Museum
Good goat times today. It seems our girls are doing better, thankfully. Not sure they’re completely back to normal. But they were all up and around. Eating, pooping, running, butting heads. Pretty good.
I suspect they may need a hoof trimming pretty badly, that may have had something to do with their reluctance to get up. Or maybe it’s the cold.
Man, that cold. With the windchill it was down below -10C/14F. Bonechilling.
No Jeanette today, she is sick again. When I got there the goats had hay and food. I am not sure if that was leftovers from the weekend or if someone had gotten there before me and fed them. Jeanette’s replacements usually don’t come that early though, so I don’t know.
Their water buckets were frozen solid.
No staff was showing up, so I went down to see if I could find water. The door to the toilet was unlocked thankfully. The sink in there was tiny though, it would have taken me half an hour to fill up a bucket in there. Thankfully a worker person came by. There are workers working in the main playgroudn building sometimes, there has been some extensive water damage. Anyway, I asked if he knew a better place to get water. And he said there was a kitchen. When I told him I couldn’t see very well, he helped me get to the kitchen and he filled my two buckets for me. He was very nice. I’m not sure I have ever been inside that main buildnig before. Certainly not like it is now, completely emptied out as they work on the floors I think. Renovations because of the water damage.
Anyway, I’m just glad I got the buckets of water for the goats, they were pretty thirsty.
We took a trip out to the chicken coop area too. Someone had left the gate there slightly ajar and Sky squeezed through. So i figured I might as well open it up and let the bigger girls in there too. They very rarely get to go in there, so the vegetation is pretty untouched. But then most of it is withered and dead right now of course. But the goats got to explore some fairly unfamiliar territory, so that was nice.
After the goat trip I had a big event. But I’m going to cliffhanger that for you, because I am frozen solid and I need some soup. So I’ll tell you about that later. Soup’s up!
2/2 2026
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But baby it’s ¤%#¤/% cold outside.
2/2 2026
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Today was my big museum date with Helle!
It was a really nice time. I don’t like being around most people, but Helle is always good company. She has been so kind to me, helped me so much, and is always understanding how my limitations and special needs. And she’s just super nice.
She came up to the playground to get me. The museum is two buildings over from where I live, so it was right on the way home from the goats.
It’s a museum of the history of Gellerup, the housing complex and the area. And it is literally an apartment. It’s in an apartment in one of the blocks. And it’s made to be like one of the old apartments. And then with lots of stuff from over the years. I think Helle moved into this area in 1973, before I was even born.
Anyway, she showed me around the place and told me about the various things on display, photos and stuff. Told me about some of the history. I think it’s pretty clear she’s proud of the work they do with that museum, and understandably so. It was really cool and interesting. I only wish my eyesight was good enough to really see all the photos and read the texsts and just see it all better. But it was nice to have a good guide.
There’s quite a lot of interesting history of the place. It’s kind of a controversial area. In Denmark it’s one of 2-3 places that are considered ‘infamous ghettoes’. There’s a LOT of prejudice about the neighbourhood. And I mean, it’s not like it’s come from nothing. Even now, years into the plans of improving the place, I still see it on the news from time to time. But when you see people talking about the place, outsiders, it seems like some people think it’s a dangerous place that should be avoided. And that’s just laughably untrue.
Anyway, enough rambling. The point is, it’s another thing to be thankful to Helle for. It was interesting and cool, and it was nice to get out of the cold! And she had saved the chocolate that came with the flowers I got her to thank her for all the help last year, so we shared those. Yum!
Only mishap was that the elevator was out of order when we got there, and museum apartment is on.. I think it was 5th or 6th floor? So we got a little exercise going up the stairs. Elevator was fixed by the time we left so we didn’t have to walk down at least.
Once again, very grateeful that Helle came into my life.
2/2 2026
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Luna enjoying some of that water I brought them.
2/2 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Good going, ramped up the intensity in the intervals. Just feels good to have music you love in your ears and feeling the physical burn, taking your mind off the mental burn.
Also got a grocery delivery. Pepsi, fruits and vegetables mostly. I sprung for Danish cucumbers. They’re twice the price of the other ones, but it looks like they are much nicer. I like a lean cucumber. A long thin one. I don’t like the short chubby ones. Shut up.
Started buying clementines too. Nice little snack.
Doing my best to get healthier again.
I miss pizza.
3/2 2026
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Helle posted some photos from the museum. It’s pretty neat how it’s an actual apartment and then inside it’s like part exhibit and part just how the apartment would have been back years ago. It’s literally like walking into history.
3/2 206
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Hey Keiko. Bella says hi.
3/2 2026
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Got an hour twentyfive on the bike today. Two days in a row. A bit rough on the legs, but I’m trying to step up my game.
Physically getting stronger and stronger. Mentally, eh not so great. Still fighting that depression. And now I’m having problems posting videos on Facebook. Can’t seem to post any on the goat page. It is causing me frustration. And there are other things frustrating me. The world, for example.
Tired, frustrated, sad. Boo urns.
And it looks like we may have a snowstorm coming in the future. This planet is cooked, can we have another?
4/2 2026
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Oh yeah, had one mishap during the exerise. As you may remember, I like to work my rod while I’m on the bike. The arm exercise bar. It has a pretty powerful coil and I didn’t get a good grip (Normally I try to get a good grip on my rod) and so on end slipped from my hand and it recoiled and hit me right in the chest. Basically like a steel punch to the chest.
It wasn’t that bad, but it will probably be sore later. I’m just surprised it didn’t crack any bones. Maybe my chest plate is stronger than my ribs.
4/2 2026
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Someone needs to find a way to trick Trump into saying his name backwards, I just want to see what would happen.
4/2 2026
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Good goat times today. Another cold one. But not too bad when you’re out of the wind. When you’re in the wind? Bone chilling.
