The Calm Before

August 7th, 2022

Happy Mio Monday everyone.

1/8 2022

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Good goat times today. A lovely sunny day. Bit of a cold wind in the morning, but it warmed up to a nice summery one. And the goats were in luck. Someone dumped a whole sh.. truckload of greens in the pen. I guess some of the people maintaining the green areas around the neighbourhood. They dumped it all right on the pallet mountain, so I spent some time cleaning it up a bit. Clearing the pallets so the goats could still get up there, spreading the greens out to a couple of spots so everyone can get a chance to dig in without having to fight for it too much. But yeah, a lot of yummy greens.
I’m not sure if summer vacation is over in Denmark today, but I think a lot of kids musht have come home from holidays because there were more kids on their own running around than usual. Some of them a bit rowdy. But some of them loving a lot on especially Mia too. And a very sweet grandma with a young boy, I think his name was Louie. And I’m pretty sure they’ve been by the goat pen before. I had a nice little talk with the grandma while they fed pasta to the goats and fetched some greens too. Yeah, the goats were spoiled today. So spoiled that they didn’t even bother sniffing at the carrots that the grandma and boy brought too. We had a laugh about that. Like kids who don’t want to eat their veggies because they already got their dessert.
And then when I started heading home who should I run into but Ophelia! I haven’t seen her in ages. It almost feels like last time I saw her was before the pandemic, but that can’t be right. But it feels like it might have been last summer. So good to see her again. She’d been off doing some studying at a school somewhere, but I guess now she’s back. I even managed to somewhat act like a normal person, I actually too initiative and asked her how she’d been, how things were going. Like a real person would! Aww, he thinks he’s people! Haha. But yeah that was nice. She’s really nice. I’m glad she’s back.
1/8 2022

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Look at all those greens. It’s like a wall of green. Goats hit the jackpot.

1/8 2022

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Mia waiting patiently for grandma and Louie..
Grandma said “I understand they can squeeze their heads out through the fence but I’m surprised they can get back in again!”. Yeah you’d think those horns would get stuck in the mesh, but she manages.

1/8 2022

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You are the perfect calm, the perfect calm, the perfect calm.

1/8 2022

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HappY Yogi daY everyone.

2/8 2022

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Not the best framing, but at least there’s a lot of blue sky.

2/8 2022

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Happy Hump Day everyone.

3/8 2022

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Got a notification from Facebook saying that my post had been reinstated and that they were sorry they got it wrong. I couldn’t see what post they were referring to, apparently it was something from November 2021. I don’t know what I did wrong, or in this case didn’t do wrong. But hey, I’d like to thank the jury for acquitting me!
3/8 2022

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goatlog

3/8 2022

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Lily’s all laid out. Nevermind the shadow behind the curtain.

3/8 2022

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Gotta find what makes you happy

3/8 2022

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Have a good day everybody. Here’s Popcorn from 2015.

4/8 2022

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Good goat times today. It was a scorcher. Upwards of 30C/86F. Which is very hot for Denmark. Cooler in the morning, but it just got hotter and hotter. Made me wish I’d brought two bottles to drink so I could have chugged one without having to ration it along the day. But I survived. And the goats had two buckets full to the brim of water. Lots of panting and relaxing.
It’s a humid heat too. In fact, it wasn’t long after I’d gotten home that it started thundering outside. And then the rain started. And then the hail started. Right against my window, I can’t remember ever hearing it like that before. So it was quite a weather day. But it’s always good to be with the goats. And I got to say hit to Ophelia again, so that was nice. Shut up.
4/8 2022

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It’s a super hot day but I got super cool company, Mr Nuller man.

4/8 2022

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Goofing around.

4/8 2022

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Have a good day everyone. Here’s Mads from 2005.

5/8 2022

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5/8 2022

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Do I have something on my head?!

5/8 2022

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Sky is just squeezing through.

5/8 2022

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For some reason it seems like it’s usually Sky or Lily sitting on this platform. Seems to be a preferred place for both the littlest ladies. It’s a good place to sit on a hot summer day.

