Hurricant
Good goat times today. Back to the happy place, and the happy goats. Still enjoying all the branches and pine. They have a lot to snack on.
It was a bit cold in the morning, but we got a good deal of sunshine and it was pretty nice. Lots of visitors today, kids running around in the pen. Many of them are a little developmentally challenged in various. Some of them run around and can be a bit loud. Bella and Luna aren’t fans of that. But Sky, sky is just sweet and patient and not phased by any of that. The bet petting goat.
Good classic goat fun today, and now I’m going to have me some good classic soup. Onwards and onward.
30/3 2026
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Triple goat bonus.
30/3 2026
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Over-the-shoulder Bella.
30/3 2026
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I bought a .. whatsitcalled, a broom but the handle is short? A… shortbroom. Yehyeah. Anyway. Brought it to the goat place, maybe now I can stop brushing goat berries away with my bare hands! Of course.. it never takes long before there are more berries. Right, Bella?
30/3 2026
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Not doing so great today.
I was going to get up and exercise today. I got up at 8 am. At 8.15 I was back in bed. Too depressed to function.
Got up again around 1pm. So that was a nice 13 hours in bed.
And then I ordered cake and pizza.
I am lost in my head. I can’t find my way out. I need to… do better.
Since my birthday is has just been… faltering. Falling apart. Silently drowining.
People who haven’t known depression don’t know how crippling it can be.
And addiction. Don’t tell me fat and sugar isn’t an addiction. I just want to eat junk food constantly.
I have spent more than 2000dk/300usd on that food delivery site this month! That’s so fkn dumb and insane. I guess it’s a good thing that site is going to close in Denmark?
I have spent almost zero kroners on that site the previous five months. But since my birthday I just fell in deep.
And I feel like sht.
Okay. Well. It’s the last day of March. Last day of my birthday month. April is going to be better. No fooling. No more junk food or cake. I have to cut myself off, because I can’t have a little. If I have a little I will have a lot, and want it all.
Now I feel sad and depressed and tired from sleeping too much and hating myself for being weak, and so on and so forth.
I mean, I’ll be fine. Just not today. But tomorrow’s another day. The first day in the rest of our days.
31/3 2026
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for another day, and all I ever knew
31/3 2026
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There are three men. Standing side by side. With their sides to the camera.
They are all wearing top hats.
The top hats are three different sizes.
The man on the right is wearing a tiny top hat. Like a thimble balancing on his head.
The man in the middle is wearing a perfectly normal sized top hat.
The man on the left is wearing a comically large top hat, it is so big that it covers his entire head and goes down over parts of his shoulders.
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That was from my dreams last night / today.
I really miss my wild and crazy dreams. Especially my vivid ones. It’s tempting to go back to the crazy sleep schedule, to get the greams back. Sleeping for 14-15 hours one night and then 2 hours the next. I’m sure it was very unhealthy. But the dreams … so wonderful.
Thank you everyone for the support today. I will try to do better, for myself. April showers bring.. something flowers.
Oh and, i got a message back from my doctor. After one doc had said to take 1 potassium pill a day for two weeks, and the next doc said 4 pills for 5 days. Doc said it was fine to do it for two weeks, but she recommended I take at least 2 pills a day. So that’s what I’ll do. Take 2-3 potash pills for two weeks and then go get my bloodwork done again. And taking my new blood pressure meds too of course. And hopefully eating better and exercising and goating. That will make me feel better, I know it will. The bad eating and being lazy feels good in the moment. But then it feels bad. It feels bad physically and mentally. Exercise and goats and eating better, that doesn’t give the same immediate rush. But it maks me feel better physically and mentally over the long stretch. I will do my best, that’s all I cans do. I yam what I yam.
And where did I leave my fancy top hat?!
Maybe it was a goldilocks dream. This hat fits me juuuust right…
31/3 2026
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Got an hour twentyfive on the bike today So that’s good. Not the best of efforts. But good to get back on the horse. The metal pedal horse.
I have leftover cake and some other junk. I’m going to party with that tonight. And then I’m all out fo bad stuff. And I will make it my prime directive to not order new stuff. Not from the grocery site, not from the junkfood site. Have to not give myself the option of eating uhealthily.
And then try to focus on goating and exercising. And get out of my head and to a better space.
Wish me luck.
I’m pretty durn tired now. Because I slept so much the night before, I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night. In fact I got up and out of bed and did computer work for most of the night. And then napped for 2-3 hours in the morning. Not the smartest way to be, but having a proper sleep schedule is another thing to work on.
