Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

10/4 2023
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What the cluck was that?!
Now imagine the chicken noise replaced by a fart and youd have a comedy gold clip
10/4 2023
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Milo sees his own shadow, I hope that means 5 more months of summer.

10/4 2023
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HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

11/4 2023
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Good goat times today. Easter vacation is over, it was good to see Jeanette again. And the goats of course. And the sun. The forecast had said heavy rain, but thankfully that all passed early in the morning before I got out. Mostly sun while I was out goating, so that was lovely. I could have worn my spring jacket. I think it’s time to dust it off soon.
We had a sweet group of daycare kids visiting. Jeanette brought some carrot sticks for them to give to the goats and everyone had a good time. Especially Milo who was loving the carrots, practically knocking Jeanette over when she had them and then jumping up against the fence when the kids were handing them out. He’s a glutton!
On the downside, my back was absolutely wrecked when I was walking home. In horrible pain. Back to the doctor soon.
Right now I need a power nap and some soup.
11/4 2023
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We got a crowd, and Milo’s got his eyes on the prize.

11/4 2023
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Yeah, Milo wants those carrots.

11/4 2023
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Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

12/4 2023
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goatlog

12/4 2023
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We got some grass turf for the mountain. I think Jeanette brought it, not sure if it’s from her place or not. Now that spring is slowly starting i think it must be time to sow grass on the mountain. It would be nice to have it all covered in grass.

12/4 2023
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I hope today will be a good one. Here is Large from 2013.

13/4 2023
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Had my physical therapy appointment today. It did not go as I expected. Last time we had sort of talked about how the therapist didn’t think he could do much more for us and I was expecting today that we would write up a sort of final status and he’d refer me back to my doctor for further examination.
Instead, we tried something novel. Physical therapy. Wtih actualy physical therapy. He showed me exercises and printed out stuff for me. And I got one of those exercise rubber band things. So I guess now I actually have to do some physical stuff. And we’ll see if that helps my muscles and joints and makes my body stronger. Here’s to hoping.
I feel a bit like the last 2½ months have been kind of a waste, since I haven’t really gotten anything out of the pt. But I know it’s partially my own fault for not communicating well and all. To be honest I have just been so mentally broked that I’m just sort of… treading water? Going through the motions? One day a day. Bearing the pain because I can’t work up the strength and energy to do anything. But hey we’ll see now if I get some improvement.
Oh and my dad is doing somewhat better. He said all of his tests came back well, he’s like a ‘superman’ he joked. Except for his blood pressure which is still too high. And his doc says she’s exhausted all option on that. So she’s looking into what else they can do, he may have to go to the hospital.
And not to keep complaining but I got a sore neck now too, from sleeping in my chair too much I think. But other than that everything fkn fantastic, hooray who wants to eat.
13/4 2023
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Meanwhile, in the goat place. I dragged one of the old christmas trees up for the goats. And they got to work nibbling on it. The gift that keeps on gifting. Although I can’t imagine there’s any nutrition left in that. Like sucking on the bones of the thanksgiving turkey.

13/4 2023
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goatlog

13/4 2023
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I hope today will be a good one. Here is Ping from 2016.

14/4 2023
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Don’t fall in, Mia.

14/4 2023
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What if the wind in your hair is just ghosts farting?
14/4 2023
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Happy Caturday everyone. I hope it’s a good one. Here is Nala.

15/4 2023
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Cool kids never have the time.

15/4 2023
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Happy Funday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

