The Fall
Happy Mio Monday everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
23/1 2023
—
.
Good eye doc times today. Time for my half-yearly checkup. I missed the last one so it’s been almost a year. But no problems. Everything looks peaceful, the eye doc said. And that’s what we want. As long as it’s stable then I can’t ask for more. He said that the way things look now he doesn’t expect any big changes in the foreseeable future. So here’s to hoping for that.
The only problem was that his hydraulic chair thing had blown it’s motor. So he couldn’t lower or raise me. Well, we made do. But I couldn’t thinking poor person who was sitting in it when it blew. Must have been hard not to take that as an insult. Fine fine I’ll go on a diet! Hah.
Now 6 months till I gotta go again.
23/1 2023
—
.
Well I have to say a big thank you to Wild Bill K’s momma. She sent me a big package of stuff. A Columbia fleece, a hoodie, several t-shirts, socks, a compacted bag thing, a hand sanitizer thing with a pizza ‘wrapping’ and a Mickey Mouse plushie thing. I think that’s all. As if that wasn’t a lot! I don’t know what to say. You shouldn’t have, Carole, but thank you so much for thinking of me. Merry Christmas to you and Wildflower too. So kind of you.
23/1 2023
—
.
HappY Yogi daY everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
24/1 2023
—
.
Good goat times today. I managed to get out and goat, despite being very tired. All the vet and emergency going last week and the eye doc yesterday and the exercise, I was just feeling like taking one one of my 24 hour naps. But I had to see how the goats were doing of course.
And they’re doing okay. Milo isn’t limping anymore. Apparently he’s been lifting up his bad leg while standing still, though. I didn’t see any of that. He seemed pretty normal to me. Mia is still limping a little. I feel like it’s gotten better though. The vet is saying to give it 10-14 days with the meds and see. So hopefully i’m right that things have gotten better and hopefully they’ll be all good very soon.
Bitterly cold today. Brrr. Snow and ice in places. But the sun shined quite a bit so that was lovely.
Nice to see Jeanette too. The first thing she asked when she saw me was how they eye doc visit went. I’d told her I had an appointment. And she just seems to care, it’s very nice. So we talked about that. And a bit about the ’emergency’ trip I took to help Milo last week. She thanked me for it too. Apparently the caretakers had tried calling her but she hadn’t got the message until too late. But I’m glad to hear that. While I’m happy to help as I can, I’m not sure it would be good if I was first on the on-call help list. As I’m feeling now, my mental and physical stamina just isn’t great. And I might not get their call in time either, you know if I’m taking 24 hour nap. So it’s good that Jeanette is a possibility first. Although she has a longer commute and she has family and stuff, but I’m sure if the goats needed help she’d come.
And we had visitors in the pen today. A daycare group. It’s been about a month or so since we last had visitors. I think the bad weather has kept the kindergarten/daycare groups inside for a while. So it was sweet to have some kids seeing the goats up close. And everyone was on good behaviour, even the bandit. He seemed a bit mellower today. Maybe he’s high on meds haha. Nah. Although that’s a funny thought now, I wonder what a stoned goat would be like…
Ugh, that was following by another thought that was less funny, I’m gonna go put some soup on.
24/1 2023
—
.
Good company today.
24/1 2023
—
.
Making friends.
24/1 2023
—
.
One more from today’s goat meet’n’greet.
24/1 2023
—
.
Happy Hump Day everyone. I hope it’s a good one.
25/1 2023
—
.
goatlog
25/1 2023
—
.
Ugh. Guess who broke his arm?
I’m pretty sure.Excruciating pain.
You know how I don’t go to the doc even when I have to? Well, I’m afraid theres nodenying I have to go to the ER tomorrow. I van’t really go on my own because of my dight issues. And my dad is going to a concert tonight. So we’ll go tomorrow morning.
There’s a lot more to it than I have told, but I’m typing with one hand and feeling rotten. I fell, that’s the extremely short version, but there’s other stuff going on. Maybe I’ll write more later tonight. I’m going to see if I can get a pot of soup on the stove.
Forking hell.
26/1 2023
—
.