5/8 2022

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Happy Caturday everyone.

6/8 2022

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The self-timer is set aaaand, here comes Milo to get in the shot.

6/8 2022

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Happy Funday everyone.

7/8 2022

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Okay. I have some really bad news that I need to share with you all. It will be long, check first comment for the tldr.
I mentioned that I had some personal stuff weighing on my mind recently. That wasn’t quite accurate. It’s something that’s going to affect all of you too. At least those of you who care about the goats.
I have been informed that the goats can’t stay at the playground.
Obviously this is a big shock to me and I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it.
The reason is that the horses are coming back. And apparently there is some new law or rule that says the playground can’t have both the horses and the goats. Maybe this is why the horses have been gone so long, I guess that makes sense. Although I don’t understand why they can’t have both horses and goats, they were both at the playground for years and it was fine. Probably something to do with ressources.
But the goats can’t stay at the playground. They will have to go in September or October. So there’s a month, maybe two, maybe a little more or less. I don’t know yet.
And what’s going to happen? Lars, the leader of the playground, told me that they will do all they can to not have to put any of the goats down… Which is good, but the fact that’s even a possibility makes me sad and angry.
It was a rollercoaster when he told me. Because first he told me that they had found a new home for all the goats. Another playground would take them. In Gellerup. I live in Gellerup. I would literally have them in my neighbourhood.
But then I asked a little further, are they takng ALL The goats? And no. That playground doesn’t have the space for all the goats. They only want the ‘youngest ones’. I am not sure how many or which goats will be moving to Gellerup. But I know Mia isn’t one of them. She is old and big and not wanted.
I love all the goats, I do. But to me Mia is the most important. She is special. We’ve been together since she was a baby, through thick and thin. The thought of losing her is devastating.
I mentioned that I’ve talked to Ophelia a couple of times this week. Naturally we’ve been talking about this stuff too. I asked her if we couldn’t try talking To gellerup and telling them how great Mia is with kids and visitors. You all know how good she is at it, she’ll just stand there while they prod and poke her in the nose and eye, she’s a great petting goat. Ophelia agreed that she’s the tamest of them all. While some of the other goats have .. ‘reputations’ for being wild. Mia might be old but hopefully she still has good years in her and any place would be lucky to have her.
But i don’t know what will happen. They’re looking, but as it stands right now there is no home for her and she could end up being put down. That would kill me.
The most important thing is for her to be ok. Even if it was a home where I couldn’t visit her, I’d take that over the alternative. Just want her to have a good home where she can live out her life peacefully. Although I can’t imagine my life without her. But I just can’t stand the thought of her being discarded like that…
so I really hope we will find a home for her. I wish I could have her in Gellerup. I did a little recon trip the other day and after some fumbling around i found the playground. It is literally next door. Five minute walk from where I live. Having Mia there would be perfect. But I don’t think that can happen. So I just want to find a good home for her. Ophelia told me if I had any ideas or could find a place they would appreciate it, while they’re trying too. If we were in America maybe some of the friends I know with sanctuaries or farms could take her or help find a place for her. But there isn’t really a lot of that stuff in Denmark and I don’t have contacts or the skills to hunt for a place. Only one person I could think of, and they haven’t replied. . I wish I could buy an island and be a hermit with goats.
It’s gut wrenching. I’m still happy when I’m there with the goats. But as soon as I leave I get that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and I start thinking and worrying and being sad. I feel I’m losing paradise.
I’m a little worried about the playground in Gellerup too. When I first moved to this area, more than a decade ago, i found that playground and it had goats. But the enclosure was so small, with a little house connected, it just made me sad because it was so small with no greens or anything. I think it made me so sad that i never went back there, I can’t even remember if I wrote about it back then. I had my ‘own’ goats to look after anyway of course. That’s a long time ago now and this neighbourhood has changed A LOT. You might remember me writing about how I will probably be thrown out of my apartment at some point because they’re tearing down apartment blocks and completely changing everything. It’s very different now. On my recon trip the other day I saw that there is a fair bit of green in the area now, even a big pond. But I don’t know how much of that belongs to the playground, if any. I don’t know if they have animals right now but I couldn’t see any obvious animal areas. With months to go before the move, they might not even have it made yet. But I’m worried it will be small and without all the stuff the goats are used to. Whatever it will be like it will almost certainly be worse than the playground we’re at now. I feel really bad that the goats will have to probably be split up and they will lose that lovely place, a big pen with grass and their own house and shelter and pallet mountain and everything. It’s almost certainly going to be worse.
It sucks. For the people who visit them there too. Lars told me that the goats attract a lot of people. There’s not a day when I’m there where there aren’t some visitors even in the morning hours, kindergartens and daycares, grandparents and kids. It sucks that they will lose all that. I understand they want the horses. But it’s just… so sad.
And I hate that i will lose what I have now. And probably some of the goats. Even at best it won’t be the same. It’s going to be a big loss.
I’m not sure what will happen now. I’m not sure what I will do. I’m trying to fight off the depression and enjoy the last of the goat summer there. But I don’t know how I will deal with it all. I may stop Mia’s page. I may stop goating alltogether, I may be too crushed. Although I can barely imagine me without goats. But i’m getting older and my mental and physical condition isn’t getting better. If I lose Mia… i don’t know. I am not sure how I will react or what I will want to do.
I would appreciate it if those of you who still frequent Mia’s page won’t mention any of this on there. I want to keep that place a happy carefree place for as long as possible. And as long as I don’t have definite answers about what will happen I don’t want to shatter the illusion. I want to keep on the happy mask for as long as possible. And I will try to keep a happy face on here too of course. I just kinda want to go to bed and never get up again. I don’t want to face it.
Sigh. A lot of fear and uncertainty right now. A home for Mia is the highest priority. We will have to see what happens.
Sorry for the rambling. Had to get it all off my chest. I will of course be posting updates when I get them.
7/8 2022

