The Scary Season
Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
24/10 2022
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Good goat times today. Grey, but not too cold. And it stayed dry while I was out. It had rained before I got out so it took a little coaxing to get the goats out on the wet grass. The leaves are falling and the greens are fading, but we went around and they looked for edibles. Jeanette had put aside a mini pallet for me, told me I could use it to sit on so I wouldn’t get a wet behind. So I carried that around and sat down and watched the goats go around.
We had some sweet visitors too. Kids at the fence, and in the goat pen too. Always nice. A lady with them asked a bunch of questions about the goats and seemed quite impressed with my bond and story with the goats. It’s always nice to feel appreciated. And Jeanette is always complimentary of me when she talks to visitors too, it’s very nice.
I’m really tired now and my nose seems to be running a bit. Let’s hope I haven’t caught any bugs. Thank you everyone for the good thoughts for my dad btw, haven’t heard anything from the folks, so that should mean he hasn’t gotten worse at least.
24/10 2022
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“Yes, I know Jeanette got you this to keep your butt dry, but I need to keep my hooves dry and my hooves are more important than your butt” said Mia, probably.
24/10 2022
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Accidentally had my camera set to ‘creative mode’ so i guess this is creative. I am an art.
24/10 2022
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I tried the cucumber again, and this time it was a succes! Opened it sideways and threw it on the ground, and all three feathers came to get some. The brown one is Grethe. And I believe Henrietta is the smallest white. The other white is.. not so good a story. Apparently because there’s no rooster this one has had some hormonal changes occur and is now acting kind of like a rooster, but she’s attacked Jeanette a couple of times and I believe attacked kids too. So she will not be staying with us unfortunately. I think they’re planning on adding more feathers, not sure if there will be a real rooster there. But anyway, it was nice to see them go for the cucumber.
24/10 2022
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Three goats on a life raft…
The second I get off that mini pallet, there are goats on it. Goats just gotta climb on things. Can’t blame them when the ground is wet I guess, can’t be fun to walk around with wet hooves all the time.
25/10 2022
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HappY Yogi daY everyone. Hope it’s a good one.
25/10 2022
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Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
I managed to get on the exercise bike today. For the first time in a month and a half. I weighed myself afterwards. I only weigh myself after exercising, smart right? And then I note the result down. I got in the habit of that when I was actively trying to lose weight. Smart enough to have a record of changes. Anyway, I weighed myself today and much to my surprise I found.. I had lost half a kg since the last time I exercised. I was sure I’d put on weight. Not exercising and eating poorly because of everything that’s been going on. But hey that’s good i guess.
26/10 2022
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Got some bad news today. I called dad to hear how the covid was going. I think he’s over that by now. We didn’t really get to talk about it. Because it happened that I caught him at the hospital. I guess he had an appointment today to do with his memory problems and all that. I didn’t know he had an appintment. I knew he was going in November. But I guess maybe this is a precursor to that appt because he said he wouldn’t get the final results from today until a month from now. That would about line up with his appt in November.
But anyway. They got some images of his brain and stuff and unfortunately the news aren’t good. It’s pretty clear that he’s in the early stages of alzeimer’s. He said the images had looked almost exactly like the ones Uncle Jens had gotten. So that wasn’t nice to hear. I didn’t experience what happend to uncle Jens up close, that side of the family lives on Zealand and with my problems I’m not really in close contact with that side of the family. But I got the updates about what was going on of course and it was heard to hear, how towards the end he couldn’t recognise his own kids and he ended up basically catatonic in a hospital bed. It was rought. And it’s sad and scary to think of my dad going through that too. Hopefully he will still have a good long while of being able to live his life more or less normally. But there’s no doubt where it’s heading. And it’s not like it’s surprising news, it has been pretty clear what’s been going on with his memory.
Yeah, life isn’t fair sometimes. It’s another one of those things. You can kick and punch and scream but you can’t stop it. Some things can’t be fixed. We just have to hope for the best for as long as possible.
I just wish I could stop time. There is nothing about the future that is appealing to me.
