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Good goat time today. Back to the goat place for a mental pickmeup. Feels good to get away from reality. Immerse your soul in goats.
A cool and grey morning. But the sun eventually broke through and it was quite lovely. Tired goats today. Maybe they were up late last night partying. I didn’t make them run around too much. Lots of relaxing, in between the treats and cuddles. No visitors that stayed longer than just passing through. So it was a pretty quiet day all in all. I’ll take that.
And I’ll take some soup now.
3/8 2026
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We’ve been expecting you…
3/8 2026
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Sky relaxing in the green.
3/8 2026
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Got my Luna hugs, of course.
3/8 2026
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Today was supposed to be the first day of the parking problem.
I was going to go look at it while taking down my trash. Because our trash bins are in the parking lot, there will no longer be access to our own trash bins. Not the biggest problem, since there are other ones in front of the other entrances in our building. But of course I have to cross the road taht goes straight through our building to get to those. But okay, I can deal with that.
Anyway, I went down to look. And the parking space was all normal. This was around noon. I guess they just haven’t started doing the things, yet. There was also a car parked outside our building, and later I saw someone post on the local fb group a picture of their car parked outside with a notice from the builders saying it had to be moved immediately. Not sure if it’s the same car. But maybe they had the car parked outside the building and that’s why the builders couldn’t start removing access to the parking spaces? I don’t know.
But, everything was normal still today. That’s not actually that great. I was planning on doing a test grocery delivery tomorrow or Wednesday, but now I’m not sure when the parking access will be completely gone, and it would be pretty stupid to do a test run before the situation was changed. So I guess I will wait with the test until later in the week. I have to be sure that parking acess is all gone before I can test if I can still get deliveries.
This whole situation has got me stressed and depressed.
It’s going to make it hard for my parents to visit. They won’t be able to take the taxi right to the front door. And with access to the parking space closed they can’t really walk from the bus stop either. They both have severe mobility issues. And now they’ll have to go up and down stairs outside, which they pretty much can’t. Especially my mother who needs a walker to get around. And my dad is very badly walking too. Before this, they could walk around the stairs. The road sort of slopes down and then you can cut in and walk across the parking space and get to the entrance. But with the parking space closed you can’t walk around. You have to go down the stairs. So it pretty much means my parents can’t come up here.
And I don’t know about the grocery deliveries. The main big delivery service I use, they have their own stock and supply. You get big deliveries. Like my sodas. It can be big heavy stuff. If they have to park on the other side of the road going through the building then that means they have to move all the stuff first up stairs, then across the road, then down stairs. I don’t know if they will accept that. I haven’t read their terms through, but I am sure there must be something about requiring some kind of easy access to the delivery point. I don’t know if the new situation will pass.
There’s another delivery service I use. That’s mostly for food deliveries. It works kind of like UberEats or DoorDash, I believe. And you can get groceries from them too. They don’t have their own stock, with them you order from a specific local store and they pack it and then the delivery person picks it up and brings it to you. Those deliveries are usually smaller, stuff that can fit in a bag. That might have a higher chance of still working. If I can’t use the main delivery service anymore, maybe I can use that one for smaller stuff that I have a hard time finding.
Or maybe I won’t be able to use any of them and everything will just suck.
And then there’s the mail. I’m sure they can’t cut us off from the mail, that would not be legal. There are so few actual letters delivered now that it probably won’t be affected by this. But what about packages? I’m worried that the postal service will not deliver to us anymore and that the packages will just be automatically sent for pickup at the package store. Which wouldn’t normally be a huge disaster since the package store is right around the corner. Except, as I have previously mentioned, there’s a risk that the local package store will be closed soon. That would make it a lot harder for me to pick up packages.
Ugh.
I sure hope this is another case of my worrying too much about something that ends up being fine. It is taking a toll on my mental health. It’s hard enough already. It was great being out with the goats today, bur I can feel my physical health has declined. My back is hurting a lot more when I go out. I assume because of me putting on weight and being in worse shape. So I need to get back on track with that. I know I can do it and how to do it. But the depression is powerfully trying to keep me from improving. It really does feel like that classic image of a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. And the devil is a lot fkn louder.
And then there’s the fainting stuff. And the world on fire. I am really struggling right now, I would really rather not exist than have to deal with all this.
La la la. But here we are. Maybe typing all this out, again, will help me deal.
At least my blood pressure is fine. I was a little surprised to find this. I haven’t measured it in a long time. Even after taking blood pressure meds it was still trending a little high. But measuring it yesterday and today it has been good. In fact bordering on too low this morning. Hopefully my potassium is better now, I should find out in a few days.
Would it be cheating if I gave the angel on my shoulder a baseball bat? Just something help it fight the devil? Maybe a pair of knucles or a molotov cocktail.
Clearly, I understand angels well!
3/8 2026
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I succesfully got a delivery today. I haven’t checked the parking lot today, though. So I don’t know if the delivery was just business as usual or not.
However, it was a food delivery not a grocery delivery. So that’s not great. I knew it was coming, though. The depression yesterday was powerful. The devil on my shoulder telling me “you know you’re not going to exercise tomorrow, you know already. You’re going to waste your time and eat unhealthy stuff”. You know how you can talk yourself into doing stupid things? Yes.
And to top it all off, the food wasn’t great. So I feel doubly stupid, as well as gross and bloated. Great. But tomorrow I will do better. Tomorrow I will listen to the angel on my other shoulder. Hopefully.
