Shedding

September 22nd, 2024

Good goat times today. A lovely day with lots of sun. Not quite summery temperatures, but up there.
We had a bunch of sweet visitors, several groups of kids coming in and petting the goats. Luna has been behaving well again, so that’s good. Now Sky has gone back to being “the little one”. I’m not sure if Luna is actually bigger than Sky, certainly Sky is still wider. As one kid remarked “she’s the little one, but she’s fat!”. Ruude! Haha. Sky still taking a hike when Bella comes near. It’s sad. But i’m making sure she’s getting lots of time with me. I used the waterbottle on Bella to get her to stay away and not chase Sky. Bella seemed mostly just mystified. How is it raining out of the human’s hands?! I felt bad about it, but I’m just doing my best to keep them all as happy as possible.
Gonna get me some soup now.
16/9 2024

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Relax

16/9 2024

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I got a new jacket today.
It’s the same as the old jacket, just a size L instead of a size XXL.
Now, as I have mentioned with t-shirts before, I prefer my clothes oversized. So XXL was probably way too big from the start. The sleeves certainly were comically too long. The sleeves on the new jacket are fitting much more appropriately. I would like the jacket itself to be a bit longer, I just prefer bigger size. But on paper at least it sounds cool to have gone from an XXL to an L.
Unfortunately I probably can’t get my pants in a smaller size. I remember when they greyish pair I had finally gave up and fell apart. There was no way to find them anymore, and I need all the pockets they have. I’ll have to stick with the black pair I have, even though it’s way too big in the gut width now. Used to be tight, now I gotta snap the belt on tight.
I might try to see if I can find a new winter coat in appropriate size. But eh, because of my bad circulation I have to war 17 layers of clothes in the winter, once I’m wearing a shirt a blouse and a sweater I’ll be bulked up anyway.
I’m glad I have trained myself to not care about fashion or how I look. I’m still a walking mudpile most days. Goat hair everywhere and berry smell from the shoes. What are ya gonna do.
Hopefully it will still be t-shirt weather for a bit. The new jacket came off when I got to the playground and the sun was doing its thing.
16/9 2024

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The goats were busy working on a bouquet of branches that Jeanette had brought when I got there. Good to see all three of them working on it.

16/9 2024

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Bella cautiously observing me after I used the waterbottle. She didn’t freak out about it, but was more like “I’m not sure what’s going on, but I don’t think I like it”. We made up later with some cuddles and treats. It’s a balancing act, I don’t want her to get scared of me and withdraw, but I need some space with Sky now and then. And more and more Sky is acting like the old days at the old playground, when she’d run away when the bigger goats came near. Even if there isn’t a sign of trouble, just Bella walking over towards us can send her fleeing. But they do all three eat together as shown before with the branches and when I give out cucumber or apple or tomato. It’s more complicated, but doing my best to make everyone happy.

16/9 2024

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goatlog

17/9 2024

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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Go go Ladget. Afterwards I did some cleaning in the apartment. I want to get rid of some of the junk i’ve been piling up. Organize things a bit. I ended up spending a couple of hours on it, barely made a dent. But got several bags of stuff to lug down ot the trash. Feels good to exercise, feels good to do some proactive stuff. Look at me go. GO TO THE BUFFET, amirite.
17/9 2024

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Good goat times today. A very foggy morning. Dense fog advisory. Later on the sun came out for a bit, so that was pretty good.
Still trying to adjust to the new normal. Although things aren’t quite done changing i think. Today I started seeing the signs that Luna may also be overtaking Sky in the hierarchy. Sky did butt heads with her a couple of times. But she also did the complaining bleats at her and a couple of times ran away. And Luna was challenging her quite a bit. I think soon Sky will just be running from both of them. It’s sad to see. It’s sad when I sit down and I look over at Sky looking back at me, and I know she wants to come over to me like she always used to do when I sat down. To get her cuddles. But now she has to look around and judge whether the others are at a safe distance. Man, it sucks. Maybe I’ll start taking her out of the pen to get some alone time. We’ll see. I do still get my cuddle time with Sky when the others are preoccupied.
Funniest bit today was when Jeanette came with a couple of bags of food and took them into the storage room to fill the barrels in there. She closed the door, and Bella and Luna though that was a really bad idea. Bella started bashing her head against the door. Not super hard, but just headbutting at the door because she wanted in. At one point she jumped up and with her hooves she managed to pull down the door handle, but she didn’t manage to pull teh door open. Not for lack of trying. Like me at the pizza place when I get there too early and they aren’t open yet. I just start headbutting the door until they let me in.
18/9 2024