16/4 2023
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Welp. I know you’re gonna get mad at me. I think I had another blackout. I checked my files and it’s almost exactly a month since the last one. I know I need to go to the doctor about it. I just.. don’t want to.
I got my stopwatch running, it was about 50 minutes going. Piecing things to gether.. I had started it running because I was about to get on my exercise bike. And then I got that feeling, that deja vue feeling that I seem to get befoer the blackouts. And then.. I came to. I think I was sitting on the toilet, at least I hadn’t fallen down. But judging by the stopwatch that was still running, I was out of it for about 40ish minutes. And then having to retrace my steps and figure out what day it is, what I was doing, what I had been doing. I had been sleeping and got up today around 10 – 10.30 am. And was getting ready to get on my bike. I can see I got my space heater pointed at my exercise bike. And I’m wearing my exercise rain coat. And when I start my stopwatch running, literally the next thing is getting on the bike. So I blacked out just then, as I was getting ready to get on the bike. It’s such a weird feeling. Having to retrace your steps to find out where and when you are. It seems to happen roughly once a month. I slept in my bed for the first in a week last night, I should go back and look at my records and see if I can tell if the other times have happened after a long sleep.
Such a weird feeling. I can remember now mostly. I got my rain/exercise coat on. i went and got a pair of disosable plastic gloves as I do before starting the space heater. The space heater wasn’t going. So it was on my way from teh gloves to the heater that i.. spaced out. And because I had just started the stopwatch app that I use when exercising I can see that that was pretty much exactly 45-50 minutes ago. Instead of getting on the bike when I started the stopwatch as I always do, I must have just stood there in a daze for 40ish minutes. I am not even sure if I was justs tanding there when I was starting to come back to consciousness, or was I sitting on the toilet.. hmm. Well in any case. I suppose I oughta get on my bike and do that exercise I was going to do.
It’s a weird and scary feeling when you’re not sure what the time is and what you were doing and what you were going to do. And then your brrain slowly puts it back together like a jiggsaw puzzle. So weird.
it’s pretty much all back to me now. I got the disposible gloves. And my next step would be getting the earphones for my exercise mp3 player. But they’re still in their usual spot. So I blacked out between getting the gloves and getting the earphones. And I cn vaguely remember now, getting that weird deja vue sensation that seems to signal the blackout. And then a 40ish minute gap. So fkn weird. Ok. I’m going to go ride the exercise bike. Talk later.
16/4 2023
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Well hello again. Here I am, back fom exercising. Feeling okay. Got a pot of soup brewing. Just going to relax the rest of the day. I will look at your comments on the blackout entry when I’ve had something to eat. I have a feeling i know what some of you will say.. haha. It’s interesting how I can pinpoint when I blacked out because I had just started the stopwatch for my exercise. Normally when I start that I go and get a couple of disposable gloves then I get my mp3 player then I get on the bike and start going. When I start going on the bike the stopwatch is around a minute or a minute and a half. So it was in the space of that minute and a half that my mind short circuited. And I do remember standing with the gloves (don’t ask why I use them, long story) and getting that feeling the deja vue feeling and then… blank. And when I got back to myself the stopwatch had reached about 40 minutes I think. I probably came back after about 30-35 minutes. So half an hour of just being zoned out.
Last time it happened while my dad was here. He says I opened the door for him when he rang the bell, after a while. So it’s not like i’m completely passed out. I think he said he couldn’t really get through to me, I wasn’t really responding. So it must be something like a sleepwalking state almost? I’m not sure. I wonder if it’s something like the brain fog that you hear long covid sufferers experience. I want to read up on that and see if it sounds similar. Anyway. Feeling ok now. Going to soup myself good. I’ll talk back to you in a bit.
16/4 2023
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Thanks everyone for the comments on the blackout post. I appreciate the concerne and I appreciate that I am a frustrating friend! The truth is I don’t really care about myself, and I know that is not a nice thing to say. It’s also not an easy thing to change. There are a lot of ways my life would be better if I had cared more about myself and situation and faced things and dealt with them. Instead I am stuck in a hole, broken mind and body. Here we are. Well, here I am. I don’t have much hope for the future and not caring is easier.
Sorry to be grim about it! I am thankful for those who care about me, and I understand if you want to kick my assh. I will try to work up the conviction to do more. In the meantime, look over there a squirrel.
16/4 2023
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That’s all for now.

Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

3/4 2023
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Sky loves finding stuff to scratch herself on. Usually it’s her rear that gets a scratching,g but she found the food tub to be the right hight to get her underbelly scritched good. She was rubbing back and forth for ages, as she does.

