Great Full
My life is a constant struggle between the need to exercise and the desire to eat pizza. Plus goats and dreams.
29/5 2017
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Are we not intertwined?
29/5 2017
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Today will be a good day. Let it be.
29/5 2017
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Good goat times today. I missed the sun, though. It was overcast all day. At least it stayed dry, and wasn’t too cold. There was some kind of hullabaloo going on in the area around the playground. Sounded almost like a carnival, there was some guy on a megaphone. And lots of kids walking around. Maybe it was the yearly exercise day for the schools? I don’t know. But lots of commotion and the goats very a little on edge. Unsettled. They can be quite sensitive to changes in the surroundings. But they calmed down soon enough and we spent some good lazy time together. I captured several nice yawns on camera, that’s always good. I love a good goat yawn.
Curiously, it seems like Mio has gotten tired of tomatoes. Maybe she got used to the imported winter ones. Now tomato season is in full bloom but she barely wants one, today she didn’t want any. Strange. Mia is happy to take up the slack, though. And she’s having an easier time eating the Danish summer ones, because they’re softer. Maybe they’re too ripe for Mio now. Peculiar. Her appetite in general is still as voracious as it ever was. Snarfing down all the treats I care to hand out, including some banana and cucumber leftovers. Go figure!
29/5 2017
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“I’m just one of the horses, tra la la”.
29/5 2017
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Who need faith in mankind, I got goats. *rocks back and forth* i got goats.
ugly cries into pizza can you make me feel good
29/5 2017
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Can’t we just all get a long… broom that we can hit dumb people over the head with?
29/5 2017
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I get knocked down but I get u… eh.
Going to bed. I’ll put on the nonstop Christmas music mix to entertain you all while I’m gone. Mistletoe optional.
29/5 2017
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Today will be a good day. Do your best with your own piece of the puzzle, you can’t control the bigger picture.
30/5 2017
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Don’t move, I don’t think they’ve seen you.
30/5 2017
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As far as I know, Fidget Spinner is the name of Woody Harrelson’s character in the Han Solo movie.
30/5 2017
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Done for today. Walking that tightrope between insanity and the alternative. Time to take a dive into the otherworld.
30/5 2017
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Today will be a good day. Happy hump day, guys.
31/5 2017
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Looks like it’s going to be one of those days where I can’t world.
31/5 2017
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I just made a Friday post on my goat page, I know it’s happened to everyone. I’m such a cliché. I told you I couldn’t World today.
31/5 2017
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All the things you can’t live without
31/5 2017
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If you love goats, or other animals, just keep in mind that they’re quite dependent on the climate. Also on there not being coal in the rivers and not being shot in the face while hibernating.
31/5 2017
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Today will be a goat day.
1/6 2017
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Good goat times today. Lovely and sunny, though a bit of a cold wind on the walk there. The temperatures have fallen below 20C/70F again. But as long as the sun shines it’s still pretty nice.
Bad news, though. They boarded up the passageway I made. So now the goat pen and horse pasture is separated again. I think, at least. When I got there today the goats were actually out in the pasture. Whoever let them out in the morning wasn’t there when I got there. I’m wondering if they just let the goats out in the horse pasture. Or if they let them out in the pen and they were able to go to the pasture. The board they put up is positioned a little oddly, I’m wondering if perhaps the goats are able to pass through from the pen to the pasture but not the other way around. Hmm. Well, A38 can still pass both ways haha. Sometimes it pays to be a shortie. I guess it’s nice for her that she can have all that goat pen to herself with no menace from the big bully girls. But I’m annoyed. Humans suck. There are some other concerns too. I think I’ll have to try to talk to Finbarr, the guy who runs the place. I hate talking to humans. I spend most of my waking time trying to avoid it.
Anyway, the goating was still good. Lots of relaxing in the sunshine. Had some especially sweet and tender moments with Mio, resting her head in my lap as she slightly dozed off. Blissing in the sun. Just gotta try to keep my mind focused on the good things.
1/6 2017
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A beautiful day in the goathood.
1/6 2017
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Heading to bed. Not feeling so good. Kind of having a crisis of faith, in humanity and in myself. The kind where you sit with your head in your hands and cry. I don’t like this world, I don’t really want to be a part of it anymore. I wish I could take my goats and fly away in a soap bubble.
