meltdowns

June 3rd, 2019

Hey blog, long time no see. Had a big computer meltdown. Here we go, back with Facebook archiving.
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Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone.

13/5 2019

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Look at all the littles sitting together. Milo and Sky side by side of course. I’m surprised they sat that close to Sassy. Only missing Lily, who’s inside in the shadows.

13/5 2019

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It’s time to take a stand. Against dreamcatchers. They are unethical. I believe in freerange dreams. FREE THE DREAMS. This joke has gone on too far enough
13/5 2019

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Here’s something funny that happened just before Gabi and family arrived on Saturday. A mother (I think) and a couple of kids were coming towards the goats. But then the kids got a bit scared and started running away. The goats blocked this girls way… so she went to the kindergarten fence and climbed over it to get to safety! Haha. I was impressed. I never though I’d see someone climb that fence. Good thing she managed to escape the vicious goats of doom.

13/5 2019

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Currently reading a Robin Williams biography. A great read. And it’s fascinating to live in a time when you can read about his horrible obscure film debut, and then go look it up on the youtubes.

13/5 2019

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Take me to the raisin store, and make it snappy

13/5 2019

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Hey everyone. If you’re wondering where I’ve been… I had a catastrophic computer meltdown. It is gone. Currently at my parents place. To update the facebox. And look at buying a new computer.
This is really bad. You have no idea. I can’t deal with this stuff. I am stressed and depressed beyond belief.
I’ve been wanting a new computer, and I can afford a new computer. But it’s going to be impossible to get things back to normal. I have so many special settings and programs and stuff, recreating that will be a nightmare. Problably impossible. I don’t even know if you can run Windows 7 on modern computers. And even if you can W7 is retired next January, I really ough to go Windows 10 now. But that’s a whole new nightmare. And I’d just rather die than deal with all this.
Haha, let me be overdramatic. I need to let off the steam. A month from now this will be the past and everything will be fine. Right now i’m just very sad.
At least data loss should be minimal, because I keep good backups. I may lose a few goat videos from the last week. But most of it is fine.
I just can’t handle change. I need routine and predictability. I was supposed to be having fun with goats, not dealing with this. It’s just a stark reminder of how fragile my little dumb life is, with the computer out I’m bombed back to complete isolation. Spent all yesterday working on the computer. Not sure exactly what the issue is, but it is completely fatal.
Anyway. I guess I gotta go computer shopping now. Not sure when I will be back. I do have a cheap Windows 10 test system at home. I abandoned it because W10 is an abomination and I just can’t with that. I don’t even know if it boots anymore, but maybe I can get online with that somehow. Otherwise I’ll have to wait for a new pc. Probably. I don’t know. I just want to sleep and hope it all goes away. Thans for listening, love you, hope you’re all doing fine. See you on the other side.
15/5 2019

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Hey everyone. Back at my parents place for a little update.
Got my cheap Windows 10 test system up and running. I wasn’t sure it would work. It’s a cheap refurbished demo model. Bought it a year ago. Booting it literally once, was so disgusting with Windows 10 that I never booted it again. But it still runs. I spent time yesterday looking through settings, trying to fix some of the worst privacy and accessibility issues. Later today I will try hooking it up to the interwebs. In theory it oughta work. Although I’m a little worried that when I connect online windows update will want to install years worth of updates, ruining my settings, killing everything, maybe it’ll insist on activation since it’s not activated yet. But in theory I should be able to get online at home later today. We’ll see.
Meanwhile, I have started inquiries on getting a new computer. To be honest I’m a little excited about getting a new, better computer. And I guess I’ll have to get on Windows 10 sooner or later. Maybe it’s time to just… let go. Stop worrying so much about privacy and security. Just let Windows handle it. Let Microsoft pwn me and suckle at my information teats.
We’ll see. I’m in dialogue with a webshop, trying to get an idea of how to put together the best system for me.
I might consider getting a tech guy out to look at my Win7 pc. But the very idea revolts me. And I’m not sure it’s worth it. It’s old a nd failing in many ways, and Windows 7 expires in January. I was kinda planning on just keeping Windows 7 even though it wouldn’t get security updates anymore. But at this point… all things point at biting the bullet and going Windows 10, with a new swanky fast silent energy saving pc. I do like that idea. I will do more testing on my test system. Seeing if I can get the programs and features I depend on working there. So I can feel confident about updating.
I’m going to go read comments, sort some things, look some stuff up, check my email to see if the webshop replies. Thank you for paying attention to me, I know all our lives revolve around me me me!
ps still reading Robin Williams biography. Did you know he was offered the role of the Joker in the Batman movie, that went to Nicholson? Imagine a Robin Williams Joker.. that’d be interesting.
16/5 2019

