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Good goat times today. Back to the goat place and away from the bad feels. Yesterday the weather forecast promised a lot of rain this morning. This morning the forecast said maybe a little. It stayed dry while I was out and we actually got a nice bit of sunshine, so that was quite lovely.
I was greeted by the bleaters at the fence of course. Gave Bella and Luna their peanuts and then looked for Sky. And I couldn’t see her. I was pretty sure I had heard her among the bleating greeters, so I moved along the fence over to the podium place where she often is. I still couldn’t see her. But then I heard some noise and I shifted my eyes down and there was Sky, under the podium. Starting to snake her way out. Aw. I haven’t seen her under the podium for so long, maybe a year almost! I didn’t know she could still go under there. After the last times she was under there Jeanette put some bedding down there for her, but I figured maybe that made the space too tight because literally after Jeanette did that I never saw Sky down there again.
But I guess she still fits! It’s nice that she has her own little hideaway. A place where she can be dry and where the big girls can’t get to her. I wish she felt comfortable nough tos tay up with them, but I’m glad she’s got her spot. And it is pretty cute with her down there. I slmost wish I could climb under there and sit with her on a rainy day. If the big dwarf goats don’t fit there, probably I don’t either..
But it was a fun day. I brought an extra camera, intending to try to film some footage of Luna reacting to videos of herself bleating. I did get some reactions out of her, but not as good as last time when her head was popping up and she seemed shocked and intrigued by the ‘other goat’. That’s how it usually goes, it’s never quite as good when you try to rectreate something that happened spontaneously the first time. But when I get around to editing the footage I’ll see if there’s anything cute enough to post.
Had some good running and sliding too, a berryfall from Luna I think while Bella was sliding along down the ramp. Yeah lots of good goat fun today. I did also knock my head on the half-roof shelter. But thankfully I don’t keep anything valuable in my head, so it’s spork table plant bing bong.
Now it’s time to hoist the soup flag, mateys.
10/8 2026
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Here’s Sky ON TOP of the podium, instead of below. Dancing on the ceiling.
10/8 2026
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Today’s best attempt at a selfie with Bella and Luna.
10/8 2026
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A little look at Sky under the podium. You can hear the moment I see her. My vision is very limited, not just the quality but also with big blind spots, so I can look at something without seeing it. I couldn’t see her until she was pretty much out.
10/8 2026
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Some non goat updates for today.
I got results back from my doc appointment last week. All tests, urine and blood, came back ‘perfectly normal’. So that’s good. My potassium is back to normal. Of course, that’s with taken 3 tablets a day. So I don’t know if the tablets helped or the other things I changed had an effect. Cutting licorice and apple cider vinegar. But now I’m dosing down to 1 tablet a day and then I’ll go back for tests in a month or so.
So let’s hope the potassium stays good. It must have been pretty bad. Normally it takes 3-4 days to get a reply back for blood tests. But that last time when my potassium was nuked I got the reply the same day. I think that only happens if the tests is flagged as “dangerous” or something like that. i have never gotten results back that fast before.
Anyway. So far so good on that.
Tomorrow I’m starting decaf. Qutting Pepsi again. For 2-3 weeks probably. I did it a few months ago and it wasn’t too hard, so I think I should be fine. I want to try and see if not doing licorice and not doing caffeine and taking some other supplements, if that will have a positive effect on my sleep. I need to feel a positive effect otherwise I’ll go back, because I love my Pepsi Max. But for the next coouple of weeks I’ll go without. I will be drinking other sugarfree sodas, just without caffeine.
And then I’m going to try to step up the exercise again. I’m starting to get back into a rhythm, but I have only been doing it twice a week. After almost completely stopping in July. That’s not too bad, an hour and a half twice a week combined with goat trips, that’s a decent amount of activity. But I need to lose some weight and get in better shape, after the disastrous July. So I’ll try to add in one or two more exercise days.
We’ll see how that goes. Currently the devil is on my shoulder telling me how much nicer it would be to have some chocolate cake and stay in bed. What a jerk.
I’ll try to listen to the angel.
Oh yeah, and the parking. No news there yet. Coming home from the goats today there were several cars parked outside the building, a bunch parked in the next space and the trash bins still there. So. So far no problems there. But I still have to expect the worse to come there.
One day a day, at least I’m trying.
