Operation Game

June 14th, 2020

Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone.

8/6 2020

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Had my half-yearly checkup at the eye doctor today. No news. Things are stable, which is all I can hope for. Until they invent a miracle cure for blindness anyway.
No news is good news. Although it’s weird not shaking hands when you say hello. What a bleak, dark future we live in.
8/6 2020

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This is one of Sky’s favourite places. On top of the pile of branches. She likes it there because it’s a safe space. The others can get up there too, but you can’t run there. You have to carefully climb around on the branches and pallets. It’s a slow approach. So if she feels a littel threatened, especially by Sassy, then she’ll get up there and she knows she can’t get rammed out of the blue. She’s a little sweetheart.

8/6 2020

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June 1st was the 30th anniversary of the reelase of Ultima 6. Wow.
One of the most important games, or pieces of art or whatever, in my life.
If you’ll excuse a nostalgic ramble.
I came up from the Commodore 64 and the relatively simple games of the 8-bit era. I can’t remember exactly when I got it, but Ultima 6 must have been one of the first games I bought when I got my Amiga. How could you resist that box art? The majestic hero bathed in golden light, foot planted on the chest of a demonic gargoyle. And yet there’s something sinister about it. It turns out that the False Prophet of the subtitle is actually you. And the gargoyles that you start off thinking are monsters that you have to kill, they are actually sentient beings and the ‘evil’ things they’re doing are actually a reaction to things that the ‘good’ humans have been doing to their homeworld and to their beliefs. The story is actually fairly complex and nuanced. You think it’s ‘hero slays the monsters’ story, but it goes way deeper than that and there’s a lot of interesting stuff about racial tension, morality, faith and religion and inequality. I’m not saying it’s Shakespeare, but it was much deeper than what I was used to. And it must have been the first real open-world game I ever played. Every object in the game could be interactted with. Famously you could bake your own bread, going through the process from harvesting wheat, making flour, getting all the ingredients and putting them in the oven. That game from 1990 was way more interactive than most modern games I ever played. The whole world was huge and living and breathing and beautiful. And you could go anywhere and do anything. Maybe the most striking moment of my computer gaming life was when I figured out how to exit the castle you begin the game in. I had no concept of who big the game would be. Just the initial castle seemed like a huge, complex world. And then I got the drawbridge lowered and I crossed the river and I walked on the road and my jaw dropped when I realised I was walking into a town. A town much larger than the castle. And just one town of many. And there were NPC characters walking around in the town. And they all lived their lives, going to work in the morning, going home in the evening. Working the shops, hanging aroundl having stories and dialogues and it was so massive and beautiful. And I walked south along the road and go to an intersection. North, south, east west. You buildings in all directions. You could go anywhere and do anything and it was spell binding. Especially for a maladjust nerdy loner who had a hard time in the real world. Here was a beautiful magical world to escape into.
The game was so big that it came compressed on the floppies. Today that’s nothing remarkable, everyone has tried unzipping an archive when you download something from the internet. But I had never seen anything like that before. You had to supply 4 blank floppy discs yourself. And then the installer unpacked all the files onto the floppies. A Player disc, a Program disc, a Populace disc and a Portrait disc. There was a lot of disc swapping when you played, I don’t think I had experienced that with any other game before either. A game bigger than one floppy?! Unheard of!
I loved exploring the world. I never did complete it. I never really got around to actually seriously trying to complete it. When I played it I just mostly .. wandered around. Talked to people. Solved side quests. Marvelled at the surroundings. One of the things I remember vividly was encounting a couple of cyclops. Big threatening monsters that seemed like something you had to fight. But just like with the gargoyles this was a case of don’t judge the book by its cover. It turned out you could talk to them. And the reason they were upset and angry was that a human adventurer had stolen their child. Something like that. So instead of killing the big brutish monsters you end up having to help them get their kid back from the supposedly good human adventurer. Such a far cry from all the games I used to play where you basically had to go from left to right and kill everything. It sounds silly and quaint nowadays, but it was revolutioanry and moving experience for me at the time. I didn’t know games could do this kind of thing. Be meaningful and thought provoking. It wasn’t a bout murdering everyone and stealing everything in sight. You had to actually try to be a good person and think about things and consequences. And find a way to have peace between humans and gargoyles, instead of a genocide to wipe out the other side.
And the music. It still transports me back to that world. I still listen to the soundtrack several times a week. If I need to put some background music on while doing stuff I’ll often just load it up on youtube. So full of nostalgia and memories and feelings. It takes me away. And I have always need to be taken away. The way I dream these days. When I can’t handle the real world. I need the otherworlds.
When I eventually upgraded to a PC, one of the big reasons was seeing Ultima 7 Serpent Isle on my schoolmate’s PC. A huge step up in terms of graphics, still with huge worlds and peoples and stories. Ultima 7 parts 1 and 1 are better games than Ultima 6, mostly because of technical issues and improved technology. But 6 will always be that game that showed me what computer games could do. That first step into another world. It’s a masterpiece and a milestone and it means so much to me. Like the best books and movies. Maybe you can’t understand that a computer game could mean that much to me, but I’m sure you might very well have a book or movie that means a lot to you. And a computer game, especially a deep roleplaying game with lots of text and story and world building, it’s not that different.
So anyway. Happy anniversary Ultima 6. Thanks for changing my life. I wish you could send mea moongate.
https://www.mobygames.com/images/covers/l/69412-ultima-vi-the-false-prophet-amiga-front-cover.jpg
8/6 2020

