Road Tripping
Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
26/9 2022
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HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it will be a good one.
27/9 2022
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Well that was.. weird. And a little scary.
I am not sure what hapened to me. I think.. I may have blacked out? Or something.
I found myself walking home with two trashbags and not really knowing where I was going or had been. I got up to my apartment and sat down and had to spend like 15-20 minutes just sitting there thinking, trying to find my way back into my head. I actually went and checked teletext on the tv to see what day it was…
I felt like I had been shopping, but I didn’t have any goods. And I had my trash that I normally throw out on my way to the supermarket. Felt really weird and disconcerting.
I had to piece it all together again. Tuesday. I had been to see the goats. Yeah. I hadn’t spent as long as I usually do, because it was raining so much. But I had been there, sat with them inside. I talked to Jeanette when I left, we’re getting ready to go get the bench at the old place and we’d discussed that.
And then I walked home in the rain. Down the paths. Got to my block. Up the stairs. Put the mp3 player and camera away. Got my bags of trash. Down the stairs. I’d checked the mail down in the hall, there was a pamphlet that I threw out. And then I got out and walked along the building and then… I don’t know.
The dumpster where I get rid of the trash is about halfway between my house and the supermarket. It’s just a minute’s walk if that. But I guess I didn’t make it that far. I have no idea why I turned around and walked up to my apartment. It’s just a fog. I felt like I’d been shopping. Or. I don’t know. I felt I didn’t know what to do next. I usually have my days planned out in advance, I need structure. Because of my eyesight and anxieities I don’t usualyl do things spontaneously. I felt like i had been picked out of my schedule and thrown back in randomly. I didn’t really know how to proceed now.
Very odd and unpleasant. But eventually I figured, well I don’t have any of the stuff I need to buy and I got these bags of trash, so I guess I gotta go out. Again. And I went and dumped the trash and went shopping and it all went fine. And I’m feeling pretty fine now. Just that odd feeling of.. what the heck happened.
My blood sugar is fine. Feel fine. Maybe a little groggy. I wonder if it’s brain fog, if i’ve had a bit of covid after all. A couple of weeks ago now I had that week i had to stay home. It just felt like a pretty normal cold. And then a few days ago I mentioned I felt the cough was coming back and my nose was starting to run again. But that never really got worse and just went away. But I don’t know. Maybe I’ve had some mild covid and this was some of that brain fog you hear people have in longterm complications. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just going crazy.
It was cold and rainy and I did get soaked and wasn’t wearing appropriate clothing. But you wouldn’t think that would just short-circuit your brain. Because that’s kind of what it feels like happened.
Well it semes like I’ve been able to type this out coherently, so I’m probably okay. Maybe it was just a glitch in the system. Maybe they rebooted my server of the simulation. I don’t know.
Probably fine.
But kind of weird and scary for a bit.
27/9 2022
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Watching the rain.
27/9 2022
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27/9 2022
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Milo wishes to register a complaint, RE: The weather
27/9 2022
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Just noticed, we passed 30,000 followers on Mia’s page. Not bad, not bad. The page readch was going down for a while, but then it started going up again, now it’s almost at 2½ million people for the last month. There’s 3-4 videos that are getting constant new comments. If I’m not able to look at it for a day then there are so many comments that I just have to give up going through them all. I try to keep moderating them to weed out the inappropriate stuff that some people post, thankfully there isn’t too much of that. But yeah if I get up in the morning I just can’t go through hundreds and hundreds of comments on several videos. There’s a lot of comments there aren’t in English too. So if I want to read them I have to wait for the translate button to do its thing. It’s super fun to get so much attention but it’s also a bit exhausting. I can only imagine what it’s like on the really big pages, like Esther’s. Of cours they hire, or volunteer, people to help manage that.
Anyway. 30,000. Whodathunkit. I’m just happy to be able to spread some goat love and positivity, it feels good. And of course it has made me some great friends who have moved over here to my personal page too. I am extremely thankful for that.
27/9 2022
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Happy Hump day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
28/9 2022
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I hope today will be a good day. Here’s Peanut from 2015.
29/9 2022
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Good news everyone! I guess I should start with the tldr.
We got a new home for Sassy, Lily and Nuller. That is the important part.
It was starting to look a bit dicey. The horses are coming back tomorrow as I understand it. And snl has to go. As I walked home today I actually thought I would be updating with mostly bad news. But then I got a call..
Well, I’m just going to tell you how the day went. If you want the tldr tldr check the first comment.
So I went and hung out with Mia, Milo and Sky. We had some fun. Sky had the zoomies and she was running up that goat hill and then up the ramp and then back and forth, up and down. She was panting with exertion. Little cutie.