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Around the christmas tree, conversation is lively.
Another bouquet of branches from Jeanette. And good to see all three goats going at it.

18/9 2024

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Got my first ever spam robocall today! I think it’s the first anyway, maybe I’ve just forgotten. I’ve read about people getting them a lot, though. Mostly in Denmark I’ve heard of them coming from “the police”. Mine was from paypal. To inform me that I had purchased 2000 kroners worth of bitcoin. Funny, because my paypal acct isn’t connected to a bank acct and there’s almost nothing left in there, I just sent most of what was left to a charity donation here on fb (polishes my halo). But those bitcoin will be worth a lot some day, I am sure!
In other financial news, today I got my yearly statement from the housing organisation detailing my consumption of electricity, water and heat. I am always terrified that I’m going to get a huge bill, but I always get money back. And this year too. So that’s a relief. I know I can check for myself how much I’ve used, but their site isn’t very accessible so I don’t really keep up with it. I just look at it once a year. So far it has worked out. It’s always nervewracking opening that PDF file and checking the beginning of it where it says if I’m getting money back or have to pay extra.
There was one year, many years ago, when I used so much heat and electricity that they increased my monthy payments to be closer to my actual consumption. Since then I have massively cut back on electrixity and heater use, so now I always get money back. I suppose I could contact them to lower my monthly payments, but honestly I’d rather pay too much each month and then get money back once a year. I feel safer like that. I get so cold that I use a lot of heat and electricity for my space heater, but not as much as back in the day I guess.
Anyway, ask me how much soup I just ate. Okay I tell you. I ate a whole pot full. No waste here.
18/9 2024

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Interesting to see a certain segment being very upset about fact-checkers. Like, “oh can’t you just let me use your platform to spread disinformation without interfering”. Says a lot when you feel like the checking of facts is a problematic thing and fact-checkers are your opponents.
Maybe if you think of them as Bible Integrity Enforcers. They’re just making sure you’re not bearing false witness. Check your signed golden bible, it’s in there somewhere, unless they took it out to make room for casino ads.
18/9 2024

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Goats in the fog. The below part is Sky eating hay. I took some from the hayholder and put it in a box outside so Sky could have some while Bella was hogging the hayholder inside. It’s too bad we had to take the second hayholder down. Maybe I’ll ask Jeanette if we can get it put up again, we just have to make sure it’s in a safe place. But it might be good to have two of them now.

18/9 2024

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Good goat times today. A nice bit of sunshine, with a bit of a cold wind. Not too much happening today. Some sweet visitors. Kids at the fence calling in to the goats. I got them to come over to the fence so the kids could see them up close. Answered some questions.
And then goat diplomacy, trying to get everyone to get along. Somewhat. Doing my best to make sure everyone gets a share of the loving. Used the water bottle on Bella again. She’s starting to recognise it. I didn’t have to actually spray her, I just shook it about and gave it a tiny squeeze, that was enough to make her stay put. Got some good time sitting with Sky. Eventually she went over to get on the platform, and I sat back at the logs with Bella and Luna. I was leaning back on the overturned bench and taking in the sun, I think we were all dozing off a bit. With Bella and Luna napping I could get up and sneak over to Sky and give her some more loving over on the platform. It’s like being a divorced dad running fromone family to the other. Hmm, maybe I don’t know how divorced dads work.
Then home and got an hour twenty on the bike. And then a bit more of the cleaning/reorganizing of the apartment. Busy day!
19/9 2024

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Naptime for the goats. Luna on the tub, Bella on the board, Sky on the platform.