26/10 2022
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Thank you everyone for the thoughts and words. One day a day, hopefully still a lot of good ones ahead.
27/10 2022
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I hope today will be a good day. Here’s Preben from 2012.
27/10 2022
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Good goat times today. Managed to get out and goat despite just wanting to bury myself under pillows and blankets. But sometimes you just gotta go on autopilot. I know being with the goays always makes me happy. And it did, it’s always worth it. Good to be with them. Nice to see Jeanette as well, and Malene was there. She always shouts out my name with a big happy smile when she sees me. Always nice. And sweet visitors too, kids in the goat pen. Sky got a whole lot of cuddles. And there was a sweet girl who bravely petter all the goats and told us how she really wanted a bunny. “BUNNY BUNNY BUNNY BUNNY” she said to her mother. Hard to argue against that pitch.
27/10 2022
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Skyis the center of attention.
27/10 2022
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All animals deserve to be handled with care.
27/10 2022
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I hope today will be a good day. Here is Mads from 2007.
28/10 2022
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Well, my dad just stopped by. We were supposed to have a longer chat, but he lost his wallet so he had to leave again fairly quickly to go see if he can find it again. He might have lost a month’s wages and back card and stuff. Ugh.
But we talked briefly, and the news are worse than lost money. We won’t have all the results of his tests for another month, but he told me that the xrays of his brain showed there were large parts that no longer worked. And he told me that he did not expect to have much more than a year left to live. So that’s .. shocking. I knew things were bad, but he’s still functionaing quite well, other than forgetting stuff a lot. Somehow I did not expect things to be this far along. He said there’s a medication that he can take that might give him a bit more time. But it’s not going to be a lot and there’s no real stopping this. i’m sure the doctors will do all they can.
I don’t really know how to process this. I feel numb. And there’s nothing to do about it.
28/10 2022
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Thank you everyone, for all the words and thoughts, the support and your stories. I appreciate having the support system here and people who care.
I’m not feeling too talkative about it. There is not a lot to say. We’ll have to see how it progresses. I suppose we’ll find out more next month when all the results come in and maybe we’ll know more.
Still don’t really know how to process it. Sat for a few hours in my comfy chair, listening to Bowie and clutching my bald head in my hands. I fell asleep for a while, and dreamt about dad. He was printing out random pages from the internet and trying to find secret conspiracies in teh words. Sigh. Sometimes there is no deeper meaning.
And this is literally the song that came on just as I started writing this.
Well, one day a day. Keep on trucking, mothertruckers.
Thank you all again, really. Don’t know what I’d do without you and goats.
28/10 2022
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Happy Caturday everyone. I decided to postpone the other idea I had and continue Caturday with Heino and Nala, as was suggested to me. I didn’t really get as close to them as I did with Mousy, because she slept inside the stables and at the time I would often let the goats out there in the morning and see her. While Heino and Nala I only saw them when they on occasion dropped by the goat pen and then it was just brief passthroughs mostly. But they are cute cats so we can keep the Caturdays going for a while with them, if you’re all okay with that?
Other than that, nothing new. Hanging in there. Just kind of on autopilot for now. Oh yeah and my ad found his wallet. He’d left it at home I guess, not in the supermarket. So that’s a relief, not so much because of the cash but more the bank card and identity stuff, I was worried about someone getting a hold of those. But we got other stuff to worry abou anyway.
Thank you all again for the support.
29/10 2022
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Happy Funday everyone.
30/10 2022
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a goatlog
30/10 2022
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Hey hey! Thank you so much Kaprine Pearlz for the lovely ‘animated’ Halloween card! I had some fun pulling the weenie! Heehee. Thank you Keiko and Strawbs for thinking of me. I got it a couple of days ago and with the stuff you posted on my wall yesterday/this morning you have given me some nice smiles. Much needed. Lots of figurative goat berries sent your way <3
30/10 2022
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In the prison yard, dreaming of life on the outside.
30/10 2022
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Mr Fluffybottom modeling his fuzzy pantaloons.
30/10 2022
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That’s all for now.