Today was the day we were going to go to the old place to pick up the bench. We went off, me and Jeanette and Isaac. I am not sure i’m spelling his name right. He’s very cool. Super chill and laid back. He’s got a soft and mellow and really calm voice. Slow. He sounds like if there was a fire he’d just calmly, slowly, with a soft voice whisper… fire. Haha. I like him. He works indoor at the playground so I haven’t seen him much, but I remember Maja said he’d let the goats out for her because she wasn’t feeling so comfortable iwth it, so I guess he’s been around the goats a little at least.
We went off in Jeanette’s car, trailer attached at the back. We did take a wrong turn but eventually we found our way to the old playground. I said hello to snl, while Jeanette and Isaac lifted the bench out to the trailer, and we got the big black tub and a smaller through too. I thought about maybe bringing some more stuff, but it was a small trailer and I figured we’d leave it at that.
I felt a little bad about taking that stuff away from snl. But, first I don’t think they used the bench. Whenever I’ve been to see them after mms moved they have been sitting together inside the goat house.
And also, they wouldn’t have much time to use it now anyway. Since their deadline is pretty much up.
I talked to Lars and he said they’d found a farmer who was going to take them, but it fell through. And they were pretty much out of options. Again, the horses due to arrive back tomorrow. And they are not allowed to have that many animals. So. It was kind of dire. At this point I brought up my friend Angeline. Some of you know her on here too. She is super nice and she has an animal sanctuary. And we had previously talked about how she might come and get them as a last resort, if no other options were left. It would be very impractical, I believe she’s in Belgium. I think sh told me it would take her something like 8 hours to get to us and then the poor goats would have to be transported for 8 hours back. It would not be good for anyone and I don’t even know if Angeline would still be willing or able to do that. But as we were riding back in the car I thought I’d have to get in touch with Angeline and find out when I got home, because Lars let me know that unless they found something pretty much right away, then snl would be facing slaughter. I know, don’t even get me started ranting about that. Awful. We talked about it in the car, Jeanette was agreeing how awful it was. She can’t stand people who get animals and don’t feel responsible to take care of them in the longterm, she said. And then she brought up her neighbours. They had had goats before. The scary part is that their goats had all died from a parasite attack. Which is not the greatest thing to hear… but they’re good people, they still have animals. Mini horses amongst others. And Jeanette said she’d ask them if they felt up for having goats again. She said she’d try to find out today or tomorrow so I could know if I had to try and see if Angeline was still an option.
I got home and took a shower and missed a called. Checked my messages, it was Jeanette. She’d been in touch with her neighbours and they want the goats! In fact they had seemed eager to have them, Jeantte hadn’t needed to do any ‘negotiating’ or convincing. So Jeanette has given their information to Lars, at the old place. And they’re going to work out the gransfer. Presumeable next week. I am not sure I will be involved in the move. Jeanette said that she had pretty much left us out of it now, the family and the old place is going to work out the logistics and that will be that.
I am just relieved that they’re going to have a good home. That is the important thing now, because we were getting close to a bad ending. Jeanette lives out in the country, there is not easy access by bus. And you know, it’s a private family. So I am not going to be able to just go visit. Jeanette said we might be able to arrange a visit so I can see where they’re living, but I don’t know if that will happen or if there will be more opportunities. I’m going to have to process my feelings about his, because not being able to see Sassy, Lily and Nuller is a very sad thing. But right now I’m just.. focusing on making sure they get to live. That’s most important. And it sounds like they’ll get to live with a family that’s used to having animals and are happy to have them. They’re not going to be tossed away or just live on some farm with no human closeness.
So yeah. I’ve known for a while that the chances of me still being able to see them were extremely low. I have had some time to adjust. I really wish we could have had all 6 at the new place. I really miss having that big group and all the fun that bring, all the love to give to all the goats. It’s hard to have to say goodbye. But it would be unbearable if they had been sent to slaughter. I know Lars did not want to do that, but I also have more and more been getting the feeling that.. he would have done it if he had to. I know we all have very different feelings about it all, but that’s what it is.
So hopefully that will all work out well. I could tell Jeanette was happy to give me the news. After I’d heard the message I called her up to thank her and we talked for a bit. She was happy to be able to give me the good news and she knew I’d be relieved. I am more happy than ever that we found our way into her presence and friendship. She’s been nothing but great. I fordgot to mention on Tuesday, in the rain, I was sitting inside with the goats. On the floor. And she called out to us and asked if I wanted her to bring a chair. Now I’m happy to sit on the floor and get dirty so I told her that she didn’t have to. But it just shows how nice and caring she is. She clearly wants the best for the goats, and for me too. I appreciate that a lot. It makes me feel that Mia, Milo and Sky are at their right place now, where they will be cared for well, and for their whole lives.
So yes, that was a big day. Did some tricky stuff, out socializing and doing stuff. Had to overcome my anxiety and go back in and talk to Lars a second time to make sure I had his number and everyhing in case I needed to get him and Angeline in touch. It’s always hard overcoming all my natural instincts to just run away. It’s not fight or fight, it’s talk or flight. But I always want flight. I’m glad sometimes I manage to do the right thing. It’s easier when you have nice people like Jeanette and Isaac on your side.
