Good goat times today. Overcast and a bit chilly. I miss the sun! But it was a good day with the furs and feathers. And a group of kids visiting who came into the pen and had a lot of fun petting the goats and picking leaves and grass to feed them. One little girl bending down and petting Sky and going “sweet Sky, Sky is so sweet, sweet Sky, sweet Sky” over and over. Very, sweet.
Later on, the rain started. Sky was going down to the platforms in the big pen, I thought maybe she was going to stand under them for shelter. But then the rain really got strong and she came running back to us in the goat house. And she did manage to get inside. I hate that she has to be on guard and run out in the rain when the others get too close to her, though. I did my best to make sure she had her space.
Now it’s soup weather so I’ll soup.
14/4 2025
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Sky, munching on some hay and watching the rain.

14/4 2025
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i feel kind of like a sucker working so hard for months to lose all that weight. Shoulda just ran for president, apparently that makes pounds magically disappear.
14/4 2025
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Breakfast time. Sky is sharing with Presumably Sonja.

14/4 2025
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Did you know that in Denmark there’s a place called Lolland? It’s probably close to Middelfart, lol lol.
The more you now.
14/4 2025
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Luna and Lasse, partners in totally not crime. You can’t prove anything, we have an alibi.

15/4 2025
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. A bit of a struggle. Had to really push myself. My legs really need a break. But I just have to complete this week, then I can ease it a little.
I had to lower the resistance again to make it through. But I found that if I put the resistance to 3 instead of 4 then I could go really fast, like blurry feet fast. And that seemed less hard on my legs. I wonder what’s most effective, fast at 4 resistance, or super fast at 3. Well, i’m not doing the biking to.. get good at biking. I don’t need to get faster and stronger, it’s more about burning calories. Going faster at lower resistance got me a lot more winded than the other way. So maybe that’s a better calorie burner.
I don’t know. Looking forward to reward pizza soon. Just gotta power through this week.
just found out my RSS feed reader for the past decade is retiring. A horrible businessy email going basically ” we=”” are=”” excited=”” to=”” announce=”” our=”” new=”” product,=”” which=”” will=”” replace=”” the=”” service=”” you=”” currently=”” using”.=”” product=”” is=”” of=”” course=”” paid=”” and=”” 3d=”” ai=”” guurgh.=”” make=”” pay=”” for=”” a=”” worse=”” than=”” free=”” one=”” were=”” using,=”” congratulations.
Anyone out there have a good RSS reader website? Do people even know what RSS is anymore… sigh. I miss usenet too. I used to read dk.videnskab.jura and dk.forbruger on a daily basis.
Anyway, I’ll go yell at some clouds. That should burn more calories.
15/4 2025
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Happy Tax Day, americans. I’d tax Kristen Bell, but I’ve a feeling she’d tax me.
You’re welcome fellow Monty Python fans. There are dozens of us!
15/4 2025
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Escapism report
Watched Mickey 17. Not a movie I had much interest in watching beforehand, but they were going to cover it on the film podcast I listen to. So I watched it. Glad I did. Much better than I expected. I’m not a Robert Pattinson fan, but he was great and it was an interesting story. Printing human bodies, expendable people. Good scifi. I looved the aliens, they were really cool. The Trump stuff was a little on the nose and the movie was a little longish, but all in all funny and interesting and thought provoking societal satire. Thumbs up.
Haven’t watched much new tv, been spending too much time working on the old computers. Looks like I finally got the drives on the xp pc wiped.
The Bowie journey has gotten to Never Let Me Down, but I keep going back ot the Labyrinth soundtrack. I love listening to that.
I finished reading Christine, which was a fun if silly early King work.
Finished reading Forward, an audible collection of scifi short stories. Some interesting stuff in there. Although reading about AI seems almost nonfiction now, too real.
Started reading Earthlings by Murata, Sayaka. It is very grim and disturbing, but fascinating. Dark and sad, but i like that in the arts. As we say about the music, slower and sadder please. Need something to make us feel, as the world grinds us down and numbs us.
Alright, that’s all for this one. See you in the fiction, fellow travellers.
15/4 2025
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I have never been more disappointed in life than the day I found out that a soda fountain wasn’t an actual fountain.
Life is a master baiter and switcher. I WAS PROMISED A FOUNTAIN OF SODA. Let me talk to your manager.
15/4 2025
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goatlog

