Unevent
Good goat times today. Back to the goat place and away from the worries for a while.
A lovely sunny day. Although the sun is shifting and mostly hitting the far side of the pen now. And it’s getting colder. Barely above 10C/50F. Wish I could timeskip to next spring, when everything will be fine, surely.
Nothing too exciting happened today. Just hanging out with the goats, which is plenty of excitement for me. We did have some visitors, but they stayed out of the goat pen.
Suddenly my phone ran. My first thought was “Oh no someone wants to see my apartment”. But it turns out it was just the electrician, wanting to book at ime when he could come take my lamps down. We agreed that I’d get back to him a little later when I have a firmer grasp on when exactly I’ll switch apartments. Hopefully I can keep the lights on.
Now i think it’s time for some soup I think. Good idea.
6/10 2025
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Got a bit of blue sky action at least, with Bella.
6/10 2025
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Wow, I saw the snl parody before I saw the actual Hecksith speech. Real life really is just overtaking parody. That was something you used to say as a joke, but now it really is just really real realistically reality.
Fkn weird.
I’ll try to stay off the politics. I have enough going on with my own berries.
6/10 2025
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Luna demonstrating how Lasse eats pizza out of a pizzabox. Jsust get yer face right in it.
6/10 2025
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The girls spent some time out in the back of the big pen, foraging for fallen leaves and nuts and branches.Crunchy goodies.
6/10 225
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Sky got to sit in the hatch window again for a bit.
7/10 2025
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Been taking it easy today. I got a Pepsi & Protein delivery. Been buying a lot of bananas lately. Two bananas and a protein bar, that’s a good breakfast right? Well, once everything is settled I will hopefully get back on a healthy path, right now I’m just staggering along.
I desperately don’t want to deal with. everything that’s coming. My stomach just clenches up when I think of it all
But at least I have time to slowly look at stuff. I was going to apply for housing aid today, but after looking at the citizen service site I have questions. So I’m going to see if i can get answers to that. I have to register my new address 5 days after my move at the latest. But what date is that? I take over the new apartment on November 1st. But I probably won’t move in until around the 17th. And i have this apartment until December 1st. Since I will have access to both places for a while, my official move date isn’t necessarily one specific date. I’ll have to see if I can find some guidance on that. I guess I’ll ask the housing assoc if they can tell me that, otherwise i’ll have to contact the citizen service. Or maybe just go with they 17th or whatever date it will be.
Blergh. As always I just worry too much and I don’t want to think about it all. I just want to eat sleep and play.
Happy national frap day, everyone.
7/10 2025
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Another day is slipping through the hourglass. Happily, I have received no calls from anyone wanting to see my apartment. I don’t actually know if my apartment is still listed for rental, but today was the last reply date according to the message. So if it was still up for rent, then I guess nobody wanted it. Hooves crossed.
Still haven’t gotten any message about whether they intend to try to rent it out. But I hope that nonsense is over with.
Do you ever feel like you’re the only real human on an episode of the Muppet show? Like everyone else is a muppet and you’re the only human.
Or maybe the other way around. You’re the muppet in a human world. One of those episodes where the main character turns into a muppet. They did that on Angel, I’m pretty sure. Please don’t try to ventriloquist me. Do penguins lay eggs? Can you make a penguin omelette? Are penguins even birds? Do they have feathers? What’s the deal with penguins? Is that even what they’re called? It looks like a French word. How do you pronounce Penguin in French. Pan Gwang? Why are you all looking at me like that? Did they forget to make little muppet pants for my muppet puppet?
Orange you glad i said banana?
Can someone turn down the loud buzzing sound that is in my head? It’s like a detuned radio.
7/10 2025
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We fight to live another day.
8/10 2025
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Think goat thoughts.
8/10 2025
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I just had a crazy idea. That i hope I can pull off.
I have this little.. piece of furniture. Chest of drawers?
I’ve been thinking that i want to get rid of it, because I’m a weirdo and i want to get rid of as much furniture as possible and just have plastic storage boxes.