3/4 2023
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HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

4/4 2023
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Do är drömmarna jag drömmer ibland

4/4 2023
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goatlog

4/4 2023
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I don’t need to go to the ptometrist to find out how my eyesight is doing. I got my magic 8ball for that. Outlook not so good. Yup yup.
4/4 2023
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Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

5/4 2023
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Good goat times today. It’s Easter vacation, so no Jeanette. I was a little worried if everything would be fine withouth her. But the goaties were out and good. And Maja was there. Been a while since I saw her last. She’s very nice. Not as comfortable with the goats as Jeanette is, but very sweet. We had a nice little chat. She told me how she’s used to being around big horses, but still the goats unnerve her a bit at time. She said she still hadn’t quite made up with Milo. Apparently he was jumping up on her and stuff. That bandit. But I think she takes good care of them. She was giving them their food and asked if I thought it could be right that they should only get half a cup. I looked a the cup, and it was pretty small. Half of that cup would barely be enough for one goat I think. She thought it might be a different cup than normal, the usual one is bigger which is why half of that might be enough for them. But she went and got some more food for the goaties, and they appreciated that. And I helped her with the hay. There wasn’t any left on the shelf in the goat house, but I’d noticed there was a bunch of bales in the room that’s usually closed off in the goat house. So she asked if I’d put some out for them, and I did of course.
And other than that it was a lot of relaxing today. Because it was a beautiful sunny day. Cold in the morning, but it warmed up well. I had to open up my winter coat. Honestly I could have taken it off completely, it got warm enough to be t-shirt weather. Hopefully this means spring is here and we’ll get more. Lots of goats lazing about in the sunshnie. Snoring sounds and yawns. I love sitting around with lazy goats in the sun, it’s a perfect calm. In between the silly stuff. This little sun of mine, let it shine.
5/4 2023
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Relax.

5/4 2023
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Snooze.

5/4 2023
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I hope today will be a good one. Here’s Popcorn from 2015.

6/4 2023
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For the premium subscribers, a little Behind The Scenes footage. Setting up the camera, while Sky is doing her thing.
6/4 2023
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Your face or mine?

6/4 2023
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I hope today will be a good one. Here is Mads from 2005.

7/4 2023
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For the premium subscribers here’s an outtake that was too hot for broadcast on the regular channel. Uncle does a striptease! Sky decided that this was so inappropriate that she had to go and turn off the camera. Prude!
7/4 2023
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Indiana Jones and the Indiana Jones of Indiana Jones *fanfare*
7/4 2023
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Happy Caturday everyone. I hope it’s a good one. Here’s Nala.

8/4 2023
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goatlog

8/4 2023
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Sometimes when you’re blindly taking photos you get the framing all wrong. But I still like Milo’s silhouette against the blue sky.

8/4 2023
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Happy Funday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.

9/4 2023
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Only thing I’ll ever ask of you, you gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
Gosh darned it, this song slaps. As the kids say. I was on the exercise bike and it came on and I was immediately fired up. Screaming along to it. In my head, of course. I worry about bothering the neighbours with my exercise bike. But since they are busy training their pet elephants to tapdance and bowl, they probably don’t notice.
But it rocked. The sunshine coming through the windows, the space heater hitting me from the other side. Sweat pouring down me in my rain coat on the bike. Awyeah. I love being on the bike really, it’s just a matters of not making excuses, getting off my big ass and just doing it. It’s like visiting the goats. Doesn’t matter how I’m feeling before, it’s always worth it. I always feel better after.
And this song is just one of the best of all time, both the rocking and the acoustic versions.

9/4 2023
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Happy Easter to everyone who partakes, and happy Wester to the rest of us.
I’m going to refrain from going on a long rant about religion, just humbly wish that everyone who posts sunshine pictures with bible verses on them would take the time to think about the actual values of their religions and whether they’re living up to them in everyday life. Love they neighbour, doesn’t have an asterisk saying “unless they’re a guy in a dress or an immigrant or someone who got their college loans refunded or ” ok ok I’ll shut up and go lay an easter egg instead.
9/4 2023
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Hippity hoppity and you don’t stoppity.
It’s a dangerous time to a straight white rabbit. It’s a witch hunt, down the rabbit hole. Don’t worry, it’s just fake fur. I skinned your teddy bears. Take the red pill or the blue pill? The independent pill will waste your vote. And when you’re on the chessboard don’t be scared if the king puts on a dress and moves like a queen. Go ask Alice. Oh wait, she quit. Go ask Jeanette. The walls are bending shape they got a cheshire cat grin. The pawns are expendable, the war is profitable, remember what the doormouse said, go lay an egg on my head.
I could go on forever. Imagine if I did drugs? That’d be a trip.

You say a lot of funny things, my little bunny
And I almost always laugh, but that’s not really funny
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That’s all for now.