Zuul
I’m still not in the mood to write about moods, sorry. My mood right now is: tired. I got woken halfway through a nap. By drilling next door. How rude. I must put up a sign outside. “Please do not drill while Plume is napping”. That should fix it. But since then I have been tired and headachey. And now I just wanna go sleepy.
I have spent most of my time today cleaning and organizing. I can now proudly say that after almost two months, I am now finally completely unpacked! Hah. I had a few boxes standing around with stuff, stuff that I didn’t really need unpacked. But now they are unpacked and the boxes are gone and everything is in its right place. Except I could need some more shelf space I think. Maybe I should buy another shelf. I shall contemplate this for a long, long time.
Now all is ready for the visitors tomorrow. Hopefully that will go okay. I will try not to worry. Just let it be. I’m sure it will be fine. I know Trine is nice and friendly. And I’m sure the visitation guy is too. You don’t get a job visiting and helping people unless you’re a nice and caring person. I am quite sure of that. This whole visitation thing is mostly, as I understood it, to make sure people can cope with living on their own. I am coping just fine. I’m doing quite well. Doing the shopping, doing the dishes, cleaning, paying bills etc. So I don’t really need help with all that I think. For me it’s more the social stuff of course. I’m not sure exactly what we’ll be doing. Talking for a bit I guess. Maybe taking a walk. Things like that. Honestly, I’m not feeling too thrilled about it. But once it’s over I’ll probably be happy about it. Socializing is always extremely difficult, but also rewarding.
Now I’m off to bed so I can be nice and rested tomorrow. Oh I have an appointment with the eye doctor on Wednesday too. To check out my peepers. As the optician recommended. When you have completely crappered eyesight (my diagnosis, those weren’t the words used by the optician) then it’s best to get them checked over by a real eye doc as well. So I have that to look forward to too. New people and places, just what the social phobic person loves!
September 24th, 2007 at 0:03
I’d say you’re in a procrastination mood right now! hee, hee. Never do today what you can put off until tomorrow.
Just jot down a few sentences to give to the visitation guy when he comes. Something like what you wrote in your above blog, that you’re doing well with bill paying, dishes, shopping, doing laundry, etc., you’re getting ready for a kitty, etc. Give it to him to read and put at the top of the page that you get anxious around new people and writing things down helps you cope with that anxiety. Coping is good, avoiding is not so good.
That way he can see that you’re smart and with it and you can express yourself in written words quite well. Then when he asks you questions and you just nod or say yes/no, you won’t feel bad about not saying more, because he will understand you are not being unfriendly/rude or not answering his questions.
It’s just a helpful way for you to communicate and to be at ease at first and then when you start talking about the goats or kitties, you’ll be just fine. The visitation guy won’t be judging you anyway. He wants you to succeed in living on your own. It’s his job to help you do that.
As far as the socializing part, write down some questions for him about how you would go about doing that. Like going to a place to eat, or out for a movie, or just for a walk. That way WHEN YOU ARE READY TO SOCIALIZE, you will know what to do.
And you will be ready, my dear danish goat boy. You will find out there are more rewards for you when you are social. Just like living on your own. You’re doing it and doing quite well. It will all come in due time.
September 24th, 2007 at 8:13
I, too, have terrible eyesight.
Everyone looks like Jessica Alba.
No wonder all my skirts fit funny.
(copyright XXXIILL)
September 24th, 2007 at 21:37
Debster – Procrastination is one of my favourite things! Visitations went okay, thankfully. Tomorrow I will go visitate the goats. See if they have any needs I can cater to!
LuisLemmings – What a horrible, horrible condition. I can only imagine the pain you must be going through. Would you like to borrow a kilt?
September 24th, 2007 at 23:30
You wear a kilt, Plumey?
September 25th, 2007 at 0:20
Debster – Nope, that’s why I’m giving it to Luis!
September 25th, 2007 at 5:01
That is terribly nice of you. Although, autumn has indeed arrived in San Diego, I shall where it on special occassion.
I will lead the hems so that they won’t flare up in a strong breeze. I don’t want to scare the kats and turtles.
September 25th, 2007 at 20:27
LuisLemmings – If only Marilyn Monroe had shown us the same courtesy. Sometimes I think you care tOO much Luis.