Thank you everyone for the supportive words. Planning to go to the hospital in a couple of hours. Pretty sure armis broken. I read it might need a cast for 8-12 weeks. I am distraught. I won’t be able to goat properly. Fork. We’llsee what they say.
26/1 2023
—
.
Well, I’m back from the ER. I got good news and I got bad news. The good and the bad news is that it’s not broken. That’s what they said anyway. The bad part is that I have a hard time believing it.
The very nice nurse examined my shoulder and arm and said that she “wasn’t afraid that it was broken”. And I didn’t really feel pain in the exercises she did on my arm. But there’s still an extreme pain when I move my arm in some ways. And I can’t really lift it very high.
Sigh. She put it in a sling, to give it some peace. And if it doesn’t get better I gotta see my personal doc. I am already pretty sure I’ll be doing that early next week. I cannot imagine this just going away, and I can’t live like this. Of course it’s my right arm too. Typing all this with just my left hand is super fun I can tell you…
otc pain meds are helping some, but not enough. Can we have another oxy pandemic please?
Double sigh. Well we’ll have to see how it goes. Thank you all for the concern, thank you dad for leaving the concert at half-time so we could get in earlier. And to the taxi driver for waiting outside the ER and taking us back home. We were in and out in literally 5-10 minutes. I really wish they’d taken xrays. But okay, here’s to hoping I’ll get miracously better in a day or two,
26/1 2023
—
.
A new day, a new dawn. And I’m not feeling good.
I didn’t feel up to going to bed, so I spent the night in my comfy chair. Not the best idea, but here we are.
Painkillers and the sling has helped a bit I think. But there’s still a lack ofmovement and bad pain with some moves. The ER nurse said to go to my own doc today if it was much worse, But it’s not. I’m gonna hobble through the weekend and then go see my own doc beginning of next week. Unless things have magically cleared up, but that would shock me beyond belief. I don’t know if it IS broken, but it definitely isn’t good.
Thanks all for the concern and advice. Later on I might write some more details about how it happened. Take care!
27/1 2023
—
.
Sigh. I am in pain. My whole body. My upper arm is still the sharp pain. Painkillers and keeping it still on the sling offers some relief, but it’s not great. And the rest of my body is just painfully sore. My legs feel like they do when I’ve had a long walk without stretching, Which is strange because I didn’t make it out the door. But I guss the fall just.. crashed my whole body. I wonder if I fell back on my rear cos my butt is pretty sore too.
Now you may ask yourself, how could he not know if he fell on his butt?
Well. i kinda had another of those blackout / brain fog incidents. The last two times it happened I think I came to in my chair and had to piece together where I was and what I’d been doing. Yesterday, I had been getting ready to go out and see the goats. And then I came to lying on the floor of my apartment. Peanuts and pasta spread on the floor, along with my phone and mp3 player. I later realised my mp3 player was still playing. Turning it on is one of the last things I do before I leave the house. I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t make it out the door, I could have fallen down the stairs or hit my head on the stone floors out there. Or if I were passed out someone could have swiped my wallet. OR called for help.
I’m not sure if I actually passed out or something. Or if I just fell and was consciouss through it all. Because it’s all quite foggy.
I remember I thought I was lying in bed, waking from a night’s sleep. And I could hear my neighbour’s tv through the wall, I’m unfortunately hearing a lot of neighbour noise. But then i realised that couldn’t be right. Because it was way too loud to be through a wall. And then I guess i realised I was lying on the floor, and what i was hearing was my own tv next to me.
I know I need to get this situation addressed. I think it’s 3 times in 4-5 months. But right now I’m just more worried about my physical condition, my arm.
Anyway. I lay on the floor for a while. Because my arm was so painful that moving was difficult. Eventually I got up on a chair. And i guess I managed to get some painkillers in me. And i think I spent a couple of hours on the chair, just shifting around, trying to get more comfortable, trying to lessen the pain, trying to put together what had happened.
Eventually I called my dad. I don’t even remember if I told him I’d fallen…I asked him if he could do a little shopping for me. I wanted cake, even though I’m trying to quit the unhealthy stuff. But you know, I was in pain and feeling sorry for myself. And then I wanted potatoes so I could cook me up a pot of soup. I had realised by then that I was in no condition to go out and see the goats or go shopping.