16/4 2025
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Did some more work on my old computers today. I have finished up the XP PC erasure, so today I booted up my old Windows 7 PC. For the first time since 2019. I guess my fears that old computers that haven’t been turned on in 6-15 years stop working, were unfounded. All three of my old computers turned on and booted just fine.
This Windows 7 PC is a lot closer to my modern life. Looking at the hard drives there’s lots of things that I remember, lots of things that I still have in use on my current PC. And lots of old stuff that barely makes sense anymore.
It took a lot of fiddling to get it to boot from my USB stick, but now I have the eraser tool running again. Securely erasing a 1 terabye drive is going to take a while. Probably a day or more. But I’m happy leaving it running to wipe it all down.
Then I’m going to play around with installing Windows 10 and 11 on it, just to do some experimenting. But it’s nice to get it all cleaned and ready to be shipped out of my apartment. More baggage that will soon be unloaded.
I spent more time than I should on those old computers, but it’s kind of fun looking back at the old stuff too. I would rather be on a Windows XP or Windows 7 computer, compared to this dystopian present of Windows 10 and dystopian hellscape of Windows 11. Everything gets worse over time. The world is sinking DESPAIR ALL YE WHO GAZE UPON THIS
ok. Calm down. Go to the soup fountain.
16/4 2025
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I am really enjoying that I have added cuumber back into my diet. I wish I could get good Danish cucumbers all year round.
I wonder if the tomatoes are good enough now too. i am hesitant to start eating them again. Last year I had some issues with my teeth, and my theory is that it was because I was eating so many tomatoes. They’re pretty acidic, aren’t they? Maybe that’s all in my head. The goats enjoy their maters all year round.
16/4 2025
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I almost thought I was going to black out earlier today.
It’s been a couple of years now since I had those spells were I blacked out.
Today I was sitting at the computer, and I started getting that feeling that I used to get before blacking out. It’s hard to describe, it’s like a sense overload, like smells and memories and like that thing in movies when the foreground zooms in while the background zooms out. Or is it vice versa. Anyway. I used to get that feeling before a blackout, and I got it today pretty strongly.
It almost feels like it’s pulling me in, and if I lean into it I can let it swallow me. If you watched Twni Peaks The Return, that scene where Gordon Cole almost gets dragged into the vortex in the sky. Like you’re being pulled into it, and if you don’t manage to step back and free yourself then it’ll take you. I used to get that feeling, that if I let it, it would swallow me.
And then I’d come to myself later and not know where or when I was.
But I did not black out today, so hopefully it was just a random thing and not a sign of those spells coming back.
I can’t remember if I wrote about it, but my theory was that those blackouts were caused by my sleeping schedule. I don’t know for sure of course, but the blackouts stopped when I returned to a more normal sleep schedule. There have been lots of other mental and physical changes in my life the past few years, so it could be something else of course.
I used to basically sleep for 14-15 hours one night and then the following night i’d take a nap for an hour or so. Honestly, I miss that sometimes. It brought such amazing dreams, lots of lucid, deep dreams. I rarely have lucid dreams now, and I don’t remember them as much or for as long. I miss the dreams. But it wasn’t a smart schedule to keep of course, whether they caused blackouts or not.
Oh well.
Can’t really think of anything else that has happened or changed the last couple of days that would bring the blackout feeling back. But let’s just hope it’s a fluke and that’s that.
16/4 2025
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Good goat times today. It’s Easter holiday, so no Jeanette. And no visitors from the neighbour school. Just me and the goats.
And it was a rainy morning. I was happy that when I got there Sky was inside relaxing in the bedroom with the two others. When there isn’t competition over snacks and cuddles, then it’s a little easier for her to get her space with them.
Just a quiet little day. The rain died out eventually, and the sun did its best to break through the clouds. Without too much success. Hope we’ll get our sunny days back soon.
Got home and did an hour and change on the bike. My legs are still severely worn down. Really need a break. Just one more session this week, then I can skip one or two and let the legs grow back.
Now it’s soup time. Goats soup and exercise, that’s not a bad day’s work.
17/4 2025
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Sky sitting with her box of hay under the shelter. The shelter roof wasn’t quite was I was hoping for originally, but I’m glad we got it. It’s good that Sky has a little dry spot when things are tense inside.
Bella’s working the hay rack inside

17/4 2025
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Dedicated to You know Who

17/4 2025
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Make with the treats and make it snappy.