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And if you’re just here for the goats, here’s a goatlog.

8/6 2020

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Look, I don’t like complimenting Trump . But you gotta hand it to him. They way he stood there with a bible in his hand.. without bursting into flames or his face melting like the nazis when they opened the Ark of the Covenant in Raiders Of The Lost Ark. That was impressive.
8/6 2020

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Oh, I see Sassy is going out for a walk.

8/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. HappY Yogi daY everyone.

9/6 2020

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The red zone is for immediate loading and unloading of passengers only
9/6 2020

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here comes that panic attack. my heart stops.

9/6 2020

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Gotta feed the beast

9/6 2020

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Angry is good

9/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s auntie Kamel with bonus grandma Mio. Happy Hump Day everyone.

10/6 2020

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Good goat times today. A lovely warm and sunny day. I was greeted by bleats from the horse field. The goat gang had been relocated. All the construction work has moved into the goat pen. I could see that they moved the shelter and dug up the ground there. I hope they’ll put the shelter back when they’re done.. and don’t make too much of a mess in the goat pen.
But anyway, I got to spend the day in the horse field with the goats. It’s a nice and big space for them. Although there’s less to do. In the goat pen there’s the goat house and the shelter and the platforms I’ve made, the pile of branches and the ‘tower’ and the rocks. There’s not a lot of stuff in the horse field. But the space is nice and I think the goats like grass in there better than the grass in the goat pen. We’ll see how long it takes before they can go back in the own pen.
It’s nice to run along with the goats in the field. I got Mia to do some Palle pronks running arlong with me. Although I’m not in the best of shape to do a lot of running. Phew. Other than the running and some grazing and pulling down branchs, most of the time was spent just relaxing in the sun. Goats settling down in pairs and trios. Getting up to get some water, then sitting back down. We’re back above 20/68 degrees, which is where it starts to feel really nice and summery.
10/6 2020

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Why is we not in our pen, wonders Sky?

10/6 2020

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Goats in the horse field.

10/6 2020

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Today installment of ‘god I miss the 90s’.
Was just reminded of this one. I love the song, and I loooved the video back in the day when we got the mtv and the mtv was good.

10/6 2020

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Speaking of songs, why does this one make me cry when I feel like it makes everyone else roll their eyes?

10/6 2020

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A little look at the work in the goat pen. You can see they moved the shelter out away from the wall on the right. I’m glad they were able to just move it to the left, so they didn’t have to demolish it. Hopefully that means they can move it back up against the wall when they’re done with that digging.

10/6 2020

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I am heading off to the dreamscape now. Tomorrow is the day for my father’s surgery. I thought it was his hip that they were going to operate on, but it turns out I had the details a bit wrong. And I’m still not completely clear on teh exact details. I think it’s something with parts of his rib that are loose and nerve endings exposed.. Well in any case I hope they’ll be able to fix him up so he doesn’t have to walk around in pain anymore.
I can’t help worrying about the surgery, but hopefully there won’t be any problems and it will all go according to plan. I appreciate all the good thoughts you can send him tomorrow.
10/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Fuzzy from 2016.
Happy to report that my dad’s surgery went well. He is recuperating now and if all goes well he should be allowed to go home tomorrow. He’ll be out of commission for a week or two while he recovers, but hopefully he’ll be without pain now. Thank you everyone who sent their positive thoughts. We appreciate it!

