You May Already Be A Whiner
Oh dear. I overslept. For the visitation. And I’d like to say it wasn’t on purpose. But I’m sure I could have prevented it if I really wanted to. I just shouldn’t have gone back to bed…
I don’t want to be a bad person. I don’t want to blow him off like that. I don’t want to be selfish. But I feel it tearing inside, the wish to get better against the wish to be left alone. I am a little worried that all I desire lately is to stay in bed and dream. A sinking feeling. I am worried that I’m going to dig my hole so deep that I can’t get up again. Saw off the branch I’m sitting on. And other metaphors. I worry myself, sometimes, lately too much.
Tomorrow I’m going to go see the goats. Definitely. Need to see some goats. It is of the outmost importance.
Maybe that will do the trick.
December 18th, 2007 at 1:05
Is it time to visit your Doctor? I’m having to increase my meds for the winter as I always get the “winter blues”. We plan on decreasing it to where it was this spring. I’m really sensitive to the lack of sunshine. Do you notice anything like that?
Are you and the visitator able to get together anytime this week or will it be in two weeks again?
We need to get you “unchained” from that damn bed, Plume!
December 18th, 2007 at 2:22
I think we should all move to a beautiful huge builidng by the sea as we try to get better. Last week, my doctor has increased my lexapro from 10mg to 20mg.
Although we get sunshine here nearly year round, the cold of winter truly effects me in a negative way. So, hence the 20mg.
I was in Los Angeles over the weekend doing some shopping, dining, etc and I was bundled up like a mummy, heavy coat, gloves, and scarf. And I was still cold!!
Still, wasn’t fortunate enough to have goats to visit, but having those wonderful photos helps me a lot, Plume.
So living in that huge, building beautiful overlooking the wonderous blue Mediterranian Sea will calm anyone, even us!
December 18th, 2007 at 23:06
Debster – Generally I quite like winter. Better than summer. But then sunshine is good for the mood, that’s a fact. I have pondered buying one of those sunlighty lamp things. But I don’t know. Today I felt fine. Go figure. I even managed to stay out of bed most of the day!
I’m not sure about the visitator. I shall have to call him and see.
LuisLemmings – Hah, I like that idea. One big happy family. It sounds like a premise for a sitcom. A bunch of depressed people moving in together in a big house by the sea. Or maybe it’s more of a drama.
I used to love the cold, but it’s getting harder for me to endure. I have to put on more clothes these days! But I still prefer it to when it’s too hot in the summer. I need to find a place to live where it’s comfortably cool. Not freezing but no heatwaves either. And snow in the winter, of course. Hmm, snow without freezing… well I’m sure we could find a way.
I’m glad the photos help. They are some extremely wonderful goats. They help me a ton, and it’s nice to know they do the same for others. They should be doctors, they should.
I prescribe a heavy dose of goats, stat!
December 18th, 2007 at 23:22
Oh, yes. That sounds like a wonderful idea to all live in a big house by the sea. I shall pack up my three goatzies and husband and come right on over! We shall have some room for turtles and all sorts of other lovely animals.