Even though I miss the dreams…
*tips my top hat*
1/4 2026
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I don’t know if there’s room for April pranks in this post-truth world.
Everything that has happened the last couple of years could be a fool.
It’s like one of those scifi things were you think you’re out of the thing, but the thing is actually still happening. Like the Rick & Morty episode with the hole of fear and they’re think they’re out of the hole but they’re actually still in the hole.
I think it maybe be April 1st 2024 and we think we’re out of the prank but we’re actually still in the
okay I’ll shut up.
1/4 2026
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Think goat thoughts.
1/4 2026
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Last night, Denmark failed the final attempt at qualifying for the World Cup in soccerballs.
I am pretty damn disappointed.
Mostly because that means we won’t get the chance to try to convince our soccer assoc to boycott the tournament.
You know I love the soccerballs, but I would have fully supported a boycott. Because of Fifa and because of America, hosts. No offence to my American friends. But I’m pretty sure you don’t care about soccerballs, you might not even know you’re hosting the thing!
To be fair it’s also co-hosted by Canada and Mexico, countries I have more respect.
But anyway. There was a time I would have been devasted on missing the World Cup. In fact I thik I when we missed the last one in America. That was in 1994. The tournament that followed one of the biggest miracles of the sport, Denmark winning the 1992 Euro cup. Missing out on the following World Cup, hosted in glorious (at the time) America. That was a big hurt.
But now. I don’t care about the sport so much. Partly because it has gotten worse and worse. Partly because I can see less and less of it. And partly because life’s too short.
And then the courruption of Fifa and the insanity of what America is doing to the world. I would have happily sacrificed our spot in the World Cup to send a pointless message that would have accomplished nothing.
Instead we went out on penalties to the Czechs. Oh well.
For the first time in my life I’m not even subscribing to the tv stations that have the right to the Danish league of soccerballs. Maybe I’m just losing my love of the game completely. I still want the club I support to win but… that club isn’t the same anymore, the game isn’t the same anymore, my eyesight isn’t the same anymore. Everything gets worse as time marchines on, including the sports. Just a delivery mechanism for gambling and sportswashing now.
Hope you Americans enjoy the WC! The only thing that pains me is that Sweden and Norway are going and we’re not. That stings.
Alright, enough balltalk.
1/4 2026
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Unfortunately I am still struggling. Didn’t make it out of bed to go goating this morning. More hours in bed. Great dreams, but not what I wanted to happen. It’s not good when the dreamworld gets a grip on me and keeps away from the real world.
But we fight to live another day.
I’m not feeling good mentally, but it will be okay. We’re only two days into April, still time to make it good.
One day a day. Cooked up soup and it was good. Healthy and cheap compared to all the junk I’ve been devouring.
Onwards and warts on.
2/4 2026
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Think goats thought.
2/4 2026
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Thing I don’t like: Facebook (on my end at least) has changed layout, the reactions/comments/share stuff is in a new place, and I don’t like it because change is always bad.
Good thing: Measured my blood pressure today and it was fine. I hope the new meds are working.
A couple of new TV things I like:
Rooster. I have only watched the first episode, but I feel like if you like Steve Carell doing his Steve Carell thing then you will like it. And I like Steve Carell’s thing.
The Fall And Rise Of Reggie Dinkins. Tracy Morgan’s thing is pretty different from Steve Carell’s thing, but if you like Tracy morgan’s thing then you’ll probably like this show. I slept on it for a while because it has to do with American feet balls, and I have zero interest in that in any way. But it’s basically 30 Rock in a post-sport setting. And I love 30 Rock. I also love Bobby Moynihan and he’s good in this. If you like fast-paced goofy dumb comedy, this is fun.
Distractions from reality.
2/4 2026
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Do you think snakes ever wish they had legs?
Because sometimes I wish I didn’t have legs.
I mean, not often. Just when I’m walking down a particularly long set of stairs. I know it would be smarter to wish for the elevator to not be out of order, but sometimes not having legs seems more attainable. Anyway, did you want a refill?
2/4 2026
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ahh, the icy embrace of cold Pepsi Max mixed with frozen Faxe Kondi. The carbonated massage of dancing bubbles. Sweet mistress of the darkest liquid. I am but your humblest servant, in this life and the rest.
3/4 2026
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Taking the next step on the Bowie journey today. Up to Earthlings. I’m quite liking it at first listen. The electronic influences appeal to me.