1/6 2017
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Today will be a good day. I believe it, I really do. I felt awful yesterday. Like “can’t go on” awful. But then, there’s a freedom in feeling you’ve hit rock bottom. Things can only get better then. If nothing matters anymore then you’re free to do what you want without pressure. Might as well do something good.
Well, we’ll see what happens. I have been thinking about some things. Some things I want to change. Even contacted my doctor about getting back on anti depressants. We’ll see. For now I’m going to go exercise, because that’s one of the things that will make me feel better.
And thank you all for the support and sweet comments on last night’s post. It’s a blessing knowing you all got my back. Helps me keep going. Hope everyone else facing hard times will find their way too. Love you loves. Catch up when the exercise is done.
2/6 2017
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Ahh, the sweet scent of electrical fire.
*record scratch* wait, what?
Whoopsie. I knocked my glass of iced drink over while exercising. Annoying, but no big deal I figured. Until I smelled the smoke and heard an electric crackling over my MP3 player. Had to get off and unplug everything in a hurry, haha. I had knocked the liquid right into my extension cord with multiple sockets. Yikes. No fire, but it sure smelled like it. Oh well. At least the exercise was good and I have leftover pizza. Always look on the bright side.
2/6 2017
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Horse parade.
2/6 2017
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New idea for a TV show. A combination of the movie Junior and the book/show The Handmaid’s Tale. You know, men being the handmaids because they can get pregnant, via science. Hopefully we can get Schwarzenegger and DeVito to star.
It needs a little work.
This has been a Friday night post brought to you by pizza and electrical fire smoke. Keep thinking happy thoughts.
2/6 2017
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Things I’m greatful for
2/6 2017
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Adore turned 19 yesterday. My favourite record of all time. Maybe now more for it’s meaning and importance in my life than for the music. But I still love it. To crestfallen pieces. Many nights in my bed in the dark, watching the tree outside my window move in the night while listening to it.’
3/6 2017
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Today will be a good day. Yes we will.
3(6 2017
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Scouting for treats.
3/6 2017
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Been a rough couple of days, but I think i’m moving in the right direction now. So that’s something. Thank you to everyone who has reached out and been there and existed. I wanted to share this thing that Rafael Lecuona DePiero sent to me. Especially the thing about thinking about things you’re grateful for. According to this article, even if you have nothing to be grateful for at all, just trying to think of something can actually have a positive effect. Not that that’s relevant to me, because I do in fact have things to be grateful for. Plenty. For starters there are the easy ones like goats, Facebookrinos and pizza. I’ve been trying to do this the last few days. When the dark thoughts creep in I go “Stop. What are you greatful for?”. I’m not saying it’s a jedi mindtrick that will fix everything. But anything to point your mind in a positive direction is helpful I think. So that’s what that’s what. Thanks for looking out, guys.
link: 4 rituals proven by neuroscience to make you happy
3/6 2017
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Today will be a good day. Happy funday, guys.
4/6 2017
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When you want to hate the world, that’s when you really need to love it.
There’s about a billion other things I feel like saying, but I’m going to not. I’m going to go think of things I’m greatful for instead.
4/6 2017
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goatlog
4/6 2017
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End of Facebook. Go go goat photos.
That’s all for this week, see you in the next one.
June 5th, 2017 at 3:37
Good to know you are planning on talking to your doctor about the mood swings and thinking about being on meds.
I think everyone who follows you has noticed some problems you are having and are thinking about you and hoping you can start feeling better.
As we always say, don’t make us all come over there and knock on your door! You know we would all do it, too.
Have you ever considered your avoidance of people in general may be causing some of your sad feelings? The more you avoid things, the worse you feel. The worse you feel, the more you avoid things.
Try meds and therapy – go once a week to a therapist. If you can’t talk, write it down and give it to the therapist. There is lots of help out there, and you do deserve it and are worth the effort.
June 11th, 2017 at 22:04
Hopefully things will get better. I’ll keep working on it anyway. I am sure the avoidance of people is part of it. Loneliness. But I’ll start with meds, hopefully. And then we’ll see. Baby steps.