Well, the thought just occured to me… if I took out the drawers. There’s an almost goat sized space in there… I think Sky maybe could fit in there. Not as spacious or cool as the red playhouse. But I mean. On a rainy day, she might be able to step inside it and be dry and not bothered by the big goats.
I don’t know. I haven’t had a closer look at it, how the space is inside, if it could even work. And then there’s the question of transportation, I’m not sure how heavy it is when emptied. Don’t think it’s too heavy. Maybe I could manage to carry it to the playground. Or get help transporting it.
Hmm. Well, that would be fun! A little chest of Sky drawers! I have no idea if this will work out or if it’s a crazy pipedream. It wouldn’t be until after the move and I have everything in order and am sure I want to get rid of it and can get a better idea of the feasibility of it all. But hey, it’s a fun though. I’d really like her to have a little space like that. I’m glad she has the shelter roof to stand under, but she often gets chased away from there too because it’s right over the hatch opening, and there’s often one of the big girls standing there. A tiny little goatchelor pad just to the side, that would be cool.
We’ll see.
If I took the drawers and turned them upside down and pushed them into the ground enough, maybe they’d even make little platforms to jump on.
We’ll see we’ll see.
8/10 2025
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Good goat times today. Clears the head to be with the goat gang.
We got sunshine, but a few raindrops too. And the coldening continues. Starting to feel it when I don’t close my jacket. My wrecked circulation makes it too cold when it’s under 10C/50F in the morning. I hought i even saw some frost in the grass when i got out, but that’s probably just my mind playing tricks on me.
But a sweet time in goatland. Jeanette got a fire going and made pancakes for visitors. A bunch of visitors today. One guy came over to the fence and said hi, said it was good to see me again. They usually come on Thursdays, and I have missed a few of those with everything going on. It was nice of him to come over and say he was glad I was back.
Lots of kids too, some of them going in the pen to pet the goats too. There was one boy who was real friendly. He was like tapping me on the shoulders and putting his arms around me like he was hugging me. His adults had to tell him that when you don’t know a person then you can’t just go and touch them like that. He was like a little goat, zero understanding of personal space. They apologised to me when they left, but I just laughed it off. It was pretty funny. And for some reason i find it a lot easier to deal with than you know, actually talking to people. So, if you ever meet me don’t try to talk to me, jsut invade my personal space and touch me without permission.
Wait, that’s.. that’s maybe not a good takeaway from this.
But a lovely time. When I got home I spent some time gathering the last stuff on my old bookshelves. Books and DVDs are long gone, but there was a stack of old CDs. Some bought music CDs, some burned ones with tons of old Smashing Pumpkins concerts.
Again, slightly heartbreaking to get rid of all that old treasure. Music. Lifeblood. Stuff that got me through the days. Untouched for many years now, because now I have it all on the computer. Still sad to get rid of it. But so it goes. I must shed as much as I can of the old skin. And it’s nice to see the bookshelves completely empty. Visual proof that I have been on a journey to unburden myself.
And now I’m going on a journey to soup. My favourite destination, other than the goat place.
9/10 2025
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Stuck in the middle with Bella and Luna
9/10 2025
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Guess what I did today?
No.
No, not that either.
No, I’m not even sure you CAN make soup of penguins, and I wouldn’t.
Okay, I’ll tell you.
I rode the elevator. On my own.
It may be the first time ever. In my building. I live on the ground floor, so it’s not like I need it. Although the real ground floor is actually the basement, depending on where you come from you have to go through the basement to get in. But nevermind.
I’m not sure, but I may never have used the elevator in my own building, not without my parents there. They need it, because they have mobility issues.
But anyway, I thought I would just try it out. And it turns out the elevator is really easy to use, very simple layout and easy to see. So that’s good. I hope the elevator in my new building is as easy to use. That would be nice.
We’ll see.