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Hey folks. Just a quick update.
Before I get into rambling, I want to make sure to express my grattitude. Thanks you alls. I appreciate you. It means a lot to me that so many good people choose to be part of my life. I really feel the absence of you all when I’m cut off from the webs.
So I just wanted to make sure to tell you that.
It’s scary that there is a part of me that could see the appeal of isolation again. Sitting in front of the tv, zapping through channels. That could be my life again. Watching tv all day, no interaction with anyone, eating unhealthy, dying alone and forgotten. It’s an empty life, but empty is easy. So easy. Once you start filling your life it gets complicated and harder. I don’t know how you people with real lives and kids and mortgages and cars and investment portfolios deal with it all. Anyway. I am glad I don’t have to take the isolation again. Even though it’s easy, it’s also very sad. I am so glad you guys are out there to complicate my life. I am so glad I get the chance to make people smile with the goats, being part of good communities, good friends. Thank you.
Now, I am going to head off to see the goats. The other complications. I seriously need some goat time. If you know the feeling of goat therapy you know how the bad stuff just melts away. I need that right now. A head full of worry and pain. I just need a little break.
So today is goat day. Later it’s the Danish cup final in soccerball and my club is taking part. So I’ll watch that and then probably go to bed early and try to dream away worries as well. Then the weekend I will spend testing the Win 10 tester machine. Trying to get everything that I need to work working. Getting used to stuff. Settings. Programs. Getting the machine online. And if all goes well, I hope to order a new computer Monday or Tuesday. Then there will be 1-3 days for deliver. And maybe a couple of days more to setup the new pc before I take it online. I hope maybe to be back to a new normal at the end of next week. I’m not in that much of a hurry. I want to make sure I get it right. The new computer should hopefully outlive me. I’m paranoid about forking it up and making expensive mistakes. So, I’ll take my time. Hopefully I’ll be able to get the tester machine online tomorrow so I can be somewhat online during the week.
So yeah, that’s the plan. Wish me luck. I’ll tell the goats you all miss them too, right?
Shoutout to my parents for letting me crash their place and use their computer. Their computer is an old Windows 7 system of mine. It is chugging along and I can feel it needs replacement too. If I manage to get along with Windows 10 somewhat, maybe I’ll buy my parents a new Win10 PC and set it up for them as a thank you for all they do.
PS. Last night I dreamt of a huge apartment block with windows full of people dressed completely in black. And I was joking with someone that wouldn’t it be funny if it was a building completely full of Zorros? ok.
17/5 2019

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Hey everyone. I’m online at home. Woop woop. That wasn’t too hard, I have been spending the last couple of days testing the Windows 10 test system. Pouring through settings, getting my programs ported from the old computer. So far things are going fairly well. Most of the stufff I need to work is working. Some fine tuning is still required, but I’m cautiously optimistic. Now I need to test the stuff that requires an internet connected to work. I’ll get started on that shortly, and my hope is that if things keep going well then I’ll put in the order for the new PC tonight. Hooves crossed all goes well. And now that I have a computer online at home I can start to feel a little connected to the world again. I won’t be online as normal just yet, though. This chair, this keyboard, this monitor, the glare from the sun. It’s not very comfortable to sit here and compute. But I can check in while I’m doing more testing. And I should put up a goat post on Mia’s page too.
So far things are going according to plan. Here’s to hoping it will continue. Talk to you soon.
19/5 2019

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Thanks everyone for being totes hawsome! I am lucky to know such good people. Again, I am thankful that you complicate my life with your human beings. For humans, you’re pretty neat. Looking forward to getting back into the swing of things.
I tell you what, I am really glad I have this test computer too. It seemed like a waste of money at the time. Booted it once, was so disgusted with Windows 10 that for the next year it stood untouched in the windowsill like a millenial house plant or art decor. Haha. But it has helped me so much that I’ve had it now. I feel better about having to get on Windows 10 now. Even though there are lots of issues and lots of stuff that I’ll have to get used to. But I’m feeling better about, and more confident that I can make stuff work. So that’s good.
It’s exciting to get a new computer, but It’s also scary because it’s such a big purchase. I’m just worried about things going wrong. But hopefully it will go fine.
I know it’s silly, but I’m actually quite excited about naming my new computer and hard drives and all. My old Windows 7 computer was Lost themed. The computer was named Smokey, “this computer” was named “the island”, the C drive was Jacob, I had a J drive named Jack, an L drive named Locke, my main working drive was the Swan station and most of my external backup drives were named after Dharma stations, the Lamp Post, The Flame, etc. I enjoyed that.
I was considering having my new computer be Middle-earth themed. Name everything after dwarves, elves and hobbits. But on second thought, I am going with one of my oldest loves. Star Wars. Can you guess what I’m going to call my new computer? I’ll give you a hint. It’s a green model. Energy efficient. What’s a green Star Wars model? Yoda, of course. My new computer is going to be called Yoda. And “This computer” will be called A Galaxy Far Far Away. And my C drive shal be Coruscant. And D will be Dagobah. And E wil be Endor. And I need a Tatooine drive on T:. My internet connection sthall be called The Force, because everything flows through the force.
Mwaha. I know it’s sad, but this amuses me. Please don’t fork it up for me, unirverse. Maybe the force be with this computer.
19/5 2019

