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Good goat times today. Overcast and a bit chilly. I miss the sun! But it was a good day with the furs and feathers. And a group of kids visiting who came into the pen and had a lot of fun petting the goats and picking leaves and grass to feed them. One little girl bending down and petting Sky and going “sweet Sky, Sky is so sweet, sweet Sky, sweet Sky” over and over. Very, sweet.
Later on, the rain started. Sky was going down to the platforms in the big pen, I thought maybe she was going to stand under them for shelter. But then the rain really got strong and she came running back to us in the goat house. And she did manage to get inside. I hate that she has to be on guard and run out in the rain when the others get too close to her, though. I did my best to make sure she had her space.
Now it’s soup weather so I’ll soup.
14/4 2025
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Sky, munching on some hay and watching the rain.
14/4 2025
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i feel kind of like a sucker working so hard for months to lose all that weight. Shoulda just ran for president, apparently that makes pounds magically disappear.
14/4 2025
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Breakfast time. Sky is sharing with Presumably Sonja.
14/4 2025
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Did you know that in Denmark there’s a place called Lolland? It’s probably close to Middelfart, lol lol.
The more you now.
14/4 2025
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Luna and Lasse, partners in totally not crime. You can’t prove anything, we have an alibi.
15/4 2025
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. A bit of a struggle. Had to really push myself. My legs really need a break. But I just have to complete this week, then I can ease it a little.
I had to lower the resistance again to make it through. But I found that if I put the resistance to 3 instead of 4 then I could go really fast, like blurry feet fast. And that seemed less hard on my legs. I wonder what’s most effective, fast at 4 resistance, or super fast at 3. Well, i’m not doing the biking to.. get good at biking. I don’t need to get faster and stronger, it’s more about burning calories. Going faster at lower resistance got me a lot more winded than the other way. So maybe that’s a better calorie burner.
I don’t know. Looking forward to reward pizza soon. Just gotta power through this week.
just found out my RSS feed reader for the past decade is retiring. A horrible businessy email going basically ” we=”” are=”” excited=”” to=”” announce=”” our=”” new=”” product,=”” which=”” will=”” replace=”” the=”” service=”” you=”” currently=”” using”.=”” product=”” is=”” of=”” course=”” paid=”” and=”” 3d=”” ai=”” guurgh.=”” make=”” pay=”” for=”” a=”” worse=”” than=”” free=”” one=”” were=”” using,=”” congratulations.
Anyone out there have a good RSS reader website? Do people even know what RSS is anymore… sigh. I miss usenet too. I used to read dk.videnskab.jura and dk.forbruger on a daily basis.
Anyway, I’ll go yell at some clouds. That should burn more calories.
15/4 2025
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Happy Tax Day, americans. I’d tax Kristen Bell, but I’ve a feeling she’d tax me.
You’re welcome fellow Monty Python fans. There are dozens of us!
15/4 2025
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Escapism report
Watched Mickey 17. Not a movie I had much interest in watching beforehand, but they were going to cover it on the film podcast I listen to. So I watched it. Glad I did. Much better than I expected. I’m not a Robert Pattinson fan, but he was great and it was an interesting story. Printing human bodies, expendable people. Good scifi. I looved the aliens, they were really cool. The Trump stuff was a little on the nose and the movie was a little longish, but all in all funny and interesting and thought provoking societal satire. Thumbs up.
Haven’t watched much new tv, been spending too much time working on the old computers. Looks like I finally got the drives on the xp pc wiped.
The Bowie journey has gotten to Never Let Me Down, but I keep going back ot the Labyrinth soundtrack. I love listening to that.
I finished reading Christine, which was a fun if silly early King work.
Finished reading Forward, an audible collection of scifi short stories. Some interesting stuff in there. Although reading about AI seems almost nonfiction now, too real.
Started reading Earthlings by Murata, Sayaka. It is very grim and disturbing, but fascinating. Dark and sad, but i like that in the arts. As we say about the music, slower and sadder please. Need something to make us feel, as the world grinds us down and numbs us.
Alright, that’s all for this one. See you in the fiction, fellow travellers.
15/4 2025
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I have never been more disappointed in life than the day I found out that a soda fountain wasn’t an actual fountain.
Life is a master baiter and switcher. I WAS PROMISED A FOUNTAIN OF SODA. Let me talk to your manager.
15/4 2025
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goatlog
16/4 2025
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Did some more work on my old computers today. I have finished up the XP PC erasure, so today I booted up my old Windows 7 PC. For the first time since 2019. I guess my fears that old computers that haven’t been turned on in 6-15 years stop working, were unfounded. All three of my old computers turned on and booted just fine.
This Windows 7 PC is a lot closer to my modern life. Looking at the hard drives there’s lots of things that I remember, lots of things that I still have in use on my current PC. And lots of old stuff that barely makes sense anymore.
It took a lot of fiddling to get it to boot from my USB stick, but now I have the eraser tool running again. Securely erasing a 1 terabye drive is going to take a while. Probably a day or more. But I’m happy leaving it running to wipe it all down.
Then I’m going to play around with installing Windows 10 and 11 on it, just to do some experimenting. But it’s nice to get it all cleaned and ready to be shipped out of my apartment. More baggage that will soon be unloaded.
I spent more time than I should on those old computers, but it’s kind of fun looking back at the old stuff too. I would rather be on a Windows XP or Windows 7 computer, compared to this dystopian present of Windows 10 and dystopian hellscape of Windows 11. Everything gets worse over time. The world is sinking DESPAIR ALL YE WHO GAZE UPON THIS
ok. Calm down. Go to the soup fountain.
