The Return

May 19th, 2024

Good goat times today. Gorgeous day. Powering sunshine and up near 20C/68F. For Denmark that’s legit summer temps. Although there was a bit of a wind to keep it breezy.
Naturally, on a day like that, we just did a lot of lounging around. Tired goaties in the sunshine.
Luna dozed off with her head on my leg. She made the cutest little mewling sound in her sleep, sounded like a little baby. So darn adorable.
We had some nice visitors too, kids who came into the pen and got to pet the goats. Just a lovely, quiet day.
Came home from shopping with a heavy bag of fruits and veggies. Going to give it a go this week. Cutting out the last bad habits of eating. Cucumbers, tomatoes, carrots and apples instead. We’ll see how that goes.
Still soup though. Always room for soup.
13/5 2024

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Relax

13/5 2024

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Got my Luna.

13/5 2024

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I am tempted to make a Lasse version of that “look at this photograph” meme but with a goat in the photo.
Lasse on Facebook:
Look at this goat photo
13/5 2024

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forgot to post this goatlog I think

14/5 2024

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Phew. An hour twenty five on the bike today. This was a tough one, for a couple of reasons. Firstly it’s another hot day. Upwards of 20C/68F again and the sun beaming into my apartment, along with the spaceheater. I love exercising in the heat. Second, my legs were tired because I’ve een exerising hard lately. And third, I was hungry to the point of feeling like I was going to pass out almost. I can really feel that I’ve changed my diet the last couple of days. No bakged goods at all, mostly green stuff. And I didn’t eat or drink anything all day before the exercising. So it was a fight against low energy and strained legs. But it felt good. The harder it is the more I enjoy it. To quote my Grindr profile.
14/5 2024

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Well, out of the blue I got a text from an old classmate. Turns out our class is having a 30 year reunion at the end of August.
Thirty years since we left school. Can you believe it? I can’t.
Now I know you’re all going to yell at me, but I unfortunately have declined to attend. I just.. can’t. It’s too bad, I really would like to see everyone and hear how everyone has gotten on and so on and so forth. My social phobia and anxiety and blindness is just too much. I can’t go to restaurant and be around people. It is too difficult for me. I would have a reunion with goats any day, but humans are too hard.
I’m sure I’m going to regret not going, I already do. I mentioned recently that I still often dream about old classmates. We spent 9 formative years together most of us, and I haven’t had a lot of people like that since those days. In my head we are all still 15. I hope they’re all doing well and will have a good reunion and I told him to say hi to everyone from me.
I wouldn’t be too keen on being THAT guy at the reunion either. The weirdo loser who never amounted to anyone. I got good to great grades in school, I don’t know how aware they all were of my issues. I was fat and awkward, that was apparent. Not participating much in social things. Rarely went to parties. But it was beyond just that. I remember forcing myself to get to school early so I could be the first in the classroom in the mornign because going into a classroom full of people, even people I knew and liked, was just difficult. i had some good friends, my school days weren’t a nightmare. But yeah there was always something wrong with me. I don’t mind being a weirdo loser, I just prefer being a weirdo loser in my own bubble, if you know what I mean.
I would go if it weren’t for the anxiety and dread of humans, though. I can barely go to a restaurant with my family, I’ve turned down the last few times we were all going. I just can’t deal with social situations, and a big group of people like that, it would just be too much.
I wish I could though. Wonder what they are all doing now. Probably super busy being really normal and having good lives. Bastards! Just kidding, I hope they’re all doing great. The world is a different place now. Everything is different, and so are we.
So that was a glimpse into my mind. It’s a messy place.
14/5 2024

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Thank you everyone for the kind and thoughful comments on the reunion post.
Here’s a little cuteness from Luna. Not the mewling baby sound she made in her sleep, but another couple of little sounds from her.
14/5 2024

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Feeling tired and depressed today. Maybe it’s the lack of pizza. Well, I trudge along. Thankful for goats and good people. One day a day.
15/5 2024

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Think goat thoughts, with Luna.