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‘s done. I have ordered my new PC. It’s scary and exciting. Wish me luck!
Yoda, the elte green model PC, is a pretty beefy beast. Although getting a new beefy PC is less fun when you’re not a gamer anymore. I remember when I ordered my Windows 7 PC. It was state of the art and it could run Oblivon at full top specs awyeah.
My new computer is not a gaming rig, but for my needs it’s a pretty good model. And I’m happy that it’s a green model. It’ll be 3-4 days at least before I get it, and probably a couple more before I’m ready to really use it fully. But we’re on our way.
13/5 2019

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I had a trippy scifi dream in which there was a giant distortion wall and we ran into it and split ourselves in two and time split in two and we had to keep running to try to keep up with our other selves and tiime.
Cool.
Have a good week everyone.
20/5 2019

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Good goat times today. So good. When I went on Friday it was a rainy day. Good company, but not as fun. Today was lovely, warm and sunny. I think it was past 20C/70F which is what I consider summerly. And everything is green now, so the goats enjoy being let out. They were a little nervous this morning though. Kids were marching by on the path beside their pen, and they were making lots of noise. I think they were blowing whistles. And there was someone with a loudspeaker somewhere chanting. I think it was some kind of fitness day. So I didn’t get my usual braying greeting from Mia. She was closely watching the path. She didn’t come running to me until I whistled for her and indicated I came bearing treats. That’s did the trick.
It was all good once we got out in the greens, though. Beautiful weather, tasty vegetation. Fun visitors too. Some kids had fun running arond with the goats. One boy got the goats to jump up on the blue scene and then rain around screaming “WELCOME TO THE GOAT SHOW” over and over. Haha. And they all were very impresed when Nuller jumped up on my back. He’s not too big for that yet. He is big, though. And when I’m only wearing a t-shirt… those hooves dig in. But he’s so persistent. I feel like I’m being kamikazied by little goats.
Later on, all the goats were panting in he warm sun. Had to refill the water bucket a couple of times.
20/5 2019

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Walking home from the goats with tears in my eyes, listening to the Robin Williams biography… nearing the end now. Ruff stuff.
20/5 2019

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Here are the goaties today. No idea how the photo works, can’t see well on this screen in this angle with the sunlight. But it goats!

20/5 2019

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While surfing through channels yesterday, looking for something to watch, I came upon Spirited Away. I forgot how wonderful that movie is. It’s so visually striking, even with a blind eye I can’t help being spellbound. Love that movie.
20/5 2019

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I haven’t exercised in probably almost two weeks now because of everything that’s been going on. I suppose I oughta get to it now.
No news about the new PC. I’m hoping they can have it ready and ship it by tomorrow, but no guarantee of that. I should have paid extra to make it an express order haha. But at least I got this test system so I can stil bother people with too many words.
I dreamt it snowed inside and the ice and snow formed weird spontaneous sculptures, I’m pretty sure at least one pictured Mia. I also had a Twin Peaks dream in wich Leland crashed his car into a building to kill himself and someone.. evil.. inside. And then someone introduced Gerard Depardieu, but I woke up before I could find out what Gerard Depardieu was doing in Twin Peaks. I guess my mind was mixing him up with Phillip Gerard? I don’t know.
You’re welcome. I guess I should exercise. Probably.
21/5 2019

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Took Art Bold photos during the last two goat trips. Not sure that was a good idea. But hey, get ready for some artful goats.

21/5 2019

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Currently watching Aladdin. For the first time ever with English audio. Well, I have watched the big Robin Williams scenes in English on the tubes. But I have never watched the whole movie in English before. The Danish version won the Disney prize for best foreign dub and the Danish voices are really great. It’s odd seeing the characters speak in different voices. I must admit I prefer the Danish Aladdin.. and the Danish genie is really really great too. But of course, you can’t beat Robin.
Aladdin was the last Disney movie cartoon I ever watched, before falling away from the world. I may give Lion King a go later. Suppose I oughta give Frozen a whirl sooner or later too. Not too fond of the cgi cartooneries though. Anyway, back to Aladdin.
21/5 2019

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I just spent like 5 hours hexxing in regedit and googling and experimenting to solve a simple little thing in Windows 10. I think I actually anaged to solve it. After giving up 20 times along the way and then going “no let me just try this one thing…”. Oh my lordie lord. But I think I got it. By George I think I got it.
22/5 2019

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Hangng out with Nuller at the Gentleman’s club.