16/4 2025
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I am really enjoying that I have added cuumber back into my diet. I wish I could get good Danish cucumbers all year round.
I wonder if the tomatoes are good enough now too. i am hesitant to start eating them again. Last year I had some issues with my teeth, and my theory is that it was because I was eating so many tomatoes. They’re pretty acidic, aren’t they? Maybe that’s all in my head. The goats enjoy their maters all year round.
16/4 2025
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I almost thought I was going to black out earlier today.
It’s been a couple of years now since I had those spells were I blacked out.
Today I was sitting at the computer, and I started getting that feeling that I used to get before blacking out. It’s hard to describe, it’s like a sense overload, like smells and memories and like that thing in movies when the foreground zooms in while the background zooms out. Or is it vice versa. Anyway. I used to get that feeling before a blackout, and I got it today pretty strongly.
It almost feels like it’s pulling me in, and if I lean into it I can let it swallow me. If you watched Twni Peaks The Return, that scene where Gordon Cole almost gets dragged into the vortex in the sky. Like you’re being pulled into it, and if you don’t manage to step back and free yourself then it’ll take you. I used to get that feeling, that if I let it, it would swallow me.
And then I’d come to myself later and not know where or when I was.
But I did not black out today, so hopefully it was just a random thing and not a sign of those spells coming back.
I can’t remember if I wrote about it, but my theory was that those blackouts were caused by my sleeping schedule. I don’t know for sure of course, but the blackouts stopped when I returned to a more normal sleep schedule. There have been lots of other mental and physical changes in my life the past few years, so it could be something else of course.
I used to basically sleep for 14-15 hours one night and then the following night i’d take a nap for an hour or so. Honestly, I miss that sometimes. It brought such amazing dreams, lots of lucid, deep dreams. I rarely have lucid dreams now, and I don’t remember them as much or for as long. I miss the dreams. But it wasn’t a smart schedule to keep of course, whether they caused blackouts or not.
Oh well.
Can’t really think of anything else that has happened or changed the last couple of days that would bring the blackout feeling back. But let’s just hope it’s a fluke and that’s that.
16/4 2025
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Good goat times today. It’s Easter holiday, so no Jeanette. And no visitors from the neighbour school. Just me and the goats.
And it was a rainy morning. I was happy that when I got there Sky was inside relaxing in the bedroom with the two others. When there isn’t competition over snacks and cuddles, then it’s a little easier for her to get her space with them.
Just a quiet little day. The rain died out eventually, and the sun did its best to break through the clouds. Without too much success. Hope we’ll get our sunny days back soon.
Got home and did an hour and change on the bike. My legs are still severely worn down. Really need a break. Just one more session this week, then I can skip one or two and let the legs grow back.
Now it’s soup time. Goats soup and exercise, that’s not a bad day’s work.
17/4 2025
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Sky sitting with her box of hay under the shelter. The shelter roof wasn’t quite was I was hoping for originally, but I’m glad we got it. It’s good that Sky has a little dry spot when things are tense inside.
Bella’s working the hay rack inside
17/4 2025
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Dedicated to You know Who
17/4 2025
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Make with the treats and make it snappy.
17/4 2025
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Ugh. Scheduling my next Pepsi&Protein delivery, and what do I see? They have added a new cherry pie to their stock. Not a frozen one either. Why must they tempt me?!
Well. It’s not like it’s freshly baked, it’s probably not great. And it’s expensive. But. I’m going to try it. Next week. It can be my reward to look forward to during the exercising next week. And then I’ll finally get to try cherry pie. It probably won’t be damn fine, but it’ll be something.
18/4 2025
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It’s a good day for Beavers.
Today American soccerball player will make his debut in Denmark. I will be rooting for the Beavers!
18/4 2025
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Moody
18/4 2025
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Beavers update:
Young American goalkeeper Beavers was voted Man Of The Match in his debut today. The game ended 0-0, though. Thoughts and prayers to any American sportsfans who died of boredom trying to watch it.
Just kidding, I know Americans don’t watch soccerballsports.
Thumbs up Beavers, tho!
18/4 2025
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THE ORDER OF THE HAND WILL RULE
18/4 2025
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. Once again it was a struggle. My legs are nearing breaking point. I hope they don’t break! Time for a break soon.
But the hard work paid off. Dropped another pound or so. New record low weight of my recorded adult life. Very satisfying to see the scales hit numbers I’ve never seen before. I’m not often proud of myself, but I’m proud of myself for achieving this.
Now it’s time to shift gears and start eating more. And then keep on the exercising and monitoring and hopefully I can avoid putting on as much weight as over the holidays. I have enough buffer now to put on a few pounds without worry, but I’d just like to find a level where I can eat and treat myself nicely and still stay at a good weight. Here’s to hoping.
The upstairs elephant kids have resumed their tap dancing lessons, I hear. They are really going at it today. Wonder if they have extra family visiting because of the Easter holidays. Sounds like multipying. It’s perplexifying.
But now it’s soup o’clock.
19/4 2025
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Today is the 2 year anniversary of Mia’s passing. I am not going to write more about it, really. The pain still runs deep. I can ignore it okay mostly, but when the thoughts creep in they still devastate me. She should have had more good years. We should.
19/4 2025
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goatlog
20/4 2025
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Happy Easter to those who partake. i think Bella has had too much eggnog. And that’s not what you’re supposed to do with easter eggs anyway.
20/4 2025
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When people show you who they really are, eat them.
20/4 2025
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A bit of Sky.
