Miss

July 14th, 2024

Good goat times today. It was a rainy one, though. Lots of rain coming down. Around 14C/57F. So we had to stay inside. If only we could have had cup of hot cocoa to enjoy. But the company was good at least. Hopefully it will warm up again in a couple of days. There’s still some summer left. And at least the grass got some watering.
Good soup weather too. Speaking of… don’t mind if I do.
8/7 2024

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Bella and Luna were in the doorway bleating for me when I arrived, But Sky was still sitting inside. Who wants to get up on a rainty day?! Nicer to stay in bed and let the kids look out for visitors.

8/7 2024

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Luna watching the rain.

8/7 2024

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9/7 2024

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Got an hour twenty on the bike today. Legs felt good. Butt fel better, thanks to Desiree probably. Thank you for pointing out there were memory foam bike seats on sale in a Danish grocery chain. I’m not sure if it’ll make a huge difference, but trying it out today felt better than the last couple of rides. So that’s a start. Now we just need the sun back.
9/7 2024

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Good goat times today. I was expecting rain, but it all fell before I got out. Instead it was a hot and humid day. Not super hot, but the humidity made it feel worse. But it was fine. Pretty quiet day, other than a big headbutting match between Sky and Luna. You know it’s getting serious when Sky starts doing the buck routine, snorting and huffing and puffing and sniffing at Luna’s rear. Silly girls.
Had some visitors too, but they stayed on the side of the fence, just fed the goats. I lugged some logs around too. Just call me the Log Lasse. Nice summery day.
10/7 2024

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These are my logs. There are many like them but these ones are mine.
Okay, they’re the goats.
From the big willow score last week. Jeanette had wheelbarrowed the big ones over to the platform. I decided to drag them closer to us and see if I could do something with them. Easier said than done. The biggest one was so heavy that I couldn’t lift or drag it really. I had to raise it up to standing and push it over and then keep doing that until I was over by the fence here. For now I laid them out like this against the fence, something the oats can go on when visitors are at the fence. I’ll consider if there are better ways of using them.

10/7 2024

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Speaking of the willows, the goats are still working on them. Most of the leaves and a lot of the bark has been devoured. But they will probably be working on that for ages. When they get bored or hungry they’ll start climbing into the pile, looking for good bites.

10/7 2024

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Good goat times today. Lovely warm day. Up around 21C/69F. Humid again so it felt hotter. Lots of sun. Quite nice. Goats panting and lounging in the humid heat.
We had some nice visitors too. Three young boys, probably around 12-13, came by. A little older than the visitors we usually get in the morning. Jeanette was off shopping, but I let them in the pen so they could hang with the goats for a bit. One of the boys was really nice, he remembered me but I had to remind him of my name. But he was very sweet, he went and petted Sky and talked to her really sweetly. I don’t remember his name, but i’m pretty sure he’s been around before, being very sweet and friendly.
Later on we had some more regular kind of visitors, kindergarten/daycare kids. They got in the pen too and got to feed and pet the goats.
Sweet day. The only downside is that Jeanette is going on vacation now. She’ll be gone for three weeks. We’ll miss her. Hopefully everything will be fine in the goat pen, I always worry when she’s away. Not all the other staff is as caring and mindful and good with animals as she is. But it should be fine. Hope she has a nice vacation!
11/7 2024

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Beautiful day in the goaterhood.

11/7 2024

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Meditation in the goat pen, while Bella wonders what I’m doing and why it doesn’t involve giving her treats.
Oh and for those keeping score, I got an hour twenty in on the bike after coming home from goating. Good exercise.

11/7 2024

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12/7 2024

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Here’s a Luna berryfall for younknowwho
12/7 2024

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I don’t know how well you can see, but here Sky is working on a couple of trees that used to be standing next to the goat house entrance. Two long thing trees. We found them lying down on the ground one morning this week. I think the big storm that passed us actually felled them, I remember seeing stuff on the news about the storm bringing down trees in the morning before I left for the goats. They were pretty frail trees, but still surrpised to see them lying on the ground in the morning.