22/5 2019

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Looks like my computer won’t be shipped out today. Darnit. I hope they’ll get it done by tomorrow. I’m going to go relax at the tv and go to bed and dream. Impatient, moi?
22/5 2019

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Apparently there was a delay in getting a part for my new computer, and now the store is expecting to ship it out tomorrow so I’ll have it in the beginning of next week. That’s annoying. I was hoping and expecting to get it today or tomorrow. I’m getting tired of this moving from the tv to the test system and not feeling comfortable. But it’s no disaster. I will bear my burden with a smile, not all heroes wear capes etc. Better it is done well than fast.
Suppose I’ll go exercise. Unless someone can come up with a rason for me now to? GO TEAM GO
23/5 2019

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It’s a green world baby

23/5 2019

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Mmm Star Trek: Picard.
Please don’t fork this up.
See also, Terminator: Dark Fate.
24/5 2019

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I do believe this is the highest honour ever achieved by a Danish actor. Our little Nikolaj in Full House. Sniff.

24/5 2019

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This is Sky’s “I’ve done enough socializing, I need a little time to myself. but I’m still going to keep watch so I don’t miss any treats” pose.
I can relate, Sky. I also need time to myself after peopling a lot. And I also do not like to miss treats.

24/5 2019

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I am going offline for today. Off to relax a bit in front of the telly and then early to bed to dream perchance to dream some more. I have received word that my new PC has been assembled and tested and is ready to ship. Hopefully that means it will be sent out today. I wonder if it will be ready to pick up tomorrow already,… not sure if it’ll be delivered on a Saturday… otherwise Monday, hopefully. So we’re getting close. Anxiety growing, hoping everything will go well. Fatalistic, moi?
24/5 2019

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So many dreams. I love sleeping for ages.
Well, my new PC is shipped. I ship it with me, if you know what I mean. Probs not, soz.
Still holding out hope to get an email today that it can be picked up… but at least it should be there Monday. I need my dad’s help to pick it up, so we’ll see about the timing. Then a day or two to set it all up. AND THEN OUR LONG JOINT NIGHTMARE WILL BE OVER.
Famous last words.
Anyway, hope you’re all having a good weekend. I bought Ben&Jerry’s cookie dough ice cream so ima make it, im a survivor ima work harde
25/5 2019

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Siamese twins at the face

25/5 2019

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Wet fluffybutt. Feel like I should put a parental advisory warning on this.

26/5 2019

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Happy Funday
link: Palle memory
26/5 2019

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I am shutting it down for the day. Going to relax a little in the comfy chair with some TV and then early to bed. Tomorrow is a big day, on several fronts. Hooves crossed everything will go well. See you in the slipperyslide.
26/5 2019

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Back from the eye doctor. Half-yearly checkup. I have been feeling like my eyesight has gotten a little bit wose, but the eye doc could not detect any change and everything looks stable. So that’s good.
My new computer is scheduled to arrive “later today”. But there has been a development..
You’re never going to believe it. Haha. I have fixed my Windows 7 computer. It seems to be working. Oh lord. I’d been getting constant bluescreen errors and a lot of them had to do with memory. I have 16 gb in it, 4 blocks of 4. So I’d taken the blocks out one by one to test if one of them was faulty. With no luck. And I’d run memtest which came up with 100% errors on everything. So I thought, there’s no way ALL four blocke of memory stopped working at the same time. That’s statitically unlikely. I figured it had to be something else, like the motherboard. Something that was accessing the memory. Not the memory itself. Well, just for fun, while waiting for my new PC to get here, I ordered a new block of RAM. And put it in the PC. And it forking works. For forks sake. If I’d just called for a tech visit they would have fixed that in no time. Haha. I could have saved myself so much time and trouble. And money.
But that being said, I am still excited to get a new PC. Later today or tomorrow. The old Wind7 PC still has a number of annoyances and will be out of date soon. So, I’m still going to go ahead with the new PC and Windows 10. But hey, now there’s less pressure. If I make some mistake or there’s some problem with the new PC, I’ll still have the old one. And I’ll be able to go back and forth to try and get the enw one to wlook and work like the old one as much as possible. It’ll be easier to port settings and stuff. It makes me feel pretty dumb, but it’s still better to have the Windows 7 PC back than if I didn’t.
Now it’s just wo wait until the new PC arrives and until my eyedrops wear off so I can see anything
27/5 2019

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I got my new computer! And my old computer still works! Haha. So it goes.
But now there’s less rush to get the new one set up. Hopefully it will all work fine.
I am going to relax a little now. And then I’m going to order pizza. Because I am stressed. And because I am planning to start a new diet in a day or two. So one last junk food outing before that. (disclaimer I will probably be buying more junk food two days into the diet because I have the self control of a … thing that has no self control and can’t think of methaphors).
Anyway, so far so good.
27/5 2019