We got the bench and stuff back to the new place. I decide to go home then, since it had been a big day taking a lot out of me, and since I’d already had to put Mia inside once when we left to go get the stuff, I didn’t want to have to put her through the stress of it again once more so soon. So I let Jeanette let her out after I was gone. Would have been fun to see her reaction to seeing the bench again and the tub, she loves jumping up on that. But it’s just nice to have them back and we’ll get more time sitting together on that rickety old bench. An old goat and her old goatman on the old goat bench. I’m thankful the new playground wanted to help with that, it’s not like they had any obligation.
hooves crossed snl will be moved without problems and have a good life with good people. I’ve been feeling a lot of depression lately, maybe a good resolution for those 3 will help ease my mind. Although the missing them will probably not help. I am not sure when the move will happen exactly, I’ll have to try and see if I can get to spend a little time with them beforehand. I’ll do my best.
Send all your good thoughts for it all to go as well as possible. It was getting close to a bad ending, hopefully it will be a good one now.
29/9 2022
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Here is Isaac and Jeanette, having loaded the bench onto the trailer, the tubs waiting their turn.
I sure am glad I talked about snl’s situation during the ride and that Jeanette wanted to help. It was sweet talking to her on the phone later, I could hear how happy she was to be able to make me happy with the news and how it meant something to her to be able to do that for me, and the goats. I am thankful that she cares about us old goats.
29/9 2022
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I hope today will be a good day. I thought we’d take a photo of Sassy, Lily and Nuller for today. Three wonderful goats that have given us much happiness along the years.
30/9 2022
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Some details from yesterday’s roadtrip.
When we got to the old playground and went inside to get the key to the goat gate (since I’d given mine back to Lars a week or so ago) we talked a little to a couple of the ladies who work there and were sitting inside. The first thing they asked was “How’s number 18 doing?!”. Apprently they have been a little concerned. I remember on the day we did the big move of mms, Anne had said how relieved she was that I’d gotten them to take Milo, she’d been worried they wouldn’t be able to find a home for him because he can be a little .. bandity. Well, he’s doing well at the new place. Jeanette seemed surprised that they were even concerned. She is aware that she has to be observant when they let kids into the pen with the goats, you kinda have to give Milo extra attention and cuddles. He doesn’t always like kids petting, especially if they touch him around the hind legs. He doesn’t like when I do it either. You know he has those ‘leg beards’ as I call them. If I try to touch those he will swing his head to knock me away.
But anyway, one of the ladies at the old playground said he doesn’t like kids and because she’s pretty short he’d been after her too, and she’d been knocked on the ground a couple of times by him! Wow. I had never heard of that before. I’ve seen him swing his head around when he doesn’t want to be touched, but that he’d knocked someone over, I would not have thought that! I’m pretty short, good thing he doesn’t mind me! And Jeanette wasn’t bothered, she seems to have a good handle on him too. So that’s something.
And then when we had talked about that another lady said “But Mia is sooo sweet, isn’t she? We really miss her”. Yeah. Everyone loves Mia. I definitely did not lie when I convinced them to take Mia, she’s a big lovebug and perfect petting goat.
Jeanette also told them about how the goats love me, and how they stand and wait for me when I’m not there and how they start bleating for me like a minute before I get there, like they know I’m coming from afar. Really sweet. You know I don’t have an easy time seeig qualities in myself, but my relationship with the goats is something I am proud of, for lack of a better word. I’m short but Milo doesn’t want to knock me out, that speaks well for me!
I have not heard anything new today. I have been home relaxing. It’s been.. a tough time. I assume no news is good news, snl should be moved next week. Hooves crossed it will all go well. Those 3 are very sociable goats too. In some ways they are cuddlier than Milo and Sky. MS like being petted, but snl really like just standing there while you just hug them tight and hang on to them. You can’t quite do that with Milo and Sky. They like being petted, but not held tight. I’m going to miss the double hugs with Lily and Nuller. Between two goats. Sassy doesn’t seek out the hugs as much, but if you give them to her she will stand there and enjoy it. Yeah, it’s really sad that I will not be able to just sit around with them. But I am happy they will get to live and be well.
Okay, I’ll stop blabbering now. Hey thanks all as always for listening and caring and showing love for me and the goats. You keep me hanging on.
30/9 2022
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Happy Caturday everyone. I hope it will be a good one.
1/10 2022
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When your best friend made a negative comment about the outfit you wore to the party so now you’re definitely not talking to him the rest of the evening.
1/10 2022
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Happy Funday everyone. I hope it will be a good one.
2/10 2022
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goatlog
2/10 2022
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Keeping a straight face.
Not feeling super well mentally right now, feeling cold and sad but hanging in there. I need the snl thing to go through, I can’t shake the irrational fear that the move will fall through for some reason. I just need it to work out.
2/10 2022
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That’s all for now.