17/4 2025
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Ugh. Scheduling my next Pepsi&Protein delivery, and what do I see? They have added a new cherry pie to their stock. Not a frozen one either. Why must they tempt me?!
Well. It’s not like it’s freshly baked, it’s probably not great. And it’s expensive. But. I’m going to try it. Next week. It can be my reward to look forward to during the exercising next week. And then I’ll finally get to try cherry pie. It probably won’t be damn fine, but it’ll be something.
18/4 2025
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It’s a good day for Beavers.
Today American soccerball player will make his debut in Denmark. I will be rooting for the Beavers!
18/4 2025
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Moody

18/4 2025
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Beavers update:
Young American goalkeeper Beavers was voted Man Of The Match in his debut today. The game ended 0-0, though. Thoughts and prayers to any American sportsfans who died of boredom trying to watch it.
Just kidding, I know Americans don’t watch soccerballsports.
Thumbs up Beavers, tho!
18/4 2025
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THE ORDER OF THE HAND WILL RULE
18/4 2025
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Once again it was a struggle. My legs are nearing breaking point. I hope they don’t break! Time for a break soon.
But the hard work paid off. Dropped another pound or so. New record low weight of my recorded adult life. Very satisfying to see the scales hit numbers I’ve never seen before. I’m not often proud of myself, but I’m proud of myself for achieving this.
Now it’s time to shift gears and start eating more. And then keep on the exercising and monitoring and hopefully I can avoid putting on as much weight as over the holidays. I have enough buffer now to put on a few pounds without worry, but I’d just like to find a level where I can eat and treat myself nicely and still stay at a good weight. Here’s to hoping.
The upstairs elephant kids have resumed their tap dancing lessons, I hear. They are really going at it today. Wonder if they have extra family visiting because of the Easter holidays. Sounds like multipying. It’s perplexifying.
But now it’s soup o’clock.
19/4 2025
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Today is the 2 year anniversary of Mia’s passing. I am not going to write more about it, really. The pain still runs deep. I can ignore it okay mostly, but when the thoughts creep in they still devastate me. She should have had more good years. We should.
19/4 2025
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goatlog

20/4 2025
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Happy Easter to those who partake. i think Bella has had too much eggnog. And that’s not what you’re supposed to do with easter eggs anyway.

20/4 2025
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When people show you who they really are, eat them.
20/4 2025
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A bit of Sky.

Good goat times today. A cold and cloudy morning, but when the sun broke through it got real lovely and springy.
The goats were quite animated this morning. Especially Bella and Luna were sprinting around. They often butt heads a little when I prepare breakfast. And when Luna butts heads she’ll make little complainer bleats and dance around a bit and retreat. But today she was sprinting away, and Bella followed and then Sky had to start running to get out of their way. And then it turned into a big blur of running goats. Fun to watch!
And we had a couple of kids visiting who got to feed the goats. The feathers fluttering around. Once the sun came through the goats settled down and there was lots of nice relaxing in the sunshine. Good stuff.
When I got home I decided to carry on with my apartment cleaning. For a long time I have been wanting to do something about my rolling computer table. I got my TV and PC on it, but also old stuff. A DVD player and some kind of tv box/dvd encoder. And a big cable mess. Three remotes. Stuff that hasn’t been turned on for 5+ years. It’s literally falling apart and not really of use anymore, I want to get rid of all my DVDs so what do I need a DVD player for? So I got that all cleaned up. Still hae to lug it all down to the garbage disposing place outside. But I’m really happy to have gotten it all sorted and cleaned away. A good step on the road of getting the place tidy and less gross.
And now it’s time to soup innit.
7/4 2025
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Sky is enjoying breakfast, as you do.

7/4 2025
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Breakfast done, time for desserts, sir?

7/4 2025
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Just watched a guy cook an omelette with Coca Cola. Frying the egg in coke, I mean. There’s something sinister about cola being poured into a pan, it feels like a six fingered ai human, it’s just not quite.. right.
Apparently it didn’t taste too great either. I wonder if Pepsi Max omelette would be good…
7/4 2025
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More scenes with Sky. I love sitting with her in the sunshine. Giving her some hoof rubs and scratchies, and just enjoying the company and weather. I think it’s Red Sonja participating top left.

7/4 2025
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Face/on with Luna.

