I’m feeling somewhat better. My jaw is hurting less. It’s not completely ok, but it’s not horrible either. I mentioned that I had the same thing a month or two ago only in the left side, while this time in the right? That last time it went away by itself. And it feels like the same thing is happening now. It’s going away. So that’s good. But still, if it’s wisdom teeth then I guess it’ll just come back periodically? So I guess sooner or later I’ll have to go to the doc or dentist about it. But for now I’ll just be happy if I can open my mouth without shrieking pain. That’d be good.

I tried eating a piece of white bread with cheese and jam at TMU. I couldn’t take proper bites, it hurt too much. I had to get a knife and fork and cut it to pieces instead. That way I could sort of pop a piece into my mouth without opening up too much. But anyway, getting better.

The glasses situation is getting better too, I think. I am getting used to it. I can read the computer screen ok. And for longer periods of reading I use the reading glasses. And it’s fairly okay. Peter, the boss at TMU, actually noticed that I had gotten new lenses in my glasses today. That’s very attentive of him. And he asked if it was going okay with them. He wears glasses too, and needs very strong ones as well. He showed me his glasses, he has got multiple strength ones for when he’s at work. I would like multi-strength ones. If only they hadn’t been so expensive. And if only the optician would have mentioned that I’d hardly be able to read upclose. Oh well. It’s not too bad really.

So that’s all fine and dandy. Tomorrow is my day off and Thursday is a holiday. So I’m going to relax every muscle in my body and vegetate like a carrot that’s been chewed by a goat for days.

Speaking of goats. After hugging Magnethe yesterday, I decided to keep it a little more formal today.

How do you do, Maaaah’m?

She was enjoying my scratching a lot.

I love being around the goats. It makes me so happy. Peaceful and calm. So different from being around people. There are some really nice people at TMU and I have started to feel fairly comfortable there, but still just being there makes me tired and hurty and scaredy. Then I go see the goats and I feel perfectly fine. That’s why I need a job with animals, preferably at the playground. Even now, working 4 days only 14 hours a week at a nice place with nice people I still have trouble managing it. I often have to leave early. And sometimes I miss days too. It annoys me that I can’t do better. Maybe I am too easy on myself. Maybe I should push myself harder. But I feel like I have been pushed around all my life. I need peace, to feel ok. If I’m going to manage any kind of workday, even a short one, then I need to feel ok. And I can’t do that with lots of people around. I just can’t. Lots of animals on the other hand, that makes me feel ok. Then I don’t have a constant feeling that I need to escape and go home to the safety of my room. Then I actually like being out and around others. Imagine that.

I hope my case can be closed at the end of the term. June 20th is the last day. I would like to be finished then. I might have to go back for another term, after the summer break though. It’s important that they put together a good case for me so the system can’t poke holes in it and keep pushing me around. They’re really good at TMU, they know how to handle the system. How to feed the monster. Keep it appeased. I feel lucky that I’m there. And Peter says my case is pretty much crystal clear. He seems very confident that we’ll be able to wrap things up. Just one of the great people out there.

But enough gushing about that. Let’s finish off with a couple of videos.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6sfYRxaDo_0. You know Mads likes lemonade. Here he is drinking and drinking. I made the lemonade with carbonated water, I didn’t think he’d like the bubbly stuff. But he did. When I stopped pouring he even started licking the stuff I spilled on the fence. And he was eyeing the bottle too. Thirsty goat.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKUskySOp2Y. And Vanilje. Making a very oddly sounding baah. She had her mouth full and it came out all wacky. And then she turns her head and looks at me as if thinking “What are YOU looking at?!”. The goats were all watching a couple of construction workers. Sometimes they’d get scared of the machines and sometimes they’d baah out as if saying “do you guys have any food over there”.

Oh yes, it seems pretty settled that Sille is not pregnant after all. So no foal for me. Darn. They’re going to try again soon. And this time they’re going to scan her too so they don’t go a year and wait without anything happening. I was talking to Pernille about it. Like she said, they should have had her scanned this time too. But oh well. That’s how it goes.

And now this is how I goes. Bye bye.

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Current music: Press Play On Tape – Beyond The Ice Palace
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