19/9 2024

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Just resting my eyes.

19/9 2024

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I know what you’re thinking. But no, those aren’t clown shoes. I’ve just had a lot of goats stepping on my feet over the years.
19/9 2024

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Hey there’s no food in there! What a ripoff.

20/9 2024

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I think I said I was done with my Twin Peaks rewarch. That’s not quite correct. I’m going through the bonus material too. There’s quite a lot, especially for season 3. It’s fascinating watchinh David Lynch work. He’s so specific with his ideas and direction. You could get the thought that he does a lot of improvising, but when he’s directing the actors he knows exactly what he wants. it’s also fascinating watching him do his art stuff as part of the show. I was reading along on various forums as I watched the seasons and some people were complaining about the special effects in season 3, that they sucked. But it’s very clear that the effects are exactly how David wanted them. Some of the special effets are literally him doing arts and crafts on set. Like when he’s putting the mud mask on Laura Dern so she can remove her face. Just Lynch things.
Anyway, what an amazing work of art Twin Peaks is. Weird scary, inconsisten, wonderful, joyful, sad, happy, beautiful, ugly. Drink full.
20/9 2024

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Sly on the upturned pallet. It’s funny how they’ll just end up standing like that. Even if it’s just an ince above ground, they still gotta stand on it.

20/9 2024

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I tweeted about Richard Kind and it went viral. Well, for me. 35 Likes and 3 retwees in half an hour. Most of my tweet get on average *checks stats* one. One like. If I’m lucky.
I should tweet about Richard Kind more often.
It’s kind of unnerving seeing a bunch of complete strangers react to your post though haha.
20/9 2024

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Three in a row.

21/9 2024

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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Wasn’t feeling too great. Weak legs, tired, aching back. But I put the time an effort in. Started feeling better when I added the arm exercises and intervals, that got the heart rate up and the tiredness away at least.
After that some crunches and contiuing on the cleaning/reorganizing of the apartment.
The bad news is… I lost more weight. New record low. Never seen that range in my adult life. Now it’s about 50 pounds lost since last November. That’s a problem because it means I have to continue dieting. Haha. I’m almost hoping to NOT lose weight, because then it means I’m done. Well not really, of course I’m happy to see the weight go down. I’m just dying to get back to eating bread and other stuff again. But I know that once I go off the diet I will gain some weight, and I just want to see how low I can get before that. It would be a shame to stop now when I have found a rhythm that’s really working for me and giving great results. One more week, at least. Maybe two. If I keep losing weight at the current rate then that would get me to a point where I shouldn’t really try to lose more weight. And if I don’t lose that weight then I can say I have reached the limit of my current capability. Either way I can have bread again.
Today I can has soup.
Oh and by the way, my Richard Kind tweet ended up at 16 retweets and 149 likes. So that was fun.
21/9 2024

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goatlog

22/9 2024

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The royal hoof of Bella.

22/9 2024

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I finished all the Twin Peaks. But I’m not done with Lynch/Frost. Started rewatching their followup to Twin Peaks. On The Air. I have these fever dream memories of watching some of it back in the day, I think I must have downloaded it from some filesharing service, i don’t think it aired in Denmark. It’s so so so weird. It’s basically the weirdness of the weidest Twin Peaks, but in a straith sitcom setting. It’s also, to be honest, really bad at times. But it’s the kind of bad that’s so bad that it’s good. The show is about the making of a tv show and the tv show in the tv show is horrible and it’s almost like meta. But it’s hilarious and weird and very nostalgic for me. And it has Miguel Ferrer playing a tv executive version of the fbi agent he played on Twin Peaks. And I fffkkkn love Miguel Ferrer. Rest in power.
Yeah it takes a certain mindset to enjoy it, but if you like surreal slapstick and lowbrow dumb humour and problematic characters, because it was a different time, but also maybe it’s satirical but they’re making fart noises while playing the saxophone, but yeah, I recommend checking it out. It got cancelled pretty quickly and I think the consesus is that it’s garbage, but damn it makes me laugh. Miguel Ferrer just needs to yell at people.
I also need to watch Lynch’s movies, because weirdly enough I don’t think I have watched any of them. Maybe Lost Highway? I remember parts of it, but I’m not sure I watched the whole thing. Kind of odd being a huge Lynch fan and not having seen his movies hah.
Once I’m done with the whole Lynchverse I’ll get back to the island.
22/9 2024