I have been toying with the idea of moving a bunch of my stuff over myself during the weekend. Assuming i get the keys on Friday 14th. And do the major move Monday 17th. I could spend the weekend going back and forth. Since it’s just next door. Just carry stuff over. Would save me from packing everything in boxes and then unpacking everything. Just take it bit by bit. It’s not like I have a ton of stuff. And that way I would know what I’m carrying and where it goes, would be pretty easy. And then all the moving people would have to take are the big things and the important things that I need to keep until I move over permanently. Is that a completely stupid idea? I don’t know. But If I do do (doo-doo) that then it would be nice to take the elevator. I think in everyday life I’d probably be fine taking the 6 flights of stairs and thinking of that as exercise. But carrying stuff and going back and forth, would be good to use the elevator.
Alritey, just thinking out loud. I mean typing out loud. I mean, well you know what I mean I mean.
Alternatively I could barricae myself in the bathroom and hope they give up on the idea of making me move. You never know, it could work.
9/10 2025
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Quite lovely when teh sun is out. Not sure if you can spot her, but Sky is making her way up the platform. Since the sun has shifted, they are more motivated to go to the platforms to get into the sunshine.
9/10 2025
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Woke up feeling pretty bleh, with a slightly sore through and feeling a little dizzy.
I think i’m feeling better now, though. Probably just the hypochondria flaring up.
Time is ticking. Today is a 10/10, although it feels pretty mid.
Feeling tired and sad, mostly.
But dad brought me cake. Thanks, dad!
He also brought me an old christmas card from Angeline! Hah. I don’t know how that card ended up in my parents’ apartment. But ehm, thank you, Angeline! I’m not sure exactly when it is from, but tis the season now.
10/10 2025
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Can’t believe the Alligator Moat Prison guy didn’t win the peace prize, there’s just no justice in this world.
10/10 2025
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Moody Luna.
10/10 2025
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in the dark of the new forest
10/10 2025
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Do smurfs count blue sheep?
I’ll go ask.
10/10 2025
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What the heart is full of.
I dreamt about Keiko last night. Not once, but twice.
Had a good night’s sleep of drifting in and out of interesting cool dreams.
The first one was at the old playground, the first playground. I only talked to Keiko a little because she was riding around on the ‘moon cars’ (the gocarts that they have there). But we talked a little about Palle and grandma.
And then in a later dream she was taking me somewhere, by bus i think. it was a house where she had worked as au-pair? And she hadn’t had a good time there, the people weren’t nice. But there was a dog that she had loved. And when i got there the dog jumped up on me and knocked me over and was licking my face and was really sweet.
And that’s about what I remember, it’s all a blur now.
I was just happy to be visited by Keiko.
You all feel free to stop by in my dreams, I can handle human contact in the dreamworld!
11/10 2025
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By the by, when I talk about flourballs, these are them. I think they are basically dumplings, just smaller? Anyway, I love them.
11/10 2025
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Cooking up some soup. Gonna put those flourballs right in my mouth hole. Come get some!
11/10 2025
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(This is going to be a long stream of arely consciousness with nothing important, feel free to skim or skip)
Haven’t done too much serious dealing with things this weekend. But I have gathered up a list of things I need to do, in regards to the move.
I have this file on my computer, temp.txt. As the name suggests it was meant to be a temporary file. I think I made it more than a decade ago. I have a keyboard shortcut that brings it up. Whenever I need to note something down, I use that file. It is very very long now with lots of ancient and outdated stuff. I tend to just add to it, and old stuff gets pushed down and forgotten.
Anyway. Ever since the apartment offeres came in I have been adding tidbits to that file. Today I got them moved over to my rehoming file, where I have kept information about all that. So now I have a neater sort of list of things that need to be dealt with. Almost like a plan, if you will.
There isn’t _that_ much important stuff I guess.
The biggest question mark for me is probably when to register my official change of address. It has to be done between 4 weeks before you move and 5 days after you move at the latest. And i’m still not sure when my official move date is. Is it November 1st when I officially get the new apartment? Or December 1st when I lose my current apartment? Or the first day I sleep in the new place?