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That’s all for now.


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The End Is The Beginning

July 31st, 2022

Today will be a good day. Happy Mio Monday everyone.

25/7 2022

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Today will be a good day. HappY Yogi daY everyone.

x26/7 2022

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Good goat times today. A bit cold, cold wind and a little rain. But some sun too. Sounds like Danish summer to me. Lots of nice visitors at the fence. One kid exclaimed, upon approaching the goat pen, “ARE THOSE REAL ANIMALS?!”. Haha. Yup. No animatronic goats here. That’s why it’s nice to have playgrounds like ours, gives kids the chance to get out and be around real animals. That’s good for everyone.
Not good for me was sitting next to Nuller and Sassy when they decided to butt heads. I don’t know who hit me, it may have been both. But I got hit right in the arm, and you know a goat heatbutt hits hard. I’m going to be feeling that tomorrow. In fact I’m already feeling it. Feels like i got kicked in the shin, only it’s my arm. Also, I managed to punch myself in the face. Getting greens in the morning. I was breaking off a braench above me and I had to pull hard on it to get it free and then suddenly it broke free and my fist connected with my face as if I was trying to Mike Tyson myself. I’ll be feeling that headache right above.. *checks wristwatch* now. But hey, this pucnhing bag had a good day with the goats anyway.
26/7 2022

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Mia hanging out with some of today’s visitors.

26/7 2022

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And here’s Mia with another round of visitors. I’m sensing a theme… Mia hanging with her head out of the fence begging for food. Mhm. The kids were getting grass for her and also petting her. A lot. I heard the guy saying something like how impressed he was with how tolerant she was being, haha. He also had to tell one of the kids to go a little easier on her, I think the kid was poking her a lot in the face. But she’s great with that, she never lashes out at the kids even if they’re a little rough.

26/7 2022

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Don’t know if it’s because of all the punches I took today, but my hands and legs are cramping like crazy. Maybe it’s because I walked to my parents and then home after the goating, instead of taking the bus. i’ve taken my turmeric and magnesium and done stretches, that usually helps. But not so much today. It’s rare that my hands get like this. Feels like the fingers are clawing together and then cramping. Grumbleth. Maybe I need more hydration. Better get the blender and make a pizza smoothie.
26/7 2022

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One.. two.. three… four.. five.. six.. Six goats in the shot! Although Milo is hiding his face. But it counts in my book.

