Let’s All Go To The Lobby
A woman came up to me this morning. Asked me if I would give her a few kroners for breakfast. I gave her 20 kroners. I don’t know why really. For all I know she could have gone and spent them on beer. But then on the other hand she might have gone and gotten herself a nice breakfast.
She reminded me that I’m priviliged. I have more money than I can spend. I have enough money that I don’t have to worry about a down payment on the appartment I will hopefully find soon. I don’t have to go up to strangers and ask for money if I want something.
She also reminded me that I have gotten better. It doesn’t scare me when strangers come up to me anymore. People are much less frightening to me.
Later on I discovered that it’s no problem to go to the cinema. It all went really well. Of course I went at 11 am, which meant that the place was practically empty. The auditorium was completely empty when I went in there.
Auditorium 8, row 8, seat 8. Easy to remember.
Just as the lights were going down three people came in. They sat in the back. I was in the middle. They were talking for a while. Laughing at the movie. Even singing out loud along to a song in the movie at one point. I don’t know if that’s normal behaviout. Since I haven’t been to the cinema in 15 years. But it wasn’t really annoying. It was nice that I didn’t have the place completely to my self. That would have been a little weird.
I didn’t go to see Cursed by the way. I saw a Danish movie instead. Adams Æbler. Adam’s Apples. It was quite good. Odd and fascinating and grimly funny. It’s a comedy, but not a slapstick one. It has serious themes. God and Satan and fate. Inspired by the book of Job.
I’m not really a big fan of Danish movies in general. We have had a lot of succes with the Dogme movies and other movies doing well at international festivals. I haven’t watched too many of our recent ones. But maybe I should. Adams Æbler was good. And a good one for my first cinema experience.
Crappy shot of the poster.
General impressions… it was loud! Especially the commercials and previews. Which ran 20 minutes, someone should have warned me of that. The previews were good though. War of the Worlds. Star Wars. I’m looking forward to that, I’ll almost certainly go watch it in the cinema. And also Sin City. That looked spectacular. Stylish. I want to watch that one too. I have to say, seeing Jessica Alba shaking her stuff on a huge screen like that… Whoah. She’s gorgeous.
It was kind of hard sitting still there for almost two hours. I get restless. When I watch movies at home I have a bad habit of watching half the movie and then stopping. I’ll go do something else. And then watch the rest of the movie the next day. But that’s not an option in the cinema of course.
It was hot too. Not incredibly hot. But I just like cold. I like to have fresh, cold air. They should crank up the A/C in there.
But all in all it went well. As I expected it to. I didn’t get afraid. There was some mild nervousness when I bought the ticket. I have never done that myself before. But my therapy has been good. I know to look out for “automatic thoughts”. And I know the thoughts are unrealistic. So I just have to keep a realistic focus on the situation. Be aware that it’s not dangerous.
It’ll be harder when I go next time. It will most likely be full of people. But now I have a good experience to build on. If it had been crowded on my first time then I would have gotten stressed and the automatic thoughts would have been harder to fight. So it was really good to go at 11 pm. Sanne gave me permission to do it. I didn’t actually tell her that I was going to the cinema. I told her it was an “exercise” for the therapy. Which was the truth of course. I just wasn’t sure if she’d understand that going to the cinema was therapy and not just slacking off. Ah well, I think she would have understanded. She has been helpful and understanding so far.
I think one of my next exercises should be to go watch soccer at Århus Stadium. That will be a good place to be out and around people. Maybe when Brøndby comes, although that’s always one of the most crowded games.
After the movie I went to the playground. While the sun was retreating.
Hung out with the goats.
And then the rain came. And I learned that goats don’t like rain. Well, my goats don’t like it anyway. A minute after the rain started all three of them started running back to their house. Kind of funny. The lambs stayed outside, I guess they didn’t mind the rain. I didn’t get any good pictures of Black, sorry Maile. Next time.
I went inside with the goats. And waited out the rain with them. Magnethe was climbing up on my lap. My pants got quite dirty. When you have a goat kid running through the mud and then walking up on you… well that spells dirtiness. She’s lovely though. I was hugging her while she tried to walk over me. And I had some stale bread again. She was licking up the crumbs from my hand. Even though she’s getting bigger everybody still loves her.
A good day. New progress in my life. That is always a positive feeling.
I updated the video section with two new entries. One with three videos of Magnethe, just because I love her. And then a video of Mads and Mathilde. Where they are duelling a little. So you can see Mathilde standing up to Mads, if you so desire.
May 10th, 2005 at 23:05
good for you, lasse!! that movie you spoke of sounds interesting. i’ve never seen a danish movie before. i’m actually not that sure i’ve ever actually heard the danish language before. sin city was an excellent movie. i highly recommend it. there are free titties in there. when i saw it a bunch of teenaged GIs were behind me hooting everytime titties came up on the screen. they were also burping and just generally carrying on. they were ruining the movie for me. i saw sin city alone since all of my friends were busy. i like going to movies alone. no one i have to share the popcorn with.