10/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
Glad I got going. It was a tough morning. Woke up tired and depressed and just wanted to stay in bed. I am not sure when I would have made it out if it wasn’t for the fact that I had a postal package and a grocery delivery coming. So I had to get up. I was sitting and waiting and the devil on my shoulder was saying “it’s fine, once you have your stuff you can order chocolate cake or go back to bed or whatever, no problem”.
But thankfully I managed to drag myself on the bike. And I’m starting to feel stronger again, so that’s good. Just gotta keep going with it.
Full disclosure though, I am intending to order pizza later. So it’s not going to be a complete win today. But sometimes the angel and devil have to compromise. At last I did something today.
I could use a tall glass of frosted Pepsi right about now. But today is the firt day of decaf, so that’s. Something.
11/8 2026
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For the premium subscribers, a little preview of a future video. Luna and Bella wondering how I managed to squeeze a whole goat into that little black box.
11/8 2026
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NOBODY EXPECTS THE EXPLODING SANDWICHES
11/8 2026
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Some more Luna bleating at herself on the camera. Not as funny as the first time when I wasn’t filming. But still kind of cute, like when she starts licking the screen. I wish I could read her mind and know what she was thinking when she saw and heard herself on the screen. “Hey, that goat looks like me!”
11/8 2026
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goatlog
12/8 2026
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Apparently there is a solar eclipse in Denmark today. I was thinking about going outside and staring directly at it. But even -I- am not that foolish. Why you’d have to be come kind of ..etc.
Today was a fail day and i’m not feeling great, but tomorrow’s another one. One day a day.
Unless of course the world explodes during the solar eclipse, you never know.
Once upon a time I was falling in love, now i’m just falling down the stairs. There’s nothing I can do, the total ecipse tra la la
12/8 2026
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I wanted to just say a quick thank you to *checks notes* oh, to you all.
Thank you for being here. I appreciate it. Your comments and reactions. I know I am not always good at showing it, but it really means a lot to me. As you may or may not know, I don’t have much of a social life in real life. I have my family, the goats, and a trusted few people. But even those, I don’t spend that much time with. Apart from the goats, I mean. But humans. I’m just not the kind who goes out and hangs out and is around. I am in my apartment most of the time. And facebook is sopmething of a lifeline to not feel completely alone.
Sometimes I’ll think “Of Facebook is eveil and we should all quit it and I don’t need it anyway”. And then it goes down or there’s some problem and I panic and am like “Oh no what do I do, how will anyone know what I’m thinking, how will I know what anyone is thinking, what do I doooo”. You don’t know how much you’ll miss something, until it’s down for maintennance.
But yes, Facebook gives me most of my connection to other people, and if you’re reading this then you’re probably one of the connections. And thank you for that.
I know it’s not always fun and games here. Either too many goat posts, if you’re not a goat fan. Or too many long boring annoying rambles. Like this one! And depression and struggle and obsessive worrying about everything. I don’t know why anyone would come here. NO DON’T LEAVE. I am thankful you’re here, if you are.
It’s been a struggle for a while, and there’s more to come. So I’m thankful that I’m not alone. Thank you for seeing the good in me, when it is eclipsed in my own eyes.
Group hug. Wait, let me get some pants first.
12/8 2026
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And here is Bella to demonstrate how I feel most days.
12/8 2026
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Good goat times today. That’s more like it. A beautiful summer’s day. Upwards of 26C/79F. When the sun was out it was quite baking us. It got blocked by clouds some of the time though. Not spectacular as an eclipse, but it did keep things pretty cool at times.
Lots of visitors today. Summer vacation is over so we had a bunch of the regular groups from the neighbour school and daycares. Jeanette is still on vacation this week, so I didn’t have her as a buffer. It was a little much, to be honest. But it was okay. Had some sweet kids in the pen and they got to pet the goats. Always sweet. Bella was being a good petting goat today. Sometimes she’s a little timid around kids and will run away. But she was sitting on the tub and getting lots of pets, and the kids were having a great time.
And I got a nice hello from Preben, I think that’s his name. I’m horrible with names, my memory is awful and they don’t connect with faces because of the blindness. But I recognise him by the voice and he is always very nice. When his group was leaing he called out to say goodbye too, and one of the ladies with him called out “Yes, bye Lasse. It’s always so nice when you’re here, then everything is as it’s supposed to be”. So that was very sweet to hear.