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Got my new computer hooked up with the cables and all. I am scared to turn it on. Haha. Can you tell I’m a worrier? So far everything has gone according to plan. Shoutout to my dad for helping me pick it up at the delivery point. In turn I was able to help him book hotel tickets for him and mum in Vilnius for an upcoming vacation. So that worked out well.
Suppose I gotta go turrn on the yoda. Hope it is strong in the force. Amd then spend the night setting everything up before putting it online. Perhaps it’ll be all set up and done tomorrow. Or maybe I’ll take another day doing it. It is quite stressful for the worrying mind, and I want to get it right.
Hoves crossed.
27/5 2019

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Got my new computer turned on, and it didn’t blow up! First step to success.
There was a mishap when it didn’t recognise my PS2 mouse. Funny. But luckily I had a USB mouse. So far everything is going well, now I just have to go through a million settings because Microsoft is evil etc.
Sorry for the constant updates, but this is all my life revolves around AND SO SHOULD YOURS
27/5 2019

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So far everything is going according to plan with the new computer. Man, there’s so much junk on a new Windows 10 installation, and so many settings all over the place. Modern computing is rubbish. Give me my XP back. Heck, give me my Commodore 64 back. You kids get off my lawn. When I was a kid I had to mow and fertilize the lawn before I got off it etc.
Should probably take a little break before I go completely crazy don’t mind if I do ring the bell for service.msc
28/5 2019

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Good goat times today. Had to take a break from the computing and go out on the town with my goat pals. Not the best weather, but at least it stayed dry and we did have some nice sunny spells. Looks like this summer won’t be as scorching as last year’s. I KNEW it, global warming is a hoax. I’m going to go tell all the cows that they can start farting again.
Anyway. Lots of fun with the goaties. We went out and entertained at the kindergarten fence. Nelly and a bunch of little ones picked branches and leaves and fed the goats through the fence. I’m not sure who was more excited, the goats or the kids. Okay it was the goats. And some older kids with adults came by and stopped and had fun with the goats. Just as they were leaving again Nuller jumped up on my back. He knows how to put on a good show. Everyone was quite amazed and a couple of kids were petting him as he stood on my back. Funtimes for all.
28/5 2019

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Those branches are growing in over the fence so the kindergarteners were able to pick some of them and feed them to the goats. Teamwork.

28/5 2019

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Oh no. My plate is broken. You’ll have to handfeed me.

28/5 2019

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Shutting down for today. As always my eyes are messed up after being outside for a long time. Better rest them. Hopefully I can finish up my new computer tomorrow. That would be nice. So I can get it online and get back to proper internetting in my comfy chair at the TV. Here’s to hopping, with bunny ears.
28/5 2019

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Time to get back to work on the new computer. May grab a burger (diet starting tomorrow I think), may watch the Euro League final later. I could cure cancer and end all war, but I mean I figure you guys are on it.
How’s it going? Everyone good?
29/5 2019

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Hey world. I am online on my new computer.
So far everything is still working. Still have some stuff that needs installing and jiggering with. Need to import all my backups.
But it’s nice to be online in my comfy chair, at my TV, with my familiar keyboard. Etc.
30/5 2019

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Still hard at work on getting the new machine finalized. Like Milo hard at work on eating all the grass. We’ll see who gets to the finish line first.

30/5 2019

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I will literally paypal you 50 American Dollars if you can tell me how to stop the big thumbnail appearing when you drag files and other things on Windows 10. Jesus Christ, did they not test this in high contrast and high dpi? That giant thumbnail literally obscures where you’re trying to drag the file to.
Thank heavens for the google, it has helped me come up with lots of solutions to lots of little (and big) problems. But this seems to be a hardcoded thing that can’t be changed. Even if you turn off thumbnails you just get a big square icon instead. Useless.
Other than that things are progressing well. Almost everything is going as it should and most things are set up. Tomorrow I should be ready to import my data from backups and then I’ll be ready to goat. And ready to spend too much time on Facebook again. I hope you’re enjoying the vacation, I’ll be EXTRA annoying when I’m back to full speed.
30/5 2019

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Shutting it down for today. Gotta give my eyes a rest from all the computing. And go dreaming. Hopefully tomorrow everything will be ready to go. And then nothing will deffinitely go wrong ever again I am pretty, hey did you hear something?
30/5 2019

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The great reimportation of data has begun. Terabytes of data. I am taking the chance to restructure it all. It’s like when you have a closet that you have been putting things into for years. It gets pretty disorganized. Now I have to move everything to a new closet, so I get it all organized in a smarter way. And then I’m off to get my Ph.d. in analogies.
31/5 2019

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Considering what to do about my background wallpaper. I’ve had the same one for literally more than 10 years, so maybe it’s time for a new one.
Came across this. I mean.That would be pretty perfect for my Yoda machine, wouldn’t it? I’ll need to get it in photoshop and darken it. I need a very dark background, as any light disturbs my vision. I may end up just going with a solid black background and no photo in the end. But Yoda would be nice.
Found it while actually looking at this one:
wallpaperswide. com/star_wars_12-wallpapers. html
link: yoda wallpaper
31/5 2019