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Dynamics

September 15th, 2024

Good goat times today. A rainy day. Massive rains overnight, but by the time I got out it was fairly light. But a day to spend indoors. Which was a lot more complicated than usual because of the new power dynamic.
Yes, if I was hoping that evens on Thursday were just a one time thing, well that hope was shattered. it’s very clear that Sky is retreating from Bella now. It’s hard for them to be in the same space, to the point that Sky would go out in the rain to get away from her. It’s a sad development. But it’s very clear now.
When I put out breakfast, Bella was eating from a bowl in the doorway and Sky was behind her and didn’t even dare go past her to get to the other breakfast bowls. I had to open up the door more to make mor space so she could go by.
What really makes me sad is when I sit down on the yellow chair. That was always, ALWAYS, Sky’s signal to walk over and stand next to me so I could scratch her. But now, she will look to see if Bella is there first. If Bella is there then she won’t come over. She’ll just stand and look at us. And if Bella isn’t there and we get a good scratching session going.. it gets interrupted if Bella comes over. Then Sky complains and withdraws. It’s making it all a lot harder to get good time with them all. If I sit down with Sky then unless Bella is preoccupied then she’ll come over too, because she loes attention too. And then Sky will get up to go. Hopefully it’ll be a little easier in better weather when we can go outside and there’s more space to share. In tighter quarters it’s not easy. But I did make sure to spend lots of time with Sky. While Bella was attacking the hay rack. Lots of attention and treats for Sky, that’s my mission now.
Sigh. It’s not a complete disaster. When I was handing out an apple and cucumber, Sky did come over to eat from my hand while Bella was there. And later on Sky had sat down and Bella sat down pretty near and they were sitting down like that okay. Hopefully when there isn’t competition for my attention or food they can still get along okay. I hope Sky doesn’t get blocked out at night or in heavier rains, if Bella is in the entrance. It makes me sad, but we just have to adjust. I got some good lapgoat time with Luna too. Bella will chase Luna away sometimes too. But Luna is only scared of her when they engange in a fight, if they’re relaxed then Luna isn’t scared. Sky on the other hand just doesn’t want to be near Bella, even if they’re not fighting.
Oh boy.
Yeah, the summer is over in more ways tahn one. We had one week of really lovely hot weather in September, but now it’s raining and the forecast shows lower temps ahead.
At least it’s soup weather, I’ll have some of that.
9/9 2024

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Hey, look who remembered his rain jacket!
Okay, I may not have a future as a male model. But at least I got a cute date, Red Sonja!

9/9 2024

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Here’s Bella and Sky sitting pretty close, so it is possible after all.

9/9 2024

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Here’s the flipside of the coin, Sky standing outside in the light rain because Bella is the way next to me.