15/5 2024

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Good goat times today. Another bloody gorgeous day. Sunshine and 20C/68F ish. Summerly loveliness. The forecast says it will last for a bit, here’s to hoping.
As always when the sun is beaming down on us, we spent a lot of time relaxing and lounging around. But we did get out and did some exercise too. Running with the goats. It’s been a while since we had a good run around in the pen. Sky was in fine form, usually she’s the one hanging back the most on her old legs. But she was speeding back and forth. Lots of fun. And we had sweet visitors too, kids talking to the goats and to me. And I brought pumpkin seeds today so we had a pumpkin seed party. This time I tried putting them on the plywood board that I dragged over to the mountain recently. And that seemed to work very well, the goats were happy to eat off of it, and it’s big enough that they can all have a go at it without anyone being pushed off the platform or the table like the previous times. Altough Luna did have to run around to get her chances. Sky loves those pumpkin seeds, even pushing Bella out of the way several times. She’s usually not too bossy with Bella, but when it’s pumpkin seeds.. all bets are off.
Lovely May days.
16/5 2024

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Sky’s favourite place to sit today. Basking in the sunshine.

16/5 2024

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Pumpkin seed party!

16/5 2024

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Not just goat times today. Managed an hour twenty on the bike when I got home. it’s always challenging and rewarding when I get on the bike after a goat trip.
Afterwards I measured my blood sugar and for the first time in I think years it was .. good. Great, in fact. It’s been okay at best for a long time, and too high in the longterm measurings, which is why I’ve been at the doc and been working on the diet and exercising. I can’t remember the last time I saw the levels being in the lowest end of the normal range. I hope that’s a breakthrough, and not just a fluke.
I have good cucumbers and tomatoes now and I’m really enjoying them. Tastes gooood. And I’m sure it’s eating that instead of my usual diet that’s helped the blood sugar. The downside though is.. for the last week or so I’ve been struggling with constipation again. Yes, there’s always something isn’t there. I’m sure it’s because I’m not getting enough fiber. On days when I haven’t eaten soup I have basically lived off cucubmer and tomato and carrot and apple. I tried adding some rye bread yesterday, just without the usual butter and cheese or other toppings. Didn’t seem to help much.
Well, we’ll see how it goes. I guess I’ll try adding more fiber if I can. Not necessarily intending to live on this diet forever, but if I can drop a few more pounds and get my blood sugar to stay where it is, then that would be a good thing. Maybe use some sugarfree bonbons to clear out the blockage a couple of times a week. Just for a bit.
Anyway, I’m loving the maters and cukes. I can see why the goats love them. Although the enjoy them all year round, I only enjoy them in the sunny seasons.
16/5 2024

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Widowed men and sending Facebook friend requests, name a more iconic duo.
17/5 2024

