It’s almost time now. Tomorrow is the (presumable) last eye operation. I have to get up bright and early at 5:30.

I am starting to feel pretty nervous about it. Not so much the surgery itself, but the following day. Bandaged left eye and non-functioning right eye. Even for just one day, being blind scares me. It’s not going to be fun. And the moment when they take the bandages off will be scary too. What if everything is worse?

But I know it won’t do any good to think like that. I just have to get through it, it’s not like I have a choice. And hope for the best. Hope for that slight improvement that is still possible. I know my parents will help me get through the day, and I hope that will be the only day of complete blindness I will ever have to experience.

It’s going to be strange to have to wear glasses again. It’s been so long without them. A year? I couldn’t imagine life without glasses back then, now I can hardly imagine having to wear them again. It’s certainly easier without them. Maybe I should think about contacts. Or, in my case, contact I guess. Wouldn’t need one for the right eye. But I don’t even know if they make contacts strong enough for me. And I don’t think I’d like the hassle. So I guess it’s back to glasses for me. Although I will probably need some new ones now. If they even make any difference any more.

Hard to say.

They will be removing the oil pad from my left eye. And replacing the lens, clearing the cataracts. What is this, my 5th operation? 7th? Guess it depends on whether you count the laser ones. If all goes well then this should be the last one. And then I’ll be done. I almost wanted to say that then I could go back to my normal life, but it will never be quite normal of course. There’s not going to be a single day for the rest of my life when my eyesight won’t be an issue. But it’s amazing what you can get used to.

So I will be gone for a day or two. Y’all take good care and cross your fingers for me. And while I’m gone, why don’t you spend some time with goats?
youtube.com/watch?v=ZblCXnvqbyo. Quiet time with goats.
youtube.com/watch?v=qtnYekN-inc. Loud time with goats.
youtube.com/watch?v=-nDTaSy3u6U. In the fold.

I will have to stay away from them for a week or two. Can’t afford to have any goat hooves shoved in my eye while it’s healing. The babies are going to be HUGE when I get back to them. Hope they will still recognise me wearing glasses.

See you soon, fingers crossed.

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