Darkness Before The Storm
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Two days until the eye surgery. Thursday morning at 8am. I am not nervous about the operation itself. Now I know what to expect. I am more nervous about the future in general. My left eye is so bad now. And I’m not sure what’s going on with the right. It just seems more and more likely that I will end up all blind. But I know, I have to try to stay positive. Hang in there. For at least another couple of days so I can see what the surgery will bring.
There is still blood in my right eye from the first operation. So I assume we’ll have to fix that on Thursday. Operate on the right eye again. I really wish we could do the left one too, though. I know they normally won’t operate on both eyes in the same go. Becaause then you’ll be completely blinded while wearing bandages. And if something goes wrong you could lose your sight on both eyes. But the way things are now it doesn’t seem like there is much to lose. And I’d be okay with a couple o days in blindness. It wouldn’t be fun. But I still worry that if we wait a month or two before we do the left eye then there will be nothing left to save. It really is very, very bad now. And it still feels like it gets worse on a daily basis.
But we’ll see what happens. I’m not sure if we’ll get to talk to a doctor about it all. Last time it was just a nurse who prepped me and then it was off to the surgery. This time we’re scheduled to go in 30 minutes before the actual appointment time though. And since we left it as an “open surgery appointment” we do have to somehow tell them which eye should be operated on.
Anyway, the thing I wanted to say was that in case they do operate on my left eye then I probably won’t be able to use the computer for a little while. So don’t despair if I don’t update the blog right away. Most likely they’ll do the right eye and like last time I should be back in a day or two. But it could be longer. In theory if they operate on both eyes I could need temporary glasses before I could use the computer. And even further in theory I might not be able to use the computer before they take out the silicon oil, which could be up to 6 months. And even further than that, I might not be able to use the computer ever again. Hopefully it won’t be anywhere near that bad. But don’t be alarmed if I go missing for a while. With the state of my left eye I am close to having to take a hiatus anyway. So at some point in the near future you will probably have to do without my fantastic blogging. For a while. I hope you will find a way to survive. I suggest therapy. Or cookies. Or BOTH.
Tomorrow I am going to go get my hair cut. My dad will help me get there of course. And then he will help me go to the playground so I can spend some time with the goats and recharge my batteries. They are close to empty. Some quality goat time should help with that.
All for now.
PS. I wonder if Kevin Bacon has goats on his farm? He has a farm, doesn’t he? I could swear I heard him say so on Ferguson. But maybe I’m wrong. I know Steve Zahn has goats. And James Earl Jones. It would be cool if Kevin Bacon did too.
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2 Responses to “Darkness Before The Storm”
1. Debster Says:
July 15th, 2009 at 1:36
Thanks for reminding us not to freak out if we don’t hear from you. (You know we will all be thinking of you anyway:)
Yes, having surgery isn’t quite so bad once you sort of know what to expect.
Did I tell you we have 3 baby kitties now? Our barn cat was preggers and now we have the cutest little kittens. They have their eyes open, but we haven’t bothered them yet. Mama is still very friendly to us, so won’t be long till we get to play with the babies.
2. Plume Says:
July 15th, 2009 at 20:50
Debsster – Aw baby kitties. I could use some baby kitties. Maybe I should get me a barn. I’ll get started on that soon, I promise.
See you soon!