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Guess what I did today?
I bought a computer game. For the first time in many many many. Many. Years.
I bought Return To Monkey Island.
I have been meaning to buy it for a long time. Back in the 90s I played and loved Monkey Island 1 and 2. In fact Monkey Island 2 is close to being my favourite computer game of all time. Probably only beaten by Goal! and Ultima 7. I absolutely loved that game, so funny. Brilliant point’n’click advenures. A genre that has died a slow death over the decades. But in the 90s it was king. And then the original creators of Monkey Island left the company, LucasArts, and the companty released more sequeles. But I never really liked those and I was unhappy with how they more or less retconned the ending of MI2. So when the original creators came back a few years ago to realease their own sequel to the original Monkey Island games, well that was right eup my alleay.
Except for the part where I can’t really play games anymore. If I had still had my eyesight I would have been so ecstatic to get a proper followup to Monkey Island 2.
But I still wanted to buy it, if nothing else than to support the creators. As I said, adventure games are not really profitable these days. And I figured buying the new game would go some way to make up for the fact that I pirated the original games back in the day. I owed them money!
Anyway. I bought the game and installed it. Loaded it up and expected to not be able to play it at all. But, I can play it a little I think. Maybe. The good thing about adventure games is that they’re no action, you don’t need reflexes and quick perception. You can stare a static screen for as long as you want and decide what to do. I wish there were some more options to enhance accessibility, get more contrast etc. but it’s not completely unplayable to me. I have managed to play through the prologue of the game, with a little help from a walkthrough online. I might decide to try to play the whole game, and just get help from the walkthrough when I inevitably can’t solve a lot of the puzzles because I can’t see forest for the trees. Like in the prologue there’s a wishing well and you know you have to find a coin and throw it in there. I didn’t realise that the coin was literally right next to the well and I just couldn’t see it. Only when I read in the walkthrough that the coin was supposed to be right there, I looked and looked and looked until I found it.
But I still think i want to try to experience the story. I haven’t played computer games in decades. When I was a kid it was such a big part of my life.
If you read my diaryland 20 years ago you should recognise the dancing monkeys .Gif from the Monkey Island 2 intro. That music still hits me right in the memberballs.

17/5 2024

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Time for a media report, feel free to skip if you don’t care what I’m listening and watching.
I have decided to broaden my Twin Peaks rewatch to include the bokos. At least the two modern ones by Mark Frost, The Secret History Of Twin Peaks and The Final Dossier. There’s some debate on whether they’re canon to the story. Lynch and Frost made the show together but the books are just Frost and Lynch seems to disregard them. Still, I enjoyed them when I first read them and they’re not too long. So i’m going to read them again before I start season 3 The Return.
I finished reading Russ Tamblyn’s memoir, and it was af fascinating and entertaining read. He really is a fascinatnig person. He started out saying how he had to leave stuff out because it wasn’t appropriate in this day and age. Some of the stuff that made it in was wild enough. Driving around. Riding around with Paul Newman in the tunk of his car. Haha. Of course to me that stuff about Twin Peaks was most interesting. There wasn’t too much, but it was cool to read. The story behind Dr Jacoby’s Red and Blue lensed glasses. Yes, for those who don’t know. When I recently wrote about dyeing my eyebrows red and blue, it was in homage to Tamblyn’s character Dr Jacoby on Twin Peaks. An eccentric psychiatrist who worse unglasses with one red and one blue lens. Now I can’t do that because I need my dark filter glasses. So I thought it would be fun to dye my eyebrows red and blue. The reactions on that post ranged from NO DON’T to DO IT DO IT. Haha. Unfortunately I’m not brave enough to ACTUALLY do it. I can’t stand attention from humans, i’m not flamboyant enough to do something that attention seeking. But I wish I was, because I think it could have been fun.
Now started reading Haruki Murakami’s First Person Singular. When I first discovered him I started reading all I could from him, but then eventually I had to stop myself and leave some unread so I had some of his work to look forward to. Now it’s time to read that one. After that I hope to have my hands on the new Stephen King short story collection coming out. That’s the plan.
Tonight I’m going to watch the season finale of Sugar. Looking forward to that. Just wish there were more episodes than 8. I hope it gets another season. I wouldn’t be surprirsed if it gets cancelled. That big twist they did is the kind of thing that will piss a lot of people off. You can see it in the online discussions. There are people who are angry at it. And then there are people like me who love it. But I hope we get more.
Currently listening to Frank Turner’s new record Undefeated. The last year and more 90% of the music I have been listening to is FT live shows. I need to listen more and get to know the new record, but my impression so far is that it’s not quite as brilliant as the previous stuff. There are some gems, and it’s not bad. But it’s not quite as devastatingly vital as the earlier stuff. Maybe I just need to find some live shows with the new material. I love listening to live shows.
Of course I have to find some time to try and play Return to Monkey Island too now.
That’s where we are now.
17/5 2024

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For the premium subscribers, here’s a little preview of a future video. Sky running so fast that she slides to the ground.
Maybe she should be playing baseball. Sky slides into first!
17/5 2024