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Other changes due to the new computer.. changing resolution from 1280×1024 to 1600×1024. So, higher resolution. Had to increase the system DPI a little too, to compensate. We’ll see how it works out. In theory higher resolution is better. But the wider display can be difficult because of my blind spots and limited field of vision. I wonder how long I can keep writing this before people stop rea
1/6 2019

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Hiding behind Lily.
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1/6 2019

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This is the part of the process where I spend way too much time fixing tiny little niggles. Because I have great priorities.
PS someone tell me how to set the columb width in list view to fit all ktx
1/6 2019

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I am going to sign off for today. My schedule is quite erratic these days. It will be nice when things settle back into a comfortable routine, goat willing. See you when the morning lights.

1/6 2019

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Giving myself a headache by trying to restore my old goat backups. Made it a lot harder for myself since I accidentally was working from an older backup the last couple of days. So now I have to piece it all together, try to figure out what is lost, what has already been posted, what needs to go in what folder. Oh dear! It’ll be nice when it’s all done.
Livin’ it up for the weekend yall
2/6 2019

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Grumble. Having a problem with MP3 encoding in VirtualDub. WAIT DONT GO. I’ll spare you the details. But I kinda have to fix this before I can get started on editing mybacklog of goat videos. Suppose I could go with AAC audio, but I’d really like to keep doing things the same way as on the old system. Computers, nothing but trouble I tellsya.
2/6 2019

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Sassy in green

2/6 2019

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That’s all for now


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The Returned

May 12th, 2019

Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone.

6/5 2019

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Had a bunch of nice dreams last night. Most amusing was probably a prequel series of Fawlty Towers, where Basil meets a young Manuel. I have no idea where that came from. Anyway, now that they have all that cgi-deaging technology, maybe we could get Cleese on board..
Another dream featured my old computer. My first PC. That computer often appears in my dreams, just like a lot of my old classmates from back then. After I left school I had a lot of years where I did not do so much or meet so many new people. I think that’s why people and things from before then are so frequent in my dreams. They made the lasting impressions and there was not much else to replace them.
Anyway. I went on MSN in the dream. Remember MSN Messenger? Is that still a thing? I guess it’s Skype now. But I do miss that. AIM and MSN. The friendships there. After a long time alone I eventually go The Interwebs and started meeting new people. Online. I miss the deep, visceral connections of that time. Not to know Facebook, but it’s a lot more superficial mostly. Memes and politics and things shared from pages. We may use real names (mostly) now, but it often feels less real than the usernames on diaryland and liverjournal, the away messages on AIM, the chat names on MSN. It was deep and intimimate and personal and real. I’m almost tempted to load up MSN and see if there’s anyone online on my buddy list. Haha. Of course, I couldn’t really do that today. Things have changed, I have changed. If you’re one of the few who communicate with me on Facebook Messenger you know. I can take literally days to respond and I very rearely get into real real-time conversations. Thins are different. I do appreciate what Facebook has given me. I love that there are people from Germany who take time to stop by and are super excited to meet some goats because I have posted about them on Facebook. That I am able to spread some positivity to others. There’s a kind of magic in that. Back in the msn days I don’t think I was a very positive person. I was holding on to a lot of bitterness and sadness. That’s still a part of me, but the help of goats and good people here have brought me to another place. A lot of things are better now than they were back then. But it’s so easy to look back and cherrypick, remember the great things and not think about the bad. Even though there are things, and people, I miss. I wouldn’t want to go back. If only I could tiem travel and… wait, this got off topic. How unusual for me..
6/5 2019

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Milo is chill as goat

6/5 2019

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‘A flower’s still a slower crushd to dust inside my hand’
6/5 2019

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Tempted to start leaving Starbucks cups in my goat videos and see if I go viral
6/5 2019

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Lol, we’re ruining the planet and killing all the animals, get it?
Don’t worry, as long as the coal and steel factories keep going, I’m sure the stable geniuses are hard at work saving … everything. Oh to be a polar bear and shot during hibernation so you don’t have to worry about the future.
Cue blond, white fratboy posing for a selfie with a dead world.
Thanks for putting a guy who thinks climate xhange is a Chinese hoax in charge of the biggest superpower in the world, love you mean it.
link: bbc article
6/5 2019

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Sassy ain’t got time for that

6/5 2019

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Man, I was skeptical about them making a second season of Barry, but I am loving season 2. And the last two episodes have been stellar. Especially the crazy kung fu kid. Bill Hader, mmm *kisses fingertips*
7/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Happy Yogi Day everyone.