8/4 2025
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Wow. My old XP computer turned on and booted and works. I was a little shocked to see that.
Okay, let’s start from the beginning. Today was exercise day. Got an hour fortyfive. Onwards towards new targets. After that I continued the apartment cleaning. First I organised the stuff from yesterday, the old DVD players and crap, got it in bags, ready to take down to the garbage.
Next on the agenda was looking at my old PCs. I have had three old desktop computers standing in my apartment for well as long as I can remember. My ancient XP system, which I think I got while I was still living at home. I’m pretty sure. And then the Windows 7 system that replaced it. And then a cheap refurbished Windows 10 computer that I bought to experiment and see if I could cope with Windows 10, if it had the accessible features I needed. Which it did, and after that I got my current Windows 10 computer that I’ve had for I guess 6ish years now. I really would like a new computer, but one of the main things that’s keeping me from doing it, other than spending all that money, is the thought of having to deal with Windows 11. Microsoft’s operating systems just get worse and worse with every itiration, and all I’ve hard of 11 is that it’s even worse and evil. Sigh.
Now Windows XP. That was an operating system I liked.
I got the old computer hooked up. It took some tries. At first the old monitor wouldn’t turn on and I thought oh great that’s not working either? But it turned out I hadn’t plugged the power cable in all the way. Whoops. User error. Once I got that plugged in I managed to get the PC booted. I was surprised it still works. It hadn’t been turned on in over a decade I think, probably longer. I’m not an expert on the hardware stuff, but I thought motherboards had batteries that would go bad or something. But it turned on. And I booted into XP!64. I remember spending weeks getting the 64bit version of XP to work. I won’t bore you with all the details, but it was a struggle because XP wasn’t designed to work with SSD drives and blabla. But I got it working back then and I got it working now. And XP just feels so much better than modern operating systems. I mean of course there’s stuff that’s vastly out of date now. But I really wish you could get a new and updated and working XP system. I’d pay good money for that.
Anyway. Fun to boot up that old system. I guess I cleaned it out before I abandoned it last, becaue the drives are virtually empty. No fun surprises from the past there. I’m going to do my best to wipe the drives securely. My plan is to keep one of the three old computers, the newest one that will work. I they all three work then it will be the Windows 10 test machine I keep. Even though I love XP, I don’t have use for that computer anymore. So two of them I will do my best to wipe all personal info from the drives and then get rid of them. Along with all the rest of the old junk I’m ditching.
At some point I do want a new computer, but it’s such a huge purchase. With tariffs and inflation it’s probably only going to get more expensive. And I am terrified of spending all that money and then not having it work as I need it. I am a special needs user, and I hate change. So I’ll plug along on this machine for now. It’s starting to show its age. But since I don’t do gaming, I don’t have need of a big powerhouse machine. Would be nice to have something that could do better with video editing though. I spend so much time editing goat footage. And now that it’s hd footage it does tax the machine a lot more than the old lower resolution days.
Alright, that’s enough rambling. It was kind of a thrill seeing that old Windows XP boot screen. Better times. When you only think of the good. I have so much nostalgia for lots of old things, conveniently ignore all the pain and anxiety I have always had in various forms. But hey oh, it’s forward we go. Maybe Windows 12 will be better.
zzzz
8/4 2025
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Not just exercise and ancient Windows XP booting computer today. Also a Protein & Pepsi delivery today. With cucumber added. Did I mention at the last Pee And Pee I got a couple of cucumber to see if they were good enough now? Well they were, so today I got more. I love a good cucumber, and they fit in great in my diet. So that’s great. I used to slice cucumbers when I ate them, but now I just eat them like an apple. A really long apple. I’m a grownup, I can do what I want.
8/4 2025
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Looks like I picked the wrong week to invest in *checks notes* everything.
Anyway, when I put in my order for pepsi and protein and cucumber, I got some suggestions for other things I could get. You know the typical “you may also like”. Well, normally I don’t even read those. But I happened to see they were suggesting.. cherry pie. Oh my oh my. I was so tempted to get that. In fact I put it in my shopping basket, but ended up deleting it before I made the final order. Maybe I’ll get it in a couple of weeks, when I am due to ease up on the diet.
It was frozen cherry pie, though. Probably not great. I don’t even know if you’re supposed to heat that in an oven or just let it defrost or.. eat it as a cherry pie icecream. I don’t know. I don’t have a real oven, and my mini oven I am not sure it even works anymore, haven’t used it in years. I wonder if it’ll boot if I turn it on.
But damn. I am not sure if I have ever actually had cherry pie, and that seems like a great oversight. But have been a good day for it, since it’s the 35th anniversary of the Twin Peaks pilot.
I wish I knew a place that delivered real cherry pie.
Anyway, happy pie day.
8/4 2025
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goatlog

9/4 2025
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bok bok excuse me just passing through bok bok
9/4 2025
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Bella strikes back again
9/4 2025
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Good goat times today. Another lovely day with lots of sunshine. A little on the cold side. When I was sitting on the mountain in my t-shirt Jeanette called out and asked “Of you’re trying summer today? Aren’t you cold?”. A little cold, but the sun was nice. Did put my jacket on later. I enjoy the sun, and so do the goats.
We had our regular visitors from the neighbour school today. No Beren again. I hope she’s okay. Maybe her schedules have changed. Hope she gets to see the goats, because I know she loves that. But plenty of other kids there, and the teachers who are always nice. The scent of Jeanette’s fireplace strong in the air. Quite lovely.
Came home and did an hour on the bike. Not so much flapping today, really tired. Andlegs like spaghetti. But I put in some time. Now I’m going to put in some soup.
My internet keeps going down right now, we’ll see if I can post this.
10/4 2025
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oh hi Luna

10/4 2025
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Snuggletime with Sky.