12/7 2024

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Looking for some flashbacks for the goat page and came across this one. It’s a little too short for a flashback post on the page, but I thought some o you might enjoy this bleat from Vanilje. And the end where she turns to the camera like “you better not be filming me”.
12/7 2024

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I love the sound of your hair when it falls down from the pillow late at night

13/7 2024

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Who’s hypnotizing whomst? Well, I’m getting sleepy anyway…

13/7 2024

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There are footprints in the clouds. Waves in the horizon. High tide in the night sky.n What fire do you glimpse through the pinhole stars?
13/7 2024

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Got an hour twenty five on the bike today. Hot and humid. Another little dip on the weight, trying to keep it going. I am kind of craving bread and noodles and stuff, but it’s addictive to see the pounds coming off. I will probably keep it going for another couple of weeks. And then I’ll let myself indulge in some of the things I’m missing. And then change focus to trying to maintain weight without depriving myself. I am still overweight, but my current level is pretty comfortable and if I suck in my gut I can look almost normal. Thank you to people who notice and comment on it. The trauma of being fat is still deep in me. I am sure it always will be. But it’s nice to be doing a bit better.
13/7 2024

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Btw, when I got on Facebook this morning they presented me with a survey they would like me to answer about the quality of Facebook. So I let them have a piece of my mind. Haha.
Well, I tried to answer it honestly. I don’t have any confidence that they’ll care or do anything about the answers, so I didn’t put too much time into it. But it was a pretty quick one anyway.
I get a lot of value out of Facebook, specifically you all everybodies. My life wouldn’t be the same without you. There are also huge problems with Facebook, both in technical ways and in societal ways. My main gripe is still the notifications. I don’t understand how a social media site can work without letting you know that people reply or comment to you. What’s the point? Like just now I scrolled down my page and saw bunches of comments from Roxanne, none of which I’d been notified of. It’s pointless if you have to constantly scroll down your own page and look at your own old posts over and over to see if there are new comments or replies. The point of a social media site is to be social. Well among other things. And it’s like the algorithm is trying to decide which people are important to you. There are people whose comments I’ll usually be notified of, and then there are people whomst I never get notified of. I don’t want Facebook to try to guess who is important to me. I want to read all comments I get. I guess if you’re a huge celebrity and you get thousand of comments it would be handy to have hte most important pointed out to you. But then have that as a setting .Allow users to get notified of all comments, some comments, top comments, whatever. I have gone through the notification settings and tried different setups, I have not found anything that gets me notified of all comments. Instead of notifications about comments to me I’ll get notifications of other people’s posts. And look, I love you all and I wish I was better at keeping up with everyone’s posts. But I don’t want to be notified that a friend posted something. That’s what I go into the newsfeed to see. I want the newsfeed to show me posts that my friends make and I want the notifications to tell me when I get something specifically meant for me personally, like a comment or reply or tag. Sometimes people post on my profile and I get no notification, I will only see it if I happen to scroll down to look at old posts. Urgh. It annoys me more than all the bugs. I still can’t write in comment or post fields, I have to write it in a text file or in the browser address bar and then copy it down into the comment or post field.
Ok ok. I’ll shut up. Sorry bout the rant. Sometimes I wish I could quit facebook, but then the couple of times recently when my account was temporarily blocked I panic at the thought of losing all of you and all the goat history and the only social life I really have, with humans.
Thank you for being here, is what i say.
13/7 2024

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Uh oh, I think Bella might be drunk.
13/7 2024

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Whoah. Shocking news tonight. Trump shooter? Not sure what to think about it but… luckily it doesn’t matter what I think. And it’s bedtime now.
Hey, maybe this will make America do something about the gun problem. I guess there were no good guys with guns around?
Ugh whatever.
14/7 2024

