybe they are starting to adjust to the new reality. Let’s hope so. Let’s hope I’ll get there too.
A beautiful day. One of the warmest of the year. Some good sunshine after a cloudy morning. A smell of wood burning in the air. Jeanette had made a campfire. And then the kids that were supposed to come visiting called and cancelled. Darned. So the fire was for nothing. And I got to hand out the carrot slices that Jeanette had prepared to the goats. So it goes. Just like when it’s kids handing them out at the fence, Sky doesn’t really want any. But Milo gobbled them up. You can tell he is starting to assert his dominance. Often I had to use both hands to pet two goats at once, because if I was just petting Sky he’d come barging in to take over. And if I give a treat to just Sky, well there’s a headbutting a coming. But when it’s not a competition for affection or treats they get along fine. Sitting down fur to fur to relax in the sunshine. It is good to be with them. Just sitting with them in the sun is soothing. This is not the spring and summer I had been looking forward to. I was really hoping after everything going on in my personal and family life and the big move last year, that we could have a great summer together, the four of us. Sigh. Crazy to think a year ago I was getting ready for a summer in the big goat house with 6 goats and no worries. Time flies.
Oh and today I managed to hit my head on the floor of the fridge as I was getting something from the bottom shelf. Ah who knows, maybe it knocked some of loose screws back in place.
I must be feeling a little bit better when my posts start to get long and rambling. It was a good day. Now I have to try to keep the depression from slowly seeping back in.
1/5 2023
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Good goats stick together.
1/5 2023
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In other news, i think I saw a fox today.
On my way to the goats. There’s a bridge over a road and a little bit of greenery. I was walking towards the bridge and saw something there. At first I thought maybe it was a stuffed animal toy or something. It didn’t really look like a dog. It looked small and sleeker? But it moved, so I figured oh it must be a dog I guess. But there was no human with it. I kept walking towards it and after 10ish seconds I guess I think it saw me, in any case it moved off and down some stairs at the side of the bridge. I got up there and looked after it but couldn’t see anything. It would be pretty weird for a little dog to be running around there on its own. Of course with my eyesight you never know, could have been a lemur or squirrel.
I do know there are potentially foxes around even though it’s a pretty suburban area. Remember I mentioned we had ‘lost’ a hen? Yeah, according to Jeanette one was taken by a fox. It’s a dangerous world in the suburban jungle.
1/5 2023
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Here’s Sky on the mountain top. You’ll have to imagine the pirouette for now.
2/5 2023
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Video evidence that I can still laugh. A couple of highlights from the litles on the mountain. I wish I’d gotten Sky’s first pirouette jump on video, that was the best one. But there’s some cute stuff in here too.
2/5 2023
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Did you know that in Danish the idea of “haggling about the price” is called “prutte om prisen” which translates to “farting about the price”.
The more you now.
2/5 2023
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Here’s a little video of Henrietta Solo flapping her way up to the hay shelf. That’s her favourite spot, in the box of hay up there.
A little later she went into a long squawking fit, which made Jeanette go “A couple of weeks ago this would have sent Mia running out with an indignant look on her face”. That made me smile with one side of my face and cry with the other, as the saying probably doesn’t go. Yeah, when the feathers went into a long loud squawk it would startle the goats and they’d come out and stare like “what is that noise, keep it down!”.
And then Jeanette collected three eggs that Henrietta had layed up there.
3/5 2023
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It’s hard to get a good photo of the three of us all in the frame. This is the best I could do. I love the littles. Don’t know where I’d be without them now.
It’s been two weeks since Mia left us. The immediate blunt force trauma is easing slowly, but man I’m still feeling a ton of depression and sadness. Not surprising, and nothing wrong with that. Just gotta keep on keeping on. It’s difficult, though. Feels like there’s nothing to look forward to now. No point to anything.
Good thing I have a lifetime’s experience of pushing my way through the dense fog of depression, eh? Woohoo. One foot ahead of the other, until you get to a cliff or a slice of pizza.
3/5 2023
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Got out and spent some good time with the littles again. They seem to be in pretty good spirits. Only screaming when I dare to leave them, otherwise just the regular bleatings. Maybe a little more than usual, but at least not the desperate screams all day.
We had a good playtime again too. The kids racing up and down the mountain and hill. This time I wasn’t up on the mountain, which gave them more room to run back and forth on it. A couple of times Sky darted down the mountain and up the hill to the goat house, and Milo, who is a little slower I think, was left on the mountain by himself and it was like he couldn’t decide which route to take down, so he ended up running back and forth a couple of times before heading down. It was really cute. LEFT RIGHT LEFT OKAY DOWN! They got a laugh out of me again, which was good. That thing about maybe not goating anymore that i sad right after Mia passed, well those thoughts are long gone. What would I do without Milo and Sky? Hopefully we will be okay together.
4/5 2023
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It was a little colder today, so siesta was taken inside.
4/5 2023
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Here is some lovely fun from yesterday. Milo and Sky playing on the hill and mountain. And uncle Treatbag providing the laughtrack. I like how Milo snorts every time he runs away and up the hill. And Sky’s impressive jump over the bench. It’s so good to have some happy moments together.
5/5 2023
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Hope you’re all having a good weekend. Here is Milo and Sky relaxing. with a friend.
6/5 2023
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I have been doing pretty well at not letting the sadness in the last few days. Not thinking about it is obviously the best way to deal with things, as most mental health professionals will tell you.
Feeling it hard right now though, the sadness and depression. Hope I have enough soup to drown it out.
7/5 2023
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Think goat thoughts.
7/5 2023
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Need my happy place.
7/5 2023
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That’s all for now.