7/5 2019

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Good goat times today. The weather was a bit erratic. We’ve had a cold spell, but it’s starting to warm up again. Today we got some sun. And some rain. And some hail. After being out in the greens I was just taking the goats back home when it started dripping. Okay, let’s run home then! I’m glad we did because the next thing there was a powerful hailstorm. Glad we didn’t get caught out in that. It didn’t last too long, and then the sun came back.
We had good times out in the greens. I took the goats exploring again. This time we made it past the gateway to the forbidden zone and to the grass and sand parts beyond, along the horse field. I think the newbies have seen all of the playground grounds now. Apart from the forbidden zone. We did not go there. I caught Mia starting up there a couple of times. I know i’m projecting, but I could almost imagine she was looking up there, wondering if grandma was there. Grandma always tried her best to get up there when she got the chance. More likely Mia just spotted something moving, or was remembering how we went up there last year and wondering if she could make it there now. Plenty of greens in our zones now, though.
There were kindergarteners visiing too, so they all mixed together and everyone had fun. There was one little girl who came over to me. She couldn’t quite say anything, I’m not sure if it was because she was so young or because she was an immigrant/refugee child. But she literally poked me in the nose and said something like “why that?”. I think it was my sunglasses she was interested in.
Mia put on a good show at the sand horse riding arena. One of her finest performances ever. Kicking up her heels and sprinting around. So much fun. She’s like a sun with five little planets orbiting aorund her.
7/5 2019

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They made something new since the last time we were out at these parts. They put up some poles and walking beams and netting. The goats weren’t terribly interested in it. The green grass below held more allure.

7/5 2019

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Mia, staring up at the forbidden zone beyond the trees.

7/5 2019

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Hiding from the hail

7/5 2019

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Well I am shutting it down for today. Got a train ticket to a dream trip. Catch me if you can.
7/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Happy Hump Day everyone.

8/5 2019

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goatlog

8/5 2019

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Last night I dreamt that god communicated to me through blinking lights in the ceiling and that he gave me magic powers to control the flow of time.
8/5 2019

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Nuller playing on the new playset.

8/5 2019

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The Wonderfuld & The Horrible
9/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Vanilje from 2009.

9/5 2019

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A heartbeat law from people who have no hearts. No reason to be scared of mysterious, foreign religions when you have Christianity in government.
9/5 2019

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Have a couple of goats instead

9/5 2019

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Sure all men are created equal,
here’s the church, here’s the steeple

9/5 2019

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Well I have had enough of the world for today. I’m going turn it off and maybe turn it back on again tomorrow. We’ll see.
9/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Have a Fuzzy Friday everyone. Here is the Lord Fuzzler de Fuzzay from 2016.

10/5 2019

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Last night I dreamt that I was answering mail for Keiko. All sort of packages full of junk and strange cards and cutouts and letters. Need a secretay, Keiko?
10/5 2019

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Can’t believe we all showed up to the goat party wearing the same thing!

10/5 2019

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Look what I got myself. A mini oven. Fun fact, I’ve been living without an oven for… 5 years or more. I don’t really cook actual meals. If I’m depressed I order junk food, otherwise I eat a lot of cucumber and tomatoa and fruit, sometimes bread with cheese. The only actual cooking I do is boiling eggs or mashed potatoes from power or rice. I’m like the Gordon Ramsey of not being Gordon Ramsay.
Got it mostly to warm bread. With cheese. I have to be a little careful. Having easy access to melted cheese could be a problem. We’ll see how it goes. But it’ll be nice to be able to warm up a baguette or a bun. I like nice buns, I cannot lie.

10/5 2019

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I wonder if people like that would get convicted of conspiracy to commit murder too? Nah, I’m sure there are exemptions for Rick Old White Men. And Presidents. I’ll freely give my soul to the devil if Donald Trump has never had a mistress have a abortion. Don’t tell me a guy who is known to cheat on pregnant/nursing wives wouldn’t do that etcetera and on and on. It’s fucking amazing how religion is still used to control the ignorant masses. What are you going to tell Jesus when he asks you about the 11 year old rape victim force to have a child, about questioning women who have miscarriages as if they were murder suspects. Fucking hell. I’d tear my hair out if I had any. What an ugly world.
link: misstress abortion article
10/5 2019

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Think goat thoughts

10/5 2019

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One of these days, one of these days