11/6 2020

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Sometimes when you scroll through the camera roll you just gotta stop and laugh.
Clearly Mia is thrilled with me using her as a pillow.

11/6 2020

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Ooh, I didn’t know that Craig Ferguson’s Doctor Who song was made to an Orbital son. Neat.
Also, incidentally I just downloaded 26 seasons of classic Doctor Who so once I get through all that I might start watcfhing the modern Who.
Or maybe I’ll watch more The Soup.

12/6 2020

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Hot takes: I don’t care about Columbus and statues are dumb. Why don’t you put up some statues of teachers and nurses and scientists, but like not famous super scientists. Just regular ones that work everyday in the lab to make life better. If you need a statue to remember your history then you have no history. You have a cheat sheet. Worry more about the future not the past.
PS it’s 2:14 am and I don’t know what i’m talking about
12/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Preben from 2012.

12/6 2020

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Dominc Monaghan or Jorge Garcia playing Sawyer. Now there’s a trip.
If you’re a Lost fanatic as myself, I recommend looking at reddit.com/r/815
I haven’t looked at it all yet, but there’s some fascinating stuff. Like the first outlines and pitches and ideas for the show. Good stuff.
Still my favourite show of all time.

12/6 2020

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Big gal and little gal all snuggly together.

12/6 2020

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An update on my dad. He is now back home and doing well. The wonders of modern medicine and science. In the olden days he would have had to stay in the hospital for a week or two probably. I think it was a fairly serious operation. But now he’s up on his feet and back home. It sounded like things went very well. He’s already feeling big improvements in his moboility and lack of pain etc. Although of course he’s still recovering from the anesthesia and having been cut open and such. But he sounded really positive and optimistic about it, so that made me happy. Not gonna lie, I was pretty nerous about it all. So I’m just glad that everything has gone well and seems to have been very succesful.
Once again thank you to everyone who expressed positive thoughts and caring, we appreciate it!
12/6 2020

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Today will bea good day. Here’s Pong from 2016.

13/6 2020

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Not completely sure what the neighbours are cooking, but I have a feeling it has garlic. And by ‘has garlic’ I mean ‘is all the garlic in the known universe’.
13/6 2020

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Still can’t believe Hot Shots Part Deux didn’t win an oscar.
13/6 2020

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goatlog

13/6 2020

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Helping the goats get some green

13/6 2020

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Hmm, what’s this? A new chicken coop? Maybe the feathery fowls won’t be bunking with the goats after all. I guess we’ll see.

13/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Funday everyone.

14/6 2020

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If you want to make me smile play me Kim Vilfort’s 2-0 goal against Germanty in the European Championship final in 1992. It never fails. Once in a lifetime. Once in a human history.
If you’re into sports.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDe2N9ykR6A
14/6 2020

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Of all the tables in all the towns in all the world, she climbs onto mine. Bleat it again, Mia.
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That’s all for now.


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His And Los

June 7th, 2020

Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone

1/6 2020

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It’s hot in Denmark! About 25C/77F right now. It’s going to be even hotter tomorrow, if the forecast holds up. When I watched David Lynch’s weather forecast yesterday, for the first time it was actually warmer in Denmark than in Lynchland. How bout that.
It’s going to last a few days and then get cooler again. That’s Danish summer for you. Happy June, everyone. I haven’t chacked the news yet today so I’m ok.
1/6 2020

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Breaking news from the Goatlog News Network

1/6 2020

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I always love seeing Milo and Sky together, the sweets.

1/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. HappY Yogi daY everyone.

2/6 2020

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Good goat times today. It’s a scorcher. I think it got up to 27C/80F. For Denmark that is blistering hot. Glad I got my bus pass. Walking home with a bad back in that heat would have murdered me. Phew.
Picked some branches on my way to the goats, since I still can’t take them out to the greens. I put the branches up on the roof of the shelter to save them for when it was time for me to leave. Of course Mia had other plans and kept trying to get up and grab them. She managed to get some of them. Sassy tried too, but she doesn’t have the same reach. Not for lack of trying.
Nuller was back to bleating today. He’s still got a bit of a baby voice. I’m happy about that. I enjoy those bleats. He’s still a bit of a brat, bless him.
Otherwise, lots of lounging about in the heat. Panting goats. It was so hot that they retreated underneath the goat house a couple of times. I remember grandma Mio loved to sit herself down under there. Grandma’s under the house again, I’d say. Sigh. I hope everyone gets through the summer okay. This year has been a heckhole, a heckhole I say. I don’t need any goat tragedies.
Now, I’m going to go to the freezer. It’s so hot I could murder an iced cream.
2/6 2020

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Trying to use the Force to pull them closer

2/6 2020

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Sorry, Sassy. No chance.