10/4 2025
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Bella, still not too fond of people trying to touch her on the sides, but loves getting face scratches and between the horns.

11/4 2025
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Springtime for, well you know.
11/4 2025
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Accidentally set my camera to ‘creative mode’ and this came out.

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Spent some time on my old computers today. After teh succesful boot of the XP computer, this time it was the old Windows 10 PC. Hasn’t been turned on in 5-6 years, but it booted just fine. Hours of updating Windows got it up to version 22H2. So that’s still about 3 years out of date. But it says it can’t find any more updates. I’ll look into it a bit more, but I think that computer should work as a backup in case anything happens to my current system.
I thought maybe I could update it to Windows 11, to try that operating system out, but I guess not. I don’t know if Microsoft still offers free upgrades from 10 to 11. But that old pc probably couldn’t run it anyway.
Next to load up the Windows 7 PC and see if that works. And then I guess I’ll be trashing the XP and W7 computers and keeping the W10 test system. That’s the plan, Stan.
11/4 2025
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If you’re going to join a cult, don’t expect to play board games and drink kool-aid with people who aren’t in the cult.
11/4 2025
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Sorry, Easter is cancelled. My 401k has tanked and I can’t afford the eggs.
Okay, I don’t know what a 401k is.
And Easter means nothing to me.
And I think i’m slowly turning to stone because I’ve been hanging out with too many medusas. Shouldn’t have joined Medusa Corporation.
But that’s enough prattle, let’s head into the coal mine, fellow canaries. Tweet tweet.
11/4 2025
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when you look into the mirror, what do you see?
Do you see an accurate representation of who you want to be?
Do you laugh out loud and say “hey, that’s not me”
or do you just turn around to the toilet and have a wee?
11/4 2025
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I had a nightmare in which I was Gillian Anderson (or possibly Dana Scully) in a haunted cinema.
Analyze them apples.
12/4 2025
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Got an hour fortyfive on the bike today. Lets still tired, may have to give them a little break soon. Had to lower the resistance a bit to get through the last 10ish done. But I’m still putting in the effort, and that’s good.
Afterwards a bit more apartment cleaning, although this session was just working on the old computers. Got done with the old Windows 10 test build. It’s as up to date as it’s going ot get, and internet and stuff works. Should be fine as an emergency backup, so i’ll keep that around.
I was hoping to do a complete wipe of the old XP PC, but unfortunately the DVD drive doesn’t work anymore, so I couldn’t boot up on a disc and wipe the hard drive. You can’t wipe the Windows hard drive from within windows, obviously. You can’t demolish a house when you’re standing inside it. Well, maybe you could but that probably would be a bad idea.
I’m going to see if it’s possible to make a bootable USB stick and wipe the drive from that.
It’ll be nice to get two of the old three computers out of the house and crossed off the list.
My dad was here yesterday and I gave him an old camera. The one I found the pics of us on it recently. I don’t know if they can get any use of the cameras, a real digital camera might be a little too complicated for them. But otherwise they can give it away or something.
But progress continues, on myself and on the apartment. And that’s good enough for me.
Now it’s soup time, and that’s great enough for me. The soup is out there.
12/4 2025
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I guess I will have to scale back on the soup a bit. Recently I have been leaving more and more leftovers. Not the soup, but the fillings. Potatoes, carrots, flourballs.
This happened last year when I got down to the low weight too. I don’t know if my stomach shrinks or what, but I can’t seem to finish a whole big pot. Which makes me a little sad, because I love just snarfring down a whole pot of soup. Oh well. I’ll have to do smaller portions.
Goes against my whole nature. Just like I can’t eat just half a bag of candy, if I have it then I must eat it and I must eat it all. And if I make soup I must make a giant pot and eat it all. Ah well. First world problems, literally.
Speaking of first world, thoughts and prayers for the american kids who won’t get to work screwing in tiny screws in iphones after all. Sad!
12/4 2025
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Sky under the sun.

12/4 2025
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” it=”” costs=”” nothing=”” to=”” be=”” kind”.=”” okay,=”” then=”” why=”” are=”” you=”” saying=”” trans-phobic=”” shit?
Some people have blindspots the size of Uranus.
Good thing I’m perfect, it makes everything a lot easier.
13/4 2025
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goatlog

13/4 2025
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Sky and Luna, recharging the renewable goat energy.