I have a feeling the official system wants it to be November, but even though that’s the date on the paperwork, I don’t actually get the keys until 2 weeks later, because the housing association has to fix it up first. So I don’t really want my official registered address to be a place I don’t actually have the keys to yet. Maybe the day I get the keys would be the best day to set.
Anyway, that’s one of the first steps on the list, to see if the housing association or the municipality has any guidance on that.
Another one is finding a cleaning service. I still haven’t heard back if the housing assoc wants to rent our my apartment for the 3 months until it gets taken down, but assuming they don’t then my apartment just needs a basic cleaning. But I still feel like that’s beyond my capabilities. So I need to find a service to do that. I am thinking that I’m going to post on my city’s reddit page and ask for recommendations. Maybe Helle knows of one too. But I need to get that booked for when i’m out of the apartment.
And I need to book the electrician. Once I know what day I’ll probably make the permanent move, then I need the electrician to take my lamps down and put them up in the new place.
And I need to look at my internet connection. Part of the documents I got from the housing assoc was something about their regular partner for TV and internet. I use another company for internet right now. But I’m thinking I will switch to the company that I have my TV from now too. They have a cheaper and faster connection than my current one. So, I figure I will keep my current connection here until I’m out of the apartment. While getting the new connection up at the new place. That would mean paying double for November. But I feel like that would be worth it. In case there are problems with the new connection, then I’ll have the old connection until the end of hte month. Because internet connection is pretty dang important to me. That’s my plan, keeping my current connection until the end of November, getting the new one from the beginning of November. But I do have some questions about the new connection, so I have to contact their support and ask. I also have to find out if I need to do anything about my TV package. I will be using the same company at the new place as I do here, but I’m not sure if my package gets moved over to the new place or if I have to cancel my current on here and start a ne one there.
I want to order some big storage boxes. Since I’m planning to use more of those instead of my furniture and stuff. So I want to have those before the move. That way I can put some stuff in it and take them over one by one, moving bit by bit during that weekend after I get the keys.
And that.. is pretty much it. Some other small things. Clearing my basement storage unit. Asking on reddit for general moving advice. Update my address various places after the move, the places that don’t get the new data automatically from the official register. I have standing lamp that I need to check if it works, would be handy if that still works so I have some light before the electrician moves the ceiling lamps.
I think that’s basically. I don’t really have to pack things, if I move the small stuff myself during the weekend.
Yeah. Can anyone think of anything else I need to get done? If you have read all that.
But it’s not really too bad. On paper.
I feel better about it all. Mostly because I felt completely utterly despair and anguish beforehand. I’m not feeling good about it now, but it feels more manageable. Getting the pre-inspection done and having Helle see my apartment and say that she’s seen much worse, that did help.
it felt impossible before. Now it feels like.. well maybe I can get through. Still very worried about things going wrong. But it’s possible they won’t. It’s possible.
I’m so anchored in my routines and set in my ways, it’s going to be difficult to be uprooted. Like having a tooth pulled out. It may seem simple on paper. But it can still hurt a lot if it isn’t done right. Okay, maybe I shouldn’t stretch the metaphor. There’s just .. stuff I don’t talk about. Part of my life is kind of a puzzle. And I’m worried if i will be able to put it back together in a good way when this is done.
But hey. On paper it looks possible. So let’s hope.
Hopefully my dreams will move with me.
11/10 2025
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goatlog
12/10 2025
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Sleepa Belly.
12/1 2025
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Another week is winding down. A pretty uneventful one for me. No big unforeseen challenges. So that’s good.
Putting the plans together and slowly progressing.
Hopefully nothing too major next week either. I’m going to try starting t work on the list and the things that are ready to get started on.
And I would really like to start exercising again. I hope I will be able to. It’s been too long and I am feeling quite unhealthy. I don’t need to get back in super shape right now, but at least stop the downard spiral. It’s already gotten too out of hand. I will do my best.
The depression has been stong today, but tomorrow’s another berry.
Bit by bit, step by step, one day a day.
12/10 2025
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That’s all for now.