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I am a passenger
18/5 2024

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For the oremium subscribers, a little Behind The Scenes clip, Bella rolling around while the cameraman is setting things up.
18/5 2024

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Phew. An hour twenty five on the bike today. It’s a hot day. Up around 23C/73F which is very hot for Denmark. I almost considered not turning on the space heater. But I braved the risk of heatstroke, turned on the heather and put on my raincoat and got going. Feels good.
Another good blood sugar reading afterwards. Little higher than last, but still in the low end of the normal range, lower than I’ve had for years. Despite the fact I forgot to take my meds this morning, whoops. I usually remember. But that’s encouraging. Keep on keeping keepkeep keep me once fool on me keeeeeeeaaaahn!
18/5 2024

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Well, how long did it take for the new replacement camera to take a fall?
Not too long. Thankfully it seems to have survived without any ill effects. I really can’t afford to have to replace another camera.
This time it seems no goats were guilty. It was the wind. Unless a goat farted on it. I have my suspects..
18/5 2024

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goatlog

19/5 2024

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Phew phew. An hour twelve on the bike today. I wanted to try doing it two days in a row. Haven’t done that since I started up again, and would only rarely do it in the past. The legs need restoration rest. But it’s a holiday in Denmark and my schedule is a little mixed up so I thought i’d give it a go. It was even hotter today too. I am beat, and my legs are murder. Murder, I wrote.
But I enjoy the exertion. And got another perfect blood sugar reading aftewards. Three in a row. Maybe I have cracked the code on that, let’s hope. Didn’t see as good a result on the weight as I had hoped. Maybe the constipation issue is keeping my belly full of weight. Let’s say that. I am not sure how long I’ll go with the current diet. Seems to be great for the blood sugar, but I probably want to add some bread and other stuff back in at some point. We’ll see. I’m loving the cucumbers and tomatoes a lot. It would probably be a good idea to cut back on the soup. Eating less. Not less often, but less volume. Because when I eat soup I cook up a whole pot that could feed a family. Don’t judge me, hatters gon hat.
Anyway. At least I’m working on things. If the blood sugar highs, I mean lows, continue then I probably won’t have to get new meds, as I’ve been talking to the doc about. That would be nice.
Now it’s soup time. Big soup.
19/5 2024

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Big tired Bella energy right now. Can’t wait for bedtime.

19/5 2024

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That’s all for now.


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Whose On First

May 12th, 2024

Good goat times today. A light rain, and colder than last week. That’s Danish spring for you.
The goats were a little less rambunctious thatn normal. I think someone had overfed them during the weekend. There was still food in their bowls when I got there, and Jeanette said the bunnies had been overfed too. Someone needs instructions on how to do the feeding..
So their appetite was less ravenous than normal, but they all seemed fine enough. They did want treats and cucumber and apple and tomato. Maybe I should whip them up a salad some time.
We had some sweet visitors too, kids in the pen petting the goats. One lady asked if Sky was pregnant. It’s been a while since we had that one! No, she’s just.. well fed.
Aren’t we all. Aren’t we all.
Well, I mean on the priviliged continents.
6/5 2024

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Here’s little miss Well Fed. Sky got quite bleaty today too. Maybe in heat. She got screamy later on. Someone needs a boyfriend. Then maybe we could have another answer to the ‘is she prgnant’ questions.

