One More Blue Sunny Day
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May 30th, 2009
Do you know how much I am loving Jonathan Coulton? So much that I went to his website and bought all his MP3s for 70 bucks americano. That’s how much. Great stuff. He is just so much fun. And some of his songs are quite sad and beautiful too. Like the tragic tale of the suicidal vampire in Blue Sunny Day. Or I Crush Everything about a giant squid who hates himself. Excellent. I could have gone on just listening to his songs on youtube for free (with all the fun crowd stuff in them as well) but I figured I’d support him with some money, since I have enough of it anyway. He is an “internet musician” and I’d like to support that in this day and age where most major record labels are evil, fascist empires. It warms the heart to know your money is going straight to the artist.
I wish I could get a pair of bionic eyes like in The Future Soon. When all the things that make me weak and strange get engineered away…
Other than that there is not much new. I can still see, at least. I’m not sure if it has gotten a little worse or not. But at least it still feels slightly better than just before the last acupuncture. So that’s something. If I could freeze my sight as it is now then I would probably do it. It’s not good, not at all. It’s horrible really. But the fear of total blindness is much worse. It’s bad now, but at least I can do things. With time and effort. I would settle for that if it meant not going blind. It is the fear and uncertainty that is the worst. Waking up every morning and trying to focus on the handlebars of the exercise bike next to my bed, to see if I can still see them. Turning on the computer and wondering if I can still read the text. That uncertainty is a horrible thing to live with. But I am thankful that I can still see some. I am trying to keep my spirits up. And now I’m going to cut this entry short.
Cut.
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