Not feeling great, but I will stop myself from writing another 10 pages about the parking stuff. That’s my gift to you, deat reader.
4/8 2026
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So it’s not all whines, here’s Bella surveying her domain.
4/8 2026
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But as I was saying, I need Adam Driver back on snl PRONTO
4/8 2026
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goatlog
5/8 2026
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Got an hour twenty five on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
I managed to listen to the angel on my shoulder this time. It was a close one, though. I didn’t have a good night. That bad meal yesterday. I’m not saying I had the lettuce bugs, I think it was just that I ate too much and it wasn’t great. But I spent some of the night in the bathroom. And all the while the devil on my shoulder was saying “well, tomorrow instead of exerising you’ll just spoil yourself with MORE unhealthy food and cake and sit and watch the new Ted Lasso and the new Futurama and was the day, it’ll be great”. Tempting. But thankfully I got up and out and on the bike and I’ll have a (moderately) healthy meal and hey hey, we’ll count today as a win.
One again it was my sore rear that forced me off the bike. That still need to be toned up. Though I an certainly feel that my lung power needs to be trained up again, just need to get more fitter. Again.
Hey oh let’s go.
5/8 2026
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Sky in her new spot in front of the gate again.
5/8 2026
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Watched the first episode of the new Ted Lasso. I enjoyed it a lot. I love Sudekis. And the whole cast.
I hope they will fit a tribute to Anthony Head in somewhere. I don’t know if he filmed anything before passing, but there better be a mention or something.
Anyway, I’m sure all the Americans are excited for more soccerballs on their screens. Give Ted Lasso a peace prize, and make it a real one.
5/8 2026
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Good goat times today. Always good to get back to the happy place. I had to go downtown first, though. Down to the doc’s office to get the potassium blod tests. And do some peeing. Not buck style, just a urine sample.
But then to the goat place. A windy and mostly grey day, but the sun did come out at times. I had a nice sit down with Sky. I got her up on the bench and she was kind of half sitting next to me and half on me. Her front legs and upper body on my lap. And I gave her lots of hugs and cuddles. it was so sweet.
And then a fun thing with Luna. I filmed her bleating. And then I thought I’d try showing the footage to her. I have done that a couple of times before, showing goats video of them bleating. Never gotten much of a reaction. But today I did. When VideoLuna started bleating, RealityLuna’s head popped up and she looked around and started bleating back at her video self. And when VideoLuna bleated more, RealLuna bleated back again. And then Bella started bleating, I’m not sure if she was bleating at VideoLuna or RealLuna. Or maybe she was just saying “You two keep it down!”. But then Sky started bleating too. Three real goats and one video goat bleating. It was pretty funny. I wish I had had a second camera so I could film it all. But of course I can’t film when the camera is playing the other videos back.
It made me laugh, though.
Now I’m going to get me some soup.
6/8 2026
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Sweet Sky lapgoat.
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The bleating Luna.
6/8 2026
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I checked out the parking situation today.
There didn’t seem to be any change. There were three cars parked in front of our entrance hallway today. I walked a little further, out on the parking space in front of neighbour building. The one I used to live in. You have to drive through that to get to our parking space. In fact our parking space is just a tiny addition to that bigger space, there’s only room for like 5-6 cars right in front of our entrance I think.
Anyway, part of the bigger pace WAS fenced off I think, so there is something starting to happen. But most of it was still open and with cars parked. And the trash bins still there. So. So far no change really. I guess the delivery test run will have to wait till next week. I had originally planned for Wednesday, then for this weekend. But can’t test it when it’s just open. So I’ll see next week.
wouldn’t it be nice if they let part of the big space and then our little space just remain open? And then just used part of the big space for their construction site. Wouldn’t it, though?
Stay tuned for more messy, depressy, worried updates on this subject matter, next week probably!
6/8 2026
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Got my Luna hugs today too of course, in between the bleats.
6/8 2026
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Today’s attempt at a selfie with Bella and Luna.
Figures, I get both their faces ni the frame, then I don’t manage to look at the camera myself. A real pro!
6/8 2026
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Saying goodnight with another Sky lapgoat picture. So sweet sitting with her like that.
6/8 2026
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I am considering having my spine surgically replaced with a wet noodle or a stale dougnut. Any unsolicited medical advice would be be greatly appreciated.
7/8 2026
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Cosmic bus stop.
there, you can run with it.
7/8 2026
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Got an hour and a halfish on the bike today. So I got that going for me.
It’s still a daily struggle between the angel and the demon on the shoulders. The angel telling me to Do The Right Thing. And the devil telling me to give up on it all and take the easy way out.
The demon won most of July. But August has been more evenly split. I don’t know if that struggle ever goes away. Guess I just have to try to win more than I lose.
At least I did something today.
8/8 2026
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Triple goat score. It may be a little blurry, but they’re all there.
8/8 2026
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goatlog
9/8 2026
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I was watching the latest episode of Stuart Fails To Save The Universe and I was thinking to myself I thought “They better put Wil Wheaton in this at some point” and then like 5 minutes later, there’s Wil Wheaton! I’m not saying I have magic powers of predictability or anything, but you know. I also predicted that humans were going to do awful things today, and I haven’t checked the news yet, but I feel chances are good.
9/8 2026
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The haunting of Goat Hill, a limited series.
9/8 2026
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That’s all for now.