6/5 2024

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If any of you are interested in how my goat journey began, well up on the page is my first goat video ever and some history.
It’s funny how life goes sometimes. Growing up I was interested in exotic animals, like from Afria. But not domestic, rural animals. I was scared to death of dogs and I had no idea goats were anywhere else but farms in the country.
And then I got a camera. A digital camera. Such a novelty. I don’t remembe specifically why I got it. I wasn’t big into phorography. Some school vacations I had a camera with me and took pictures. But nothing other than that.
But then I got the digitcal camera that I could take with me around. That was back before I was retired on disability, so I was outside (theoretically) on a daily basis. And i’d start to take detours to find things to take photos of. And then I realised there were goats practically in my neighbourhood and I started going by there and taking some photos and well, the rest is goatstory.
But it’s funny how that old camera could make 15 second videos with no sound, 320×240 resolution 15fps. Now I have a camera that does 1920×1080, 60fps. If I got the newer model it could do 4k. Technologoy, am I right? And people’s smartwatches have infinitely more computing power than the Commodore 64 that my dad and I brought home that one faithful night. And when you see clips on the news of kids in school they sit at rows of computers, meanwhile when I was in school we had ‘computer time’ maybe once a month in the designated computer room where we’d sit 3-4 kids at one big clunky computer and do basic word procesing. And no one had a phone, you’d be lucky if you had a walkman and a cassette tape with songs you taped from your ghetto blaster.
WHY AM I SO OLD. And what are kids growing up today, what’s their world going to look like when they’re forty? If there is one. Maybe all that’s left is a bunch of AI sweeping away the dust of decomposed humans. War. War never changes. Just saw a news headline about Russia and nuclear weapons. Everything’s fine. Wait, what was I taking about? Oh yeah 2004 and goats. We survived Y2k, I’m sure we’ll survive nuclear war and the orange grifter jesus dictator. Everything’s copesetic. We’re not scaremongering this is really happening.
Alright, well enjoy the silent 15 second video of Mads, whomst was called “Blackie” in the filename because I didn’t know his name yet when it was filmed. Mads, Mathilde and Magnethe. That’s where it all began, who knows where I’f be without them. In the black lodge with Cooper maybe, write it in your diary.
6/5 2024

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Luna and the tick.

6/5 2024

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Got an hour forty on the bike today. A valiant effort, if I may say so myself. Easy rider, headlights pointed at the dawn. One rotation of the pedals at a time.
It’s almost t-shirt weather. I am never going to be slim or well proportioned. But it’s nice to be able to fit into the shirt at least. We’re all just particles racing around nucleii, moons around the planets, planets around the sun, swirly chocolate vanilla milkyways. No wonder I feel dizzy. I need some velcro boots.
Anyway, carry on.
7/5 2024

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Happy Tongue Out Sky Day everyone.

7/5 2024

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goatlog

8/5 2024

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Good goat times today. It’s Ascension day! I guess. A holiday, so we had more kids than usual. There were kids on the sportsfield next door, doing soccerball training. And a group came to see the goats too. No Jeanette today, but Maja was there and took some kids into the pen and they all had good time. We had a little butt inspector, bending down and looking right up at Bella’s rear. Laughing the whole time. Lots of laughter in the pen, they got a little loud, but the goats handled it all well.
Bella also continued her mission to destroy all cameras. I got the new replacement camera going and it’s been going well. Those cameras have a real problem with wind in the microphone though. I have to glue something onto the microphone out. I put a sponge thing on it and it’s been working well. But today Bella decided to just take a bite out of it. She tore it halfway off. Grrumble. Had to glue it back on when I came home, hopefully it won’t worsen the audio quality too much. That darn Bella.
Then I came home and did an hour on the bike, which was tough going. I went hard last time and today after being out with goats, my legs were just dead and I was really tired. I I think I got close to passing out or falling asleep a few time. But I got it done. Very tired now. Must have soup.
9/5 2024

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Lunaface.