2/6 2020

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Amongst the visitors at the goats today was a sweet little girl who decided “Let’s just say the goats are cows”. “Moo, cows!”. A free thinking spirit!
2/6 2020

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The goats’ water supply was very popular with the birds today. They kept using it as a bird bath.

2/6 2020

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There’s gotta be a way…

2/6 2020

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2020 news is like detective Columbo. Oh just one more thing…
2/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Happy Hump Day everyone.

3/6 2020

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I had great dreams last night. I dreamt I was Morrissey. I dreamt I was David Lynch. I had several little semi-lucid dreams. I love dreaming.
3/6 2020

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I call this piece ‘Bird in Flight’.
I was going to take a picture of the bird bathing in the goat tub, but then it took off before I could start filming. I followed the bird with the camera and snapped a photo. I’m amazed I managed to keep it in frame. Although, of course, it’s a pointless bad photo. So it fits perfect in with the rest of my photos!

3/6 2020

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And more bad bird photography. We got baby birds nesting in the goat house again. This is right after mama came in and fed. Forgot to put the flash on, but at least I didn’t disturb them then.

3/6 2020

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Okay, enough bird photography. Here’s a goat and a sack of potatoes wearing a hat and glasses.

3/6 2020

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The 1930s were a filthy, filthy time.

3/6 2020

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It’s wlays awkward when you’re the tallest one at the party.

3/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Magnethe from 2005.

4/6 2020

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Good goat times today. Considerably cooler climate today. It went from 27/80 to 17/62. I’d like it to be a little warmer than that. But at least the company was good. Nuller’s baby blats, Mia’s growling barks, baby birds chirping for mama’s feeding. For the first time in quite a while I managed two goat trips in a week. I am still not doing super well mentally and physically. I feel bad about not seeing the goats more, but at least they don’t seem to hold a grudge. Still happy to see me, and the treats. Let’s hope it’ll be a good summer. What could possibly go wr OH JUST ONE MORE THING
4/6 2020

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Sup, Milo?

4/6 2020

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Lives in a house, very big house in the goat pen.

4/6 2020

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it’s hard to make sense
feels as if i’m sensing you through a lens

4/6 2020

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Gather round, let me tell you a story.
Tell us the one about the treats, the treats!

4/6 2020

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Peanut from 2016.

5/6 2020

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Some bad shit went down in my neighbourhood today. I don’t really want to write about it. I’m fine. It’s laughably nothing compared to what’s going on in America. But it just goes to show even in tiny Denmark there are bad people and bad shit, because humanity sucks everywhere.
Happy constitution Day, Denmark!
5/6 2020

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Let’s have a happy goatface. Nuller!

5/6 2020

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Oh for fuck’s sake. I got switched to the new Facebook design. It’s horrible. The other day I got switched to the new Twitter design. It’s horrible. Everything is horrible. Why does everything turn to shit? Why does every design get broken? Why does no one care about desktop users and visually impaired users. I’m sorry for being a big baby, but why does everything has to be so hard? I wish I was dead. *Holds my breath*
5/6 2020

