The Good Life
September the first. I have had my appartment for a month now. Maybe I should do a little status check. How am I feeling about living on my own?
It frigging rocks is how I’m feeling it. I can’t believe I waited so long. I should have moved out 50 years ago. Although that would require some kind of time/space continuum malfunction. But seriously. I should have done it long ago. I can barely remember how it was before I moved out. How the days used to go. It seems like a different lifetime, even though it’s just a month ago.
There was no reason to be so scared of it. I think I’m handling everything pretty well. All the practical and financial things. Doing the shopping, the cleaning. Getting up in the morning, going to bed at a reasonable hour. Not living (entirely) off of candy. Sure I’ve gotten lots of help from my family. But I don’t think that’s a negative thing. I’m just really happy that I have done this and that I’m making it ok.
Not that everything is peachy-happy all the time. I still have all the problems I’m dealing with. Depression still comes to visit every now and then. And being alone in a little appartment like this, sometimes it can seem like it’s easier to give up. But I haven’t given up yet. And I am very confident that this was a big step, a good step, the right step. I am happy and hopeful.
I really like my comfy chair. The way it’s set up now, in front of the telly. Sitting there and being comfy under a warm blanket and relaxing. It’s cosy. And in little over a month’s time I’ll have a kitten in my lap. Living the good life. It’s about bloody time too.
September 1st, 2007 at 22:44
Wow! A month already? I like what you’re doing with your life! Good work!
September 1st, 2007 at 22:50
Congratulations, dear Plume! :) You are doing an awesome job and are an inspiration to me since I’m thinking of moving out and living on my own in the near future. You’re making your dreams come true and I have the biggest respect for you!
By the way, I just can’t stop listening to Tina Dico’s ‘On the Run’ and you’re sort of responsible for it! :D
Great big hugsh!
September 1st, 2007 at 23:37
Little steps always lead to bigger steps. Sometimes that’s all one needs to be happy in one’s life.
September 2nd, 2007 at 0:10
Good job, Plumey! That’s a good thing to remember about depression: it comes and it goes. When it does come, just show it around the new place and kick its butt out the door.
Having a cozy place of your own, doing things for yourself and asking for help from others, looking forward to getting a kitten, those things are all good steps to take to lessen the depression.
And if it comes back, you know how to take care of yourself, get help, call your doctor about meds, talk to your family, talk to us, etc. You have made plans and good choices to keep yourself healthy.
And you do inspire people like me and Milla. You remind me it is possible to make changes, even if they are hard ones. And that things are not usually as bad or scary as I have imagined they would be.
September 2nd, 2007 at 0:22
Can I sit on your lap too? Just kidding!
September 2nd, 2007 at 15:54
Bad Corrie! (Mmmm . . . wish I’d thought of that myself!)
September 2nd, 2007 at 20:16
Stu – Thanks mate!
Milla – I’m glad I can be an inspiration. I’m sure you’ll do just fine as well! And there will always be hugshes and Tina Dico songs from me!
LuisLemmings – Movin’ on up, it makes me happy.
Debster – I will slay depression like a ninja! With you guys I feel like I have an army at my back.
Corrie – Too late! You said it, you can’t take it back! When shall I be expecting you?
Debster – Don’t worry, there’s room for everyone! I’m in training to be Santa, having people sit on my lap and growing a beard and all!