10/5 2019

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I mean, it’s no coincidence that god is classically depicted as a rich, old white man. Okay, we can’t see that he’s rich. But we can infer it, what with all the peasants paying for absolution. Why is god pictured as a white man when his son was middle eastern? It’s so blatantly obvious that religion has always been about control. You think god gives a fuck about how much sex you have and with who? You’re ok with 50% of all the sacred marriages failing bu you still think people shouldn’t have sex before marriage? As long as it’s consentual why would god give a fuck how many people you fuck, gay straight or otherwise? What’s it to him? Do you think he cares if you say fuck and shit? If you’re a good person who gives a shit if you talk like a sailor. It’s just about control. The old priests controling the alter boys, controlling the women, controlling the peasants. The slave owners keeping the blacks from voting, keeping the mexicans away from the borders so the all-white power system says in place. Preaching good samaritan stories but wanting to check people’s citizenship before you decide if they deserve help in the hurricane. Keeping your daughters from being sluts, proud of your sons for being studs. Fucking pornstars when your second hot young eastern european wife is in labour. Swearing on bibles you’ve never read. Chatting to smiling Putin about the report that concluded Russia interfered with your election. Oh it’s all so dumb. Maybe they’d be ok with abortions if they were performed with AR-15s. Is it conspiracy to commit school shooting when you fucking peddle semi-automatic guns to everyone and their neighbour?
Ok I’ll shut up. Don’t want to be struck down by lightning for saying the F world while the leader of the free world jokes about shooting immigrants at the border.
10/5 2019

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If it makes you feel any better, I am also repressed. By myself.
10/5 2019

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Hey, lookit them goats. How about them goats? Goats goats goats, amiright?

10/5 2019

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i am the prophet of diarrhea I sing the psalms of flatulence, the divine prayer of feces in skidmarked robes. Follow me to the great bathroom beyond, where even the biggest turd is welcome. Glory to the great father of shits and giggles.
10/5 2019

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I think Nuller wants a vacation

11/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Here’s baby Peanut from 2015.

11/5 2019

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Good goat times today. The return visit of our German friend Gabi and her daughters. Considerably less scary this time, since I knew what to expect. And they love the goats so much that I knew I didn’t have to be afraid of being the center of attention. The goats happily accepted their roles in the center of the spotlight. It was a good time. Lots of treats and cuddles for the goats. Some for uncle Lasse too. They brought chocolate chip cookies for me. And Gabi even slipped me money for a pizza! Haha. You shouldn’t have, Gabi! I told them last time that they shouldn’t bring pizza. I’m so picky about my pizza that if you bring me random pizza there’s a good chance I won’t be able to eat it. So she handed me a money instead. I was so surpirsed that I just took it and put it in my pocket. I should have refused it. But ok. Next pizza is dedicated to you, Gabi!
There were other people around too. We encountered a couple who were also German. What are the odds. From what I could understand of the conversatio they live in Denmark now. Other parents with little kids as well. Lots of commotion and happy people. We went over to see the horses too, while the goats grazed. It was a good time in the sun, hopefully our visitors agree. Thank you for loving on the goats so much. It makes me happy that I’ve been able to share them with the world in such a way that people care so much about them. Auf Wiedersehen till the next time!
11/5 2019

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Fun at the goat park! Gabi and her two daughters getting mauled by the goats. On the right it’s a woman who joined us for a while with her boy, I think his name was Milan. At one point I had to translate as Gabi wanted to know how old the boy was, but the mother didn’t understand English or German. So I had to ask her in Danish and then translate to Gabi. I think he was 3. He was having fun with the goats too. I think at point he was trying to get on one of the littles and his momma had to tell him “no, they’re not horsies!”.

11/5 2019

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As always, Nuller is a big hit with the ladies. Those fluffy pantaloons are irresistible.

11/5 2019

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My mouth is the infinity gauntlet, it makes 50% of the world’s food disappear
11/5 2019

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If you bring treats, the goats will love you.

11/5 2019

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Gabi saying hi to the horsies. They didn’t get to meet them the first time they visited, so this was a first.

11/5 2019

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Alrighty then. I am shutting it down for today. This humaning stuff is exhausting. I dno’t know how you people do it on the daily. Respekkt.
Doesn’t help that I have been kind of stressed and depressed and filled with dark thoughts of the world lately. I’m going to dream of a better place. Maybe we are all living in the dream of some alien superbeing. Maybe there are lifeforms living in my dreams. It’s my duty to give them a beautiful world, a better world. I will do my best.
11/5 2019

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Today will be a good day. Happy Funday everyone.

12/5 2019

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Rest in peace Peggy Lipton. Keep serving that damn fine cherry pie in heaven.
12/5 2019

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Ok this deserves a post of its own. Not a lot of happy endings on Twin Peaks.
Another peaker gone too soon.

12/5 2019

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goatlog

12/5 2019

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Happy Mother’s day everyone. Getting to watch my Facebookfriendmothers and their amazing kids is one of the big upsides of socialmedia

12/5 2019

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Here is the video from yesterday’s fun with Gabi and her daughters.
link: visit video
12/5 2019

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I wish I could save the world. Lay my hands on it and stop the flow, of time and tears and everything grows, fear and anger and hate. distribute the wealth and tear down the walls and clean the coal and live in a cottage in the woods and let the wolf in when he knocks on the door so we can howl at the moon together. I wish I could stop, time and war and time again, I wish I could be what everyone sees, I wish I could paint myself real and cut the strings. I wish I could find a way to be at peace with myself, a path that doesn’t take me where I want to go. I wish I could be here so you could be with me
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That’s all for now.


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