9/9 2024

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Aw. Rest in peace James Earl Jones. He was much more than the voice of Darth Vader of course. But he was also the voice of Darth Vader. What a legend.
9/9 2024

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10/9 2024

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This is a bit of a sad video, wasn’t sure if I should post it. But I want to show what’s going on and all. Here’s Sky retreating from cuddles when Bella comes over. I am making sure she is getting lots of loving still.
10/9 2024

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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Calf seemed to hold up okay. At least no sharp pains this time. My butt on the other hand was very sore, made it harder to endure. I got some kind of bruise on my inner thigh/groin, right where the seat hits. Even with the memory foam seat it wasn’t great. But I gotter done.
Got a pepsi & protein delivery today too. Doing some Skyr again. After careful evaluation of my options on teh delivery site, there’s a brand of Skyr that seems to offere the best combination of lots of protein, no fat, almost no carbs or sugar. So i’m trying that for a bit along with the stricter diet again, just to see how that goes and what results I get. So far so good.
10/9 2024

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party killing except then I’m your enemy

10/9 2024

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Good goat times today. Cold and grey morning. But the sun did come out later on and made it a bit better. No doubt summer is over though. The seasons change, as with the goats. it’s difficult to adjust to the new normal. The goat place is my happy place and it’s tough to have conflict and sadness there. Not that it’s not making me happy. It’s still wonderful to be with them. It’s just hard seeing Sky taken down a notch.
I had a little chat with Jeanette about it, just to let them know what’s going on and to give Sky some extra space and consideration if they can. I told her I was doing my best to give Sky all the loving she deserves, and she said “we couldn’t make it work without”. I doubt that, but it’s nice to feel appreciated. And it’s nice to be able to do good things for the goats, especially my Sky girl.
I mentioned I might bring the water bottle and see if maybe I can discipline Bella a little. It just feels wrong to essentially punish Bella for just being a goat and doing goat things. But Sky just means the world to me, and I want to be able to sit with her without constantly fending off Bella. So I might try the water bottle. I don’t know if it’ll do any good. The problem is Sky’s instinct is to run. Even if Bella doesn’t headbutt her, Sky will still want to run from her. And I can’t keep Bella away from me all the time, that wouldn’t be fair either. Well we’ll see how it goes.
At one point I was sitting with Sky on the plywood board. Bella came over to us, I managed to sort of rediract her away. She contined on to the platform beyond. Then Luna went over to that platform, but Bella knocked her down a few times, so Luna went over to the other platform. Maybe Luna’s getting tired of Bella’s domineering too. But it just felt sort of symbolic sitting there with the three of them all apart. Luna on one platform, Bella on the other, Sky with me on the board. Will I ever be able to just sit down with all 3 of the together again?
Well, I am sure I will. But it’s a lot more tricky now. And it’s not helping my mood to have this strife. But I’m still thankful for my goat family, the whole lot of them.
And the feathers. I may have created a monter with Red Sonja though. I let her peck a couple of peanuts out of my hand. Now she’s got the idea, and she tries to peck at my hands sometimes , but she doesn’t seem to be able to tell if they’re empty or not! I got my finger pecked once while holding my hand out, I think to Sky. Oh dear. Might have to start wearing metal gloves. She’s so funny though, Red Sonja. Total litlte feathered goat.
11/9 2024

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Jeanette brought a bouquet of fresh branches. Good to see all three goats working at it together.

11/9 2024

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Loving Sky as much as humanly possible.

11/9 2024

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Is it your dream or is it the parasite’s dream?
11/9 2024

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Here’s what I was talking about earlier. Sky on the plywood board, where I was sitting with her. Bella over on the rightside platform, Luna over on the leftside. Divided we fall. Well, when we get into the cold and wet season they probably won’t be spending much time on the platforms anyway. I think that’s how it went last winter. Although now that the ‘kids’ are grown up maybe it’ll be different this winter. We’ll see. I hope we’ll still get some united we sit time.

