Feeling better today. Not depressed. Made an appointment with my doctor to talk about my meds. Had a jolly good time at the playground. Not too shabby.

The goats are still walking around freely, and it really makes me happy. A group of kids came by today, maybe a daycare group. If the goats had been fenced in then I probably wouldn’t even have seen the kids. But now I got to talk to them and have fun. A couple of girls asked me to watch the goats because they were a bit scared. Aw.

Mads was very cuddly.

A couple of kids asked Per if Mads would butt them. When Per saw me sitting with Mads he said “He especially won’t butt you when Lasse is here”. I feel special when I’m at the playground. I feel that I am worth something. I am liked and respected almost. It’s an odd feeling for someone who is used to thinking of himself as worthless. It’s a good feeling.

The kids asked me about Æsel too.

Donkey, the bunny. The old bunny who runs around on his own. That’s a typical reaction the first time someone sees him. “There’s a rabbit running around outside its cage!”. I was puzzled the first time I saw him too. Now I’m used to it. Every once in a while he’ll just come jumping around the place.

And they called me “man” again. “The man”. Not as in “you da man” but as in “that man over there”. The boys yesterday did that too. When I was coming to help. They were calming the boy who was trapped on the ice. “The man is coming to help now”. I am not used to thinking of myself as a man, a man of worth. It’s hard to change the way you percieve yourself. Old habits die hard.

Oh yes, the boy that I helped off the ice? He is in this picture. The boy on the left. I see him often at the playground, so we already knew each other more or less. Sometimes when I bring food for the animals he comes and asks what I have brought for them and if he can have some so he can feed them too.

Magnethe sat down.

Look at her big belly! She must have been tired. It was cold and overcast, no sun. Normally they only sit down when it’s warm and sunny. Maybe it was all the kids running around that got her tired.

Apart from being cuddly Mads was also being a little strange around one of the boys. I was sitting down and scratching him. And the boy came and sat next to us. And Mads was sort of investigating him. And he started making these noises, it sounded like when the Buck was here to impregnate Mathilde and Magnethe. Mads is neutered of course. The only times I have heard him make those noises is when Mathilde and Magnethe are too close and I have food, then he’ll sort of chase them off with that sound. But I have never heard him making those sounds for so long. And his tongue was sort of sticking out a little too, I have never seen that before either. To be honest it sort of looked like he was in heat and he wanted to have his way with this boy. Very odd. The boy left and Mads returned to normal. And then a little later the boy came back and Mads started with the sounds again. I don’t know what that was all about. Maybe he had a crush on the boy haha. I was almost a little worried at one point, I thought maybe he was choking or something. Because he was making those snorting noises and his tongue was sticking out. But no. And he only made the noises towards the boy, not towards me. Strange, strange.

In other strange news here is the latest Fun Flavour:

Spunk. I really hope that whoever came up with that doesn’t know what the word means in English. “After a long, hard day at work there’s nothing better than coming home and drinking spunk”. Oh lord.

Yeah there’s nothing to say after that. End of entry.

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