Before and after all the visitors came I did get lots of good time alone with the goats. I love sitting with them in the sunshine on a hot day. I’m going to miss it when it gets colder.
Back home now with both balcony doors open. The sound of construction isn’t nice, but I’m going to miss having the doors open too. I get cold so easily, even though the heat can get a bit much, I prefer it to the cold. Even the mild temperatures leave me freezing.
Anyway, I’m going to get myself a “It’s too hot to have soup” pot of soup, because that’s how I roll. Like berries down the ramp, these are the days of our soups.
13/8 2026
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Triple goat score. Breakfast down in the pen today.
13/8 2026
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Sky is soaking up some rays, and watching some visitors.
13/8 2026
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Fun fact: In Danish a rhinoceros is called “næsehorn”. Literally “nosehorn”. That’s.. a little on the nose.
the more you now.
13/8 2026
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Got my Luna hugs today of course.
13/8 2026
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Got an hour forty on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
It was a rough start to the day, though. Tired and depressed again. I managed to get out of bed. But honestly I sat in my chair for a couple of hours and just.. did nothing. First just pretty much staring into space. And then leaning over and more or less sleeping. I was just not functioning. I just wanted the day to be over, and it had only just begun.
So I suppose it was good that I got myself on the bike. A hard fought semi win? Starting to feel stronger physically, so that’s something.
Have had a bad headache for a couple of days. Maybe it’s the decaf, haven’t had Pepsi since Monday. So I suppose that’s not unexpected.
It’s a hot day today, it might get up to 30C/86F. Could be the last really hot day of the season, the forecast ahead is more days around 20/68. Can’t complain about the weather this summer, though. I feel like it’s been the hottest summer.. almost ever. More super hot days than we usually get, I feel. But then my memory is pre-dementic.
Fight to live another day. One day a day.
14/8 2026
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Happy Beyond Birthday to my darling Mia. She would have been 14 today.
In the Thank You post the other day, I wrote about my connections on Facebook. You all. There are many, if not most, of my connections on here that can be traced back to Mia. Without my friend Jen deciding that little Mia needed a Facebook page, who knows where my life would have gone? The page has brought so many wonderful people into my life over the years. Mia was a blessing in many ways. She will always have a piece of my heart.
14/8 2026
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I got a notice yesterday from the housing association. It says that from Monday 7 am parking will be closed in front of my building.
I really find their communication to be lacking. They said our parking would be closed two weeks ago, but there has still been cars parking in front of our building and in the next parking lot. It seems like nothing they said back then actually happened.
But now they are going to dig to put in new electrical cables. That’s something they have to do, so I’m sure this time it wil actually happen. The letter doesn’t say anything about how long that digging will last. It doesn’t say if we will be able to use the parking space afterwards.
So. I don’t know if this is a temporary thing or if it is now going to be shut down until 2028 as the original notice said.
It’s frustrating. But I guess next week I’ll get to see how it’s going to work. My parents won’t really be able to visit in my apartment anymore because of the stairs and their mobility issues. And I’ll have to see if I can get grocery and food deliveries when they can’t park in front of the building anymore. I’ll finally have to make that test grocery delivery. I have stocked up on so many sodas that I barely need anything for the next month or more. But can’t quite make it to 2028…
So this really doesn’t help my depression and anxiety and worry.
Haven’t heard anything about the package shop either, if that’s going to be closed or not. Can I still get packages if the parking lot is closed? Can I pick up packages from the shop nearby? It’s all up in the air.
It’s all going to be a lot more complicated now, that’s for sure. And I am already struggling. Stressing about everything. I’ve been trying some new stuff to get better sleep, but it seems to have worked the opposite. Sleeping worse, waking up more sleepy. Barely functioning. Depression rising. I’ll have to tweak some things. At least I’m feeling stronger from getting back to biking, but the diet is still touch and go. The more depressed I get, the more I want to eat. Whether I’m hungry or not.
Well, I’m taking it easy today. I hope I can make myself exercise tomorrow, but it’s going to be another shoulder-fight between the angel and the devil. Can’t we all just get along?
15/8 2026
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Need some Luna hugs soon again.
I have mentioned how good Luna is at hugging. This is an example. I put my arms on her and she’ll move up real close to get into the hug.
In this particular instance she had to move again quickly because Bella decided to butt in. It’s clear who’s the dominant one in the pen.