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Sorry for being a whiny bratt. But when you’re an isolated loser with no life outside social media and you’re dealing with several visually impairment it kinda become a big deal. I got pushed on the new facebook design just as I was spending and hour trying to get hcaptcha system to work. More and more websites are being designed in ways that are poorly compatible with my special needs. Some things I can’t even use. As more and more website use captcha gateways that don’t function with my system I am getting literally locked out of parts of the internet. And then there are sites like twitter and facebook that do work, but that now become a bigger and bigger burden to use. Facebook is pretty much all the social life I have. Imagine if you had a big cinderblock tied to both your legs when you were out living your life, that’s how it feels like when I have to navigate these shitty new designs. Designed for cell phoens and people with normal font sizes and colour palets. Probably won’t be long before I’ll be pushed onto the new youtube design too. The web gets harder and harder to use. Windows gets harder and harder to use. And it will only get worse. And my eyesight will only get worse. And the world is burning, the climate is ‘changing’, the systems are failing. I am just tired and severely depressed and my back used to hurt when I took a 1 hour walk now it hurts every day. And I can’t take the goats out of the pen and how long before the pandemic is back and what about the murder hornets. And I know I’m lucky and priviliged compared to so many people, but I’m just tired. I’m just so fucking tired. There’s no chance of a normal life and everyrhing only gets worse so what’s the point of going on.
*deep breath* ok. had to vent. Sorry if you read all that. Shit’s shit and shit’ll keep shitting, what are you gonna do. Guess I gotta get started on trying to fix as much of the new fb ui as I can with my blockers and experiment with what I an do to make it a little easier. When you’re out in the world browsing the internet on your phoens and tablets I hope you appreciate it. Cos it’s fucking ruining shit for desktop users with impairments.
5/6 2020

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Well I wrote a long post. Then deleted it because I had to edit the photo for privacy concerns. Then realised I hadn’t saved the text I’d typed.
So please enjoy this before/after photo without a long, sad rant attached.
New facebook still sucks and in the span of a week my two main social outlets have become much harder to use. Pleasse forgive me if I’m weird and inconsistent until I get more used to it.

6/6 2020

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Well I’ve had enough for today. Didn’t plan on spending all night and day fighting the facebox, but now here we are. At least I managed to clean up a lot of the junk. I’ll just have to get used to all the annoying stuff that makes everything harder now.
Sorry for going on about it and being annoying. In my defense, I literally have no social life outside the internet. I am recluie. I only spend time with goats. Apart from my family, the only human contact I get is the internet. So this stuff has a big impact on my life. And part of it is also.. I try not to think about my disability in my everyday life. You kinda get used to it. You learn to live with it. You do what you can do and try not to think of the things you can’t do. And when something that used to be easy is suddenly difficult… well it’s sort of a smack in the face, a reminder that hey you’ren ot normal, you’re less than. And that doesn’t help when you’re already prone to depression and anxiety. Gotta vent all the frustration so I can get back to pretending everything is fine.
But I have to remember I’m lucky and priviliged in many ways. I may be feeling frustrated and depressed right now, but I gotta be careful not to fall back down in the black hole. Things were starting to get a little better with the bus pass, the goating, exercising again. Gotta keep going. Right now I’m going to keep going all the way to the bed and dream the trouble away. Hopef you’re all doing well out there. Hoperfully when things settle I’ll be able to keep up a little again with everything that’s going on. Or maybe I’ll leave and go back to blogging on my website. YOU NEVER KNOW.
Ta for now, thanks for listening.
6/6 2020

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What… what happened. Was it all a dream? My Facebook has been switched back to the classic version… what’s going on.
I’m sure I can’t be this lucky. I’m sure it’s a temporary glitch. But oh man, the classic version feels so much better. So much better. It’s like getting back together with your one true love after you tried dating that widower for her money. Or.. something.
Anyway. Today will be.. a good day? Happy Funday everyone.

7/6 2020

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Looking on the thread on reddit where people were complaining about being forced onto the new Facebook design, I can now see that others have been switched back to the classic design too. I wish it was because Facebook cared about us all and listened to the complaints and gave us back the classic design. I think it’s more likely there is some kind of problem or bug on the new design and they want to get that fixed before they move all their users to it. I can’t imagine they will let us use the classic design forever. Although I wish I wish I wish they would. It is so much easier to use. Vastly superior when you’re on a desktop pc and have special needs.
Well, we’ll see how long it lasts. I’m happy for now.
Btw, last night I dreamt I was part of the scooby gang from Buffy and we had a dog and it died fighting vampire dogs and it was one of the saddest dreams ever. I can confirm that dreams are like movies, it’s always much worse when the animals die.
7/6 2020

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Demonstrations in Denmark too. Not that it makes a difference, but hey we’re with you America.
link: article
7/6 2020

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Gotta have some goat content too. Here’s Sassy all up in the camera bizniz, while Milo is hanging back.

7/6 2020

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Geez, Lasse close your legs. So unlady like.

7/6 2020

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Hey, Western Union. If you want to sponsor us get in touch.

7/6 2020

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*flashback to riding my bike to City Vest shopping mall to buy the Dawson’s Creek soundtrack*

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That’s all for now.


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