And of course this one is terribly apt now. I’m afraid I can’t help it.
3/4 2026
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Got an hour and a half on the bike today. So that’s decent. Not the greatest effort. Tired legs and I got winded faster than I usually do. But I did something. I had a difficult morning inbed. One of those “No I’m not getting up, I’m going to roll over and sleep all day and then get up and order pizza”
So the fact that I got out of bed and got exercise done, that’s pretty good.
After the exercise I did some chores. Got my freezer defrosted. It wasn’t too badly built up, so it wasn’t too hard. But it’s still satisfying to see those ice flakes coming off.
It feels like a struggle right now, every day, to not do the unhealthy. But today at least I won the battle.
Hope you’re all winning your battles out there. Not a lot of people get to go through life without battles. Keep on fighting that good fight. Unfortunately there are a lot of people fighting the bad ones.
4/4 2026
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Jesus and his lawyer are coming back
4/4 2026
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It’s storming hard outside. National weather service warns there could be gusts of hurricane strength.
Storms feel harder when your apartment is up higher, that’s for sure. I can feel the wind tugging at the building. There are little creaks and groans and things rattling.
Hoppy Easter to those who partake.
5/4 2026
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Err, why is my profileonly showing 1 post for the last few days. Where’d myposts go? I guess it’s a glitch, hopefully they will come back. Maybe they got blown away by the storm..
5/4 2026
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goatlog
5/4 2026
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Sigh. I will have to buy a new TV. / computer monitor.
I have known for a while I would have to. It’s working worse and worse.
It’s hard though, with my blindness. It’s hard sometimes to see if the screen quality is down or my eyesight is down. There have been times when I have felt like my eyesight was getting worse and worse, and then I realise the screen is getting dimmer and blurrier.
It’s weird, it’s like the top half of the screen is getting dim and unclear, while the bottom is still pretty clear and with brightness in the whites.
So there will be llines of text at the top of the screen that I can’t read without getting my face completely up to the screen. And then lines at the bottom that I can read okay.
I have tried to ignore the problem, but I will have to do something about it. It’s a 11 year old TV, so it’s not like it’s unreasonable that I have to get a new one. I just dread getting new things. Change is really difficult for me. There are things that I am dependent on, and what are the odds that I can get a new TV that will work the same way, I am always scared of getting new stuff and then finding that it doesn’t work they way I need it.
Can you even get TVs that aren’t smart devices anymore? I suppose if I just don’t hook it up to the internet then it will be a dumbTV. I barely us it for TV purposes. Sometimes I watch the soccerballsports on it, but as I wrote about recently, I barely do that anymore. Sometimes I’ll have the news channel going, but that’s mostly for audio. So it’s really 99% to be used as a computer monitor.
There’s also the transport issue. I guess I’ll have to see if I can find something suitable and if it can get delivered easily. Maybe I could pay Jeanette or Helle a little to help me pick one up, it it’s one that has to be picked up. Jeanette has a car, and I think Helle has talked about being able to borrow a car. So maybe that could be an option.
I don’t need a big or expensive one. With my blindness, it’s not super quality that’s important. It just needs to work right with my PC. A 32 inch one what can take PC input via hdmi. Must be possible, and shouldn’t be very expensive. But as always, I worry too much. But I think a new one would make a pretty big difference. There are times I can barely read parts of the screen. So I really really need to get working on this, finding a suitable one and getting it arranged.
I just hate dealing with big stuff like this.
I would also like a new computer. This one is getting old. A couple of times recently it has spontaneously rebooted when I put too much strain on the system. Doesn’t deal well with 4k video or having too many programs running. But a new computer would be a lot more expensive. And it would force me onto Windows 11. And all the worries if I could get it to work the ways I need it to, all the accessibility stiff and settings and programs I need. And that would be such a big purchase that I really couldn’t afford to get it wrong. I will postpone that as long as I cna i suppose.
But the TV. I need that soon. Can’t avoid that for much longer.
I also wanted to visit the local second-hand store to see if they have a tv furniture/table I could get. And maybe a dog house for Sky to be in when it rains… but I never got around to going back to the store after that one time when it was closed when I got there.
Anyway. There’s stuff to do. Have to prioritise the TV now and get that done. With my extreme vision problem I really can’t afford to be furter impeded and impaired by a bad TV.
When is Black Friday again?!
5/4 2026
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That’s all for now.