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14/7 2024

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If you tolerate this then your children will be next.
This song came on my exercise mix yesterday. While i was pumping the pedals in my head I was composing one of my usual political rants. About the state of the world, the state of America. Biden and Trump. In the end, after I got off the bike, i decided not to write it out and post it. Instead I posted a funny goat video. I wish I had that kind of restraint more often.
Like now. I shouldn’t be posting this. But hey, I love the song.
And then later, just as I was getting ready to go to bed, I saw the news of the attempt on Trump’s life. i wasn’t sure what to think at first, the video seemed really fishy. But at the same time, and get ready for the my once a decade positive remark on Trump, I couldn’t believe he’d fake an attempt on his own life. That would be TOO crazy. Even for this world. And now today seeing there are people dead and all, it’s hard to argue that it wasn’t real.
Not that there isn’t still lots to argue about and lots of bullsht to be said. I didn’t even get to bed before I saw the first repubs post about a DEMOCRAT ASSASSIN and Trump being a hero. Captain Bonespurs was on stage spewing hate and endless lies and someone shot at him, that doesn’t make him a hero.
It would be interesting if you could look into the magic mirror and see the alternate universe where Biden was shot. I guarantee the repubs would claim it was stages and the dems would claim it was a repub assassin. I wonder if Trump would reach out to Biden, like Biden has reached out to Trump. I suppose he’d have to, but I can’t imagine he’d be sincere. That’s just my prejudice talking of course.
Now more than ever I am convinced that Trump will easily win the presidency. Even on a level playing field, anger and hate and the feeling that you’ve been cheated will beat the ‘hope for a better world’. The dark side is always stronger. And now the wave of anger is stronger than ever and the wall of hope is fractured beyond belief. And with Project 2025 and Trump’s actual statements and so much else, I really fear for America. There was a time some years ago when I thought we would be heading for better times because well young people are more progressive right? Now the new generations are swallowed by the same old quicksandsht and with lifetime appointments and gerrymandering and a Trump with nothing to lose, how many generations before there will be any hope at all?
Oh well. When Putin comes knocking I’ll jump in my boat and row away.
I’ll shut up now,. I could go on forever. I’ll try not to post about politics. I’ll try to regain the restraint. I just feel so very sad about the world. The future’s bleak, you’re so last week.
🎶 So if I can shoot rabbits, then I can shoot fascists 🎵

14/7 2024

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Sky and Sonja hanging out. Love how Sonja lways wants to be with the goat crew.

14/7 2024

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That’s all for now.


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Losing, Weight

July 7th, 2024

If there is one thing Jesus taught us it is that you must never be meek. If you’re not shouting with a strong voice and hardhitting words then you’re not worth listening to.
All hail the golden idol and his shiny shoes.
30/6 2024

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I want to sleep, but I don’t want to go to bed. I want to eat, but I’m not hungry. I want to jump off a cliff, but my wings are bruised and restrained. I want to fight with tooth and nail, but I want to give up. Feeling pulled apart by horses.
Well, in two hours it’s another month. Bye June. Halfway through the year, time to get up the christmas decorations. Put the Christ It’s Too Soon back in Christmas.
tHanks everyone for being part of the circles and squares, the geometry of XistenZ.
30/6 2024

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Good goat times today. I needed that. Things have cooled down, around 17C(62F. A good deal of sunshine, and a brief rainshower as well.
It was a big day for the goats. I guess the city council was trimming the local vegetation and cut down a willow tree. Jeanette went back and forth and back and forth and back and forth, lugging branches with lots of tasty leaves into the goat pen. We got some bigger branches too and we’ll see if we can make some use out of those, something for the goats to climb on probably. But for now they were just delighted to have so much willow to munch on. Yum yum. Jeanette took like 10 trips, and she got help from some of our visitors too. A couple of kids proudly walking along with the wheelbarrow and carrying branches, throwing them in the pen. The goats will be snacking on all that for days. Lovely to see them working on that, and then settling down to relax when their bellies were full.
Now it’s time to fill my belly with some soup0.
1/7 2024

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The goats enjoying their bounty of willow. And this was just the first part, there was lots more to come.

1/7 2024

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Happy Canada day to my Canadian friends, eh.
Actually, happy Canada Day to all my friends.
I was just looking on twitter seeing more horrible American scotus stuff, and i actually caught myself thinking “maybe I should stop caring about America” because it seems like there’s no hope. Now of course that’s a pretty callous line of thought, and it’s not like you can just pick and choose what you care about it, in most cases. And knowing so many wonderful American friends mean I can’t not care. Also the fact that America is so important to the world and how it functions, means you can’t just ignore it.
But anyway, for a second there I was ready to say “screw America, I’m going all in on Canada now!”
I ‘m just joshing, you know I love you Murica. Most of you. some of you.
And I love you Canada. And all other countries. I love everything, everything is great. Everything’s going to be fine. What, me warty?
Countries aren’t really important to me, I’m not very patriotic either. But people are important to me, you people. So, happy day, people.
1/7 2024

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More willow snacking. We dragged some of the plentiful bounty over to the platform. Always good to give the goats something to do, having to work for it a bit.