15/8 2026
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Happy Lost Day eveyrone
15/8 2026
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Oh I should mention that I have talked to Helle. She thinks that the cable digging closure of the parking lot might be temporary. I don’t know if that means the parking space will get opened again, or when. She also said that she has heard that they will try to make a new access way to my apartment entrance. So I will just have to cross my fingers for that. That would make a lot of things a lot easier.
As always, thank you goes out to Helle for being so kind and helpful, for advocating for me and other people in our neighbourd. Heck, in the whole world. She’s got an amazing activistic soul. I wish I could do half as miuch as she does for others. Don’t know how I would have gotten through my relocation without her. For someone like me who has such a hard time dealing with human peoples, it’s invaluable to know someone you feel you can trust.
15/8 2026
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goatlog
16/8 2026
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I had hoped to exercise today. But it did not turn out that way. Friday was good, the weekend was unhealthy. I have insane plans to try to *Gasp* drink water next week. Try a couple of days of just drinking water, no sugarfree soda. Not just no Pepsi, but no soda at all. Crazy. I probably can’t even do a day. The last 3+ decades I don’t think I’ve gone a day without drinking soda, not unless I was deahtly ill. Even in the hospital when they discovered diabetes, they still gave us sugarfree sodas.
Anyway, we’ll see how that goes. If at all.
I know I always complain about the same things over and over. So let’s try me complaining about something new. I guess I have tinnitus now.
For the last 1½-2 weeks. I used to sometimes, rarely, get a high pitch tone in my ear for like 10-20 seconds maybe. It would fade away almost immediately. Not often, maybe once or twice every 2 or 3 months. But this thing is constant. Thankfully it’s not as high pitch, not as loud and piercing. This thing is more.. low. Constant. On the right side mostly. It’s low enough that it doesn’t bother me much when i listen to music or watch tv. But when it’s quiet, I do hear. It’s not really.. super bothering. It’s not driving me completely insane. But it does kind of get on your nerves and start to wear at you…
I don’t know. My understanding of tinnitus is that there’s basically nothing you can do about it, you just have to find ways to live with it. I suppose I should go to the doctor about it, but what’s the point of going through more hassle just to be told ‘tough luck’.
I have the next potassium/diabetes blood tests in about a month, I suppose if it’s still there by then I’ll mention it to the nurse?
I don’t know. I just feel like my body and mind is slowly falling apart and dying. I know a lot of things I could and should do to help the physical things, but the mental things make it hard to really make headway on those. It’s a struggle just getting out of bed these days.
And all the worries and anxiety and family health and world on fire, it’s all just.. a bit much. And now tinnitus too. The sound of my next Jazz record Now Tinnitus Too. Get it before it gets you.
Also, I think there was a bird in distress out on my balcony just now. I was watching Ted Lasso, as you do. Loudly to overpower the tinnitus. But I kept hearing some kind of squeaking out there. Didn’t sound like bird noises I have heard before. It’s a common plague in the summer here in the high apartments, birds on the balconies. Anyway, the noise kept going and I started wondering if it was coming from my balcony. So I got up to go look. And there was a pigeon on my balcony. Normally they fly away immediately when you open the door or appear. But it seemed to jump around. So I went outside. It’s hard for me to see out there, with the sun. I started approaching it. It kind of jumped around but then it did get up and fly away. So it wasn’t too injured to fly. But I think something must have been wrong with it for it to make those sounds and not fly away immediately when I came out. I had started thinking about whether I’d have to go google for a hotline for animal rescue or something, I have never had to deal with anything like that. I think there’s a national hotline number or something, but I don’t know if they’d come out for something like that. If the bird had been so hurt that it couldn’t fly. I don’t know. Hope the little guy or girl is okay. I would like them to stay away frmo my balcony, but I don’t want them hurt of course.
Okay, well. That’s that I guess. Next week will bring some things. Hopefully Jeanette back and good goat times. Drinking water? Delivery test? I’ll have to contact the housing association about my account on their site where you can read your water/heating/electricity usage, because that still hasn’t been fixed. I was told the guy in charge of the accounts would be back from vacation a couple of weeks ago, so I’ll have to push and see if they’re doing anything about it.
Let’s hope I can get out of bed anyway.
Sorry. I guess complaining about new things isn’t that much more interesting than complaining about old things.
One day a day.
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16/8 2026
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Think goat thoughts. Here’s a Bella yawn.
16/8 2026
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That’s all for now.