Dad did the shopping for me, he is always so eager to help us. And if I hadn’t told him on the phone then I guess when he came with the goods I told him. I think we talked about going the ER the next day, today. Since he was going to a recital/concert in the evening. Later on, I think after they read my fb updates, my parents thought it was better to get me to the ER on the same day. The ER is supposed to be for emergencies, so it’s not great to wait a day before you go there, they could tell you to go to your own doc then if you’re good enough to wait. Anyway, dad left at the halfway of the concert, actually a bit before that, and came and got me and we went off to the ER. And as i said, no xrays which i am not happy about. But the nurse was pulling my arm back and forth, testing various positions and movements. And her conclusion was “I’m not afraid that it’s broken”. Hopefully she’s right about it. But there’s definitely something wrong. When I move my arm in some ways the pain is excruciating. The worst pain I can ever remember feeling. Well. Other than when I had high pressure in my eyes. That was a more dull, constant feeling. With the arm the pain is a sharp, horrible one, but I can avoid it by holding still.
Oh I forgot another part of me that hurts. My tongue. The sides of it are sore and bumpy and frayed. It’s not too bad, but I think I may have been chewing on it when I went down. I don’t know. I feel like I’ve been through a meatgrinder. But it’s not really worse than yesterday, so the ER wouldn’t want me to go to them again, and I can’t see my own doc until Monday. So that’s the plan. I will probably get referred to some further examinations, hopefully including xrays. They can’t do those at my doc’s office. I’ll have to make it through the weekend and then we’ll see how it goes.
Thanks all for the concern, sorry for worrying you.
27/1 2023
—
.
Ugh. Getting out of the bathroom I get my foot caught in the door and my body twists and it feels like someone stabbed a knife in my arn. Sigh. My whole body is just sore. My thighs hurt so much that it’s hard to lift my legs up from the ground and into my comfy chair. I’ve tried stretching a little, maybe that will hrlp. I’m feeling pretty rotten to be honest. Everything is a pain.
28/1 2023
—
.
A little goat content in the gloom and doom. I am missing them a lot. Feeling slightly better, but that may just be the painkillers talking. Arm is still bad. Going to bed early today, hope I can sleep and dream and heal. Hooves crossed.
28/1 2023
—
.
Hello world. I am alive. If you can call it that. *dramatic swoon*
Still in a lot of pain. A litte better though, at least. I spent about 20 hours in bed. I had hoped that would give the muscle pains time to heal, but it hasn’t completely. But they haven’t completely. I feel like my entire body is broken and my body’s healing ressources just don’t know where to begin. Where does the firetruck go if every single building in the town is on fire??
Clearly I know a lot about anatomy and the body!
It is a bit better though. Yesterday I could barely lift my legs because my thighs hurt so much. It’s not as bad today, but they still hurt. My back hurts too. I wonder if I pulled. I have to go real slow if I want to bend down or straighten up. That’s a little better too, though.
And I did manage to sleep and dream. In between the very slow rolling around trying to get comfortable. There was a lot of that.
My butt is still sore too. I was hoping not sitting on it for 20+ hours would have helped more on that.
My arm maybe a tiny bit better? It’s hard to say because I’m popping pain killers like they’re candy and those seem to help mostly on the arm pain, not so much the other things. But there’s definitely still something wrong. I can’t lift it in some directions and some moves cause that really intense sharp pain. Got my sling back on and just trying to relax.
We’ll see what the doc says tomorrow. I guess it’s good that there’s some improvement. I’m feeling anxiety over it all too, having to go see humans, what if they want to put me in the hospital, what if I have to be away from home, what about the goats. I guess I could go see them at the fence like this, but I can’t really sit and spend time with them, can’t tell them not to push my arm. Sigh. I’m trying not to get too depressed, but I just hate all this. I just want quiet routine and no changes. Instead I got all this.
You better believe I’m going to bask in self pity! Ordered pizza though, so that’s something. Hope you’re all doing ok, thanks for listening and caring.
29/1 2023
—
.
.
—
That’s all for now.