1/7 2024

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2/7 2024

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Been feeling kind of poopy today. But I did get an hour and a half in on the bike, so that’s good. My legs were cramping all day. I guess I didn’t stretch enough yesterday, or maybe it was the lugging willow around that did it. My legs cramp a lot if I don’t stretch. I have tried extra hydration and magnesium and other stuff, but it doesn’t seem to do much good.
Been tired today too, almost dozing off on the bike. That thing when you catch yourself slipping slipping slipping.. kept doing that. But at least I didn’t fall off. And the weight was good afterwards, so that’s motivating.
But yeah, been kind of a tired and depressed and achy day. But tomorrow’s another day, hey oh hey oh.
2/7 2024

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On a sweeter note, aw Sky and Bella sitting together. The rivalry may be rising, but it’s good to see them bonding too. Bella sat down on the board first and the Sky came over to her. She’s been working on the willows and she got a willow branch stuck on her body so she ended up dragging it along, and sitting down with it, pretty funny. But sweet that she went and sat with Bella instead of on her own.

2/7 2024

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Good goat times today. Another cooler day, but we had a lot of sunshine which made it feel quite nice. And we had a busy day. Jeanette ‘warned’ me in the morning, there would be lots of visitors coming. Several groups of kids, from other playgrounds I think. Jeanette told me later on that I had been recognised. There was a group from our old playground, the Yogi ground. I don’t know if it was any people I had talked to, they didn’t come over to say hi. But they told Jeanette that they recognised me. So that was fun. Fame! Well, notoriety maybe.
But yes, lots of socializing today. Jeanette started the campfire going and I was left talking to a lot of the visitors. Luring goats over to the fence so they could have a closer look and pet them. Answering questions. Later on some of the kids came into the goat pen for upclose experiences. A couple of times we were asked if Sky pregnant. Nope, still not. One adult remarked “look, it’s making goat bonbons” to which a kid replied “Those are bonbons, they’re goat poop!”. Yup, a goat scholar indeed!
Lovely day with lots of happy visitors and goats on the best behaviour. I think the change that Jeanette made to only do the feeding over the fence and then no feeding when the kids come into the pen, that has made it all go a lot smoother. The goats behave a lot better when they’re not mugging for food.
Now who do I gotsta mug for some soup around here!?
3/7 2024

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Aw, Sky and Bella sitting together again. Always makes me happy. Their rivalry may be growing, but they’re getting closer too. Like two old ma’ams with their bratty Luna baby running around.

3/7 2024

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And aww again again. I hope you’re not sick of pictures of Bella and Sky sitting together, because i enjoy them. This time, unlike the other times, it was Bella who walked over to a sitting Sky and sat down next to her. The queen and the crown princess. What does that make Luna? The court jester?

3/7 2024

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The goaties working on some of the remaining willow goodness.

3/7 2024

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Happy furth of July to my American friernds, and their humans too. Hope it’s a good day and everyone stays safe. I know I talk shirt about you a lot, but it’s only because I care. And because I’m a jerk.
4/7 2024