11/9 2024

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Good goat times today. A cool morning, but the sun came out and it turned into quite a lovely day, almost summery feels. Lots of visitors, Jeanette started up the campfire and I think they made popcorn. Nice. The sweet little girl with impaired vision was back. She was outside the fence but wanted to pet the goats. I got Bella to come over, and was holding a peanut in my closed and so Bella could jump up against the fence and was sniffing at it and trying to get at it, while the girl could pet her. She’s really sweet, the girl. Seems to like the goats a lot.
One of the adults came over and asked me for the address of the facebook page. He wanted to show it to the other kids at the school they come from. So that’s fun. I guess the kids they take over to visit us have been telling the other kids about it all, I imagine.
Spent lots of time with Sky again, making sure she felt the love. At breakfast time even Luna was tying to take her breakfast bowl. Sheesh. I was using the water bottle to keep her and Bella away, to let Sky get her. It’s not like she’s starving, at all. But I don’t hope Luna will start getting bossy with her too. She butted heads with Luna a few times, and even once with Bella. That’s good. Stand up to her! But mostly, just running away and complaining. Sigh.
Got home and did an hour and a half on the bike. So that’s a full day. Time to relax now.
12/9 2024

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Obligatory loving Sky pic.

12/9 2024

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I always feel like the Chris Farley dancing next to Patrick Swayzee.
my snl oldwatch is up to the Farley years. Love seeing him again. I think my first times watching snl was when Farley was on. But I remember it being with David Spave and Adam Sandler and Rob Scneider… must be later on, these episodes are with Dana Carvey and Mike Myers and that gang. Phil Hartman sigh.
12/9 2024

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when the pain is gone, then your work is done, at last

12/9 2024

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It was a beautiful day in the goathood.

12/9 2024

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goatlog

13/9 2024

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You know me, I don’t like to be all political. I’d just like to ask, would it be okay to eat a dog that was behaving badly? Or do you have to throw the body away once you’ve dragged it out to the gravel pit and shot at it until it died?
I don’t mean to be all cynical, but maybe the steep grocery prices would be less of a problem if you ate the bad dogs instead of just leaving them in the gravel pits, you know.
Anyway, digging the ALF memes. Those illegal aliens are coming for your pets.
Meanwhile, one side is studying Trump’s ear to see if there’s any sign of him actually being shot, and the other side is studying Harris’s ear to see if she’s wearing bluetooth earrings that are feeding her the answers to the debate.
Good grief, what a time to be a leif.
13/9 2024

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Bella, looking deceptively sweet.

13/9 2024

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For the premium subscribers, a couple of patented camerafalls. And a little lapgoat time iwth Luna in between.
14/9 2024

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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Took some time to get into the groove, but I did the time.
I have been kind of going back to the stricter diet this week, just with added protein skyr. To see how that would work out. I’d put on a couple of pounds after going off the diet. I was fully expecting that, after losing 44 pounds. But it still annoyed me. So I got back on.
And it seems to have worked well, because I got a new record low weight today. So that’s about 46 pounds lost since November.
I think i’ll try the diet + skyr another week or two. See if I can lose a bit more before going back to normal. It’s addictive seeing the numbers drop when you’ve be overweigt all your life. I’ll always feel like the Chris Farley next to Patrick Swayzes. But I’m proud of the last year’s journey. I don’t like saying nice things abut myself, but I’ve done alright.
I could really go for a pizza rightabout now funksoulbrother.
But I’ll have soup, that’s great too. I couldn’t do it without teh soup. The schedule on my strict diet is 3 days of soup and 4 days of green stuff. The’s a compromise I can just about stick to. The cucumbers and tomatoes are pretty much not worth eating anymore now though, so that makes it trickier. But they got me this far.
Now about that soup…
14/9 2024

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At least Sky won’t be the smallest goat in the pen as long as we have Red Sonja fluttering about. Wutt wutt chicken butt.

14/9 2024

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Twitter says to me: “Find out how to register to vote in the United States elections.”
I thought voter fraud was a myth, but here we are, Elon Musk is trying to get a Danish citizen to vote in the American election. I say I say, someone alert the fake news mainstream liberal fascist deespacestate news
14/9 2024

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“Hey Lasse stop posting about politics, hey Lasse stop posting about politics, hey Lasse stop p”
okay okay, Luna. I get your point.
14/9 2024

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goatlog

15/9 2024

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A cute sleepy Luna.

15/9 2024

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That’s all for now.


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