26/7 2022

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Today will be a good day. Happy Hump Day everyone.

27/7 2022

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goatlog

27/7 2022

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Peanut from 2015.

28/7 2022

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Well I was planning to go see the goats today, but despite sleeping a LONG time I still woke up feeling pretty broken. So no goats today. By now though I feel considerably better, so I should be goating soon. Note to self: Don’t punch yourself in the face.
28/7 2022

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For the premium subscribers, a little deleted scene. Me unlocking the gate in the morning. Nothing too interesting, but I like Nuller’s bleating in the background. He’s an impatient and demanding boy.
28/7 2022

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Rest in peace Bernard Cribbins. I must admit I did not know him from Doctor Who or any of his other many fine credits. I knew him solely for his absolutely wonderful portrayal of troublesome hotel guest Mr Hutchinson in one of my favourite episodes of one of my favourite TV shows, Fawlty Towers. And absolutely delighful performance. I still often think of his line ‘I’m not a violent man’ after beating Basil to the floor with repeated punches. And Basil croaking up ‘yes you are’ from down below the counter. Unforgettable.
A long and prolific life, we should all be so lucky.

28/7 2022

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goatlog

28/7 2022

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No luck today either.
It would be funny if Mia had dragged the tub there herself so she could get up and check if there was anything on the roof, but alas I was the one who put it there. And then turned around and there she was.

28/7 2022

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Today will be a good day. Here’s Pong from 2016.

29/7 2022

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Good goat times today. A beautiful hot sunny day. Lovely to be out goating. We had some visitors, some goat escapes, I did some construction of platforming, I started feeling woozy and had to eat one of the goats’ apples which Sassy thought was very inappropriate. But hey if I die of sunstroke you won’t be getting anymore treats, Sassy, so fair’s fair.
Unfortunately I have a personal issue weighing heavily on my mind right now. I’ll try to put on a happy face on the facebook, but if I’m even more absent or absentminded than usual that’s why. i’ll try and talk about it when I can. Love you yall..
29/7 2022

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Thank you everyone. Here’s a happy goat face. Sassy, before the apple sin.

29/7 2022

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Well, on an unrelated personal matter. Just got some good news from dad. His dementia evaluation thing has been moved up. He’s going to be going in about 4 months. So probably December this year. Which is a big improvement from November next year. So that is good news. So we’ll see how that goes and what they’ll be able to do for him to help manage things and such. It’s something. I’m glad we pushed for him to try to get a faster appointment.
29/7 2022

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Happy Caturday everyone.

30/7 2022

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This is the construction I did yesterday in the goat pen. Hauled in a couple new pallets and then put this old door as a slanted platform. I was hoping to see some jumping off it, but that didn’t really happen. But there was a good deal of goats sliding down it because apparently it’s a bit slippy. It’s a pretty good position for me to lie on on a sunny day, right in the glow. But we’ll see if i change things up.

30/7 2022

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Happy Funday everyone

31/7 2022

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goatlog

31/7 2022

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Sky is a good girl, she knows she’s not supposed to leave the goat pen. She’d never do that…
or maybe she’s just a thrillseeker, she only likes going out when she’s not supposed to.
31/7 2022

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Dreamt last night that my dad bought a new computer for the family, but it was a much worse model than the one we already had.
May have been inspired by the tech support I do for dad.
But I can’t figoure out why my dad was an old asian man in the dream?! I.. I got nothing.
31/7 2022

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Goof and the goat

31/7 2022

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Rest in peace Nichelle Nichols. For me TNG was my first Star Trek, I only came to the original series later in life, so her history making was already made when I got to know her. But I can’t imagine anyone not loving Lt Uhura.
31/7 2022

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Here’s a bit of video from Friday. When I had to eat one of the goats’ apples because I was getting woozy. As you can tell, it was not popular among the goat demographic. If it seems mean of me, remember they get constant treats.
31/7 2022

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That’s all for now.


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