9/5 2024

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I got a Syrian miliary person on the goat page trying to get me to help him traffick a large sum of money out of the country. I am sure I’ll receive a handsome rewards. I’m having a lot of fun trying to convince him to spend the money helping people in Syria, they need all those millions way more than Denmark. Imagine all the good you can do for the people in need in your own country! So far it does not seem like this person is very receptive to my charitable ideas. A shame, since that absolutely real money definitely could do a lot of good for a lot of people.
In other news, the last few days I’ve been getting more and more posts on my personal profile tagging me in what seems to be videos of b rest feedie ng videos? Thankfully facebook holds them for review so they don’t appear on my page. Maybe that’s got something to do with why my account got blocked for ‘unusal activity’. But I mean it’s not my fault if crooked people tag me in inappropriate videos. I’m sure the links are full of viruses and stuff. I can barely be bothered blocking them anymore since they seem to just keep coming. Humans are weird.
9/5 2024

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Got my 23 And Me results back, turns out I’m 90% soup and 10% shts and giggles.
9/5 2024

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Finished my rewatch of Twin Peaks season 2. Man that finale is just something else. Surely one of the best episodes of TV ever made. It scared me less than it has on previous occasions. Although the strobe effects in the Black Lodge are still creepy as fork.
And then that cliffanger. That for so long seemed like it would be the end. Until Season 3, 25 years later. I am looking forward to getting started on that. I have only watched The Return once, when it first aired. It will be nice to watch it again, and this time with the context of freshly watching the old episodes.
First though I have to watch the prequel movie, Fire Walk With Me. I have watched it before, but to be honest I’m not sure if I have watched it more than once. And this time I’ll be watching the fan edit that includes the Missing Pieces deleted scenes. So that will be a four hour movie. And if my memory, and internet discussion, it is a much darker watch without much of the quirky goodness of the TV show. My only real memory of it is a scene where the Tremonds, I believe, give Laura a painting and then at night she .. goes into it.. I remember that scene freaking me out so much back in the day. Rewatching the movie may be traumatic, we’ll see. I supposed when i’m done with Fire Walk With Me and The Return I oughta watch David Lynch’s movies. Because there are actually several of his movies I have never watched, which is kind of crazy when you consider how much I love his work. I guess instead of this being just a Twin Peaks rewatch it’ll be a Lynch marathon for me. That should be cool.
To conclude this pointless post, a non Lynch thing. A song from today’s exercise mix, one that I love a lot.

9/5 2024

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Oh yeah one more note on Twin Peaks (sorry). Something I noticed rewatching this time is that I really love Ed and Norma. On previous watchings of the series it was Shelly, Donna, Audrey that caught my eye. But now, I just think Normak is so pretty. And warm. And her and Ed are so darn likeable. I’m not sure if it’s because i’m older that I see that warmth and likeability as so much more attractive. I just want them to be happy together. Reminds me a little of Rose and Bernard on Lost. I have mentioned before how their brief appearance as a happy couple when everyone else is timetraveling and fighting and everytihng was nuts, and Rose and Bernard just said F it and retired to a cabin with the dog. Sweet, happy, likeable people not fighting for the world or the future or idiology, just living their lives and being happy together. There’s something to be said for that.
Anyhoo. Thanks for coming to my (T)ed (and Norma) Talk.

9/5 2024

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All my Twin Peaks talking and watching paid off. The Giant / The Fireman visited me in my dreams last night. It was a pretty goofy dream, it wasn’t a Twin Peaksy nightmare. But that’s fine. I was just happy to be visited.
10/5 2024

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The babysitter is relaxing on the couch while the kids are fighting.

10/5 2024

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I’m thinking of dying my left eyebrow blue and my right eyebrow red. Thoughts?
10/5 2024

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I have descended from pure air. Got an hour twentyfive on the bike today. Tired legs. But good sun in my back and a fair effort. I will reward myself with soup now, and so the cycle continues.
11/5 2024

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I saw they’re making a new Lord Of The Rings Movie. The Hunt For Gollum? Hmm. I can only assume it’s a gritty crime procedural about the manhunt for Smeagod, prime suspect in the brutal killing of Deagol. With Gandalf as Columbo, see it writes itself.
11/5 2024

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Beware the dreaded Sky snake.

11/5 2024

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Happy Mother’s Day to all the lovely mothers in my life.
12/5 2024

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A goofy Luna hug.

12/5 2024

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That’s all for now.


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