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A new book report.
I finished Carrie, that was a pretty quick read. It’s a great idea, but it did feel a bit.. oldfashioned. Some of the ‘found media’ at the end dragged a bit, I guess that stuff was more novel at the time. It’s a classic and a beginning. I think if King had written it today he would have gone on for a lot longer, for better and worse. I read The Institute last year in which he also dealt with telekinetic kids. That one went a lot longer.
After that I went on to my first dip into the works of Harlan Ellison. I have for a long time been meaning to read I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream. Finally got to it. I was a little surprised that what I had was actually a short story collection. I think I knew that Mouth was a short stroy, but it was shorter than I had thought. After waiting for so long to get to it, it felt like it was over too quickly. I guess I had built it up a lot in my head. Just the title. I have always been fascinated by that title. In fact I first heard it back in the 90s when a computer game was released by that name, Ellison wrote on that one himself. It was a point’n’click adventure, a genre I have a deep love for. I never actually got to play the game back then, but from the first time I read it that title has stuck with me. It’s so evocative and brilliant. In fact it’s only a couple of days ago I think that I wrote on twitter “I have no mouth and I must eat soup”. I know, I’m very clever, I’m the Ellison of my generation. I’m also modest and good looking and have an almost fanatical devotion to the pope.
Aaanyway. Although I wish it had been longer, I did enjoy the story. In fact I enjoyed the whole collection, so I should probably read some more Ellison.
Now I have moved onwards to continue filling out the holes in early Stephen King works. Currently reading Rage, one of the Bachman books, and apparently somewhat controversial. I can see whay so far, with the school shooter motif. Although that kind of stuff can’t really be controversial anymore, right? It’s mainstream and accpted in America so. Again, happy 4th of July!
On the TV front I have started watching the new Star Wars show The Acolyte. The first episodes were a little mixed. I haven’t watched the one that just came out, but the one before that was really great, some of the light saber combat we’ve seen in Star Wars since.. well maybe the origianl movies. And Jason Mendoza is in it! I mean..Manny Jacinto. When I first saw him I couldn’t remember where I knew him from. It kind of blew my mind when I realised, it’s Jason from The Good Place! Oh boy. I love Jacinto, I love him in The Good Place and I love him in The Acolyte. He’s been really cool so far.
The main problem with The Acolyte is that it’s really grating on me how Star Wars has become cultural battleground. The Woke / Antiwoke war is raging and Star Wars fandom is more toxic than ever. The Acolyte has female, gay people, coloured people. I know, it’s an outrage! How dare they ! Disney ruined everything! I can accept giant space snails but black gay women who can use the force?! How unrealistic!
I could go on forever about some of the dumb coomplaints people have about the show, and Star Wars under Disney in genereal. But I’ll shut up now. I’m sad that this stuff is ruining some of my love for Star Wars. I miss the old days when it was just fun, instead of bigotry and stupidity. Disney has made mistakes, but the people who think George Lucas is infallible are whack. You can go all the way back to the first movie where you had twins in a romance and Vader being a lapdog to militiary personal, Kenobi talking sht some of which was planned to lies and some of which definitely wasn’t. From the very beginning Star Wars was full of plotholes and retcons and silly stuff. The franchise becoming inclusive and diverse is not making it worse.
No storrY I promised to shut up. Bortles!
4/7 2024

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5/7 2024

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Watch me move the camera with my amazing Force powers of my mind.
Or, maybe it was Luna.
5/7 2024

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Oh Luna. She’s such a sweetheart. She has started doing this new thing. When I’m sitting on the ground, which I like to do to be on goat level, she’ll walk over to me and stand next to me, but not just next to me. She’ll almost stand either on my legs or over my legs. It reminds me of how she will very often sit down right up against me. It’s like she just want to be near me, which is obviously a wonderful feeling.
When she stands like that with her body over my legs, I can just put my arms around her. And recently if I give her a little push down on the tush she’ll sit down in my lap. Usually when I have wanted lapgoat time iwth her I’d have to grab her and place her in my lap. But like this it’s like she just settles down in my lap on her own. She’s a doll.

5/7 2024

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Got an hour twenty on the bike today. Worn down legs. But great result on the scales afterwards. Getting close to the lowest weights I ever had in the time since I started noting it down in 2013. Down 30ish pounds since November now. So that’s pretty alright. Haven’t had a bad blood sugar measuring since I dropped bread. So that’s motivating, on a cold and depressed day. Keep on keeping a fish called Wanda.
6/7 2024

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Hey Keiko, this is the Willard Scott clip I mentioned the other day. It even has a strawberry appearance!
6/7 2024

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pending the night listening to some Rob Hubbard, as you do.
And if you don’t know who he is, then you probably didn’t have a Commodore 64 in the 80s or 90s. And look, I wish I could fix you. But some things are beyond even my powers.

6/7 2024

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goatlog

7/7 2024

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Hanging on to Luna.

7/7 2024

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One with Bella.

7/7 2024

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Oh Lost.
I miss those beach scenes. Lost is my favourite show of all time, I love the whole run, even the ending. I love the craziness and the offtherailkness. But there was something special about that season 1. When it was so new and fresh, it was an ensemble cast, they were just castaways on a strange island. The mysteries were just little things building. What’s in the hatch, what’s the sound in the jungle, was Ethan not on the plane?! Later on it went nuts with time travel and alternate dimensions and all that craziness. There is a part of me that wishes the show could have stayed more like that, more grounded. The first season was simpler and magical. It was the most expensive pilot too, I don’t know if that record still stands. But it was just.. special. I don’t think any tv show, or anything else, will capture that feeling it gave me back then. It’s a different time now, a different world, a different me.
When I’m done with the Twin Peaks rewatch I think I’ll start a lost rewatch. It’s been too many years since I last watched it. I need to go back.

7/7 2024

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That’s all for now.


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