Jeanette still out sick. So I had to take care of the goaties again on my own. They were all sitting outside when I got there. I don’t know why they wouldn’t rather sit inside in their straw when it’s cold, but maybe they like the fresh air!
Their water buckets were frozen solid of course, so I went and got them fresh water. This time I knew where to go so that was no problem.
We had some sweet visitors too. Kids in the pen. They were more interested in the blocks of ice that I had emptied from the water buckets than in the goats though. At least not all ice is bad..
When I got home I did a little organising in the apartment. Got some stuff to throw out and some to take down to the storage room. Whne that’s done then I think I’m almost done with unpacking. Hey, I’ve only been here what. four months? Sheesh
Now it’s soup time. Defrosting Lasse.
5/2 2026
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Serving breakfast for Sky.
5/2 2026
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Snout to snout with Bella.
5/2 2026
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Luna huggy
5/2 2026
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Mostly Armless: The Chewbacca Story.
5/2 2026
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I am very frustrated that I can’t post videos on the facebox page. You probably don’t know this about me, since I am so subtle and hide it so well, but I am a very needy person and I need the validation of people saying “what a cute video”. I am always about 10 seconds away from succumbing to thoughts of “I am the worst person ever and no one could ever love me and the world would be a better place if I weren’t here”. I’m like a balloon that needs constant inflation or I’ll just deflate to nothingness.
I also like feeling that I make people happy with the videos.
Sigh.
And trying to talk to fb support is like trying to talk Kid Rock into the Rocknroll Hall Of Fame. Ain’t nobody listening.
6/2 2026
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Thank you all for the validation!
Here is Bella with a headful of hay, tell me it’s cute!
6/2 2026
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Maybe if I stil absolutely still, I will turn into an ant hill. Over time.
7/2 2026
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. So that’s pretty good.
Especially considering I was thinking of skipping today. The day today, not just exercise today. Last night I was feeling depressed and sad and decided to set my alarm to NOPE and just sleep through today.
But I managed to get out of bed in the morning anyway. And did the exercise. So that’s good.
And I was able to post a video to the goat page. I hope the problem is fixed and it wasn’t just because it was a short video. We’ll see I guess.
Trying not to let things get to me too much. Clearly doing a great job! One day a day.
7/2 2026
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the worm that swallows
7/2 2026
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Sounds like the dancing elephant troup has moved in. Been hearing a lot of neighbour noise today. In general it hasn’t been as quiet here as I had hoped. But certainly not as bad as the old place.
But it sounds like there are some unhappy kids stomping around upstairs tonight.
I should have been born a hermit. Raised by goats.
Also, today I discovered I am Cthulhu. “the dripping, bloated sack that was its body”. Yup.
7/2 2026
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I managed to get out of bed again this morning. I guess we’ll count that for a win?
Soccerball season starts today. Going to see if I can get a streaming account set up and watch the game. Other than that no big plans, just trying to take care of things that need to be taken care of on the computer and online. With how much free time I have it’s amazing how I always end up not getting things done. I am an excellent time mismanager. Like for example writing this pointless facebook update instead of doing stuff I should do. Hooray.
At least the fb video problem seems to be fixed, so that’s a relief.
Have a lazy Sunday, everybuddies.
8/2 2026
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Puppy Luna is a good watchdog.
8/2 2026
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Oh. Hello. I guess. I blacked out again. Trying to put the pieces back together. Where am I. What day is it. What was I doing. Fuck. I guess I have to go to the doctor at some point. It’s a scary feeling, not knowing really where and when you are. I think.. I was dreaming.
I can see I was eating. And I was writing a post about watching the Mel Brooks documentary. And I had the sportsball game running. Did I pass out. Or fall asleep. Or.
It’s Sunday right. Sunday evening. I have to put everything back together in my head.
Things slowly coming back.
I was watching the first half of the game. Second half is running now.
Have to. find myself.
I know I have had blackouts before. I thought they were done after I stopped taking TMG. But I haven’t been taking it since the last ones. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I was going to.. do something during halft time. Half time is 15 minutes. Was I out for 15 minutnes? I’m pretty sure I dreamt. Was I asleep?
Sigh. It’s scary. And knowing I have to do something about it is troubling.
I’m trying to.. remember the new playground. I have the old playground in my head. From flashback videos? I can’t picture the new playground. I can picture the walk to there but. Yes there it is. Walking the path in my head to find my way back to the memory. It’s creepy. There it is. The train wagon on top of the hill. The two pens. Coming back to me..
Ugh. This sucks. I was just sitting here watching the game.
Just measured my blood sugar and pressure. Too high, but not way higher than it has been usually as I have been struggling to get it back to where it’s supposed to be. Not really out of the ordinary for me the past few months, not sure it has anything to do with it.
Things are coming back to me. It’s Sunday evening yes.
Ah, I can see that I noted a time down in my text file. I did that when I started getting that feeling I get before blackouts. So yeah. I did go into that blackout then. The time I noted down was 18:51. It’s 19:40. But I have been more or less back in my head for 20ish minutes. Half an hour? So I was out for.. Thirtyish minutes?
It’s a scary and disorientating feeling when you’re not sure what time it is, when you are, what you were doing, what you’re supposed to be doing. Scattered pieces of a puzzle and you have to try to make it all fit back together again. And not give in to the fear that you’re out of your mind forever and you’re never going to get back to your normal self.
Okay. It’s Sunday evening. I don’t really have plans after the soccer game. The week is pretty much done. Starting to remember everything again.
Must have blackout shortly after posting the Yogi flashback on the goat page.
But I can’t think of anything that would have triggered it. I haveen eating.
Ugh. I was hoping this was behind me.
Not a great way to end the week.
8/2 2026
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That’s all for now.